Big Guy | This Past Weekend w/ Theo Von #581

Mother's Day is right around the corner, and if you're undecided on what to get. mom, maybe some flowers or a nice meal. that she doesn't have to cook is just. the break she needs. But for a limited. time, use code. Theo50. That's right, Theo50 to get 50%. off up to a $15 value when you spend $15. or more at local florists, convenience, grocery, and retail stores on Door Dash. And starting May 9th through Mother's.

Day weekend, your flowers order will. unlock credit towards select gifts that. take cooking, planning, and more off. mom's plate. Make this Mother's Day. special with Door Dash. Code Theo50. Terms. apply. All. right, here we are. Welcome to the month. of May in the year 2025. Um, thank you for joining uh me here.

today. Thank you for letting me be a. part of your life and uh and you be a. part of mine today. Um, happy Mother's Day. We'll start with. that. We got a nice episode of uh we got. some Mother's Day stuff. if we're going. to get into a little bit of light news. And then um we had a call a few weeks. back about grief and uh loss and we had. um a lot of nice feedback calls and. informative heart heart.

heartish. heartfelt contributions. Uh so we'll get. into those in a bit as well. Um, but yeah, Mother's. Day, that's it. Cuz your m people, your. mama raised you. Think about. that. Your m You You were You was doing. nothing. Your little ass laying. there doing nothing, boy. Hunting for a.

hand tit. That's all you was. doing. You was just hunting for that. little hand tick but your little hands. You was a little slurp lord and your. mother raised you. First of all, if. something came up to me and started. sucking on my on my breast on my tit or. man or whatever it's called, tit for men. or whatever, I would not then raise it. That is you have to think about that. If. something started sucking on your tip, would you take it off and then graze it.

and grow it to its full. form? Only a mother would do that type. boy. That's some next level. That's some next level behavior mothers. out. there with your ass, too. A lot of kids. never washed their ass. We had a buddy, his legs just knew his pants so well. He. all he wore the same pants always. And. so you knew good and wilt. So nobody was. washing his ass, boy. Not a chance. Even his mom. And she.

tried some You see her warm up some. water on a stove in a stove pot and to. pull up pull his pants back and just. dump it right down the back of his pants. hoping to even to get a half wash or. quarter wash on his ass with that warm. water. But damn, your mother your our. mothers did that. And when we couldn't read, imagine you. sitting there with somebody, right? And. they can't.

read, you. know, and you got to teach them to you. start with the first letter and you show. him. that and it's a picture of like an. alligator and a little kid and the mom's. like, "What's that?" And he's like, "Lizard, lizard or whatever." He can't. even say He don't even say. nothing. He just look at you and try to. cop a quick head off that. tit. That's a dumb child. We were all. dumb. child. My mother helped us out of that.

Out of that cavern of knowing. nothing. God, they did a lot of. work. And then even on some once you. were in school when you had to go to. school and take a test and you was you. was dumb, buddy. You was damn dumb. You. was a dumb. child. And your mother still hugged you. and said, "You're going to do good on.

it." I remember my mom would be like, "You're going to do great on your test.". I'd look at her like, "Really? I. am? You could." And she, "Yeah, you. going to do great." And I would leave. out the door and I peek back in the. window. You could see her just shaking. her head like he going to it up. But that's crazy to to send something. know something is gonna not do well on a. damn uh spelling or whatever it's. called and send it out in the world and.

still hug it and pretend like you when. they get back. How'd you do? You. know good and well how they did. Mom, they didn't do. boy. They didn't do bro. Opening. pants. Another batch of warm water on. that ass. this spring. cleaning. Mother's Day, man. That's what. it is. And that's what it ain't, man. Um, you I want to say happy Mother's Day. to my mother. I know she watches this. show and I appreciate that.

Um, man, happy Mother's Day to all the. moms out. there. Uh, the ones that do it by. themselves and and some of y'all have. help. And. uh yeah, it's just. as we know you're doing it, somebody's. doing. it. And it ain't. us. It ain't us children. We get we. thought we some ch we think we did it. oursself. We didn't do.

So make sure to reach out to your. mother. Hit her with a happy uh Mother's. Day. Get her something. We got a uh one. of our commercials. They got a good. advertisement, something beautiful. You. get her some good items or something. Break her off something. Get your mother. something. Drive over there. Give her a. hug. Boy, keep your hands off that breast. though. Boy, you of age. now. You of age. Cuz that's always the. craziest. see some 9year-old at the. basketball game and he over.

there and he up under his mother wearing. a uh triple XXL men's polo shirt just so. that kid can get up under there and. knobble off on that tit and he. nine. bro dude I remember they had this one. kid little Bubby was his name and he. would go slip up under his mom's shirt. his mom I don't know if she was in a. wheelchair she was. just just.

just not you. know kind of looked like she was in a. wheelchair type and she had them. crazy breasts them kind you it looked. like uh they cracked open and were kind. of flooding out like them was I. don't even know if they are at a certain. point it was like she had them uh just. got damn them thing boy she had them. bean bag. She had them She had. them.

damn, you know what I'm saying? She. could find somebody take a break right. between her breast. You find two men, two factory workers over between her. breasts, getting a nap in and betting on. a horse racing cuz she had them big. break time tits, boy. She had them damn. baby bags. She had a damn a cow walk up and. try to feed off of them She had. them them front end loaders on her. What. were we talking about? Uh what were we.

talking about, Eastston? Mother's Day. Mother's Day. That's it, man. That is. it. Sorry, I went off on a tangent. Oh, but I remember they had his kid little. Bubby and he would go over by his mom's. uh by his mom. He'd get up he'd get him. a damn candy bar and get up under that. shirt and get on that. tit. You'd see him in there. He'd have. to pop his head out to catch more breath. to catch more air. He'd be. like, he'd stick his head out and then.

back under there candying and titting. Candying and titting under there. I'm 9. years old, brother. You're going to do. good on your test, son. No, he ain't. That kid's damn dumb, baby. Happy Mother's Day. Um, oh, I don't know what I'm going to. get my Well, I I get my mother some uh I. sent her a card and I sent that thing on. Monday, boy. So, what's going to be. there? Cuz for years, I'm that guy. I. send that late card. You know, I sent.

that B. She'll get that on. Father's Day. She gets that And. she did both jobs anyway. So, they. should make that they should make that. mother Father's Day card. the two in one. hitter. Now they should get that thing. released out there because you've heard. me say it before, man. The hardest. working man I've ever met is my. mother. Big facts. Happy Mother's Day to. you. Uh and to your mothers, make sure. to get that love line. Hit her with that. love line. Do something. Get over there.

Tickle her. You know what I'm saying? Buy her a bra that says keep out on it. and honor those words cuz you too tall. to be titten. You know that type. Boy, what's going on? Feeling a little. uh injured. today. I I I went uh picked up something. at the gym. Bam. Injured. Didn't. even And it was that kind of thing where. your back locks up in your. lung like that.

Just where. you It's like the wind got knocked out. of your. back and you know and your friend's. like, "What's going on?" and you're. like, you can't even talk. It. just you just So, I just left. I don't. know what they thought I had cancer or. whatever, but yeah, injured myself. Um, went to the massage place over here and. I go to the Chinese shop over there. That chop. shop. It say right on the sign, chop. shop, you know, and they selling.

rice right out the back of that. boy. They they'll remodel your uh they'll. remodel your spinal column. They'll. unjangle that and then hit. you with that damn 2 g of rice when you. roll out the. door. They got that in. there. And I got I whenever I go get. that massage at the uh Chinese place, I. get I ask for the big guy. I want big. guy. When I call him on the phone, he.

knows me. My buddy Yang over there, I. call him on the. phone. He said, "You come in." I said, "Big. Gay? You got Big. Gay?" Sometime he got him, sometime he. don't. Because I I've had the second. string. They said, "Big guy. Big guy. gone. Big guy gone." That's what he. said. I don't know what he meant, but I. think he he was trying to say big guy. gone. Right. And I spot him a letter. If. he ain't got it all, bro, he from. another country, you know? That's kind.

of guy I am. I'll give you a. vowel. Big guy gone. Gone. I got you. I. got you with that e twin. So yeah. He. said, "Big guy gone." So I went in there. and they had a second big guy in that. bro. The second And he ain't that big, bro. He kind of He. just He trying to like make his neck. long. Just trying to look big or. something, you know? He put on mittens. and cuz Asian they try to trick you. when you're looking at them. They trick.

you. They visual they're the. uh they're the the bok choy David Blaes. baby. Them will. they trick you, bro. They'll put. a piece of rice over each eye and tell. you they sleeping. That's who they are. They tricksters like that. But but I. said big guy. He said big guy gone. But. I showed up anyway. I took that second. that other big guy, bro. And he.

wasn't This little. this little woodpecker, this he. couldn't do He would. hammer just trying to hammer on me, bro. He just put one of his arms out was just. like that. Just would pecking me with. that elbow. Didn't do I'm. still. hurt. But anyway, what else? Big gay. I. want to be. gay, dude. I'll tell you this, bro. So, one time I'm in there and I was getting. a massage at this other joint. I went to.

this other joint and I'm in there, bro. And I I do the massage where it's like. this chair thing that you sit kind of. forward on. Eastston, can you bring that. up for me, brother? Yeah, I got you. And we're borrowing. Eastston today. He's helping us produce. And blessings to you, man. Um and and. Eastston works on um John Chris's. podcast. What's it called? Uh Net. Positive. net positive with John Chris. if you want to tap in with him. Um, what. did I ask? Do you remember? Pull up a.

chair picture. Get that massage chair. That front uh forward leaning. Let's go. with. that. Oh, yeah. Yeah. That's the kind. they have right there. They put your. face in a little um It's like a little. soft little toilet seat, but it's soft, but it's little. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. put. your face on that and then they just. start getting at you. Anyway, so yeah, I'll go in. He's got one of those chair. chair massages. So I sit in there and.

big guy, big. guy, big guy here, big guy gone, big guy. here. Big guy starts rattling on me, doing his big guy leaving. sweat on my back. I can feel it. Every. now and then I know he's really popping. back there if I feel a bead of sweat hit. my neck. So he back there. popping, right? And then I there's I. look over dude in the chair next to me. there's a kid getting a massage. right for I didn't even I didn't know.

this could happen right there like a. this kid look like kind of like the. Rizzler right like uh probably 9 year. maybe nine and like kind of reubenesque. you know uh chubbish or whatever they. call it this chubbish little kid and and. there's a guy just like just like just. rubbing on over just like massaging him, you know? And I didn't know a kid could. get him. I didn't know. And I'm like, am. I watching like a like what am I.

watching? Like is this a kid getting a. massage or is this like. a like is it legal or you know I just. didn't know? Uh yeah, I'm like and like. how long do you watch? It's such a. massage like if you know but yeah this. kid but it was so crazy this kid was. getting a massage like this kid got a. massage or was getting a massage this. kid. So they're massaging a kid. It's. during the school day. So I'm like what. is h you know what rich little kid skip.

school to get a massage. bro? Then anyway, so we're sitting there. and at some point somebody did a um a. fart, you know, somebody did a and I. think it was this kid, right? It was it. was crazy, dude. I'm I'm there. It's. already weird enough. Somebody's. massaging the kid. I'm getting. big. guy. Big guy is over there. working me in and and the little dude's. over here getting chopped out.

You know, this little six fifth. graders or whatever. this little fifth. graders, he's getting over there. chopped out by Chim Chop, your boy, right? And I'm like, can you even. massage a kid? I'm thinking, and then. somebody just. uh started a fart out of their body. And I think it was the kid, right? Cuz I. think, look, if you massage a kid, they're going to fart. They got to. strike back somehow cuz it's illegal to. touch them. So, and it sounded like it.

sounded like like I don't know. It sound. like somebody was drinking milk and then. just. like it was. just it sounded like. uh it just sounded like a ghost. wearing booty cologne that had just. climbed out of that child. And and and. I'm not saying it was definitely the kid. who was in there doing farts or. whatever, but you know, I don't know. You know, I'm no fing Luther King or. whatever. But I have a dream that somebody.

fighting in. here, but there was another guy in. there. So, it could have been other guy, you know. Uh, whoever that was, Lewis. Faracan. No, it's just a that's just a. activist joke. Anyway, um No, I Yeah, it. could have been this other guy in there. I don't know. Um cuz there was another. guy in there, just a guy like worked at. a bank or something or was like cheating. on his wife, some guy,

right? And they were they over there. shining him up. They over there really. getting into his shoulders and neck, you. know? He had two kind of medium guys. He. didn't have no big guy like I did, Uh but they chopping into him and. and that and but at some point the room. started to smell bad. Somebody chopped. off a real. fart and it sounded like somebody had a. like had put like milk on just like like. their butt had been drinking milk and. then just fought just did a fart. Bro,

it was cra. You could hear it just. sounded like some. uh like a like somebody had taken a. tight foot out of a wet boot, you know, out of a wet uh uh rubber boot. Just But. anyway, what is that? Happy Mother's. Day, bro. That's what I'm telling. y'all. I got a massage and you got to. take care of yourself when you get them. When I go into a massage place, first. thing I say, no uh pop.

pop. I say no pop pop. Touch a wing a. tap on my wiener two times. Pop. No pop. pop for. me. Uh that's what I say when I say uh when. I go into those places. Um we got uh an episode. Oh, and that. means don't touch me. Don't touch. No. Uh, don't touch this, you know. Don't. Don't we don't stay off my wiener. That's what I say, you know. Stay off my.

small guy. Huh? Stay off my small. guy. Big guy. No, no, medium. guy. But I tell him right when I walk. in, don't jerk me off. I do that myself. and I do it at home. I do it under, you. know, I do it under with closed blinds. or whatever. Music on, music off, whatever. I don't jerk off with the fan. on. I say that point blank. You see some. dudes, bro. I know I got.

buddies. You walk in their room, it. smell in there like they've been jerking. out and the fan is on, bro. Have some. respect, bro. Have you out there drying out your. root or whatever and you out there. popping off, bro? you out there freaking earning pearls. out of your own wiener out. there. So, praise God. Um, we'll get to uh an ad in just a. second. We got a new pope. Is that right. there, Eastston?

That is correct. And what did you think. about it? What's the news on him? You. got any information on him? He is the. first American pope. No way. He is. He. is from Chicago, Illinois. Dbears, boy. Wow. Yep. I'll pull up his. name. here. He's going by Pope Leo I 14th and. his name is Robert Pvost. Bobby Post, baby. And who do the Packers have? Aaron.

Rogers, dude. It's a wrap, bro. Jordan loved it, dude. Nobody. The. Pope. D, dude. We got the Pope, huh? Go Cubs. Hey Chicago, what do you say? We got the. Pope today, gang boy. We ride here. Big. gay. Big. gay. Damn, bro. Hope he hope he stops.

the massaging of children. You know what. I'm talking. about. We shut it down, brother. I don't. if we can say that. And how do we know. when they picked the pope? So they uh I guess all the cardinals. there's like a bunch of I don't know how. many. They all like silently secretly. like you know that thing you did in. school where you had to like close your. eyes and raise your hand and the teacher. counted. I guess it's like that where. they like secretly vote. Oh, and they. they don't decide until I think it's.

like a twothirds majority. So like heads. up sovereign up or whatever. Yeah. So. they if the pope I guess every day they. do it and if the pope hasn't been chosen. they do like black smoke out of the. chimney and then if the pope is get does. get chosen then it's white smoke that. comes out of the chimney. Oh really? So. how long did it take him to choose this. pope? I think just like two days cuz. yesterday it was black smoke and then or. two days ago it was black smoke and then. yesterday it was white smoke. Damn. So. it's only two days. Have we ever had a. black pope yet? No. Wow. Bro, that's.

what we got to get that black pope, boy. Big. gay. What about an Asian pope? Have we. had. it? Oh, we got to get a damn low Asian. pope, boy. Just a little bit of prayer fried. rice, boy. You feel me? I want to say. thank you to mom for having all the. answers. She had them all. She didn't. Some of they were wrong. Yeah. But she. had them all.

Imagine something just asking you. questions for 18 years and. more and you do your best to answer. everyone. Yep, that's a. mom. But this year, we're answering for. mom. And the answer is we're going to. give them flowers plus a real break. because moms are at it. 24/7. and flowers. It's nice. But you. know what they really want is a break.

from everyone's questions, from the. endless to-do list, from moming. Oh, I. still ask my mom so many questions. I. will call and ask my mom what shoe size. I. wear. I will I could look in my shoe. I. could do a ruler against my foot, but I. will call my mom and if she doesn't. answer it when I call, I will just not. know what my shoe size is for the day.

Oh, if I was a mom, I I would just put. earplugs in. That's what I would do. I. would tell my kids I would have like one. of those lights that taxis have above. them on the top of a taxi that says when. it's available or not. I would turn the. light off. Not available. And then I would, what would I do if I. were a mom? Oh, I would get in a big. bubble. bath. That's what my mom used to do. She. would yell. She'd yell at us and say. something and say we weren't going to be.

able to have something. Then you would. hear you'd hear her her slammer door. And then every now and then you'd hear. her get in that bubble bath right there. and maybe crack open a cold beer or. something. a cold little can of milk or. whatever. You hear her crack it open and. get that bubble bath. going. Sud so high you couldn't see, hear nothing. Is she in there? I don't. know what she and I think she would just. sit in there in the in and in the.

bubbles and have a little sip of beer or. cold. milk, something to get her through the. day, man. So, if I was a mother, I would. do that. Oh, and I forgot to add. This. Mother's Day, when you buy your mom. flowers, you'll get up to $75 as a Dash. Pass member, or up to $50 as a non-dash. pass member towards a family meal that. mom doesn't have to cook. A fun activity. so mom can play without planning, or a. self-care retreat in case mom just wants. some me time. Yep, that's.

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apply. Um, all right. You know, one of the last. episodes, the last solo episode we had. called uh Chili Boy or something like. that. Um, was it Chili Baby? Chili Boy. Chili Baby. Chili. Um, oh, Pickle Chili. And it was about a month ago and a man. called in who uh who had lost his um. girlfriend to. cancer. So, we're going to take a quick.

listen uh to that. Hey, um hope you're doing well. I'm uh. calling you today um to see if I can get. your perspective on something. um my uh girlfriend of four years, she. uh she passed away five and a half. months ago. Um she. uh it wasn't not a surprise, but you. know, she she had cancer. Um we thought. that she had a little more time, but um.

yeah. Um since then, I spent most of my. time doing nothing, you know. Um, I. would visit her grave every day for uh. months, which is good, I guess, for. getting out. He goes and visits her. grave every day, you would say, for. months onward. Man, thank you for. sharing this, brother. Of my apartment. Um, but I would just let the time pass, you know. But, um, recently I've.

started, uh, going back to school full-time and, uh, working again. And honestly, I feel. like I'm just doing it because it's uh. expected of me, you know, from like. people around me, my family and my. peers. Um I guess another reason for that is. I'm I'm pretty. young. But um so maybe some people just. expect me to move forward pretty fast, but you know, I I don't want to, you. know.

Um yeah. Um I just you know sometimes. here it feels like you're like I feel. like I was like left behind you know. Um. yeah thank you for the call brother and. um and we we we discussed this on a. previous episode but we had we got some. calls that came in and I wanted to. listen to some of them here uh just so. you can get an idea. As always the. hotline guy is is. 9856649503. And um here's a call that. came in about grief. We asked callers uh.

if they had any suggestions for that. gentleman and here are some of the. responses that we got. Heyo. Um man, love you show. Listen to. you every day or every time you make a. podcast. I'm actually listening to. Pickle Chili right now. Um and I heard. the caller call in about he lost a uh. his uh girlfriend or whatever and you. asked some people to call in, give some. ideas of how maybe he can handle this. situation. And look, I actually lost my.

daughter five years ago to this day. um from a brain aneurysm. And I guess. the only advice I can say is look, man, don't let nobody tell you how long you. should grieve. Uh it's going to be. different for everyone cuz not every not. every uh situation is going to be built. the same. So uh do it at your own speed, man. Um, there's going to be a lot of people. that's going to want to get involved and. tell you how you should do this, but you.

have to experience this the way that you. need to experience this to make it right. for you. Um, I have dreams about my. daughter often, man. And it's like, it's. funny cuz like in my dreams, I know. she's passed away and I know she's not. with her. So, while I'm dreaming, I try. to I just try to hug her and talk to her. and make that dream last as long as I. can. Um, you know, and look, bro, miss her. Miss her every day. I talk to my. daughter. I'm I I miss I mean, every.

night before I say a prayer, I talk to. my daughter. And I've been doing that. since the day she's passed away. And. look, last but not least, bro. Um, this. doesn't get easier. It It really. doesn't. It just becomes a new type of. normal if uh if that makes some sense, bro. Man, Steel. Gang gang. Love you, bro. Love you too, bro. Thank you, man. Man, man, that's.

just that's a lot. You know, it's that's. nice of him to call. He called out of. Louisiana. I see that area code 337 over. there. And you can hear the bayou in the. back of his throat right there. Um, yeah. I remember after my dad was. gone, even still sometimes if I'm having. like a tough day, whenever I go to sleep. at night, I'll. uh yeah, I'll hope that I get to see him. or that he shows up, you know, and then. sometimes it's like gets to be further.

sometimes it's like further and further. between times and then. um Yeah. And it just like you just wish. some like you hope that somebody will be. there but then sometimes they are in. your dream and yeah that's awesome man. that's a really nice uh sentiment to. share. Um thank you for that call. Let's. take another call. here. Hey Theo. Hey man. just wanted to.

call in uh in response listening to the. Pickle Chili podcast and uh the guy. Thank you for listening, man. I. appreciate that. Thank all you all. anybody who listened. Guy that lost his. um girlfriend and after 5 months wanted. to respond as somebody that's been. through that too. Uh lost my fiance um. high school sweethearts. Um yeah, day. before my birthday, she was in a car.

accident. And uh it's tough, man. It's. somebody that you've been with for 7. years. Um at a young age, I was uh 21, she's 20. So, it's kind of rough, but. just wanted to respond to him and let. him know the things that have helped me. and maybe it'll help him and somebody. else. And the biggest thing is I got all. those the same symptoms as him. um you. know didn't want to do anything uh you. lose your purpose in life and uh some.

things that you touched on Theo you know. uh you want to dream you want to feel. all that again and uh it's all true uh. but the thing that helped me the most is. is surround yourself with uh friends and. family and uh those things right there. the people that love and support you I'm. still close with her family and uh those. things help you get through it. So, anytime I'm having those rough days. and and weeks and and you just like you.

said, get out, hang surround yourself. with people that love you and your. friends. Go do some things with your. friends. They're always there for you. And uh I got a dog, you know, and that. really helped me get through that, too, man. You always got somebody excited to. see you when you get home. And uh that's. it, man. That's really the answer. Uh. you'll never forget. you'll never move. on uh completely. You hope to have a. normal life, but um the things that help. you push through it are going to be just.

love. Surround yourself with people who. love you. Amen, man. Yeah. There's a song I I there's a. song by this guy Steven Wilson Jr. Thank. you for that call and thank you to the. caller previously, too. And thank you. guys for both sharing uh your experience. with loss. Yeah, there's this song uh. grief is that uh by Steven Wilson Jr. and it's uh grief is only love that has.

nowhere to. go. And. um and I thought about. that. I thought about that since that. gentleman called in. Um because love is like love is this. feeling that it has to lands on someone. or an object. It has to land on a on. something right like a person place. It. has to it has to love has to have a. place to land if you love like you can. love yourself but.

um that's more like integrity and um. confidence and then it can even drift. into ego or whatever. But when you. really love, you love. someone, you know. And so love is really. it's an outward thing. It's it's not it's yours, but. it's if it's active, it's not yours. It's it's. a like a bridge almost kind of. And then.

um yeah, once that recipient is gone, once that place where it was. landing is gone, it's like um it almost. becomes it's crazy that something that. is so wonderful can become so painful. cuz then you have the all these same. feelings, but they don't have the place. to land. Um, yeah. I remember when my father. died. I remember I just I was at his. funeral and it was like the most like.

scariest thing ever. There was people. there that I didn't even I didn't know. any of. them. And uh my na. um this family that I just moved in. with, the dad took me over there and uh. and some of our neighbors went with me. And I just remember like. uh it was all these feelings that I. think I didn't even know that I'd had. that I wanted to be for my father and I. didn't even know I had them. And now it. was just like they were they hit a dam, you know? They just would never have a.

place to go. And I just remember like. just so much tears and like crying and. like it would be like going into the. cracks of the floor and I just wanted. to I just wanted to be one of those. tears. cuz I wanted to just. disappear. Um, uh, let's take some other calls, man. And we're not trying to make that like I. guess it can't help but. be like sad, but I think it's real,

right? Um, and it's real. This is, you know, life is real and it's full of real. things. And I'm just glad we don't have. to go through them alone. So, that's a. nice thought to have right now. Hey, Theo. Um, I'm replying to the gentleman. that had recently lost a girlfriend. Uh, I had lost my girlfriend back in 2018, so it's going on seven years now.

Um, it's tough. And it sounds like he. was looking. for answers. when, you know, the only thing that I. could say is like, it sounds like he's. on the right track. And if I was him, I. would just choose to live through the. memories that they shared together. Um, I remember my girlfriend always. telling me that, you know, she thought I. was a good teacher. And so now I'm in a.

field where I'm able to teach people. things. And I just feel like every time. I do, I just it reminds me of her and. there's just like it's no longer a. sadness anymore. There's a happiness in. it. And. yeah, you know, it's funny. Um, thank. you. Sorry, I'm Belgian. I had a little. bit of Celsius, but.

uh, thank you for the call, man. I Yeah, I remember my dad like one thing I like. one of the only things I remember he. said to me ever in my life was that I. was a survivor. He used to always say. that you're a survivor, you know, and. maybe he knew that because he was so old. that it was be something that I would. need. I don't know. But it's like it's. like one thing. that. I just feel like, you know, I relate to. or something. Um, you know, like I'm going to get. through this, I guess. You.

know, so I think that's really magical. that when you act out something that. somebody who loves you told you you. were, when you do those things, um, that you. are kind of servicing that relationship. that's no longer. there. You know, like if she says that. where you said this part, I remember my. girlfriend always telling me that, you. know, she thought I was a good teacher. And so now I'm in a field where I'm able.

to teach people things. And yeah, I. could totally see that, man. that by. then teaching that you feel like you're. honoring her and it makes you feel that. same way that you felt when she told you. it was something that you did really. well. Um yeah, it's interesting how we figure. out how to. [Music]. uh how to keep going in the world, all. of.

us. And that we want to that's one thing. that I think is amazing about life. uh is this will to survive, right? It's. like you have a man that lost his. daughter and. he's, you know, and. there's it's like he wants to go and at. least wake up and see the day every day. because, you know, probably through his. eyes, his daughter somehow gets to see. the day as well. You know, I think. there's just something in us that wants. to survive so much.

Um, and I don't even know what to say. about that or what I think about that. thought. Uh, but thank you for that call, man. Thanks for sharing that. Um, all right. Let's take one more call. Hey, Theo. This is Tyler from. Cincinnati. Hey, Tyler. Thank you for. calling, dude. Cincinnati over. there. Will the Bengals have a decent. defense? I don't know. All the money's. on the offensive side of the ball. it. feels like if they let Trey Hendrickson.

go. Now, with that said, is it a Joe. Burrow make orb breakak year? We'll see. about that, baby. Onward, brother. Um, I. don't have personal experience with a. loss of an immediate loved one, but I've. walked next to someone who has, and our. church offers counseling around that. And one of the resources we use is this. book called Dark Clouds, Deep Mercy. M I. highly recommend it to everyone who is.

dealing with loss and I buy it for. anyone close to me that I hear has a. loved one who they've lost and they've. found some peace from that book. Uh. yeah, hopefully that could be a resource. to some people who are listening. Thanks, Spike. All right. Yeah, thank you for that. suggestion, man. I know there's a lot of. grief books out there and stuff, but. it's just like how do you go through. it? Yeah. It's interesting. The young.

man who called earlier, the first the. original call was saying he felt like he. got left. behind. Yeah. It's just it's all kind of. fascinating. Um even though it's so sad. Uh I was look I was the other day this. came up on my feed when I was thinking.

about grief. Um and it's Jim Carrey once. said or this site attribute attributes. it to him. Grief is not just an emotion. It's an unraveling. A space where. something once lived but is now gone. It. carves through you, leaving a hollow. ache where love once resided. In the. beginning, it feels unbearable, like a. wound that will never close. But over. time, the raw edges begin to mend. The.

pain softens, but the imprint remains. A. quiet reminder of what once was. The. truth is, you never really move on. You. move with it. The love you have does not. disappear. It transforms. It lingers in. the echoes of laughter, in the warmth of. old memories, in the silent moments. where you still reach for what is no. longer there. And that's okay. Grief is. not a burden to be hidden. It's not a. weakness to be ashamed of. It is the. deepest proof that love existed, that.

something beautiful once touched your. life. So let yourself feel it. Let. yourself mourn. Let yourself. remember. There is no timeline. There's. no right way to grieve. Some days will. be heavy and some will feel lighter. Some moments will bring unexpected waves. of sadness while others will fill you. with gratitude for the love you were. lucky enough to. experience. Honor your grief, for it is.

sacred. It is a testament to the depth. of your heart. And in time, through the. pain, you will find healing. Not because. you have forgotten, but because you have. learned how to carry both love and loss. together. Man, that's a pretty. powerful. Yeah. Whenever I had heard. that quote that Yeah. that grief is only. love that has no place to go. It's a. great song too by Steven Wilson Jr. Um I don't believe that the quote is.

his, but it's a uh it's a great song. Um yeah, like you have memories and. sometimes even just telling a funny. story about someone. um that's gone can almost make you have. the same feeling as if they uh are still. alive. sometimes. [Music]. Um. but yeah, thank you guys for anyway.

listening to that. I know some of that. stuff's kind of heavy and stuff to think. about, but it's nice to take moments to. think about people uh and just hear what. just be. alive. Yeah, it's nice to just be alive. [Music]. Um yeah, I don't mean that. I just mean. it's. um I don't know what I mean. Anyway, yeah, thank you everybody who made some. calls and called in. Uh there was a lot. of nice calls and suggestions. Um, we.

try to put some together there. Um, you know, I wanted to say something. There's been something that's just been. kind of on my heart and so I feel like I. I should bring it up. Um, there. is, you know, we've had people on the. podcast in the past to talk about it. Um, and there's just a there's a conflict. that's been happening in the Middle. East. people know about it. Um, between Israel and Palestine and.

some of the areas over there, the Gaza. area they talk about and. uh and I just think it's it feels to me. I don't know if I it just it feels to me. like it's a genocide that's happening. while we're alive here in front of. our in front of our lives. Um, and I I I. don't sometimes I feel like I should say. something. I'm not a geologist or.

geographer or anything like that, you. know? So, I don't know a lot of the some. of it I do know though. Like I know the. basics of the issues over there. But for. me, it's just like how I feel like you. see all these photos of uh. people just children, women, people. body parts, just people like putting. their kids back together. Um, and I just can't believe that we're. watching that and that more isn't said.

about it. Um, and so I'm not saying. anyone else needs to say anything, but I. think I'm just that more isn't said. about it by me. So, I just uh I want to. be able to speak up about that that I. think we're watching probably. like, you know, one of the sickest. things that's ever. happened. And uh and I'm sorry if I've. kind of haven't said about it. I've. tried to talk about it and learn about. it. Um but I don't know, maybe I just.

want. to I just wanted to say something. I. don't even know what to. do, you You know, and it's crazy cuz our. country is also complicit in in it, you. know, it's uh in in it and has been for. a long time. And. um and it's just kind of interesting. because then you just realize, oh, well, I'm just a yeah, I'm a member of this. country, but I'm. just what we want sometimes doesn't. matter, you know, and you just have to. be a member of a place and your. government is making other choices.

Um, so I don't know if I've I don't know. if I said that correctly or I don't even. know exactly what I said, but I just I I. just have it just like been making me. really sick and I feel like I just. needed to say. something that I think you don't have to. think. that. I'm not asking you to do anything. Um, but I just have to say that so I'm. not sitting. by, you know, there's that piece inside.

of me like why why wouldn't you can't. you say something? You know, there's. people that can't even speak and you can. say something, you know, and so that's. how I I just had to just speak up. Anyway, I think maybe it's starting to. make it about me there at the end, but. um yeah, so just praying for those. people and just the grief that that is. all going to. cause, you know, like what are we.

doing? But um and I know that this has. happened to other ethnicities and other. cultures. I know that it's happening to. other places, too. Um, I just don't see. that as much. And so, uh, yeah. Anyway, um, anyway, that was kind of a. downer ending, but big. guy. So, Mother's Day is a good day to. just be a reminder to love people,

whether it's your mother or a kid or a. puppy or a um, little alligator, whatever you got over there. you know, even if it's a memory, you know, get a. picture out of somebody that was a. member of your life or that loved you. and spend a few moments with them, you. know, or that's what I'm going to try to. do, you know. I got a couple pictures of. my dad. I think there's a couple. memories that I keep of him that are. like that are just mine, it feels like,

you know. Um, yeah, there there's a couple. memories of him that I feel like are. just. mine. And so, yeah, I can just, you. know, I can you can spend time with. those. You're the only two people that. have those in the world is you and that. other person. So, that's a. really that's one of a kind. So, that's. really something cool that you can do. Um, but anyway, this getting. long. Uh, happy Mother's Day. Thanks for.

letting me be a part of your life today. Thanks for being a part of my life. today. Um, and I don't even know how to end this. What to do? I don't even have any music. on today. So, big. gay. big. gay. Uh, but yeah. Anyway, quit. listening to me. Text your mom. Even if. you hate her, text her and be like, "Hey, ma. Love.

you." And then just send a wink emoji. after. That's how you look. Hey, it's a start, right? Uh you guys be. good to yourselves, baby. Praise God. Thank. you. Oh, and Eastston, thank you so. much, Eastston, for helping us out. today. Dude came over. We never even. met. We never even met. What are you. getting your mom for Mother's Day, Eastston? I think we uh me and my. siblings went in on something. I don't. really know what it is yet. I found out. on Mother's Day as well. Type.

dude. The craziest is when you buy. something to your siblings, right? They. picked it out, they show up with it, mom. opens it, she likes it, but you don't. like it. Yeah, it's happened a. few times. That's. crazy. That's like, dude, that's one of. the cra that's guy that's why being a. mom has to be so crazy. Something crawls. out of your body, right? Hangs out in. the kitchen for probably 15 years, right? Um, and then. basically I don't sorry I don't there.

wasn't an ending to that but. uh yeah dude that would be the thing. somebody got my mom one of those boat in. a bottle things ship in a. bottle. You know what I'm talking about? Yeah. Yeah. We all gave my sister some. money and she was going she was she'd. been using or whatever or mountain. climbing or whatever she called it. But. she um we gave her the money. She shows. up. We each gave her like 80 bucks. She. shows up. She supposed to have something.

nice for her mom. She got her one of. those. ship in a bottles. dog. Had no change with. it. Like get me that. change, Come on, big. guy. Uh all right, man. Thank you, Eastston, bro. Much obliged. Appreciate. you. Um, and uh, make sure to check out. Net Positive with John Chris and um, and. Eastston on there. And um, you guys be. good to yourselves, baby. Okay. Now I'm.

just floating on the breeze and I feel. I'm falling like these leaves. I must be. corner. stone. Oh, but when I reach that ground, I'll share this piece of mind I found. I. can feel it in my. bones. But it's going to take.