4-24-17 | This Past Weekend w/ Theo Von #19

what's going on you little gentrified. brain wiggas I got allergies bro and one. of my eyes is a little bit shorter than. the other one [ __ ] it dude welcome to. this past weekend this past. [Music]. [Applause]. [Music]. weekend.

[Applause]. [Music]. you hear. that you hear. that that is Army of. angels that is Army of angels from. epidemic. sounds and that is uh that's that type. of music where you you know something. crazy is happening in a in a film you. know like like they got the art and.

they're running out of the museum or or. um somebody's running through a tunnel. wearing like a you know like a helmet. and they're looking. for um they're looking for a bad guy or. something like that you know that's. where the action is and that is called. Army of. angels and that is uh that is action. music that's a sound that plays in your. head when you you know are late for work. and you're still trying to make a.

smoothie really fast in the blender you. know when you're throwing a bunch of. [ __ ] in there and [ __ ] you know getting. all [ __ ] jazzed up and you know you. got the banana in there and you're. trying to put some peanut butter in. there and some milk and you don't have. any milk so you're [ __ ] putting water. in there and you're eating a jacked up. [ __ ] rural New York smoothie you know. probably has four grams of protein 70. grams of sugar.

and uh and that's what you're having and. that's the kind of music that's playing. in your head uh when those types of. things are occurring or at least that's. how I feel man welcome to this past. weekend guys it is Monday and if it. sounds like it's April 24th. 2017s that's because it is it is that. date that is where we are in the in time. um and I have allergies bro I'll admit.

it dude you know I'm not the kind of guy. who you know just stands around redey. you know with snot kind of hanging out. of his nose like uh you know like uh you. know like a couple. of couple of Asian fellas or kids. hanging off a you know the side of a. bicycle or. something I um I got allergies dude I'll. admit it I got them I fall victim you. know I can be a tough guy but also I can. fall victim to to uh to uh to pollen you.

know really put you in your place it. really put you in your place when you. think you're a badass and then you have. to sit down um and really gather. yourself before you sneeze because you. got issues with pollen so that's where I. am I'm in Sacramento California I'm. actually in the kitchen of a residence. in uh motel hotel and if you've never. been to a residence in it's a very uh. BAS basic um but comfortable type of.

place you know it's it's your you know. middle of the road type of a motel hotel. and I've been here this weekend in. Sacramento um. Sacramento good place I feel like to get. uh to get socks to get new socks and. maybe to get murdered or not murdered. but attacked I could see somebody just. hitting you for no reason in. Sacramento it kind of seems like the. kind of place where karma.

is um prevalent it seems Karma heavy. like it any point you could get jacked. or hit by somebody or a bird a bird. wouldn't [ __ ] on you in Sacramento but. it might come down and bite your [ __ ]. neck you know maybe a couple of black. birds or mixed Birds might [ __ ] come. down and you know just just [ __ ] just. just slap you with that wing you know or.

[ __ ] rip a mole off your back with. their talons you know it's got that kind. of it's got that kind of edge to it it's. got like a hillbilly edgely you know. it's got that hillbilly Edge but also. kind of a thug everybody looks like kind. of like a mixed baby that grew. up um but it's good man it's real people. and I love real people man and I think. it may have it may be the city where I. ran into the. most um like like fans and Friends where.

I felt like a real connection I mean I. just really really relate uh to the. people around this type of environment. man so I had a great weekend except for. these allergies got Daddy. down um you know I'd rather be snotting. out of my nose than out of my pecker. though that's the old saying you know. I'd rather have allergies than uh. sexually transmitted um diseases and. that you know and no offense if somebody. has those you.

know some of that's part of. nature excuse me but yeah if you can see. on the YouTubes I'm in the kitchen right. now of a Marriott Residence in and I've. got some uh some new dates for you I'm. coming to Phoenix Arizona in two weeks. you can come and get a look at my. Straight Up d uh not really but you can. come and be a part of the show man I'd. love to have you come out that's May 5th. and 6th at standup live in Phoenix.

Arizona um I'm really excited about that. May 25th through 28th I'll be in Tampa. Florida at sidesplitters June 1st. through 4th I'll be in Pittsburgh at the. Pittsburgh improv June 23rd and 24th New. York City I hope to catch up on jump on. the Opie uh Opie show there as well and. then June 30th we are doing a fundraiser. show in Wyoming Illinois it's a small. town uh the tickets will go online this.

week for that it's about an hour from. Peoria um not too far from the Quad. Cities so if you're in uh Illinois and. you want to come check that out or. you're in Iowa come on over it's going. to be a it's going to be a really good. time small town show I'm excited about. that all right man let's get into the. weekend man it was uh it's been a it's. been a chill one you know I'm at this. residence in I got into a little bit of. a fracus at the pool. here um they got some guys I guess been.

staying here for about a month you know. some dude who's real like. tall like beer belly like almost amazing. amount of beer belly for his height and. he just talks he knows. everything and uh and he was grilling. bro he's been grilling all weekend at. the pool at the you know who uses the. grill at a [ __ ] Marriott Residence in. I didn't know they had a grill and this.

dude's out there he's inviting friends. over he's got [ __ ] they got some lady. like an older lady out there twerking. about maybe about 48 years old um you. know uh blond hair. party you know uh just kind of shake. shaking her just like not really shaking. her just kind of bending over and. holding onto a table and then just. shaking everything you know it's one. thing to kind of shake your ass and do.

that fancy ass work you know and to. really get yourself you know gting but. it's another thing just to kind of bend. over and just [ __ ] move your whole. body at once like it's not the same it. almost looks like somebody's hurt or. something you know like they got uh like. their whole body is itching but they're. not allowed to scratch it or something. like they've been you know they've been. told they can't scratch themselves so. they're just trying to scratch their. body against the air by moving their.

body around so that's kind of what this. lady was doing out by the. pool and of course you got all these. fellas drinking and this dude's [ __ ]. grilling potatoes you know. like I I don't know man I mean I've been. in some pretty gutter [ __ ] but this. dude's out there like. this [ __ ] know it all grilling potats. you. know so I'm trying to go in there and. talk to them just I mean they were just. kind of rul in the pool I guess I got a.

little mouthy um but things calmed down. and uh it was just awkward it's awkward. to see somebody you know grilling out at. a at a residence. in but here I am man here I am I'm in uh. in Sacramento a lot of missing people a. lot of people here look like missing. persons you know I put this on Twitter. yesterday and I just everybody here I. kind of you know I love those shows. where uh where people are missing of. I've always been a fan of um of missing.

people of buried treasure you know I. can't even sleep at night really unless. I've seen a new episode of a show where. somebody is missing or where there's a. treasure that uh hasn't been found I've. just have an obsession with that you. know I found some fingers by the in the. woods when I was. young um and so maybe that spurned some. of that some of that behavior but that's. always been a part of my life I love the. missing so if you are missing you know. or you know somebody that's missing dude.

um I'd love to hear about that or if you. know somebody that went missing we can. talk about that uh next week I'd love to. know if you've ever been missing as well. if you are someone who went into hiding. you know or who decided to skip out on. you know a prison sentence or hide from. their family or something like that I'd. love to to get to you know I'd love to. have you call in hit the hotline so that. I could uh get into that and learn more. about uh what your life has been like uh.

we're getting close to having some. guests guys I hope next week to have a. guest so I know I bring things up on the. show that I want to do I appreciate you. guys bearing with me um it's a struggle. because some of these weeks on the road. keep popping up and I'm in a [ __ ]. kitchenet okay if you're on YouTube you. can see me I'm taping this [ __ ] I don't. even have my mic stand I have my I have. the top of it but not the bottom I have. this thing propped up in a coffee pot. that I took the top off of so we're.

doing what we can I got. allergies I I just want to shoot myself. in the [ __ ] head with an EpiPen. anyhow. 98566. 49503 if you are missing or if you know. someone who has been missing I'd love. for you to call in um I remember when I. was young we were playing hide and go. seek and a boy went and hid and uh and. they never found we never no one ever. found him or heard from him so I.

sometimes wonder what happened to that. uh that boy what else man um I read this. dude. that they had some conjoined. twins I believe they're from Mexico and. now living in Connecticut that's a real. uh ju toos I think um I don't know what. that is but that is uh and they don't. want to be separated conjoined twins. refusing to be separated. and you know what that makes me feel it.

made me feel good when I heard that. because I'm tired sometimes of us doing. whatever science kind of says we should. do you know the doctors tell them well. you know you have a better chance of. living if you. separate but you know but do but what's. their life going to be like you know I. mean I look at you know I I'm not in. this scenario but I just you know I. think it's kind of beautiful to stay in. it to stick it out you're conjoined you.

got your [ __ ] you can high five. yourself but somebody else at the same. time there's something beautiful about. that and to know that um that you're in. this together through thick or thin. There's Something Beautiful about that. that you know what don't separate us. we're going to see what we can do we're. going to make it through this together I. think that's pretty beautiful man so. that story really resonated with me um I. hope they stay conjoined I hope they. stick it out and you know what if they.

go to heaven they go to heaven together. you know and I think there's something. beautiful about that man it's like when. somebody gets uh you know it's like if. you had a little person that was hooked. on to you and you didn't and you got. them cut off you know I wouldn't do that. i' I'd say we'll ride or die you know. this is my friend shotgun and we [ __ ]. we're going in we're going into life. together thought that was interesting um. another thing in the news I saw the.

Confederate monuments in New. Orleans and I know this has been. happening in other cities are being. taken down there's been a lot of issue. back and forth there about these. Confederate monuments uh Robert E Lee. other uh Confederate uh. statues and uh soldiers that that it's a. racist you know that people feel and. predominantly black people but also. black and white people feel that it's. not you know that you see this leader of. a southern Army and that it's uh that.

it's racist and I can understand the. rebel flag like I get that you know. because there are people that really. associate that um heavily with with. racism um but I I you know I'm I'm just. not a proponent of the of Bringing Down. the Confederate statues because if. you're going to do that then there's. statues in New Orleans where there are. like slaves there's slaves and it talks. about like you know when indentured. servants and slaves came to New Orleans.

um there's some I believe in the Mahalia. Jackson Park right there in Armstrong. Park then I'd like to see those statues. gone because I don't want to remember. that I didn't have anything to do with. slavery you know like I'm sorry I think. it's horrible you know I wouldn't. probably want to be a slave I don't. think I mean maybe in some instances but. not. overall um but it's like when do we just. like it is do we just take everything.

away that bug somebody you know and I. know that you know remembering slavery. isn't bugging somebody it's bigger than. that but you know I don't want to see I. don't want to see things that remind me. of negative stuff you know like I just. feel like we're headed down this road. where we're never going to get to a. place where everybody's happy you know. like I never walk down the street and. I'm totally fired up you know if that if. we're doing that then get rid of all my. ex-girlfriends. you know get rid of uh get rid of the.

dude that used to make me bury his poops. in the yard when I was growing up he. actually he passed away so that's. already that's that's a mute point but. like at what point do we stop you know. getting rid of just anything that bugs. us so I don't know I you know I just I. don't agree with that I agree with. taking down things that really are. Surefire of. racism but you know the South had its. own. Army I just I I feel like having some.

tradition is okay I just feel like cuz. at a certain point we're headed down a. road that you can't you're never going. to be able to do it all let's completely. erase history then because history's. always pissed somebody off you know. something pisses somebody off. everywhere what else dude I've been. thinking about the future man and I want. people to call in too if they have some. thoughts about this the future dude and. you know what I'm talking about you know. what's next and it kind of Spooks me out. bro you know I feel like we are so I.

almost dropped my phone in the. pool um here at the residence in and uh. and I like flipped I like felt my whole. body like kind of seizure up and I was. like wow like I don't really get that. feeling unless it's my phone you know. like if I saw like a friend fall in the. pool I'd be like uh they'll probably be. okay not knowing if they could could. swim or whatever they'll probably be all.

right but when you see a. phone about to go in you're like oh my. God it's going to die like that's what I. felt like it's going to die it I mean it. as if it's as if it were more than a. machine that's that's what concerned me. I was like this that I thought of it as. more than a. machine um anyhow so I'm just a little. bit worried about the future man when do. we stop. technology at what point do we shut it.

down when it's. not like when it it's not helping us. anymore you know like when is that like. I can understand in some Fields you know. in some of the medical fields and stuff. like. that but when do we like self-driving. cars you know um there the trucking. industry they say will be gone like. CrossCountry truckers you know um a lot. of stepdads probably a lot of stepdads.

doing that work when does that end. because if we allow self-driving cars. then you just have thousands and tens. and hundreds of thousands of men and. women that are going to be out of work. like I don't see the benefit there like. at what point is it not helping us to be. human I feel like we're there right now. I'd love to know some of you guys'. thoughts on that I feel like we're at a. spot in time where where where. technology isn't helping us as humans.

anymore it's just helping us to. create. basically machines and and a future that. has. us not as really a big part of the. picture so that's where I'm at with it. man I have a lot of concern there you. know I I I also think that TVs are too. clear I'm watching this the other day. I'm I'm trying to watch something Dances.

with Wolves you know the movie about. it's about a warrior whenever he goes. to um he meets a woman and there. somebody has um [ __ ] wolves I think I. can't even remember guys it's uh sorry. it's 3:00 a.m. I'm a little bit out of. it but bro the movie was so clear I felt. like I was watching like home videos. from Oklahoma you know of like a civil. war Reena I'm like this is it just it. didn't hold it wasn't the same so I just.

wonder if anybody else feels that way. like am I the only person who I just. think televisions are too clear like I. want to I want to know that it's a story. I don't want to feel like I'm looking. into like a weird window where it. doesn't seem like a story so those are. just some of my thoughts on uh on the. future man that's where I'm at I know. I'm rambling a little bit today guys I'm. going to get through. this um and I want to apologize too man. I know that you know I've said again.

that I that there's some things I want. to do with this podcast I want to get to. some other levels I want to get some. guests um and I haven't gotten to those. things yet for you guys and I want to um. I had a a guy this weekend at one of the. shows and he was really nice after the. shows we were talking I met a lot of. great people here in. Sacramento um went downtown beautiful. downtown um but I met a guy and I was. like he's and he likes the podcast and I. said well thank you for listening you.

know I'm trying to figure it out and and. you know trying to figure out what I'm. doing sometimes and he goes just do what. you say you're going to do that's what. he said and at first it kind of struck. me a little bit like a strong thing to. say but then I was like he's right man. you know if I'm going to connect um with. people and I'm going to want to share. and have you know listeners share with. me you know I got to do the things that. I say I'm going to do um so I do want. you to know that I'm making an effort.

that I'm trying to get it done um that. I'm trying to create you know good legit. content for you guys uh where we can you. know move forward and learn some [ __ ]. together it's been a rocky year for me. um you know with the Native American. child that could have been that kind of. sent my feelings into a whirlwind um. with the. electrocution um you know with just the. belittlement out there in Los Angel. being a a southern guy you know they.

they don't want. us they don't want us man they want to. take down the statues they want to take. down the humans I feel like a lot of. times um but I'm going to try to do the. things that I say I'm going to do I've. had a lot of amazing calls from you guys. and I'm going to try to get to most of. them that are relevant you know there's. one where it's um a guy and his kid just. talking in the car for two and a half. minutes that's there's nothing there you. know there's some where guys are making. up stories there's a couple where men. are jerking off in the distance or women.

that sound like men that make male jerk. off sounds um there's a lot of stuff. going on but I got allergies right now I. got a lot going on today I want to get. this out to you guys I want to get to a. few. questions um you can support the podcast. if you want you can go uh and and and. grab the album 30 lb bag of hamster. bones it's still out there and uh and. what else there some other cool stuff on.

the on the website theo. comom store all. right man let's jump into a couple of. calls right here let's go hey what's up. Theo this is uh Chase I'm calling from. actually right outside New Orleans that. 985 you heard me that 985 boy I I do. hear you chase man that's uh that's my. neck of the woods brother uh come come. across 104 I was calling in reference. you asked about if anybody's having. trouble about masturbation or stories.

about bad jobs or something like that. well I had this job I actually really. liked it it was one of my favorite jobs. I was driving school bus for the parish. and um oh nice dude now the parish uh. Most states have counties uh Louisiana. we have parishes that's what they call. it there so it's the same thing um damn. this dude's pretty gangster bro if you. driving bus bro go. on it was basically awesome I saw the. sunrise every morning off every weekends.

but there was this one aspect where the. high school kids you know like public. school in you know south Louisiana you. can kind of paint the picture in your. head but yeah really all the kids were. great except for this one and I really. kind of liked him and hated him because. like he was like a really smart sharp. dude like but he was. zingy ah you got zinged by the ch. children huh um I can relate to that man.

I can relate to uh School Bus activities. that's for sure uh Chase when I was. young bro they we had I'll tell you this. story we had a boy on our school. bus who his daddy made him a wooden. shirt and I talk about this sometime in. my standup but his daddy had made him a. wooden shirt a shirt out of wood and not. even and not even teak or or balsom you. know those are malleable Woods uh This. Boy's shirt was made out of ply ply.

wood um and the daddy was an Elvis and. personator and um and he the daddy was. an Elvis impersonator because well first. of all he was an alcoholic you know. because we only had you know. maybe few hundred people in our area we. didn't need a [ __ ] Elvis dude you. know we. need you know we need gas G money and we. need ideas you know those are the top.

two things we need nobody's hiring an. Elvis you know and [ __ ] half of. everybody's uncle looks a little bit. like Elvis anyway so nobody's going to. go just get another Uncle uh for you. know whatever price he was charging but. anyway this man had broke his leg and. they set his leg in cement to fix it um. cheaper on the cheap you know but when. it when it and it healed up well. everybody assumed but when they but when. they broke the cement cast off they.

broke it with a hammer ballpen hammer. and it re-broke his leg in a hip and. about two or three different spots maybe. at. least so then he was really effed up. they had to set most of his lower body. in uh in the cement except for where he. could urinate out of so uh but after. that he healed up he kind of had like. this wobble in his hips almost. ironically like Elvis Presley but anyhow. he had a uh three or four children and.

one of them was a boy and the boy used. to vomit on the bus all the time because. the family didn't have a refrigerator. they only had a freezer and he would eat. ice. cream and he would the bus Rod would. shake and make him sick and he would. vomit up on the bus doing bus. vomit and uh and anyhow one one one one. week I was coming over from church. practice. um and the dad was in the garage and he.

was making his son a uh a wooden shirts. a shirt out of wood and I went over and. I didn't know what he was doing you know. I thought he was building a [ __ ]. biggest birdhouse I've ever seen you. know I'm thinking like damn this dude. this dude's trying to meet a pelican you. know so I go over and I see this. activity going on and uh I'm I'm looking. at him and the dad he he's like you want.

to help me. out and I'm like I don't know what's. going on he's like I'm making my boy a. shirt you know and so I want to be. helpful you know I'm a young man but I'm. you know uh I'm you know fired up to try. and be helpful so I try and help but I. don't know how to make a shirt but. anyhow I came back 2 days later and that. was Christmas time I came back on. Christmas and we and I held the side of. this uh when he nailed his son into the.

shirt and he made his. son a uh excuse me a. beautiful I mean pretty pretty pretty. beautiful wooden shirt out of plywood so. it's not it almost looked kind of. camouflage you know because of the ply. because of the different you know wood. particles that are in there but uh but. he wore it for a while some people spray. painted swas stickers on it on the. school bus as well um and nobody had. anything against juice people had just. seen that on pamphlets you know had.

seen uh had seen the swas stickers on. pamphlets and stuff and so somebody drew. that you know we didn't even have any. Jewish people in our area even though my. mother dated a Jewish man for a while um. was the first Jewish man I ever met. actually this man zali was his. name still one of the neatest names I've. ever heard but anyhow uh that boy had. that shirt for a while and then some. people stole it from him um. with crowbars and made allegedly made a.

uh baby crib out of the wood so that has. kind of a sweet ending but uh but what I. was answering there sorry to go into. that but what I was answering. was um was this gentleman's question. here uh on the school bus let's go back. to that story I don't know how I got. away from the school bus so so far but. that was a strange kid that rode my bus. was that boy uh in the wooden shirt who. used to do a lot of bus vomiting uh but. anyway go on Chase let's get back to you. every [ __ ] day and it started the.

very first day I ever picked him up well. he didn't skip a beat you know of course. smelling of weed steps right onto the. bus I'm a big fat dude you got to. understand this and he looks right at me. that's cool man I have some friends that. are pretty fat or different types of. sizes in their body go on so you got the. kid getting on the bus making fun of you. a. lot oh [ __ ] is Peter Griffin driving. bus so that pretty much set the tone for.

the rest of that whole entire school. year wow man so that's uh so you got the. kid getting on the bus he's raising hell. um so I was calling to see how would you. deal with a situation like that or you. just roll with the punches and enjoy. getting Zing by professional so all. right man well you know what I mean I'll. say this if uh if he's if he's quick. like that you might not want to go at. him you know um sometimes you just can't. compete if somebody's zinging you and.

sometimes you just need to not try and. compete and just enjoy the fact that. they're zinging you bro you know I mean. if he gets really mean with it you could. ask him take him aside and be like look. man I I think it's I think you're a. funny funny dude you know respect that. in him because he probably takes a lot. of pride in being funny you know it. might be the only thing he has you know. he might not be real smart he might just. be funny like you know when you're a. funny kid I think you take a lot of.

pride in that um but just ask him not to. be mean say look you can make fun of. whatever you want just you know if he's. really gripping at you something that's. really hurting your feelings or getting. into your feelings you know cuz you got. to drive a bus dude you can't be getting. bent out of shape cuz [ __ ] you know. little Terry is zinging you and next. thing you know you're you know your fist. tailing you know 50 kids. around you know you got to keep it. together. together uh so yeah that's what I would.

do man you know just let him have his. fun dude laugh with him um if you think. you got to go him maybe go back at him. you know U maybe you could ask some of. the other bus drivers what are some. popular terms that they use to make fun. of. children um we had a we had a man that. drove us to school shirtless one time. this man named Milford and he had a uh a. mix boy he had a boy that was mixed but. they tried to pretend like the boy was. not mixed so he had a boy that was uh. half black half white a son but they.

tried to pretend like the boy had two. white parents and I always thought that. that was interesting and I also thought. my vision was bad for a while cuz I. would see him and be like damn my eyes. uh aren't seeing colors correctly I used. to think that but uh Chase thanks for. calling in there dude sorry I went off. on my own tangent um I'm at my wits end. right now and I'm high on. Claritin um I've been I've been uh put. putting down some Claritin recently uh. this weekend here in Sacramento is.

Claritin country uh let's get into. another uh another question right here. man hey Theo I got a unique one for you. man I uh we got a lot in common in the. fatherhood Department my dad was 66 when. I was born okay wow his father was. 66 uh when he was born my father was 70. when I was born so very similar and he. died when I was 16 same here and uh. right after that a year after that I. joined the Marine Corps got deployed.

came home thank you for your service. brother came home and and uh had a hard. time readjusting so I kind of went down. a a shitty Road. um I got a couple questions for you. because I think you might be the only. person I've ever heard of that's got an. old ass dad like mine but uh how did you. uh how do you handle. with not having that Father Figure to go. to and do you feel any resentment. because I find myself find uh having. resentment towards him okay uh I'm going.

to stop it there because that's a lot. right there um how did I handle not. having a dad um and did I feel any. resentment. uh you know the. resentment it's hard to have for me. because for me my father just wasn't. really there enough to resent him. so I can resent kind of him not being.

there um but he just at a certain age. there's not a lot that they can even do. so like he couldn't even be there in a. physical capacity I mean my parents also. got divorced when I was seven and then I. only saw my father on the weekends but. you know he could only be there so much. in a physical capacity so so to have a. resentment towards him is really tough. um like I do resent the. situation um I resent his choice to have.

children when he was that old but also. if he doesn't have kids I don't exist so. I have to be grateful for that for I. have to be grateful for my own life. because if I'm not grateful for my own. life then I'm not uh you know I'm not. even taking any stock in myself so so I. am I I do have resentment towards him. just for not being there but I don't. have resentment uh like small. resentments towards him because once he.

wasn't there there's nothing really that. he could do and because of his age he. really couldn't be there um so I guess. there's some resentment there but not. like in every moment like I wish my dad. was here for this I wish I don't I don't. hold those resentments now unfortunately. what I do is I put a lot of pressure on. my mother you know I took a lot of. things out of my mother that should have. been probably a father's. responsibilities but but suddenly all. those male responsibilities switched to. my mother and I think the same thing.

happens with a lot of uh kids that just. have a mother or just have one parent. you put the pressures or the the the you. put the your desires or your. expectations of that you'd have of both. parents onto one uh so I did that a lot. um and I feel bad about some of that you. know but I was a child and I was trying. to. survive and I didn't know um also was. blessed a lot man I had you know I found. fatherhood in the littlest of of of of.

things man any adult that would even. talk to me that was a male like I would. remember things that they said because I. was just such a sponge for any older man. to spend time with me or to talk to me. you know I um I had a friend this one of. my best friends when I was younger was. this boy this man Billy and he uh was a. homosexual gentleman and he was a. fighter he used to do some prize. fighting down there in Southern.

Louisiana very uh fancy fell too and I. used to run him run him around to buy. weed and drugs and this and that really. neat man um he used to cut his own hair. as well and so did I we had that in. common and he um he kind of became a. role model for me he was tough but he. was uh gentle at the same time because. he had that romantic interest in men's. and in pleasure with men's so I had I. would see him and and uh he kind kind of. he was older than me by about 10 years.

so there was he had a lot or 15 years. maybe I mean h he might have been. nearly smilly pedophilic in some of his. behaviors but um but I I I just embraced. uh being able to be around him because. he almost had you know some father like. abilities he was tough uh he he cared. about me because he probably might have. had a light romantic interest but he. also was in touch with his feelings so. he was sentimental so I'll say that he. was he was tough but he was sentimental.

that's kind of what I think a lot of you. know men desire young men desire in. their father so I got a little bit of. that from my buddy uh Billy before he. actually got peeled up and drove into an. embankment and he died I think in a. cutless but um I had another man who's. still kind of like a stepfather to me. today um I became friends with a kid he. invited me into his home and then I uh. me and his stepfather became friends and. um and he's still a really good friend. of mine today um and I value him you.

know um I mean I love him you know he. took care of me for years man um and. showed me uh you know even though I. wasn't ready to take a lot of his advice. and guidance he was an example and. that's one thing that uh that was really. special to me and still is um another. man an older man one time told me my. basketball coach told me to get my high. school diplom get my college diploma. he's the only man that ever said that to. me outright and that stuck with me and.

he said the reason you got to get it is. because they can never take it away from. you that's what he said and it was just. a man who said that to me but it stuck. with me so I would get inspiration from. some of the strangest uh strangest of. places man and you know and that's a. thing I think when you were young if you. don't have a father figure you'll pull. it out of anywhere it can be a movie it. can be a a song lyric it can be. a dream you know but you are really just.

thirsty for that uh that guidance or or. or whatever you think a father would. give you and so you covet it and you'll. Chase it down anywhere and and in any. male authority figures uh or I did. anyway if a man showed interest in me um. even though I was still like a corny kid. and I was you know full of ego and. thought I was cool and stuff and or. pretended like I thought I was cool I. still I still uh I still probably really.

valued um the fact that that somebody. cared about me you know so I would just. get it here and there man I'd get it. door too almost if I had to uh let's get. one more question here man then we're. going to we're going to pop off because. I'm I'm uh I'm tired and I I'll I'll get. into some other good stuff um and try to. honor my commitments to you guys thank. you guys so much for your your support. here we go what's up. hey man this is Luke I just wanted to. encourage you to continue.

to work on trying to start a family man. I think you're a great person you're a. good human being you have a great heart. and I don't think there's any reason on. the planet that you should feel like any. type of apprehension or afraid to do it. man because I'll tell you what I I was I. was 25 well thanks for the nice words. man I appreciate you saying some of. those things Luke um uh I appreciate. that man it's nice you to say onward.

about three years ago and I met a girl. who had a daughter and that that little. girl's dad had left her and didn't want. to be a part of her life and now you. know I'm her dad and she's seven years. old now and thriving and living a. beautiful life man but you know I wanted. to give you this advice Theo the. commitment you make it's not a. hundred-year commitment Theo you just. make a commitment a new commitment one. day at a time so every morning I wake up.

I commit to be the best dad I can be I. commit to be the best boyfriend I can be. and and that's all you can do man don't. look at it as a 50-year race because. that'll overwhelm you man just take it a. day at a time Theo and and I thank you. for this podcast man I love it it it. encourages me to be a better person and. uh God bless you Theo thank you man. thanks man I didn't mean to cut you off. there uh but I appre I really do. appreciate the nice words dude um. that's a you know that's a great way uh. to to think about it you know CU yeah if.

I think of something in a big chunk I. can't handle it you know it's the same. way that I deal with my with with. staying in sobriety so it's interesting. that you say that um that if I try to. think oh I'm going to stay sober forever. or I'm not going to have another beer I. can't hand that's really tough to. stomach but if I just think okay today. I'm not drinking today or I'm not GNA. party. today um then that's easier to handle.

you know uh so that's really great. that's really uh that's great advice. that that that you're uh offering to me. man and I appreciate that and and I. appreciate I do get some good calls um. where you guys are offering me guidance. and thoughts and advice and I really. appreciate it uh you know it makes me. feel good that you care uh because I. care man you know we're out here [ __ ]. fighting dude like it is for me it is. hard to be a man dude it's hard because.

I want to [ __ ] still be a boy I want. to still screw around and there's an. environment and a society that caters to. that it's like oh yeah bef you know uh. sex is everywhere and this is D party. and this and that and you can do it all. but you can't you know you can't do it. all certain ages you can and certain. times in your life but if you're ready. to if you're trying to grow up and move. on or evolve than you can't you know and. it's uh it's tough dude it is tough it's.

tough to you know to not want to just be. a kid forever and it's tough to realize. you might have the confidence to be a. parent to somebody when you still don't. know if you've been parented enough as a. human you know if I still don't know if. I've found enough father figures you. know to get back to that to that. previous call I don't know if I've still. you know it's tough to decide side when. you feel like. you're you you're the child that you.

were and whatever damages were there. have been healed or taken care of so. that you can evolve and move past that. so I think that's some of my issues. sometimes um Luke to get back to your. call um I believe it was Luke let me. check and see. here hey man this is Luke yeah yeah if. um you know it's tough It's just tough. sometimes dude but I appreciate that man. I appreciate that vote of confidence and.

that's a good way to look at it and. that's a good way to look at any any. addiction or any concern like I don't. have to do this for for 50 years I just. have to do it for today uh so I'm going. to leave us with that man that's a great. thought you know that if you're worried. about something you know if you think oh. I'm never going to talk to my girlfriend. again or I'm never or my exgirlfriend or. I'm never going to be able to stop. drinking or stop smoking it's it's too. big of a. task you know our brains will do that. sometimes they'll make the task so big.

so unimaginably big you know uh but it's. it's not true you know we just don't we. just it's just today just today you. don't have to do it for so I'm sharing. Luke's words there you know what's funny. is. man uh I wish there were times in my. life when if I had a father figured that. had come along and told me some of those. things things like that simple things I. think I wouldn't spend years years maybe. even decade spending my wheels not being.

able to figure out um not being able to. figure out things or get past things. because I didn't have good advice but I. would gravitate to to it wherever I. could get it and uh and I think that's. what we're all doing these days um if. you're a young man trying to evolve. that's what I'm trying to [ __ ] do. dude you know I'm having a deal with. these rap scallions out here trying to. use the grill at a damn residence in and. I can barely keep my [ __ ] together. uh but I'm hopeful I'm hopeful man I. want to thank everybody in Sacramento.

for coming out I'm going to sign off for. tonight man um and I'm going try to uh. try to honor my commitments to you guys. dude and I appreciate you guys being. supportive and hitting the hotline uh. I'll see you guys uh next Sunday night. and I'll um I'll see you guys in Phoenix. in person in two weeks uh you guys be. good to yourselves man try that I'm. going to try it you know I'm going to. try and take some of uh some of you. guys' uh wisdom this week so thank you.

very much I'll talk to you later on man. let's get out of here with a little bit. of this is called Green sleeves epidemic. sound oh that's a little romancer right. there that is a little romancer. [Music]. boy. [Music]. yeah it's tough to decide you know when. you got to.

be you know it's tough to decide when. you got to be. a be a leader and when you just got to. listen and be a. learner my first thought all the time is. to try and be a leader but really if I. had to go back in. time I'd have been better off just being. a learner a lot of. times I'd have been a better I'd have. been much better off doing it like. that but I didn't know sometimes you. don't you lead because you don't know.

what else to do you lead out of survival. you know but hopefully we get to a place. in our lives where we can take that. breath and let go of the and just be. patient with ourselves and let go. of the. controls and um and learn a little bit. you know and we learn from each other so. that's what I'm trying to do man you. guys be good to yourself man take care. of. yourself you know be good to yourself.

you probably deserve it I'll talk to. youall. later have a good. one.