Man In Here | This Past Weekend w/ Theo Von #438

we're adding an eighth show in Austin on. June 10th uh tickets go on sale. Wednesday at 10:00 a.m. local time. you'll be able to get those so don't go. and pay those overpriced resellers uh. sale amounts and that goes the same for. Miami um for other cities we're going to. be coming to I'll add a show or I'll. come back through but uh let's don't. give those guys all that cash those guys. are Crooks I'd rather um I'd rather come. back uh we'll also we will be adding at.

some point um Europe and Australia I. just don't know when yet so thank you. for your patience there it just we don't. know so we're looking at it it's a lot. and we don't want to go and just have to. hurry it up we want to enjoy ourselves. when we come uh New York City Las Vegas. Uncasville Connecticut and Toronto uh. all still have tickets always get your. tickets at Theo van.com. [Music].

um thank you very much for your support. to any show you've come to uh we love. you what's up guys um my name is Theo. and I'm a human. [Music]. um I. am what's going on I've been. uh been running around a lot been you. know on the. go you know I mean just I feel like the. Lord just just put that geline in me you.

know that 91 octane or. whatever and I've been burning boy I've. been go go. going. um and sometimes it's hard to get a. moment to well it's hard to get a moment. these. days you know I think about that a lot. and it's hard for me to like get a. moment where it's like okay okay this is.

a moment that's not where I'm not being. pulled or pushed or interrupted or. overwhelmed or well overwhelmed is okay. but where I'm not being. like where I'm not needing or wanting. anything except. for some of my. own. time like I just want. to have like have enough peace or. whatever going on so I can evalue ate.

where I am sometimes things are so busy. so hectic you don't even know what's. going. on you haven't even looked at you know. sometimes you're so busy you don't even. look at you know you'll take your pulse. in the evening and you're you were you. died in the morning you didn't even know. it because you just. been you just kept you know you were. just running on F but you kept going. you're like damn well you died and you. run into a buddy he's like oh damn. you're you're dude you got to lay down.

you're dead you know you died. earlier but that's what it's like these. days things get so busy that. um you know I don't know if I'm living. sometimes or if I'm doing a to-do. list and then I don't know whose to-do. list it is. sometimes I don't know if it's my own. things that I want to be. doing is it things that I feel feel.

like people want me to be. doing like whose expectations am. I living up. to or am I. chasing or am I trying to. fulfill that's what I wonder sometimes. um and I can just ask myself well hey.

who's is this your dream you're doing is. this. your goal you're doing is this and it. can be anything anything you're doing. throughout your day or you know if in. your plans or in your week or something. that you're a. current you know job or um undertaking a. relationship even it could be anything. that you're. doing or committing yourself. to and I I I just ask myself sometimes.

who's whose goal is this whose expect is. this. mine is this. um my parents is this a God is this what. am I. doing and for whom am I doing it. um and so I think yeah some of getting. some moments of time where I have to.

myself you know I just I need that to. touch base with myself. and just to look at the. charts you know it's like some you don't. look at your chart you don't look at. your. own you don't take enough inventory of. yourself and you don't yeah you don't. even know what's going on you finally. look at your chart and you're like yeah. damn. I you I took a wrong turn four months.

ago but I just didn't even you know I. didn't stop and look at where I've. been because I just think that if I keep. going I'll get some I'll get I don't. know I don't know I'm kind of rambling. but sometimes these days you get so busy. you don't even you. know by the time you look at your uh. your your chart you were you dead you.

died a week ago and you're just out here. damn ghosting doing. stuff making Wagers online and uh you. know going buying stuff at uh Trader. Joe's and [ __ ] and you're D you're. supposed to be deceased and you're like. oh damn I didn't even I was so busy live. you know living or doing that I didn't. even realize I was damn gone that's how. busy you can get these days it feels.

like. [Music]. um anyway sorry if that was kind of a. down or I didn't mean to be a Debbie. down or whatever but I just yeah I think. I've just been running so much. it's um I'm trying to get a little bit. of take some inventory of myself let see. what the what's what's going on with you. how are you what's up. um so and I've been a I think I've been. a little bit burnt out you know I got to. get a week off sometime soon I'm going. to take a.

um. vacation and a vacation that's just. where I mean that's kind of where you. tell that's where you tell time to kind. of hold your nuts. bro so yeah let me do that let me. um let me.

think about what I've. been let me take a moment I feel uh you. know I've been worried recently about my. own. ego I've been worried a lot about my own. ego. [Music]. um just because the ego it's such a. sneaky thing it's like you're Shadow. but but it's on the inside of you.

and its goal is. [Music]. to is to is to trick you to think that. you're having. self-confidence that's what I think let. me see what is a. ego a person's sense of self-esteem or. self-importance.

um the part of the mind that mediates. between the conscious and the. unconscious and is responsible for a. sense of personal. identity yeah I think I just I think. I've just been worried about my ego a. little. um you know I think there's there's. things have just kind of gotten busier. and stuff and so I. just I just worry about. it you know I want to be I I want to try.

and. be you know I can just feel it flare up. here and there. like. um oh why isn't this this way or why you. know expecting things to be perfect. expecting and it's not like I deserve. them to be perfect but it's still it's. an expectation that things should be or. things why aren't things going smoothly. what you know so I just I just want to. have awareness of that.

because that's a work man if you have if. your ego is leading the drive that's. then you're it's not even you that's not. even it's you but it's you just you're. working for. this you working for a damn dirty. landlord brother if your ego is running. the show so anyway that's been something. that's been going on what else um yeah I. want to take a vacation so I'm going to. do that sometime and.

uh yeah just still battling trying to. stay off the Vapes it's been a war I had. five days at one point and then I. seceded I seceded uh to the union or. whatever I don't know what I suceeded to. but I gave up and I just damn Hit that. [ __ ] son and I've been on I've been on. I've been I've been on them bro God I've. been on. them dude you I mean.

if you wrote damn Vapes in here. dude inside of it right out if you wrote. If you wrote If you wrote Vapes in here. on the outside of a wishing. well and you came there at night with a. flashlight and look down in. there I'd be in. there and I'd be damn just wishing for. Vapes and so anyway that's what's been. going on dude I just wanted to touch. just check in um of things that have.

just kind of been on my mind and heart a. little bit and uh yeah we'll get into. some episode man it's been an exciting. few weeks I'm sorry that I haven't. gotten to be here with you guys for one. on one hanging out um let's get into it. and then we'll. uh and then we'll be into it praise God. baby. gang a long time ago.

I was in love with a. girl and I think I took that love a. little too. [Applause]. [Music]. far you can see the cigarette burns on. the. wall and all the empty bottles in the. hall if the water gets too rough you. know who to call call you baby. [Music].

and I can see the way it looks in your. eyes come on baby a so so lost with his. foolish Lies come on if you even have to. ask baby I'm surprised I'm so. surprised sometime you got to Leave Your. Lover if you want to learn to love. again little. oh.

black all around. K. black that's him right there that's 89. volt and he is. baby God baby he's that damn uh he's. that motto Canary right there baby 89 v. he's got all the colors in his.

throat D you. D you beat I mean you could just damn. beat a 64 pack of. crayons right out of his tonsils I bet. he's just he God he's got it in him 89. volt little black. flies and that's what that's called. right. there and if you have a beautiful tune. or something if you're a band that does. beautiful music and it's something new. and novel you could send it in uh to the. email of the producer. and we like to sometimes put some new.

music out there what's been up uh what's. been up with you what's been up with. you you know if there's something going. on with yourself um if there's something. you feel like you've been keeping or. haven't sharing or something like that. or um something that's been burdening. you um you know you can always hit the. hotline it's. 95664. 9503 and put it in there.

put it in there you know you know and uh. some of them we get to some of them we. don't we listen to all of them may take. a while but uh sometimes it's nice to. just get something out of you to get. something out of your uh. chest um I'm. upstairs I wanted to put that on you for. everybody that came out of the past few. weeks and sat out in the balconies up. there in the John wils booths you know. just if anybody if you up in there in.

that balcony. that's a lot of things happen up there. people back there doing dice you. know somebody back there selling. um organic ketamine. somebody you know they'll have somebody. there that's on. camine and then they'll be just you know. pulling dandruff off of them and selling. just organic damn ketamine right off a. dude.

they're just you know bagging up a. dandruff off a uh some dude that's in a. khole and slanging that [ __ ]. bam next thing you know somebody else is. in the bathroom they're damn they're in. there you. know and they're doing K they're. doing you know uh dandruff and ketamine. you know ketamine that's cut with. dandruff like well dang this. guy you know next thing you know the. guys out there just. just ejaculating outside of a damn.

uh Sports. Clips or. whatever wherever get wherever you get. your. haircut D I remember one time when I was. um God I don't know I was probably well. I was real we were poor so I don't I. don't know if it really matters what age. you are when you're that poor when. you're poor as we were I don't think it. nobody it don't matter you could be two. you could be 11 14 all the the same.

shit's happening around you people are. smoking somebody's touching somebody. illegally. um the water's going to be shut off it's. the same type of [ __ ] so age is. really you know knowing every year is. kind of something I think that wealthier. people. do you. know oh Weston is seven you. know meanwhile little [ __ ] uh Ricky.

bro Lil Ricky who's you know. ambidextrious in his own. neck because he you know because. somebody in his family shouldn't have. been making love bro Lil Ricky he he he. he. uh he he might be three he might be 15. dog he's over there just smoking Doral. and chilling. baby and it don't matter you don't know. where he's coming in he wets the bed. that's how he you know he'll leave he'll. wet the bed and leave a message in this.

pit in the urine on the sheets I need. help it'll say on it I mean these that's. where I'm. from where the the the Des the the the. desire that for just. damn for just for you know you'll piss. what you need right into the damn bed. milk I used to piss that into the. sheet you know lunch I'd right just PE. just you'd wake up and I'd roll over and. pull back the top sheet and I just just. cleanly. pissed just damn just weener calligraphy.

come right out of me lunch right on the. sheet damn so if you were therapist you. could have pull off that toe every week. you could have seen what I needed lunch. uh uh field trip signature on document. that took me that take me three nights. to urinate that into the. thing but Mom would be gone I wouldn't. have nobody would be there to sign it. for me so I have falsify it. hug from Dad piss that into the [ __ ] you.

know but that's where I'm from where. you where we talking about Jesus I don't. know. um something about. children sorry yeah I'm I'm all over the. place I'm all over the place that's. where I am right now that's how I. feel and I want to be able to come to. this show with how I feel every week I. feel all over the place.

and and I'm not complaining but I want. you know I want to be able to it's. sometimes interesting because if you. have some success and people see you. doing well then they you can't share how. you're. feeling you know it's. interesting. um but oh well that's not my. problem you know uh I just want to be. able to share how I'm feeling no matter. what and and uh yeah but I'm not trying.

to get into self-pity I'm not feeling. sorry for myself um damn what was I. talking. about when I was growing. up oh so my mother one time took me to. get a uh. haircut. and she took me to get a haircut and. this lady named Miss I think her name. was Miss Miss. Bobby Miss Billy Miss Bobby she had a.

male. name you know and I think her they. wanted her to be a. man I mean they had I remember she. pictures of her she was when I met her. she was probably 90 or 89 she might have. been. 89 but she um and she was a barber you. know or she at least she owned the. barber clothing and an Our and where I'm. from that would if you want if you had. the out F bro that was it you didn't.

need a. diploma you know what I'm saying if you. where I'm from if you had a if you had. overalls you had a you. farmed you know you might live you might. live in an apartment but you got uh you. know three corn bushes out front and you. doing corn once a. year you know. um you could have like my if you owned a. name tag you just and it said your name. on it you walk in any damn shies and.

just start working it didn't matter it. you wasn't on staff it didn't. matter you you walk in that [ __ ] you. right on there Ricky's daddy or whatever. on the time C you clock in as long as. you had a name tag then you were bam. qualified. baby that's where I'm. from and uh yeah I'm from three East. McGee Street baby Covington Louisiana. where we burned [ __ ] in the ditches baby.

that's what we did over. there you want to know who I am that's. who I. am or we go out there and do. uh we do you know we we'd get a little. water on us or something. and we'd Run and Jump back and forth. through the smoke if people were burning. trash we' jump through the smoke back. and. forth just you know kind of just this. Smoky little Double Dutch where you just. jumping from side to side till you're. hold body you were.

black we just beat I mean we damn we had. black face black body black. neck I mean black I'd even if you were. naked that Wier get a little black that. now that part kind of that was you know. you had to that you enjoyed that but we. be down I mean it I mean the cops which. that's how but we got dark we jumped. through that smoke all the damn cops. will show. up and. uh but that's where I'm from baby that's.

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um yeah but miss uh Bobby I think her. name was Miss Bobby so she was a hair. cutter or she had the. uniform so at one. point uh the bus driver originally cut. our. hair and he drove bus one uh Mr Ray was. his name and he pull the bus over uh. once every couple weeks and he cut every. everybody on that [ __ ] everybody got.

the same cut on that [ __ ]. everybody so but something happened to. him something happened to him I think he. I don't remember I think he might have. been changing a tire and got hit by a. vehicle or something you know natural. causes or whatever you know whatever. natural causes were back. then um something happened to Mr Ray and. so we had to go to miss Bobby or Miss. Billy I can't remember her name Bobby or. Billy and they wanted her to be a man.

you could tell you so pictures of her. they'd always her Daddy had dressed her. up like a man when she was a kid and. they brot even you know you'd see. somebody write man man in here on her. back you know somebody would write that. on her back and you know she'd have a. picture of her in college and somebody. written man in in here on her back I. think that might have been the original. trans was somebody just writing you know. man in. here man in. here on her.

back uh and we got it everybody got the. point you didn't have to get the section. you have to do all of that so really. saves a lot of money which I. think that's nice you write man in here. on each arm you show that to me when I. roll up I get it all right Bridget I'll. call you Bradley I get it boom that's it. we don't need you know we we don't need. a lot of other Insanity around it if you. transing out we've all everybody damn.

sometime I feel like a little [ __ ] you. feel. me sometime I feel like 310 of a. [ __ ] you know and I kind of see what I. you know I'll let it pass or something I. remember I don't know I guess I don't. have a lot of I never put on panties or. nothing but anyway so let me get through. the story so she was the hair cutter and. I was over there there one time and my.

mom would drop me off cuz that old lady. she was real chatty she' talked to me. she damn she talked to you by the time. she got done talking to you you you know. it it was she was 91 if she 90 she it. was just like dang. man so she kept talking and so Mom would. drop me off there Mom would drop me off. there and uh and I got the cut I get. that trim but one time I was in there. she had a stroke right and she's laying. on the ground with the scissors you know.

and I'd never been around somebody that. had a stroke I didn't know what it. was and so I just sat there. man you know I feel bad about it I was. well behaved but I sat there for. probably 15. minutes and I thought she was just being. real quiet or something or I don't know. what I. thought maybe she was doing hide and go. seek but she just. forgot to hide and thought she was.

hiding or something I don't know what I. thought at that age but I remember just. being in that room and it was quiet as. could. be and then uh her son came or something. and he's like what the hell happened in. here and he called me. a and. uh anyway what else man sorry I'm just. going off on it that's where I'm at I'm. all over the place place um I just got.

back from. uh I just got back. [Music]. from Medford. Massachusetts over there at the casino. ballroom and that was an interesting. venue for comedy I don't I uh I. appreciate everybody that came out the. setup of it isn't ideal for comedy uh. but a nice staff over there beautiful um. and a lot of beautiful people that came. out and God it was freezing it was it.

was bizarre and freezing over there and. um and yeah next time we'll try to find. a v that's a little more suited for. comedy it's a I think for rock and roll. or for um you know if you're going to. see like a lil peep uh. reenactment or you know if Disney does. like Lil peep on ice or whatever then I. think it's great but I think for comedy. for me it was tough because I like. everybody to be able to see me. in the.

front and this was uh it came around. with sides a little bit so um but I was. thinking about that I was like how do I. the second night I was like how do I. adjust the show so everybody can see. perfectly and uh anyway we did our best. and I just want to thank everybody who. came out there um who came out in. Houston who came out previously before. that in. Boston um down there in Corpus Christie. um yeah it's just been a lot of places I.

didn't get to do as many uh pop outs. into the lobby to thank people we tried. some this weekend the lobbies were. small um in Houston we did one night or. two nights we came out and it was just. uh pretty. chaotic so um we'll just trying our best. you know I'll try my best to pop out. there afterwards for people that are me. uh kind of hanging around and um but I. just want to let you know that cuz some.

people would send me a DM and be like I. you know I didn't and be like we came. out you just you know we we' you had. already been gone by the time we got out. there sometimes we didn't get to do it. um but we try and I just want to let you. know that I think about. that um what. else oh uh Billy conforto's. brother came out and his name is Chuck. Chuck Mintz. named after the candy I think but they.

spell it. different they spell it different. uh and everybody a lot of you guys know. Billy conforto and you remember. him. and man he. was you know Billy was the. first he was a. homosexual. um kind of uh prize fighter SL. bus.

boy that was a lot of you know I would. say those were his domains really and he. would you know he'd damn you. know he'd hand job a male waiter and. he'd have but at the same with the other. hand he'd be you know cleaning up a four. top so he'd be polishing off a a a one. top and a four he'd be you know he could. do a bottom and a four toop at the same. time that's who he was.

and and when I met him he we were. working at like a a fine dining type of. place but nobody ever came in there so. we were. just doing whippets mostly and we did so. many whippets one time he just told me. that he was gay and I think that that. and that was the first gay human I'd. ever. met and uh anyway he and I became good. friends over the years and and he would. sell uh he sold he sold a lot of good.

weed I think it was good now I'll say. this he had Billy uh also. had a lot of attack animals he had. attack. animals and if you don't know what that. is go up to an. animal. and and if you get attacked. then now you.

know so he had a he had a lot of pit. bulls and he would train him I mean. these things were he'd be like oh it's. the nicest dog doo bro it's the nicest. dog and then you go pet it and it would. it would [ __ ] rearrange your fingers. on your hand so he would get you you you. you get high with him and then the dog. would be so scary that I would be I'd be. on the furniture I'd be hanging from the. sing. fan so I think a lot of.

people they would see that they like. damn that's the best weed in the world. this dude's hanging you know this dude's. doing interior design in the house he's. you know he's living in one of the. dresser drawers this guy's [ __ ] up. that must be the gas weed right so. anyway but the truth was he had. dangerous animals and if you bring an. attack animal with you and you get. somebody High even on skunk weed then. suddenly your [ __ ] is the greatest [ __ ].

they. have because if somebody sees you know. somebody take a couple puffs of your. stuff and then they run across a field. yelling help. me they're going to be like damn that's. killer. weed but really that's just killer and. he's a you know. four-year-old uh American pitbull. rescue. so but his brother came out man and that. was beautiful to get to spend time with. him that was in Baton Rouge I don't. think I mentioned that and he brought.

his uh Billy conforto's niece and a. nephew and it was good to see that their. births weren't affected by drugs or. anything you know they were two. able-bodied children. and uh mentally. able and very. [Music]. kind and um it was just great man it was. great it was like I was there with Billy. for a minute you know it was uh it was.

pretty. special and what else we reached out. over there to do a special plaque or. something for him in uh in Louisiana and. so far the places that we've reached out. there over there in mandaville we've. have gotten denied so far so we're still. seeing what we can do uh we want to do. something a little bit like nicer. something uh you know you can't just do. it if you call any place they say oh you. can do it or you you know everybody. can't call and put up a.

uh you know a peach tree for you know. somebody for Boo Radley or whoever. died because it would be all trees so. you have to do something different so I. don't know we'll figure it out but I. just want everybody to know and on the. YouTube We got pictures of his family. that came. out. um what else I'm going to have a sip of. water right now I'm going to take a. moment for myself and have a sip of. water.

praise God baby I'm. upstairs. ah what else man I went on a little. coffee date yesterday I met up with a. gal and um we had a little coffee and. she showed up I think she was on some. type of uh. she seemed like she was on.

um. um. stimulant I'll say. that I think she was on damn stimulant. bro because I was. uh she was like trying to listen fast. you ever talk to somebody and they just. keep getting closer to you bro like they. just like they just. like they're not going to hear your next. word they're going to try and [ __ ] it.

you. know like they just like boy you put. that word out here I'mma [ __ ] that. thing like that she would just seem like. real. stimulated so I think she was on some. damn stimulant man so I just ordered a. salad and chatted with her for maybe 27. minutes then we took a little walk. around on the sun went in the Sun. because I like staying in the sun when I.

walk and uh and then that was it when. are separate ways. um oh man I I long for the days when I. could whenever everything felt uh normal. when everything felt a little bit more. categorized inside of. me and specifically in my brain and so. that's where I started noticing for. myself I got to slow things down a. little bit and give things a little bit. of an opport Unity um but I got Zach.

here Zach's going to help me with the. news. today uh producer Zach how are we I'm. good I need one second but I'm good okay. hold on give me a second no take a. moment for yourself man that's what. we're talking about. today but cut that audio off if you. don't mind so we can have our moment too. while you're having your. moment you know silence that's that's. going to become part of a premium I. noticed that. you go a place now and there's 17.

screens going and there's a damn violin. and there's uh somebody playing. a somebody playing a machine gun there's. all kind of. stuff. um you know it's hard to get a little. piece these. days and that's one thing that was nice. up there in New Hampshire one thing that. was nice was. um the Wentworth Hotel. hotel and man if you could bring that.

bring that up. zachie this place is and I think a lot. of people go there for the uh. summertime but let me tell you you want. a good night you want a some peace and. quiet you want some you want quiet and. quiet they don't PE peace is a is like a. little louder than quiet. right you want quiet and quiet. that's it Wentworth Hotel can you see.

it here we go there we go take a gander. at. it now I'll say this it's a little. pricey it's not crazy though but it's a. little. pricey um but I think it's the kind of. place where you're investing in what you. get on your return I I felt fortunate. that we could stay there and I really. really liked it uh but it's qu I mean. they don't even.

um it's. quiet just think of something think of. something real quiet Zach what is. it like a. uh like you ever have a computer in your. room and you're like going to sleep at. night and the computer's running yeah. like a little fan like a fan in the. computer you mean yeah like a fan. running the computer or like. a yeah that's that's not that quiet is. that quiet or not quiet You' think you.

want to go quieter than that yeah yeah. like what is as quiet as something can. be what's the quietest you ever been be. honest when I was I went to my friend. John's house one time when I was a kid. and he wasn't there and his parents were. [ __ ] so I just. uh I listened for a little bit and then. I mhm I got out of there. wow what made you get out was it a.

certain did something was there a. certain did they shift gears or. something did something was there a part. where you're like okay this is too much. because yeah that's real quiet when. you're trying to be so quiet that you. are yeah if you're listening to somebody. else mate or. fight if you're listening to like. putting your ear to the wall like the. original reality television was putting. your ear to the wall right before they. had all the shows it was keeping tommen. or putting your ear to the.

wall and there'd be no you yeah you. would stop I I remember literally I. would squeeze my ribs like this to keep. my heart from even making that sound. that it makes so I could I didn't want. to miss one moment I didn't want that. commercial break of my heartbeat to. interrupt the just the. pristine pure reality television I was. getting by listening to my neighbor's. fight or have. sex or both I remember one time people.

were. definitely somebody kept punching. somebody and then you could hear them. just just damn. ejaculate uh so what was. it uh what do you mean what were you. saying you said oh and so what caused. you to leave oh I just um you know they. were they were kind of going at it and. it was like my best friend yeah. and if I'm being being honest his mom.

was hot and that was kind of a factor in. it. too but uh I mean you know how that like. you I felt like I couldn't it felt like. illegal to be there yeah oh it's hard to. it's there's definitely um it's hard to. listen to somebody you care about's. mom getting plugged up by. somebody thank you yeah I appreciate. that man but yeah there were oh I. remember God the neighbor woman if I got. in the neighbor woman's hamper I'd.

damn I remember just I would just stay. in there. dude and just smell all her clothes and. I remember just wishing that she was my. mom I remember that what else we got the. news hit us with some of it Zach we got. to get to some calls a lot of calls have. come into the hotline 98566 49503. this some we saw um Pentagon did a new.

study and it says 77% of Americans are. too fat mentally ill or on drugs to join. the military. okay well let me see about this 77% of. young am Mars go go go to the. information here and what do they say in. there uh Pentagon study revealed that. 77% of Young Americans do not qualify. for military service without a waiver. due to being overweight so they're not. good out of the gate they would have to. make an exception right okay um over the.

overweight what. else drug use drug and alcohol abuse is. 8% uh medical physical health 7% of it. these are the percentage of people who. didn't get in and mostly though it's. overweight okay and that's between the. ages of let's give real information here. please go back down that's between the. ages of 17 and. 24 okay several key findings go on more. please several key findings were noted. in the summary report for example most.

ineligible youth 44% are disqualified. for multiple reasons rather than in only. one area would you have any of these you. think. uh Zach yeah I think I don't think I'd. make the weight cut what is there a. weight cut do you know. it I don't know what the number is but. I'm I don't think I don't think I'm. there dog and that's okay man and any of. the other ones cuz it says with one you. could probably get a wave. well I could get a waiver for the.

overweight MH and then I can lie about. the mental like if there any you can. just kind of lie about all that stuff. that's true huh yeah the weight you. can't lie about it you know so if you. can just get a waiver for that then. what's the. problem yeah yeah it's weird that you. can't really dress in Black enough to. look like you're not on Lexa Pro or. something you know yeah um but okay so. the would keep you out and you would be. able to lie about the yeah lie about the.

other stuff then we're good yeah and. that's our military and I could get in. shape I feel like it's you know like. couldn't they get us in. shape maybe so so that's the news the. largest increase and I'm not shocked go. back up to the top of it there. bub. um Americans are too fat I mean. definitely there are some places you can. there's people that you can see people. and they are bigger. than when they got. here uh and even if You' have took them.

as a baby and put them did like age. progression they would have never got to. where they are now there's people that. are. bigger and so that's this also shows. where we are in time I think I think if. we it's been a while since we there you. really felt like a calling as a regular. person look there's no draft there's no. anything that has to you have to stay on. your toes there's no mandatory. service so yeah people I think you're.

going to get fat you're going to get. mentally ill a lot of that goes in hand. in hand too I don't want to say that but. you know your brain is part of your body. if somebody cracked your body open your. brain's going to be in it and. so if you got gristle on your body you. could have gristle on your. brain it might show up differently. that's why sometimes I feel like if. there were a war if there were a big. like something that would call everybody. together and bring everybody like okay. we're on the same team you almost wonder.

if the dark artists that are out there. that are stirring the cauldrons you know. that are putting the ingredients into. all of this if that's what they're. aiming for what else we got. Zach um NASA announced the first crew. that's going to go to the moon for the. first um first crew in 50 years I should. say that's going to go to the moon this. is them okay we got a brother in there. definitely Lamar odm they're sending and. three w. okay they're just going to fly around. the moon and come back so they're not.

going to land on it. FYI oh this sounds like uh John Glenn he. did the orbit no this sounds like. um Bang Bus is going to space or. something but yeah okay great another. people are going around the Moon Jesus. Christ all right one of these guys is. Canadian too well he's Canadian see. yeah but what are we doing what who you. know what I'm saying I feel like we've. been around the moon what are we are we. just trying to like and is this NASA it.

feels like kind of like a soft way for. NASA to kind of strike back against some. of these more private firms that are. going out there um you know they're. sending a brother out there I respect. that you know Brothers in space uh how. that's not a movie I can't even imagine. you know like I've se you do you know. what I'm saying you put six brothers. either in space or at a Bruce. Springsteen. concert and that's that's solid gold. that's you know but yeah Brothers in.

space has got to. be I mean that would win movie of the. year what else we. got uh Louisiana water plant employee. arrested after uh peeing in the drinking. water supply tank twice oh yeah yeah. they give you one time or they warn you. I remember one time when I was over. there something that I had fell in there. I don't want to say it was like a might. have been my pager or something at the. time we had Pages you know yeah and I. think mine fell off into the thing and.

they they weren't pleased but yeah this. is what you get when you let people work. at the power plant what is it at the. water plant you know I did N I worked. did 90 days I did community service. working there City officials say they do. not know if 57-year-old Michael Masten. had urinated in the water supply other. times in the past because a security. archive only saves footage from the last. 30 days. wow well I can tell you to zoom in on. the guy right there. yeah he has.

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bald eagles well we are these legal. migrants or illegal migrants that's what. you have to wonder because if you don't. one of the things that should be on the. test is can you eat bald. eagle yeah I guess there were 200 hund. Nationals were cited for unlawful. possession of of the eagle. yeah so just owning it or just. possessing it yeah so I don't know I. mean I think look it's one. eagle well they're a protected species. who the illegal.

aliens uh both but the. eagle it's crazy I wonder what gets more. protection these days isn't that crazy. the the guy did it's unbelievable dead. yeah. so um interesting uh the Eagle's dead. yeah they ate it I mean look I've had. rare animal in my. day I've had things that I'm I've I've. had things I'm wouldn't even mention. others but it is what it is man and uh I. say let them have.

one let them have one everybody deserves. to taste a little bit of Eagle I. think all right is that all we got yeah. I think so all right and that's Zach. from. Cincinnati uh I wanted to take my. glasses off to kind of just out of. respect to to think about this next part. um you know. they had a shooting here in Nashville. last week and.

um and it was you know I'd never been in. in something like that I'd never been. that close to something like. that I'd never. been I saw coup I saw a couple Brothers. shoot each other one of them shot each. other in the back one time outside of. like I want to say like. a Dairy Queen maybe something like that. at one of those kind of shooty urban. kind of.

restaurants but I'd. never seen something like I'd never been. around something like this when this had. happened you know I'd never been around. something like in the environment and. you're you're in traffic and people. can't get you know you can't get. somewhere but you know it's because all. the parents in traffic are trying to. locate their. children and it's just I mean it's you. almost want to you want to get in the. way because you want to try and do.

something but you can't there's nothing. you can. do it's just such an Abrupt insane. finality when that. happens. uh and I think I I just you know my. heart goes out to obviously all those. people I think you know I keep those. people in my prayers and. um you know and they say that prayers. don't help but prayers are for PE. prayers are for Comfort it's just taking. a moment outside of yourself to to think.

of some comfort for. someone it's just. um it's saying hey here this moment in. my life that feels peaceful I want to. give it to you because you need it more. than I do right. now that's what a prayer is to me I. don't think I'm not sitting there. praying no guns or praying like don't. people shouldn't shoot like I don't know. everybody looks at it differently I'm. not trying to get into that discussion. so I think what I was thinking of just.

how do we get how do you end up with. people that do this type of thing how do. you end up with these you know childhood. Shooters how do you end up with people. that go into a. school and do this and I think a lot of. it is to me a lot of it is a societal. thing and I'm not going to everybody has. their views I'm not challenging your. view here this is just a space where I'm. sharing what I think and I could be. wrong. that's totally. okay but I I feel and I think sometimes.

that people don't have. purpose you have a a country where you. know it used to feel like like if you. worked at a I'm I'm going to go off on. some different thoughts here so if you. worked at like a business then you had a. lot of middle class businesses you had a. small a lot of smaller businesses and if. you work there then if the company did. well you did well and so you had a sense. of purpose maybe through your work you. know you were going to move up the. ladder you were going to be um you know.

a foreman and then a a chair uh a a. manager and then maybe have some. percentage share and then you know you. were going to get to a place and now it. feels I think like. we've we've let a lot of our companies. get to these big. conglomerates and it's about the bottom. line a lot of companies are holding to. their sharehold holders but not to. their share croppers if you will to the.

people working within the. company um so then what I'm saying is as. a as a person you may not feel any. people you I feel like you people can. get a sense of purpose from their work. so if you don't have that sense of. purpose. then then you can be pretty aimless. right and then if you don't have love. like if somebody doesn't love you or you. feel unloved or you don't love somebody. like if you don't have a um family or a. husband or wife or.

children then you may not feel like a. lot of love right and so having love. gives you a sense of. purpose so and we have less families. these days The Familiar structure is. really kind of broken down in. America you know you have a lot of. single parent homes you have a lot of. two parents having to work. um so right there we're kind of. right there there's a place where people. were I feel like people used to get a.

lot of. purpose and. now a lot there's people that aren't. getting purpose from their work and. there's people that aren't getting. purpose. from uh their heart being. fulfilled by someone else or them being. the piece that fills someone else's. heart so right there man you have a lot. you have people who don't have a lot of. purpose um and then the there used to be. a sense of America we are this country. we are these people we are united we.

are we care about our. neighbor. um but that's been a lot of that is gone. by the wayside uh we've become. a you know I feel like our. our our political leaders have sold us. out to the highest bidder I feel like. it feels like. um it doesn't feel anymore like your.

politicians or your leaders have your. best interest it doesn't feel that. way uh and I'm not crying here I'm just. trying to I'm trying to see how do we. get to somebody that does something like. that that's what I've been thinking. about like how do you get there how do. you get to somebody that does a um. shooting of a. school you. know um. because you got to get there.

somehow and it keeps happening so anyway. I think that a lot of it is purpose if. you don't have a purpose then you are at. the whim of whatever could come. along you're at the whim of whatever. influence you whatever influence you get. or whatever ideology comes along that. um that you can attach on. to and. so no job no love no real sense of Honor. or connection to your.

country so then you I mean. you're and then on top of that if you if. you find that you're the victim if you. start to say well I'm a. victim you know it's my you know. everybody else I don't have any. responsibility for myself it's all your. fault it's all your. fault then you're going to find not only. you going to find any ideology that. comes along which the inter is going to. give the internet creates an algorithm. that gives you whatever you keep looking.

at you get more. of so if you look at pudding or. something you get all pudding. boy and then three years from now. wondering why you too thick you can't be. in the military now because buddy you. pudding doubt you chose pudding and. pudding chose. you because whatever Vice it is it'll. choose you back so you so if you if you. want to be someone who um is. you know you want to get involved with a. like a alt right or alt left or you want.

to get involved. with. um School shooters or uh anti-christian. or anti- um I'm just trying to think. something some severe ideology you want. to get then the internet the Twitter. whatever is going to keep serving you. it so now you next thing you know you're. down a rabbit. hole and I think at that point. that's how you end up there I. think you end up in a place where I'm.

going to I'm going to be seen I'm going. to make sure they know who I. am I'm going to make sure that they say. my name or they hear my name or they see. me. um and that's just it's a that's. heartbreaking along the whole. way you know so I don't know I think. I've just been having a lot of thoughts. about that how do people end up.

there how do people get to a place where. they would do that sort of thing now. some people I think are just crazy and. those are. um crazy people that's. different but how does someone who's. just been you. know CU next thing you know you're on. Twitter you getting an anti-religious. thing you're like oh I went to a. religious school I also have trouble. identifying in the world maybe sexually. so man I'm a vict it's.

all man you're. really and then your Twitter your feed. your social media just keeps serving you. more of that hey you're right you're. right you're. right and then man you're gassed. up. um so I think a lot of it is a sense of. purpose you. know uh. and having a sense of.

purpose and some of those sense of. purposes like the American one I can. feel I felt like when I was a child it. felt like oh we're part of this you. know. but it doesn't feel like that a lot. anymore but also I got to recognize that. I can still do things to try and make. myself have a purpose you know know. uh and you find purpose and you know I'm. fortunate that people love me my family.

you know. um you know that I have a job I have. this podcast to come to I have uh I have. some sense of purpose for myself you. know and a lot of you guys do too I. think we're kind of a purpose filled. group or we're trying to find that but I. think that's something that. um I feel like that's for me that's. something I think that that that that's. part of that is that man when you don't. have a purpose the dark arts will they.

were they are they are at your door they. are waiting on the edge of your ear to. come in and get your. brain and those include like you know. all the just the link just the rabbit. hole you can go down in that'll make you. hate cuz man you find a rabbit. hole you when you get halfway to the. bottom of that [ __ ] there's a HOA. meeting of just hateful Owners. Association halfway through some of.

these rabbit holes and it's. just it's just dangerous. so anyway let's hit some calls. huh hey Mr. vau um So. lately I have been coming home from work. and I like just to sit like this outside. inside I like to grab a beer and I like. to sit in silence like not do nothing.

but my wonderful girlfriend whom I love. very. much oh man she talks she talks so much. oh my god. dude first of all I this I didn't. believe you had a. girlfriend I would I was not expecting. that part that seemed like a. uh a surprise to all of us listeners I. would say that but that is doesn't mean. anything and what I'm trying to say is. yeah if there's somebody that talks too.

much dude it's. unreal it's. unreal I have a an early girlfriend that. called me sometime she talks I don't she. talks oh my God if I even think about. her calling. dude I just get. angry that's how I. get because I don't want to listen. listen to. her I have people there's people I won't.

go spend time with they talk to their. wife talked too much we're not friends. anymore we're not friends. anymore you know you some you got to put. your put your spouse on a word count I. don't care who they are you get 4,000. words this. spring do what you want with. them but when it's done honey it's. done and that's. that get get get a a little step thing.

for. words oh [ __ ] Cindy got about uh seven. prepositions left boys that's all she's. got and two nouns come on over it's. gonna be a quiet time we about to enjoy. the. game um but yeah I don't have a solution. to it you chose her you chose someone. you're you're a lifelong listener they. call it. and you just a damn you know you a damn.

word pervert. boy so you need to do something when she. starts talking get that wiener. out [ __ ] start drinking your own spit. do. something and it could go the other way. too if you have a chatty. husband dude I was somewhere the other. day we were in somewhere eating some. meat and some guy wouldn't shut. up it was on you can't enjoy just you. got to shut up at times and here I am. talking into the second hour of a show.

so what do I know. um but let's see what else we got. here yo the uh I need some advice I'm. down I'm my name is Zach I'm down here. in the Botti Louisiana area gang baby. that's it Botti baby I feel you right. over there by the airport by the big. Bridges right over here near L plas. where your boy Billy conforto used to. live and.

die and a weird [ __ ] been going on uh. I've been having two best. friends uh forever and I think they uh. they fell in love with each other and. turned gay and. uh I just don't know how to uh how to. handle it they acting weird. well they're not acting weird brother. they're. gaying and they're being.

gay and that's. uh that's that's people are doing it. people are doing it you. couldn't I mean these days you throw a. damn frisbee it'll hit a gay. dude that's that's how popular it is. it's the. new you know it's like doing the fries. in the free chocolate freezy thing. that's remember when that came out.

that's same type of. deal but it's men it's men doing. it yeah I don't know what you do I think. youd be a supportive friend get them a. trip get them a little vacation or. something if you're down there and you. know I don't know I don't know how what. do you do I mean are you trying to see. if they are in love or are. you CA love here's the thing love ends. up trumping. everything and even if it's gay.

love gay love still ends in. love. so now I don't know I. mean yeah I don't know what you do I. think you [ __ ] dap them. up but that's what's going on now every. people are being gay buddy and you got. to if you I can't but the odds you have. two best friends and they fall in love. with each other. man and part of you is probably jealous.

a little that's what's the craziest. part because I remember if I had two. other friends growing up and if they. even hung out together without me bro. that [ __ ] made me mad. dude it's like are you g to tell me. [ __ ]. Terry and [ __ ]. Gerald we at the skating rank yesterday. and I'm at my. house jumping through uh the ditch smoke.

cuz people was burning trash in the. ditch by. myself playing BLM out there in the. smoke and they're having a fun. time it's. tough but do you willing to do gay to. get all of the. friendship and that's where one of them. said Hey look about to secure the bag. dude he's talking about nuts son and. that is gay.

men praise God man thank you for sharing. it I think yeah you just got to be cool. with them just chill man let them do. it let them do it and love. them all right let's take another one. heo my name is Jamie I live in San Diego. California and I just think something. immediately needs to be addressed oh. well. let's hear it Jamie Alward the President. Joe Biden.

okay okay that's I look I think I this. is one thing I Joe Biden is a he's a old. man he has dementia it is not cool to do. this to an old. man that's what I feel like I don't care. what your political stance is your human. stance. you know my father was uh 70 when I was. born my father was an old man so I grew.

up with a with with an old man and. watching them and watching them and. understanding their presence and their. ability and their Mobility all of it and. we all know that this man is not. suitable for what we have him doing or. what people are pretending to have him. do cuz at a certain point. there's no way this guy is making. choices or making decisions there's it's.

impossible it's. impossible he's he's looking at things. he's ordering you know the other day he. ordered an almond or something off the. top of a building he doesn't know he. doesn't understand what's going on this. dude's petting visible cats and damn. sniffing children dude it's all just old. people stuff he's not well so at a. certain point we're we're the kind of. country that says not only this is what. we do with our. old we we we we take advantage of them.

to the point where we'll even we're even. willing to let them be a. shill which I don't know what that is. it's it's. something it's like a like a false front. or something. for whatever else is going on and I. think that's pretty sick man if you saw. somebody doing this to an old old person. you would think it was [ __ ]. up that's what you would think if.

somebody was doing this to you if. somebody was showing up at your. grandfather's every afternoon and making. him go in the front yard and say a bunch. of. [ __ ] and then making him go back. inside you know when they treating him. up with ice cream or something and they. got you know or. whatever child sniffs or whatever they. got a little bag of [ __ ] you know. 9-year-old you know Barett sniffing or. whatever I don't know but it would be. you know good and well it would be.

messed. up so I think it's I think it's [ __ ] I. think it's [ __ ] up by the uh by all of. by all politicians but also it's a. democratic parties your candidate you. got to know this isn't cool it's just. not cool it's not cool to do to an old. person you know I don't know what you. would it's like it's like senior. trafficking that's what y'all doing. y'all senior trafficking that man and I. think it's messed up and it makes it it. just reminds me and I think this makes.

me angry because it reminds me of uh you. know you would see people take advantage. of old people sometimes you know I would. see that with my dad sometimes people. would take advantage of him because of. his age or they would manipulate him or. use him in ways that he didn't see. because he wasn't able-minded enough to. notice and that [ __ ] made me angry and. it's the same type of [ __ ] that these. folks are doing on this more um. um on this national International scale. and.

level you know I don't know I'm sorry to. let that get me keyed up. but that's real to me man that's real. stuff you someone shouldn't take. advantage of a senior citizen like. that they should it's not it's not it's. it's messed. up it's messed up and we're acting like. it's. regal like who the [ __ ] are you kidding. that this is a Regal way to go about.

anything I. know. um what else do we have Zach any other. calls you recommend sorry I'm I might. need an afternoon. off there's just been a lot man you know. you go around you have there's just it's. just a lot baby. boy what else who's somebody that's. having a tough time with something. hey Theo uh my name is Connor I'm from.

Sacramento. California what's up Connor Thank you. for calling man appreciate you I just. want to uh first thank you for all that. you do uh you know I don't know if you. realize how much uh you do for a lot of. people you know you the way that you. talk you know I relate with you so much. even though we have such different. backgrounds and upbringings and all that. but I really appreciate what you do and. uh you know recently in my life uh I'm a.

new call thank you brother I appreciate. the uh the nice words man it's very kind. of you. onward you know recently in my life uh. I'm a new college student you know. starting my first year um so a lot is. changing in my life you know my parents. are splitting up uh like the past couple. months and uh I br broke up with my. girlfriend recently and it's just in a. such a short amount of time my life has.

changed so much and so I guess uh what. I'm trying to say is even when my life. or just you know your life in general. changing so much you know I I find I. find find it hard to motivate myself to. get out of this low sort of e that I'm. in so what I'm trying to say is uh when. your life is changing so much and it's. throwing so much at you so quickly like. how do you how do you stay motivated to.

really uh throw as a person you know. anyways I hope I hope thank you brother. that's a I appreciate the call and um. it's funny that's kind of how this. episode started. out. um yeah I think for one you got to find. some moments of your own you have to you. have to take a step outside of things um. you have to find time to do. that you know uh and that means you know. I got to I got to limit myself better on.

my phone what I'm in what I'm intaking. my attention what I'm giving my. attention. to you know people we don't even have. imaginations. anymore because we don't need it the. second my imagination used to start like. this your brain you would have a moment. of Peace you sit. somewhere uh and then your brain would. get bored. so your brain would start thinking of. something or imagining something or. creating something right because.

imagination is just where creativity. does bad in practice right that's. it. and and next thing you know you would be. imagining something and you would. Daydream or you would come up with a. neat idea or you come up with a dream or. a. goal um or a realization. something that you needed to take care. of that you. hadn't.

um but that all that all happened. because you had that you had that open. space you had that time you had. imagination imagination did that now the. second we get a little bit of free time. we go to something we go to a phone we. go to a uh tick. toks you go to something you do a vaping. you do a looking at. uh. titty you do a something. you do with something because you can't. handle that UNC that what what's next.

what's. next but all that used to be next was. imagination and we don't have that. anymore we've replaced it with let's. just watch. other let's just watch others or let's. find something to take up this. moment um. so I'm sorry I don't even know where I. trailed I trailed off there what was I. saying to this guy Zach well he was.

originally asking about um staying. motivated when life changes so much so. fast right okay so you got to get that. moment for yourself sometimes you have. to find it right uh because yeah that. imagination would give you fun ideas it. would make your life fun interesting you. be able to conceptualize you be able to. get a a scope of your own life um so. that kind of helped sort things now. we're just always like in the uh. experiential mode so we're not doing. enough of the Sorting to give us a good.

view of things. um and when you don't have a view of. things that can lead to depression. you're like oh I don't know what I'm. doing yeah because I'm not giving myself. time to know what I'm doing I'm just. doing um so sometimes you need a little. bit more time to know what you're doing. to get a look at things if you're if. things are too hectic uh. but yeah I think to stay. motivated I think more than ever we're. at a time where you have to come to your.

own. rescue you know the dark the the the the. the the dark arts of uh algorithms and. screens and attention seeking. advertisement you're depressed don't you. want these [ __ ] cadberry. eggs that [ __ ] is at an alltime. high.

and you got to you have to sometimes you. have to come to your own rescue and. that's the worst thing we want to. hear because I want somebody to blame. for how I'm how how how I how I'm am how. I'm. feeling I want somebody to. blame I don't want to BU I don't want to. have to put it on my you know. I don't want to have to put the cleats. on. me I just want to look at the shoe marks.

on me and blame them on and say oh you. know Deborah did that Jonathan did them. you you know but I don't want to have to. get up and make my own prince in the. world so I think some of it can be that. you know parents do get divorced a lot. of times when you get out of high school. they've been waiting to get. divorced so as much as that can be tough. on you you I think try and recognize. what their lives have been like maybe. just. hypas uh but recognize that they might.

have held on for an extra three years. because you were still in high school as. a child. um so I don't know there's a lot there. but even if you have awareness you're. calling and thinking about what do I. do you know how do I stay motivated what. was the last part he asked about what do. he ask about. Zach just um not being able to like. waking up not knowing the motivation. yeah it was you know parents got. divorced uh broke up with his girlfriend.

in college. yeah yeah you got a lot going on so I. think recognize that and give yourself a. little bit of space yeah you might not. wake up with the be with the with a. sense of purpose every day but if you do. start to develop one for yourself man. it's going to be helpful and you can. here's something that I've learned. recently from a fellow buddy of mine and. this is my buddy Thomas that used to own. grey block. pizza and they were over there at 1811. Pico Boulevard on the way to the beach.

grey block get that. hitter they was the original sponsor of. this podcast and he told me the other. day. um he said hey man uh and they make the. blue cube baths now he sold the one. company and went from doing Pizza pies. to doing uh Ice. plunges and he's he's the fellow that. gave me that beautiful ice Plunge at the. house that blue cube. um but he said hey man you can each day. when I wake up I decide if the world is.

for me or if it's against. me and. that's that's pretty powerful because. right there you're going to get a little. bit of sense of. purpose but having a good sense of. purpose is so key man. um and I believe the world is for you. I believe that the world is for. us I really do I think that there's.

Predators out. there you know there's dirty lungs out. there with damn. trumpets tying the trumpets to their. mouths but that don't mean that we can't. fight baby that's what I'm. saying and I think having a sense of. purpose is key man and is the world for. me or against me because if I say the. world's against me then that's how my. day is going to go this world is against.

me but if I say man the world is for me. the world wants me to do well the world. wants me to do better the world wants me. to see someone and smile at them the. world wants me to let someone go if they. do something wrong not real like look. not CRA if they do something they get. your [ __ ] get their [ __ ] you know or go. get your [ __ ] back that's what I mean. but. yeah the world is is for me so anyway I. believe that the world is for you I.

believe that and every day you might not. succeed in thinking that way but over. time you can I believe that you can so I. just pray that you have some sense of. purpose man I pray that I do too every. day I don't but somay you know but more. often than not I feel like I do and um. I'm grateful for that uh but if you're. struggling man if you're going through. something man just don't feel like. you're alone. you know there's people thinking about. you there's people you can't even see or. feel in the distance that.

uh that care about. you so let's get out of here the way we. came in sorry this was alone but I. hadn't been gotten to spend time with. you guys in a little while and uh and. this was important to me I'm going to. take a week off at some point in the. coming weeks and so I'm going to start. to figure that out but uh you guys be. good to yourselves baby let's go out the. way we came in on Eddie. 9V little black.

flies a long time. ago I was in love with a. girl and I think I took that love a. little too. [Applause]. far you can see the cigarette burns on. the. wall and all the empty bottles in the. [Music]. hall if the to you know who call.