Adult Asthma | This Past Weekend w/ Theo Von #299

you know i was um. i was looking at some drawings of uh. native americans and. you know i realized i couldn't even. it's sad to admit but i couldn't even be. native american. and no offense to anybody that's an n a.

no offense to you guys. i love your work i've seen you know most. of what i've seen is drawings but. you know i love but i love y'all's work. and i mean that you know. i love all you know i respect native. americans. um if i you know i was born too late in. the world. if i was born earlier i probably would. have. you know try to smooth things over a.

little bit better whenever. you know you guys kind of had the. falling out with the. with some of the whites to be honest. i would have said hey hey you know. let's figure this out guys but. i think both of you guys are kind of. high tempered it seems like. if i'm really honest if i look back in. some of the drawings it seems. you know uh.

oh excuse me a little belt or burp i. don't know which one is which. oh they're both disgusting i feel like. air is just kind of just raping my. throat every time it happens. oh i hate that. but um but yeah again i want to. apologize to any. you know i know we have some native. american listeners some. nals basically or something you know we. know what i'm talking about. we have us we have some native american. listeners i have native american in me.

okay i probably got half a pint okay i. probably got half a pint i probably got. six teaspoons of chippewa or something. daddy's got it in them. i can feel it sometimes in the middle of. the night. you know i'll hear something outside. i'll hear something about 40 paces away. and i don't use the term paces very. often so that's right then when i know. that i say odess. that's a very select ounce or two of me. that's listening.

there and that's that native american in. me. but yeah i want to apologize to native. americans on behalf of kind of some of. the ways stuff went down. you know it's uh it was just kind of a. wild time i think. and you know you can't win them all i. guess. you know i don't know what to how do we. shake. you know merge the past in the future so. i don't know. i don't even know what i'm talking about. what was i talking about uh.

[Music]. [ __ ] i don't even know man. oh my god dude i had what a week. what a weekend what i mean what uh. my weekend was great it was my weekend. was tough um. it was it was everything. you know it was everything weekend it. was like one of those bagels that have. ever you know.

everything on it it just looks like your. spice rack just took a. you know took some bread and just did a. damn gang bang on it. but um. but yeah so you know we do what we can. uh and um. yeah let's look let's crack into the. episode. i think that's the way to do it and uh. and i'll just share more you know.

just try and share about what's going on. um. yeah you know i need help sometimes i. need some help. sometimes i need some help so. you know when and it's hard to say that. it's hard to say that i need some help. sometimes and sometimes i do uh let's. get into this episode here we go.

you always are the one who. keeps together you always are the one. who knows just what we need. you always are the one who stays home. with the baby. you gonna be the one who stays right.

here with me. well i've been working fingers down. [Music]. hard as i can just find some. [Music].

why. [Music]. this is our time. this is our time.

and that right there that's uh grady. spencer and the work. and they're hitting you with that hot. tune right there. they're upgrading your ear stems right. there with that hot tune. grady spencer and the work our time is. that. song that listening piece. and ah and we're here we're here we're. here we're moving in it's october.

you know we're moving in and we're. moving forward and. you know i had a tough weekend man i you. know i don't want to you know. i've just had a tough i i've just had a. tough time recently. um and i don't like to. you know it's hard for me sometimes with. uh. to not to to share how i feel and not. sound like i am complaining.

or like i ha i'm not or just having a. lot of self-pity. um and it's it's it's hard for me to do. you know it's hard. you know i think it's become tougher. when i was on this podcast to talk to us. about how i feel because. i i don't. i don't want to. i don't want to complain and i don't. want to be seen as a complainer. um and you know it's you know it's.

interesting. you know as my career has gone on over. the past few years and. has gotten busier uh. you know i start to feel like oh well. nobody wants to hear what your problems. are. if they think that your. life is. good or that you you know here i am. getting to live out. my dreams.

and so to then still come back and have. a. have complaints have uncomfort. uh that stuff sounds i don't know it's. just hard it's hard to share it's hard. to. um it's scary it's scary to share. because i'm like well. you know who's who nobody wants to. listen to somebody complain that. that has you know that has uh.

that's like living their dream it just. doesn't. so it's just been tough man i just have. not been feeling that good i think. especially about the past six or nine. months and. i try to talk about it sometimes but i. don't know what's going on. you know i don't know what's going on um. and uh and so you know you just keep. showing up and. you know i had i just had a moment this. past week and.

uh while i was getting a drink the other. night i was gonna drink and. you know i don't know if i have a. drinking problem i know that i don't do. well when once i get hold of cocaine. i don't do super great. you know i do not do super great if i am. doing cocaine. so the other day you know i had the. shows up in new jersey with trevor. wallace and he's amazing and it was. great and francis ellis beautiful fella. tall fella too i mean tall white i mean.

if somebody did something to the native. americans i'm gonna. it was somebody he you know probably. somebody he knew or in his. gene pool you know if you drink a. a half cup of out of his gene pool you. could definitely taste a couple native. americans. you know losing their land i'll say that. um but one of the smartest. and uh and hardest working guys. is francis ellis no shortcuts with that. felon and so beautiful to you know just.

to see him and spend time with him and. and. trevor's and trevor's uh you know i i. just i respect both those guys so much. and so i was. i was happy to be out there with them. and the first show was amazing it was. one of my favorite shows ever. uh out there in um in new jersey. in the state of new jersey up there in. northeastern america. and then the second show was.

it was it was good it just it was all. over the place kind of. you ever look for something you just. can't find it it was kind of like that a. little. um and that's my perception as well. you may have been sitting there and had. a great time but uh. but you know i like it to be just you. know. i'll always want it to be perfect for. everybody um. and so anyway i think everybody did have. a great time but but anyway those just. that's just kind of how i felt about. them.

um but the day was just that day was. just rough and i'd. you know i'd been uh i went to the. i went to the airport in the morning. from nashville and i. flew to the wrong airport in in new york. and i flew into laguardia. and that's about an hour and a half away. from the venue. whereas um.

newark was about 40 minutes from the. venue so just e it would have been a lot. easier so i flew into the wrong. airport and i had to get an uber. so i took an uber an hour and whatever. it was. hour and 40 minutes hour and 20 minutes. it was a it was a waste. uh and i was just stressed out man. you know i just really you know i've. been trying not to drink for a while. and i just kind of decided in my head. you know man i'm i'm in a drink i'm.

going to drink when i get to this hotel. i'm just going to have myself a damn. drink. you know and i don't think and i i've. never been the kind of person to just. drink and drink and drink. i don't like that i don't like hell i. don't like having to get up and go pee. so i i don't want to have a bunch of. drinks. you know but the reason i don't drink is. because i just get worried that then if. i get approached with. cocaine you know where that dust that. jack jack. then i'm gonna be out there son i'll be. out in your garden.

you know i'll be out there in your. recycling bin with a couple of raccoons. baby. doing dirty baby doing dirty works. that's where my mind kind of goes and. but i just decided man. you know i got this i got a hotel room. with this place called oyster point. hotel. because they have the place is kind of. it's a little bit of it's kind of shitty. and i like that it's kind of nice though. it's like shitty nice you know. it's like that um.

like you ever been to a funeral but they. got uh like a thing of mints right by. the coffin. like a little snack bowl or whatever. right by the call like a little. oh yeah you know you know uh. you know keith is dead but also. you know have a mint that kind of place. so i. it just had that kind of vibe and um. anyway i get there and i thought in my. head well the whole time i'm riding. there i'm just furious and the guy.

oh the uber driver. kept telling me he had asthma and about. his. journey with asthma. dude we got bigger. fish to fry in the world right now than. somebody having. an asthma journey bro. maybe if you can't breathe well maybe. god don't. want you around yeah have you thought.

about that huh puff puff. maybe if you can't take a hit off the. world. correctly maybe the lord's looking for. you. so anyway an hour and a half i listen to. you know captain [ __ ] camp puff. talk about his 65 years dude with 65. 65 years of lung issues and he had. crosses hanging. everywhere in the uber he had.

i mean there was a cross there was. there's a cross here. you know at one point i reached behind. my ear and i pulled out a cross like he. had there was. i don't know if this guy lives if he had. a vampire as an ex-wife i don't know. what's going on. but the lord i mean i guess the lord was. with us. for sure it was an uber pool because. they had there's no way there weren't a. couple of straight-up disciples in the.

trunk. so i'm riding with this dude captain. asthma and uh. and he kept pulling oh this was the. worst part. and i'm just thinking oh god. um and i made it up the black belt oh. god. i was in taekwondo for many years as a. as a. teen okay well good um. so what i'm saying is this that uh so. i've been thinking about i was thinking.

about drinking i was thinking about. drinking i'm thinking okay when i get to. this hotel. they have a nice restaurant there that's. one thing it's just. i really love it place that have a nice. restaurant nice place to eat you're. sitting looking right out the water. beautiful so you could be eating a fish. and taste right where it came from. you could be eating a fish right there. having you a little bit of pond a pond. carp or whatever. you know north african pond carp or. something you gutting down some of that. and you'll see its family member swim. right up by the window and look at you.

just hit you with that one eye you know. hey that's my dad. you know. and so i guess i kept romanticizing in. my head okay i'm gonna sit there i'm. gonna have me some food i'm gonna have. me some drinks. uh and i'm just gonna relax. man um and so you know. anyway we go oh the guy kept having to. pull over to breathe. fresh air. the guy kept having to pull over to.

breathe. fresh air in new jersey. off the turnpike there ain't no fresh. air. there ain't no fresh air about a. turnpike dude. bring a bag of air from somewhere else. fill up a balloon from damn kansas or. something. and get that thing you know get that. thing trucked in or trained in.

oh. so we pull over this is the second time. we pulled over to get fresh air in. i'm not sure where it was some little. town. uh and a guy. comes up to the car we stop it's. literally like we have to stop for a. minute. and he will the first time he put his. head out the window and the second time. he got out of the. vehicle to breathe this is.

this and i'm just i'm like. it's already this is a 200 uber. and it was a small car. okay it was small. and some of you guys are thinking well. theo you know you've made some money why. don't you get a nice get somebody. i agree but that's just not who i am i. don't that's not. i don't like to get i try to be thrifty. you know that's just who i am i don't.

you know that's just who i am it's just. in my nature. you know sometimes i don't want to. sometimes i don't want to give myself. you know the creature comforts i don't. want to take care of myself like that. and i probably should. because then i just get more stressed so. anyway dude we're out there and a. brother i'll be honest straight up. brother urban brother whatever however. you want to term it. you know um comes up.

and starts asking if we want to buy some. drugs. um and the asthma guy the. uh. the driver starts asking me. like it kind of directs him towards me. like i don't [ __ ]. like what is going on here i don't i the. guy i. i'm i am i'm i'm paying to be on this. shh this shitty. adventure with freaking billy bad.

lungs up here who can't handle the world. and now i gotta tell i don't want any. drugs that dudes. starts looking at two of the crosses if. they're for sale like dog we ain't doing. this [ __ ] right now. like i'm just you know what y'all doing. around here. we're here because he this guy. this guy wants some [ __ ] this guy. wants some fresh air. by this railroad tracks and by these. walgreens.

that's why we're here that's why we're. here. and just nobody wants to believe you bro. when you're out there like that. so i'm just fear and i'm just like i. can't wait to drink now i'm gonna drink. gasoline i'm thinking about i'm thinking. i'm gonna drink ethanol i'm gonna drink. i am going to have someone else do a two. two three four five eight balls. a 40 ball i'm have somebody do at least. a 32 ball of cocaine then i'm gonna. drink their blood that's where i'm at.

that's where i'm at i'm not doing super. well. so we get rid of old dude. you know and uh and we hit the we hit. the road and it's the last time. and um finally we get to the hotel and. the lady says where are you coming from. and i said uh just flew in from. tennessee. and she goes well. unfortunately since you flew in through. a high risk state.

you uh you can't access any of our. communal areas which means the. restaurant. uh and the gym um. she goes however we are gonna open the. gym after midnight if you if you wanted. to get into there. and i'm like i don't know what. you know what that's not that's that's. not a real. moment um but okay uh.

so anyway so now i'm just furious man. because the one reason i wanted to stay. at this place. you know in this expensive place it's. 300 bucks a night you know when they got. the toilet in there like the fraternity. house when the one with the silver. handle out the side you know where you. pull that little. like it's like a straight handle like oh. you can see the plumbing coming out of. the back. like it's a it was really nice. 30 years ago but the nice thing there is. though there's the restaurant.

and the staff too nothing about the. people. [Music]. um so anyway man uh. so now i'm angry i'm angry man. and i've been angry man i've been angry. for months and i just i'm angry and i. said well kelsey you know. that was her name i said kelsey i. wouldn't do that to you. i said we'll catch you at least. like you know she goes you can order. room service. and i was like but the reason i even.

picked this hotel. was because i wanted to eat in the. restaurant. and i wanted to sit in there and have a. drink that's what i wanted. i'd romanticize this i want to sit in. there and i want to have a damn. d-r-i-n-k okay. and i just rode two hours with captain. can't inhale over here. this beleaguered senior citizen i don't. i mean that guy.

there's no way that guy's still alive i. mean this guy was on his last. lung bro so anyway. anyway she said i'm sorry you can't go. in there. you can we'll have food we can have food. delivered to your room so i was upset. and i went up to my room. um and then i ordered food in my room i. had like. i had about 50 minutes till i had to be. at the venue. and i ordered the food in my room uh. and i prayed man honestly i mean i just.

hit my knees and prayed i just said you. know god i need some help man. you know i'm just so angry and i don't. know why. and um. and i got in the shower and and. uh and then the guy brought my food up. and the drink i'd ordered a jack and. diet. and it wasn't the drink really that i. wanted but i just. i don't know that's what that's what i.

ordered and. and and. there was something about the fact that. i kind of romanticized the idea i'm. going to drink but i'm going to drink. down in this nice restaurant it's going. to be you know this love i'm going to be. able to look out at the water it's going. to be cool i'll make the fish. his family's gonna swim by it's gonna be. kind of like one like a part of the. godfather a little bit. it's gonna be interesting and instead uh. the fact that i couldn't have the drink. there in that place like once it got to.

my room i just didn't want it. and so i said well if i'm still feeling. bad later i'll have it and um. and i ate my food and went to the shows. and uh and that was that. so i mean i only tell that story just. because you know. i'm trying not to drink. and sometimes it's really hard.

and that was one that was just one of. those times i mean. and i don't talk about it that much on. here i like to keep that kind of stuff. sometimes. separate because i don't want to have to. like every week report. on how i'm doing with being sober or. feel like i have to. uh you know because it's my own journey. um but it was interesting that once.

it was interesting because then i got. this perspective that oh well god's. doing for me what i can't do for myself. because. if that if they would have allowed me to. go into that restaurant. i wasn't even gonna put my bags in my. room i was gonna go sit in there i. hadn't eaten all day i was gonna go sit. in there. i had four cookies on the plane but i. was gonna go. sit in there and uh. i think. and now i i just hear here's what i'm. saying is i i realized at that moment i.

was like oh i didn't. that if i would if i if i would have. been able to go in. just right into the restaurant i wasn't. even take my bags to my room. if i would have been able to go right to. the restaurant i was just gonna go sit. in there and order a drink. and um and i just you know i'm just. trying not to. and i just i guess i want to tell that. story just. i don't know i think you know. i think god was doing for me what i. can't do for myself. you know he's he he and.

and at first it was made me so angry but. then i'm like man if i would have. if that restaurant would have allowed me. in then i would have drank. you know i would have drank and. anyway i know you know that doesn't. matter to some people but when you're. trying not to. um and you just got so much anger built. up and you don't even know why. uh it just gets i don't know it gets.

heavy sometimes. elephants are a good sound it just. um. yeah i i don't know and so yeah the. drink just sat there. and it melted and and i don't know i'm. not saying that i won't that i'm not. gonna drink sometime i don't know what. i'm going to do but. i just got to get some help i just got. to start feeling better. and i'm not trying to complain um.

but i just don't feel i don't feel. good. you know and i i don't feel good and i. want to i want to enjoy my life. you know i want to be able to enjoy my. life. and be of service to other people and. and i'm just having a tough time doing. that right now. because i don't feel great so. i'm not trying to complain i'm not.

trying to have self-pity i'm trying to. take action uh. you know i'm trying to see a new. therapist um. i'm looking into getting a new sponsor. uh through 12-step. stuff and um. but yeah i don't know i just i just. wanted to kind of tell some of that. story and uh. and then i want to let you guys know. that it has been reported that americans. are overpaying. on car insurance by over 21.

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listeners get 10. off with your first month at. betterhelp.com. theo that's betterhelp.com theo. um yeah a good intro song there by grady. spencer and the work. from their album celebrate and that song. is called our time. but yeah i just haven't been feeling. good. you know i just have been feeling a lot. of stress and i don't know.

and i just been feeling angry. and. and i almost you know i almost don't. want to say that. uh i almost don't you know. i don't because i'm scared i guess. i'm scared of what people are gonna. think i'm scared of what you're gonna. think. um. but i don't feel that great and i don't.

feel that great enough of the time where. it's a. you know it's a recur it's a it's. something that i have to just i gotta do. more. [Music]. um. you know so so i'm i'm gonna try i mean. i did some things today you know i went. for a run in the middle of the day i. didn't want to.

but i did it um. i'm getting my blood work done just. check to make sure that everything's. okay inside of me to make sure you know. just staying on top of that um. you know i'm gonna go to an aaa meeting. later today and just uh. i spoke to some of my you know 12 step. friends on the phone and and i think. some of it is just. too much of me you know a lot of my life. has you know. um you know i think. some something that will help me is.

doing stuff for other people. so i need to try and lean into that a. little bit more um. but i'm just tired i feel every day like. i'm fighting something and i don't know. what it is. and i feel every day like i'm like like. i'm just constantly just. pushing trying to i don't even know what. i'm pushing or what i'm pushing against.

um. uh i'm trying to explain it but i. thought i'm trying to. like feel it and share it at the same. time. um and i'm not trying to have self-pity. on myself i'm trying to be. active you know i used to get bummed out. for years and i would just lay. lay in bed man be be sad and sleep. definitely helps. but i can't do that forever you know i. have to take action in my life i have. friends and.

people that need me and. and i want to be healthy so i can. you know i feel like i feel like god. wants me to be able to be a part of. helping people or being a part of. people's lives. you know i want to be a part of that. river of like comfort in the world and. river of like healthiness and stuff and. and i just can't be a part of it if i'm. not feeling good myself so. anyway i'm not gonna try and dwell on it. too much but it was just amazing that.

man i wanted that drink man and that. just the simple thing that that lady. said the restaurant is not open to you. and i and i was so angry but really. that was a higher power saying hey. [Music]. you know let me do for you what you. can't do for yourself right now and. and i did feel like that was pretty. powerful. um so. oh.

but yeah i talked a little bit uh here. let's get in here let's take a call or. two here we go. let me shut up i just sometimes on this. podcast even i feel so bad just talking. all the time. because it's always me you know um. it's always me hey theo this is. johnny from new jersey what's up johnny. from jersey baby. and no no no relation to jersey mike's. over there and they got the sweaty meat. they got the meat that seemed glossy on.

the outside. like somebody you know parked a a 84. chevrolet over to meet for half an hour. and left it running. and now it's got that slick look on it. gang um. just left this show it was a great time. um i think you're doing good making. people laugh during these hard rough. times. i just want to say keep it up and we all. support you here we had a blast over. there we were. crying laughing and uh.

we'll always uh support you brother so. gang gang. man thank you dude that was real timely. and i appreciate it man. yeah i think sometimes i just put all. this pressure maybe on myself i don't. know like if if i don't do something. right the right way that. that people aren't gonna care anymore. and so then it makes me kind of i think. afraid to like do anything.

you know if i'm not the right amount of. funny or the right amount of serious or. the right i just. you know i put this impossible. and i don't even know if i do it. consciously that's the thing it's not. like choices i'm making it's like. you know i think probably when i was. young i felt like if i didn't behave a. certain way that people weren't going to. care about me.

that like the care that i received from. people. was directly correlated to how i behaved. and i was only going to be cared about. if i behaved an exact way. and i could never figure out what that. way was.

so i think you know sometimes probably. in my life that's why. you know i've always probably a lot of. me has been searching you know this. searching for some. how do i crack this code how do i get. this. how do i what numbers you have to line. up correctly.

to get the care that i need you know um. but yeah i think um. you know and i was never good at saying. when i needed help. i was never good at saying hey i need.

help you know i. and it's so funny because even as a. child you know i was a loud man i was. always saying. something. but it was all like. it was all just hot air man the thing i. needed to say was just. then i need i i need i need some help. you know i need somebody. i need to feel that somebody cares about.

me. you know that's what i needed it when i. was young. um but i had that emotional asthma man. when you think about i had that. emotional asthma i just. because i just didn't know i just didn't. know i didn't know what was going on. um and i'm not trying to sound whiny you. know i know i keep. saying that but i'm not like. you know oh man nothing's ever going to. be good.

i'm not i'm not feeling that way i'm. just trying to feel. what feelings are inside of me so i can. so i can take some action um. and some days man i just it's hard to be. funny sometimes some days it's hard to. just. it's hard man it's just like i got in. here today and i was like [ __ ] what am i. gonna do. you know but then i get this voicemail. right here um.

i just want to say keep it up and we all. support you here we had a blast. over there we were crying laughing and. uh we'll always uh support you brother. so gang gang. you know and that changes the script in. me because then then i hear oh we'll. always support you. you know we'll always support you um. and it's just something you know i think. it's something that you you got to tell. your kids when they're young is that. you know just that you love them no.

matter what they're doing no matter what. like no matter what. because i always felt like everything. every. next step of my comfort was dependent. upon. how i was behaving at that second at. that moment. it was all so dependent upon like how. whenever my mom got home how was she. feeling. you know it didn't matter how i was.

feeling however she was feeling then. that's how. the night was gonna go. you know a lot of there just wasn't room. for my feelings. um. and so a lot of times i think when i was. young i just didn't have them. and so then that's why i have more of. them now sometimes because i think. you know feelings are they're patient. they're real real patient but at some. point they trying to leave the bus. station.

so i think some of them they just i have. them later on and i have them now and. um. yeah i don't know i'm just trying to. think out loud and. you know because a lot of people have. said to me over the years that you know. you know theo i like. when you share what's going on with you. because sometimes you say stuff that i i. can feel. and uh and you guys do it to me. you know like this guy right here hard. rough times.

um i just want to say keep it up and we. all support you here. we had a blast over there we were crying. laughing. and uh we'll always uh support you. brother. so gang gang. yes you know it's just we got a good. group of support here and. i think it's cool man but um thank you. again for the nice message man i really. yeah and i'm yeah i don't i don't know. why you know this episode just whatever. it is man i'm tired i'm.

just [ __ ] tired i'm tired of having. to like uh. sometimes not just be able to be how i. want to be. and i know that you guys didn't make it. that way i know that sometimes i've made. it that way in my own head. i know that sometimes just the past like. you know life. this work got busier the past year and a. half. um you know i was sitting yesterday. talking to somebody and telling that i. went to. tour in europe and man i i hardly have. any. recollection of it.

i guess cry you know i hardly have it. just. things were just just things just fast. just fast just. you know just a lot um and it's a. blessing and that's not what i'm saying. i'm just saying. that uh that for a guy like me that. feels a lot of stuff it's a. lot it's a lot sometimes um. but the best part man i will say the. best part it was such a gift man when i. showed up over to the show i did i.

didn't drink i felt so good about myself. i said man how did i don't know how you. did it. you know when i called a friend when i. was in the car and i even told him on. the way there i said hey man this. if this uber driver gets back in the car. soon or if he doesn't i don't know but. i'm drinking. you know and he sent me a link to some. video and it was some. i don't even know some of them baseball. thing i don't know it was the worst. thing ever but. but just the fact that i broke up that. that the thought in my head.

it just kind of gave weaken that power. and then i got to the place and they. said oh we can't go in a nice restaurant. you gotta eat up in your room by the. fraternity toilet. said damn i mean even this [ __ ] this. place was old bro they had old shows on. television like what the [ __ ] dog. dude i turned on golden girls a couple. all all of them were still alive. on the show that's how this thing was. old. um there was a george bush senior.

advertise like vote for george bush. senior. one of the commercials like this. everything in there was old. it was and i was angry. but that place has an amazing restaurant. and i got up to my room and here was the. crazy part that my room wasn't even. facing like the water it was just facing. like the parking lot. and i'm like uh if this good thing it's. only four story i'd jump out the damn. window right now.

good thing it's only four stories and. that's concrete looks i could handle. that it was not concrete it was uh. asphalt i could live off four stories in. asphalt i'll live. you can ask any gypsy that i'll live. there dude kushner. but if i go four stories on the concrete. i'm probably not gonna. i'm not surviving oh shout out to the. dude too that came out to the late show. in the wheelchair man. and he had in enable legs his legs was. enabled by a um.

dirt bike a dirt bike and. just did him dirty and man he had such a. great attitude man it. he had such a great attitude man i. really i just. i really i you know almost wanted to. just cut off one of my damn legs and. give it to him. and then me and him could just. three-legged race around the world. together no homo bro. you feel me dog you stay on your side of. the leg i'll stay on my side of the leg. at night. but but anyway.

well i guess you couldn't do i guess if. you gave. yes somebody a leg but then i don't know. how that but anyway yeah no homo dude. 100. bro but also dude yeah you know but if. somebody is gay then also. yes homo i don't want anybody to think. that i'm not you know. being cool to gay people or anything so. no homo and yes homo dog. gang [ __ ] um. what else here's someone else that came.

and they came out to the show let's take. up more show calls. hey what's up this is steve coming at. you currently from. the highway even into virginia what's up. steve out there on the road baby. and i've driven out on the road now i. like to get me a little bit of caramel. corn when i'm out there driving or. riding brother. onward uh originally from long branch. new jersey. you're actually just uh about five. minutes from my whole. hometown over there in uh blue grotto.

oh yeah he's out there about a dog track. and a lot you know you could smell oh. dude you could smell a damn dachshund. from the stage man you could hear the. dog track over there. people betting on a dog and losing a. there's nothing sadder than somebody. gambling on a damn dog. track because the information at least. if it's a horse you can get some. information you can get a little bit of. intel on them. but a damn you know somebody got you. know a walmart. you know somebody got a rottweiler [ __ ].

zoom mix out there and it's supposed to. run in the seventh race. you know what i'm saying but it hasn't. had lunch like you just get weird like. oh yeah. you know peaky blinder or whatever the. dog's name is or something you know he. he hadn't had lunch and that's the kind. of intel you get and you're still. supposed to lay 20 30 on a damn dog. you know i took a date out to the dog. track over there in tucson arizona one. time out there. and she hated me that lady that lady.

hated him she was an older lady and i. thought well what does older lady want. to do probably something. you know advanced you know so i thought. gambling. and i took her out there and bet on the. dog bet six dollars on this dog. you know nine dollars on that one trying. to show out a little. and i bet nine and both them [ __ ]. lost and then that [ __ ] left. so you got to take women where they care. or to good stuff but anyway. sorry uh making this about me homer. steve that i missed the show.

couldn't go i've been trying to see you. for a couple years now. but uh i'm in the marine corps so uh. you know beauty calls can't be around. but. man i bet you probably had a great show. trying to see you at some point this. year hopefully. even with all this code good stuff going. on but. yeah i've been going through tough times. and relationships and stuff and starting. on my career but. hey man your stuff on this past weekend. and king of this thing. that stuff uh keeps me going man makes.

me laugh and. like i said i can't wait to see you on. the show sometime definitely excited for. next special or something. thanks man thanks dude that's sweet of. you to say that man i can. i can feel that you know i can feel you. being genuine and uh. and yeah thank you you know uh uh and we. we do have a new special you know we're. signing a deal with netflix and. it's just paperwork now and um. and to do a special and so that'll be. great for that to come out steve so.

you'll be able to see it and share that. with your uh. um your semper fi uh fellas. out there and uh and. you know i think that's pretty cool man. to be in the military i think there's. one thing i admired when i used to go do. some military tours and i hope to do. some again. was just the camaraderie you get to have. to be in a group of people. and to be able to just joke around. and you know i know it's grueling a lot. of the hours you guys have and i know. you're not.

where your desired location a lot of. times but. you know it's so often so rare sorry in. life that i find you get to have a group. of people around who enjoy one another. especially right now um. so man i'm really i'm envious in a lot. of ways it just. you be able to have that brotherhood and. just people are just you get to enjoy. people that's. that's a delicacy right now. a lot of people can enjoy people a lot.

of people can't. you know people still can't go see their. grandparents or. there's fear around it um. but but be well man and thank you for. the warm message man. and uh and enjoy that enjoy each other. you know enjoy it man that's such a. it's going to be prehistoric human. beings spending time with each other. the way that we're so addicted to. electronica now.

let's take another call homework hey. theo. it's um there from trenton new jersey. so i just got home from your show i went. to the seven o'clock show. hey bear and thank you for calling and. that's a unique name for a woman. but that's how they do it in the. northeast you know you got more people. from. britain more people you know you got. that native american meat's kind of. you know kind of defeated by the white. kind of vibe.

up there so you'll have a kid named bear. you'll have a kid named uh. you know river branch or whatever um. you know fire but you know fire you love. a kid named. fire like damn where's fire dude i don't. know. he's got the wii you know i so they got. you know you'll have unique names go on. bear down there in ocean port new jersey. and man it was a great great great time. and i really needed it because i just. been going through.

a really batch where i went through a. breakup and i went through. drinking way too much and now i'm sober. and i'm on antidepressants but besides. that. it was great except there was this [ __ ]. and she just kept screaming. for no reason and then the last 15. minutes of your set. she just talked [ __ ] about how she was. on your podcast before. now i was on this podcast before. i was and everyone just wanted her to.

shut the [ __ ] up. so but besides that you were great. and me and my friends we had a great. time and i really appreciate it and. love you man love you too. thank you very much for that for the. nice message and i think there was one. lady up at the front that was too loud. and she might have been doing drugs i. don't know and she had big titties too. i'll be honest with you two of them. and she had them big old titty man look.

like each one of her titties had been. drinking beer. it looked like each one of her titties. could have been on a bowling team in the. 90s. you know she had the big old. she had them long branches if you will. baby uh. and she was loud i think a lot of times. a titty will hold a lot of volume. you know so sometimes if you see. somebody with a big titty woman they'll. have earmuffs on or something. but yeah next time i'll do a little bit.

better job it's hard for me to gauge. here's the hard thing to gauge from the. stage. if somebody is a heckler or somebody is. being obtuse. are they enjoying themselves. or are they trying to be seen. that's the tough part. because some lady the other night up. front laughed like uh. i had a really really really weird laugh. and i don't know honestly how to handle.

that don't. honestly i don't honestly. so it's tough you know it's tough to. know what is a good sound and what isn't. a good sound. elephants are a good sound. it's tough it's you just have to but if. it gets. a little too much that's when i say. something and also the staff is supposed. to do something. but you also don't want to like. interrupt the jokes the second show that. was a drunk guy who was not. he was he needs to be sober you're.

probably you sound okay. that guy probably needs to tighten it up. because he just was. the show he made it about him but maybe. not who knows man. but thank you for the warm message you. know and that's the thing it's just like. sometimes i don't want to drink because. i want to be able to be there for. somebody if they're having a tough time. or something i don't i want to be able. to say hey man. i'm here and i'm available and i'm so. i'm of right mind right now so i can be. a part of.

i don't know i just feel like it's hard. for my higher power to use me if i. am all [ __ ] up on that gas or whatever. but that's just me some people can do a. bunch of coke. you know and raise a family i'm reading. the my pillow guys book right now. that dude's smoking crack and and making. pillows. so if that ain't i mean that sounds like. community college.

so there's ways to do it is what i'm. saying. but but i'm glad y'all came and i'm glad. you laughed and i'll tell you this that. first show i'll put this on anything. i it might have been the best show i've. ever had. man it just you know sometimes i just. feel. and that's the crazy part i don't feel. bad sometimes i just feel great. but this impending feeling that's what i.

want to get out of me. you know um. and i want to let you know too man um. that we recently got the website redone. theovonne.com. and you can check it out and. and uh and i'm sorry for just talking. about myself a lot on this episode i. really. am you know uh. but that you know.

you know i you know it's funny because. sometimes i just have uh. i don't know. i think sometimes i i still have all. these these things inside me like i want. to say. you know but i just can't. i just don't know what they are. like i have this feeling sometimes like. there's like i want to say things in my. throat and i just don't know what they.

are um. and sometimes i i think man well you're. just gonna keep talking to you figure it. out. you know and it's not gay stuff. either some people send me messages hey. fella. look at this weiner look at this thigh. thigh wiener. nut wiener nut nut and gay men need to. quit doing that. a lot of gay men sliding in there and in. the dms hey hey hey.

you want to check out this weiner how. heavy is your wiener some guy asked me. how heavy. is your wiener get it together man. okay a lot of gay men take advantage of. the loophole of being gay. to make it that they can then be gross. towards straight men. and that is too much man send me a. message how heavy is your wiener. i'm not scaling my wiener man and i'm.

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f. around you feel me gang modify change. is good else can i tell you about man. um you know and i gotta recognize too. uh you know a lot of people are have are. feeling you know. rough it's so it's it's a rough time. there is a lot of you know we don't have. the regular things i was talking to uh. maurice clarett the other day. and man i really really admire that guy.

he has so much solution in his in his. brain and in his heart and. and uh and. and he was saying you know one of the. reasons people are all so antsy right. now he thinks because. nobody has anything to do there's no. sports to watch there's no. outlet the only teams that have been. playing this whole time. have been political so everybody's. getting on one or the other.

um so it's just it's interesting and i. thought about that people have become. more fans of politics. you know we've become more fan it's. become. without other sports and other things. politics has become the thing to be a. fan of. you know i like this quarterback i like. this quarterback oh the backup. quarterbacks. you know is racist the black the. the black up quarterback's racist you.

know it's just there's all it just. there's people are becoming fans of. politics. and becoming activists that's one thing. i'm just do we've all i fee. i feel like we've all become such. addicts to all of this junk. that is then making us be. angry about stuff that i don't know if. we're really angry about. i know that we are concerned about.

things. i know that we have views about things. but i don't know if we're really. angry about things. so i really question the the side effect. of. just all the snippets and all the. information in the constant barrage of. information. and the effect that has on us.

you know it's just because you start to. wonder well everybody. like so many people are activists now. like what's going on. like i get being activated. but at some point it's just. we're i feel like. we're being taken advantage of you know. at some point we feel a little bit.

used by all of the. just the media and all the hype and. and a lot of it's like panic porn you. know my brother's friend coined that. phrase and i don't know his last name. it's. i think he's a latino fella. but panic porn where you just. everybody's getting. some we're getting some some some. dopamine hit in our brain by getting off. on all of this uh.

this political and social jack-jack. um and i made it up to black belt dang. dude i'm not sure i don't think so. i don't think so i don't think so i. don't honestly. you know it's uh i mean what would riley. mouse say he don't know. that's what he would say bro so you got. to think about that sometimes or don't. think about it. and those are the options but yeah just. i just start to wonder well if i'm more. stressed out than usual there's more.

what's going on what's causing me to. feel this way. um so. let's hear uh another call or two that. came in here we go. hey theo riley this is ray i'm from ohio. um but i live in a little town called. wheeling west virginia. oh yeah that wheeling feeling baby and i. got offered sex. by aunt and a niece one time over there. adults both both them adults adult sex. offer okay.

and i know we've both had that wheeling. feeling. yep and that's pink eye also and um it's. a dangerous thing. you know if you if you hold on to that. feeling for too long you're gonna end up. doing some methamphetamines in the back. of a 7-eleven. amen baby hey that's a guarantee maybe. get. maybe get an ftv by the slurping machine. but um. i just wanted to call in say i'm a huge. fan um. you make my day a little better every. day i'm a coal miner.

and i don't know that you've had any. coal miners call in. but um i wanted to say that uh it's a. tough job. it's a rewarding job um i just wanted to. say um. if there's any questions about coal. mining please reach out um. i'm a huge fan of the show thank you. thank you for everything. thank you brother i appreciate it and. maybe we do have maybe we do have a. question or two about coal mining. and if i think of what they are i'll let. you know.

but right there you got to think about. that somebody going in the earth. and getting something out of the earth. helping it out. and that's really you know i'm not. trying to be racial here but that man. goes into the earth and gets something. black and helps it out of the earth. so that's pretty cool that's pretty. helpful. um you know it's. uh it's just pretty cool to see that you. go down there and you come up with a.

bucket of black. a couple of paws a bucket of positive. black blacktivity. you know that coal baby and i love a. coal i love a briquette. and we actually had a black kid at our. school when i was growing up. uh briquette lawson. and he was beautiful actually he could. have been a male model actually but he. he just was he didn't he just he wasn't. doing all of that [ __ ] man he didn't. like a lot of [ __ ] like that.

he liked more just regular [ __ ]. mcdonald's and [ __ ]. um let's take another call here we go. hey theo this is cole from texas. what and that guy's name is cold that's. baffling uh. that was totally unplanned there you go. and right there that's you see that wet. that wicked web that's out there onward. brother thank you cole. name after a briquette i'm just calling.

see if i can maybe give you a little. encouragement i'm kind of in the same. boat as you. are i just moved to pursue a new career. and uh it's it's kind of nerve-wracking. really. you know i don't really know anybody. here and. i'm just trying to get into the group of. things in this new. uh foreign environment. but i hope you are doing well in your. new environment and that.

you and your new buddy riley mal are. doing all right. alvin a good sound can't say i have. i've not well actually what is northeast. arkansas like what cities i mean you. know i'm a christian eagle scout i mean. you know i'm a christian i don't scout. well you know um thank you for that man. you know it is i just i have to remember. that because i wake up each day and. there's part. there's a question in my head like. why isn't everything perfect.

you know there's like i'm not even. asking the question. there's some invisible thing in my head. every day that's asking this question. why isn't everything perfect why isn't. this done why isn't this done why isn't. this done. did you do this do you do this do you. and it just and it's like. i don't even hear it but i still it's. like it's like it was asked to me. decades ago and it still. echoes. so i think always when i wake up i.

immediately just feel like oh. there's so much i haven't done there's. so much i have to do. there's not it's um. so i gotta recognize i gotta you know i. gotta recognize hey that that. that voice is not real. and while that voice will serve me well. sometimes to get to go and do some. things for myself and get me motivated. at some points that voice is just yeah. it's just it's just bothering me because.

it's not going to give me any peace. um but man i'm sorry that you're. struggling with it man you know. some things i did do to state to stay. busy i joined the mma gym. i now have four bruised ribs some guy. named alex or alexis or something i. don't know what his name was. oh my god dude this guy he might have. eaten two of my ribs dude when i wasn't. looking this guy. did me he did me up um.

so that is a lot of pain uh i went and. saw tim dillon perform. two times um. so that was really great i'm just trying. to get some new some some. guests onto the podcast trying to get. morgan wallin to come in i'm a. fan of his music he's a musician musical. man. uh we have a trucker next week coming in. female trucker. vaddrucker a lot of nate people will.

call it. beautiful lady decent lady so. um. yeah so just just you know thanks for. thinking about me man. you know and i'm thinking about you. brother and i wish you well in that new. environment and just. yeah it's so funny man it's like i can. offer you suggestion but it's like i. can't hear it for myself. isn't that so crazy.

it's fascinating man this thing that. we're part of. um all right let's hear another call. that came in here. uh and sorry to just keep going to calls. but. i just you know i want to get somebody i. just i'm just tired of listening to. myself sometimes. here we go hey theo. uh my name is chance. i'm from albuquerque new mexico and uh.

i'm currently. about to i'm driving through amarillo. texas right now. i'm headed over to bentonville arkansas. for. a new job now bentonville arkansas home. of the largest. walmart and first walmart ever. so if you think about walmart think. about bentonville homework. for a sales job um and. i'm just kind of taking this huge leap. of faith i'm listening to some of your. podcasts and um.

i just got the the urge to hit the. hotline you know i'm feeling a lot of. feelings right now. um and uh you know one of them is. that's really strong it's just uh just. hope. and hope for a better life hope for you. know. uh to be successful you know i said. i'm 23 and i and i haven't done much of. my life but i just got. got sober about almost three years ago. so my life has just been getting so big.

and um you know i don't know maybe if. you have any advice for me you know. starting something new i know that you. traveled. you know you made a big change traveling. over to. california um and now you just made. another travel. you know down there to uh well thanks. for the call man and not to cut you off. uh but. but i did but um but yeah i uh. you know i think what you're doing.

the the the long term of it is. you can't see it now but in the future. you'll see wow just by making. big by making moves it may it allows you. to. be less inhibited when you need to make. other moves. so in the future when an opportunity. comes up and in it. you know another move or an opportunity. to take a leap of faith and love or a. leap of faith in. in friendship or in a different realm.

even. besides employment. that the experience you have had right. now. [Music]. you know that'll resonate within those. other fields and so you might. you won't even know you're like oh wow i. took a leap of faith here i took a leap. of faith there. um you know hell you can become a damn. long jumper. of faith if you leap enough man. i mean that sounds like what you're. doing so 23 you're trying a new city and.

that's a lot man. you know and i need to be patient with. myself you know i get i get at home and. i it gets late and. you know just like you know my the place. is a mess and it's not even my place i'm. just renting it and. sometimes things just feel like heavy. man. and i just need to get some help i need. to when i need help if i need a. therapist if i need a. a house cleaner if i need a an assistant. if i need i just have to get.

i gotta ask for what i need. you know i never you know i was talking. to my brother today and. man i never really asked for what i need. i never say hey this is what i need. i don't say it in relationships i don't. say it in friendships i don't put down. those. hey look this is what i need. because i don't want to be i don't want. to. you know i don't want to step on anytime.

i don't want to. but it's funny i just won't put any you. know hey this this is what i need. you know i need sometimes i need someone. to listen to me and not even tell me. anything. you know the other day i was talking to. my brother and i was just telling him. i've been having a tough time and just. you know and i'm lucky my brothers.

worked in like view therapy and stuff. like that and. um and at the end of the call he said. hey man i'll just. if you want i'll just sit on the line. with you for a little bit and. and not say anything. and at first i was like nah man i'm all. right you know. and when i said all right i could feel. something in my voice like i felt like i. wasn't all right. and he said it again he said no he said.

look i'm happy to just sit here. you know you don't have to say anything. and i don't have to say anything. um and i'll just be here with you. if you if you ne you know i can just be. here with you. and man i started bawling like. literally uncontrollably like a dragon. flew. out of my [ __ ] soul.

because i think never in my life had. anybody just said hey i'll just. i'll be here with you. i'm not going to give you any suggest. i'm not going to give you any i'm not. going to give you any. i'm just i'm just going to be here for. you. if you need me.

and it was powerful man it was and i i. just i had no idea in my whole life that. i how much i needed that. just even a mo i mean it was you know. and then you know i was like kind of. sobbing and. it's some you know some of this [ __ ] no. homo bruh some of the shit's kind of. you know it's tough to say i'm not. trying to sound like a little [ __ ] but. i'm trying to sound like. i don't get whatever dog if you're still. listening bro you par you. you part [ __ ] the same as i am son you.

probably about 11. [ __ ] you feel me but um. and then i was like oh thanks man i'm. you know i'm good i kind of got my. composure. and then he said are you sure. and i s you know i lied i just said yeah. i'm good you know and i wasn't good i. didn't feel i just. and he goes i can still you know he said. i have like 10 minutes i can just sit. here with you. and man i just fell apart again.

you know no i just. i don't know i think it just in just. such a world of so much sound and so. much constant constant constant. just like to for somebody to say that. they had 10 minutes. where they could just be there with me. man it was it was real powerful. because i think he was speaking to that.

kid in me to that child you know that. young fellow who just. you know hey i can sit here with you. without any judgment without any. concern without it and not concerned. with with just concern. you know with just time. you know i can sit here and just. and just you just know the only thing.

you need to know. is that i'm here for you. no matter what. and it was just powerful man um. so the hotline as always is 985-664-9503. uh i'll be back in with riley mao maybe.

next week. we got that female trucker coming in i'm. excited about that. um we're also looking for a uh. if you know somebody who's who is a. unique. um death. person a death like a lifeguard but at a. funeral you know what i'm talking about. like a um. margin margin what is it a margin. a magician no.

somebody that like you know hey hey hey. you know. here's the body you know that guy uh. like howie mandel but for like death. mortician. if you know somebody of a uh. a mortician do you not at all if you. know somebody that. is that is a decent or a unique. mortician. we would like to speak with them.

you can email us i think through the. website or hit up uh. the real nick davis and you can let him. know. preferably around nashville or los. angeles. or within a flight distance you know. somewhere close. um but all right one last call that came. in here we go. i feel i just finished eating a. mcdonald's breakfast. griddle bacon sandwich. oh dang see you living high on the hog.

today. literally onward little mama. and i really like them i started eating. them after i heard. a show on howard stern. and now it's one of my favorite things. to get in mcdonald's unfortunately we. can't get it after. 10 30 a.m so my next favorite thing. at mcdonald's is the slay of fish but i. always want. lettuce and onion on that sandwich.

um so my question is. what's your favorite fast food spot. well i can't ma'am i love you hey i'm. gonna tell you that straight up. and i'm here for you. and i won't say anything but i do have. to i can't handle if you can't eat a. damn filet of fish in a mcdonald's. you can't eat a filet of fish at a. mcdonald's mama. that ain't even fish in there.

you know that's trans oyster or. something they're using her. you know they're not using fish meat. that ain't damn. fish meat uh. you know they're you know that's. something else. they're doing something nasty nasty. you can't be having a you know i can't. if i'm trying to talk to a lady and she. have a bite of. filet of fish on her lip.

come on you kid your children can't even. love you if you're sitting around with a. bite of fillet of. fish on your mouth on your breath. who do you love people can't love you. if you eating filet of fishes lady they. can't love you. [Music]. and they can but it's just it's gonna be. harder. it's so hard to level one when you see. her with it you know you go in her car. and she gots a couple. you know you open up to get the glove. compartment thing to get a lozenge or.

something for. and a damn filet of fish rapper freaking. rolls out. like a dang tumbleweed just. [Music]. it's hard to love somebody that's on. them filet of fishes baby you know that. and if you don't you get then you know. it now. um. okay i think we got it we had some calls. that came in about riley mao but we'll. we'll get to them next week you know we.

just had him here this week just in. spirits i mean you know i'm a christian. um you know and he's a talented man. um so. we'll figure it out we'll figure it out. we don't have to figure it all out today. that's what i got to remind myself. is we don't have to figure it all out. today and we don't have to figure it all. out alone.

and you know i feel a little bit better. than when this. then when this episode started. you know i'm gonna even see if my dang. therapist emailed me back i'll check. right now. nope not yet. but there's an a meeting in five minutes. online then i can jump in. and as much as i don't want to i want to. go do something else i want to do i want. to you know do my bookie bet on a. night game i want to do this i want to.

do that. you know it's probably what i need to do. for myself. you know i got to get active in taking. care of how i feel. instead of just. just being reactive to it all the time. you know if i'm going to feel this much. as i do i deserve to have some control. over it. so anyway thank you guys for coming out.

there in new jersey both shows were. great i just felt like the early one was. more tame. the second one when people was drunk. people was out there drinking each. other's blood. you know somebody's out there they had. some guy came out with a uh. you know we had another guy that came. out i guess he had a fake. hand or something he lost a hand you. know he lost a hand he uh. you know some guy he was maybe he was. you know throwing dice. you know and mowing the yard at the same. time and and.

you know and he caught a blade uh but. he left his hand there some guy. so that's wild you know you go home and. you can't even. you know i guess he drove home just with. you know instead of ten and two just ten. maybe just locked in at ten or something. unless he just taped his arm to the. wheel on the other side at two. but that's you know some guy woke up but.

he don't know where his hand is at. you know when they got a bucket of beers. five empty beers and a damn. cold hand in there so if that's you man. call uh blue grotto. b-l-u-g-r-o-t-t-o over there about a dog. park. and you guys too i want to say shout out. to uh. to joey diaz. and his new podcast. you guys got to go check it out it's. just starting up uncle joey's.

joint and it's uh you know. i watched some of it and it made me feel. good to just kind of share what was. going on. you know sometimes i like to be. entertaining and sometimes i just. i just want to be and um. and i know you guys don't you know i i. just it gets in my head as to what's. going on but uh. but you guys have always been there for. me man and i just appreciate it. you know and i love you.

um and i love the groupie. you know i got to meet some of you here. and there out in jersey couple quick. groups and this and that and. man i was walking you know i was so ha. i was so happy that i didn't drink like. because i just because i'm trying not to. i'm not saying there's anything bad if. you look if you're doing some good coke. i'll hold the back of your neck you know. while you do it bro you know what i'm. saying i'll feel your tits while you do. a little coke. that's who i am bro even if you're a man. bruh brought you a strong man.

but um. but i'm walking from the from the. venue they had a like a bouncer guy that. would walk you to the back of the stage. [Music]. and he we just started talking he's like. yeah man i got 23 years sobriety and i. was like damn. and it was just exciting you know and he. said his dad had a couple years of. sobriety and. and it was just nice because in that. moment i was you know. i was towing my line whatever my line.

was you know and i was it was just. like oh okay good i'm glad i'm here for. this just to be here with this moment. because then i could connect with him i. said oh man i'm. i have six months and almost drank today. and i'm just. man it's just really hard right now uh. and so yeah in that moment there was. somebody i could tell that to. uh because you go just run up to a. random stranger at the show and. you tell them that well actually a lot. of the people that come to our show is. pretty good. but he might be like oh dude well.

where's have you seen my hand like no. you lost your hand dude that's crazy. [ __ ]. you only be able to hitchhike in one. direction now dude. um let's go out the way we came in man. naked and feet first no. uh let's go out the way we came in. [Music]. this is spencer sorry.

[Music]. maybe just you.

but i've been working hard as i can. just find some time. it's time to get you all alone so. we can we can we going out on the city. [Applause]. [Music].

um. [Music]. oh.

we going. come on let's go baby i'm taking you out. baby you know. you're so pretty so pretty baby i don't. have a plan b. [Music]. i don't need a plan b you my baby.

[Music]. that is grady spencer and the work. if you're taking your lady out play that. song for him on the way out when you're. leaving the house you're getting ready. put that on. put that on for him this is our time you. know. you're gonna enjoy it i know some. couples came out and. and sat at the table the other night it. was cold at that second show too. and uh and just thank you guys man.

just thank you for being a part of my. life man and let me be a part of yours. and. i'm excited about where we're heading uh. and i'm just trying to take care of. myself while we get there baby gang.