Francis Ngannou Breaks Down Sharing Heartbreaking Story: “I Don’t Know How To Deal With This!”

just getting tired being tough was the. purpose of fighting. if I will end up not being able to fight. for the only person that I can fight. [Applause]. for heavyweight champion of the world I. was 13 years that I decided that I was.

going to be a professional fighter but I. have no money we don't have shoes we. don't have food there's not a gym I have. to do something for that dream so I left. Cameron you need to get to Spain I was. reading that people died oh a lot and. you were drinking water that had dead. animals we had no choice I attempt in. the ocean I fell six times at trying to. climb the fence but B while it was the. toughest part why didn't you give up. when your dream is so big it's hard to. give up and the day that we arrive in. Paris I can start that dream to become a.

war. Champion heavy in the world you left the. UFC because a disagreement with Dana. White what's the truth easy he didn't. want to and then you f an Joshua. honestly on that fight there was in lot. of unfairness what do you mean they have. a lot of tricks do you think they were. doing that intentionally yeah it was so. messy and then life shows how cruel it's. capable of. being when my boy pass away now was a.

moment that I really feel like a. failure have you been able to. [Music]. grieve the DI overa raffle is about to. close anyone that subscribes to the D. before we hit 7 million subscribers. which is probably going to be in a. couple of days time you will be included. in the raffle and on the day we hit 7. million subscribers we are giving away a. lot of money can't buy prizes to all of.

you so hit the Subscribe button get in. before 7 million and I'll announce the. prizes and the winners in the comments. below when we hit 7 million. subscribers Francis we met in a hotel. room in Paris MH it was me you tiar omry. and chy and several other people and um. I knew you from TV I'd watched you fight. but I had no. idea about your story and it's funny cuz.

we all went around one at a time tierry. me um and then you and shared our early. story and when we came to your story I. just couldn't believe it was true I. couldn't believe it was true really of. of course I'd never heard and I sit here. and interview people for a living I've. never in my life heard a story like that. from where you started to where you. ultimately ended up and I know you've. told it before to some people. but I have to start there because. because it I think it creates the.

context of everything that you are today. and the man that sits in front of me so. if you take me back to West. Cameroon in. 1986 yeah what would I see what was your. childhood. like um I think you will see two parents. that are just. struggling um making it a dad who was a. carpenter and then a mom that really. didn't have job and then at some point.

she she was doing whatever she find. whether it's like selling uh cook some. stuff and sell in the in the trade so. that's that was it in back then back in. 1986 the average person lives on $1,500. a year in West Cameron that's what I. read oh that's a lot oh really. $1,500 a year that's a lot of money how.

much money were your family living on a. year a year oh definitely less than. that less than thousand for. sure and you're in a village of about. 11,000 people yeah I mean yeah maybe. back then I think now we are over is. over 20 or 20,000 people or 30,000. people now I found some.

pictures take a look at these pictures. what are these different pictures can. you describe them to me what they are oh. yeah those uh this is me and my mom in. our kitchen um yeah this was uh when I. won the UFC title uh and then I I said. it there on purpose like you know I've. been sitting in this kitchen since when. I was a kid so dreaming about boxing and. everything so I got to go out there from.

this kitchen go out there get that belt. of a world champion and bring it back. and set it in that same kitchen and sit. in the same spot that I used to sit then. I'm like at the end of the day not only. everything is possible it's not such a. big deal you. know for anyone that can't see this cuz. they're listening on audio it with all. due respect it it looks like there's the. floor is mud and the walls are mud and. brick.

yeah so looks like a m yes that's that's. how we build house because it's the less. cost you want because you make like a m. to make to make bricks with it's not. like a brick with sand and C it's just a. m so that's some it's like a mud hut. yeah and you're sat you're sat there on. the floor with with your mother no on. the floor on the chair on the I mean I. wouldn't call that a chair but it's a. piece of wood is a chair piece of wood.

which is a chair you can sit in the. piece of wood. comfortable was this was this a happy. childhood. no um absolutely not but for some reason. um I think regardless of everything I. owe who I am today to my childhood you. know um as much as I hate my childhood. my childhood I was so mad so upset about. it since we didn't have the minimum the.

minimum necessity like even like brush. uh toothbrush stuff like that you know. book to go to school even like a uh. petrol to put in the lamp and learn we. didn't have some time sometime like you. see the fire there right on the picture. the fire where we are cooking on the. wood sometime you're going to take your. book there and read it like this like so. this is just a fire you've made with a. bunch of wood and some rocks and you. would go and read by the that fire so.

you could see your book yeah we cook uh. they put some food on top of a uh the. the bricks or the stone there to cook. and then meanwhile you're using the fire. the flame to to light up and read your. book sometime what made your childhood. so unhappy though what was it other than. the the difficulty the challenge of. everything uh as I say like we miss. everything uh.

most of the time we a lot of time we. will be walking bare food because we. don't have shoes uh or we will be like. uh fixing shoes in 10 in Thousand Ways. you know to still have a shoes our pants. will be having holes all over uh and we. will still trying to do we will go to. school be embarrassed because uh maybe. sometime we don't have a pen or pencil. or notebook or Haven pay scholar fee and. they're going to um kick us out from the.

classroom so all that stuff was. embarrassing not to mention like when. come a break time you don't have. something to eat uh unlik your um peers. the other kids you know you just around. on your own so it was a lot of thing. everything uh was a challenge and that's. why like when sometime I'm like you. people that are being very comfortable. never being in the struggle I'm like oh. money doesn't make happiness money blah.

blah blah I'm like give me the money and. then keep the. happiness because I have been without. money and I know what it feels like all. day long I prefer being with. money you really describing the. comparison that causes the unhappiness. between yourself your family who you. guys were and the other kids yes. absolutely I mean how many time do I get. sick and didn't have a peer couldn't. even go to the hospital we couldn't even. have a PE from around uh the street a.

pill yeah and then you're just home sick. like this hoping having some prayers. maybe luckily sometime go in the bush. and find some um. REM uh to cook and hopefully that he. works but you can't afford what were you. eating during that time when you didn't. have the money Farm um corns beans. peanut uh stuff like that yum uh.

casava um. veggies stuff like that is there a. moment you look back on your childhood. and think that was the worst Moment For. Me growing up just a memory or something. that happened that you thought this was. really the the bottom for me I would not. say the bottom I mean regardless of. everything I think. um I was lucky and uh I think I was.

gifted to be able to handle that that a. proper way you know uh when I look at it. today I'm impressed of the way that I. handle it and uh even without knowing. where that would lead me where I was. going with that I just handled it like. find a way out but I never like feel. like in a bottom you know in fact like. one of my biggest motivation came out of. that situation like uh I was around 13.

years old and he was someday around 300. p.m. they kick me out of the classroom. one more time and I think that day I was. pissed I was very pissed like almost. crying like okay what the hell is this. like what do I do to to deserve this. like why is this so unfair you know uh. and then the look of the other kids on. me and didn't stand that either you know.

then therefore I uh it was now a. challenge I promised myself that I going. to change that I going to prove them. it's not my fault I was just a child. just as them uh which doesn't have the. same opportunity as them just we. couldn't have a parent that can provide. for them but in fact the minimum that I. had wish wasn't enough was. um something that I work for I earned I. know the value of it and even though you.

have more they have more than me they. didn't earn it you know they they they. give it to them but they didn't earn it. I started I started to work in the s San. Quarry I was uh 9 years old so which was. a sand mine yeah sand mine and what you. doing you're you're using a shovel to. pick up sand and pick sand or di dick. sand in on the mountain um so I mean I. know that I get to realize that even.

though I have less I work for those less. and I work hard for those that and even. though they have more they don't really. know the value of what they have so in. fact I'm not beneath them in fact I'm. quite Superior why were you kicked out. of the classroom that. day uh when you were 13 he was I think. he was uh scholarship that that exact. same day I think was scholarship uh the.

fee The Scholar fee oh okay so you. kicked out of school because you didn't. have the money yeah because I haven't. paid the annual fee I haven't complete. the annual fee and uh yes that day he. was it but you know he was the same. thing over on over this year next year. the year after and uh that day I think. it was a signal and I'm like this is. going to change and um but the problem. now um I was was in the situation that I.

needed to do more than others to to be. noticed you know I was I wanted to prove. them that that's no the the perception. that they have on of on of me is not who. I am I'm better than that and. uh yeah so I was 13 years and that's the. day that I decided that I was going to. be a professional fighter a professional.

boxer it was the day that I really. decided growing up I want like karate I. want this I want that but I get to the. point that I want something that not. only will be my passion but at the same. time will provide for me and help me to. provide for my family as well and then I. come across like okay boxing combat. sport is the thing to do but problem I'm. 13 years old there's not um there is not. a gym in um 50 Kil 50 miles uh radius.

and uh I haven't I never see a gym you. know I never saw a gym before then and. even after that time I think I stayed in. the village until I was 22 was the. moment that I'm like okay enough is. enough I can just be dreaming I have to. take action I have to do something for. that dream then I leave the village I I. moved to the city I mov to some place.

that I don't know and then just like. sell everything that I have to start. boxing and I was 22 at that time I've. heard you say as well about your father. my whole life my father was the example. for me of what not to do yeah I think. that's the best thing that ever happened. to me because if my dad wasn't what he. was I could have been what he was but I. still love him a. lot yeah because again like from my. perspective. um he is the person that affected my.

life the most he was. violent and then I happened but he. wasn't capable of. uh canalyzing his energy his strength or. no how to use it then maybe. if they have a argument or something. usually at time people was fighting a. lot but he was Stronger so he basically. end up beating. other people so makes the them the.

victim and him the guilty right so and. then he has a reputation because when. you get into so many. fight uh in the in the hood and you and. you're winning any fight so you're just. a bad guy you know so it has that. reputation uh from people don't really. like his behavior and then. uh that's something that I understand. really quick and then who have affected.

me I didn't want to have that reputation. although I like everything uh that. related with power I was very into it. but I'm like no no way they are talking. to me about my dad basically like the. divorced I was 6 years old so I started. go live with my ants and this and. everywhere they would be like yes you. just yeah he's doing like his father. he's must be like his father stuff like. that and he pisses me off like so bad.

like I don't want to be have that. reputation even though I like everything. with strin power fighting you know then. that's how like I ended up find those. boxing combat sport stuff he was the. right thing to do because there was a. rules there was a rules he was organized. and everything was right to do and he. wouldn't affect your reputation when you. get into a boxing mat match or character.

fight you win you're a winner they. celebrate you they don't blame you from. beating somebody he was a violent man. outside of the home but also inside the. home yeah little bit to you and your. mother we will get some we will get some. Spain I mean in Africa uh at that time. that's kind of uh thing was happening a. lot into a lot of fames so he wasn't. something nowadays things a little. different but he wasn't something that.

was very different you know just so he. was kind of like strict straight guy. yeah was he violent towards your mother. uh sometimes sometime it could. happen he passed away when you were 15. years old yeah it. did how how did that impact you at 15. when he passed. away uh you know no he. wasn't.

um he wasn't a big part of my life at. that at time. um but yeah you get affect you think. about like your dad and the fact that. you will never see him again you know. time to time for months you think I am. like man so this is it and yeah he. affected you a lot I mean you're hurt. but you just have to keep rolling. when he passed away he couldn't afford.

to go to the hospital yeah he was sick. he was at home for months sick uh just. stay in bed uh couldn't even go out to. the toilet on his own anything he has. one leg that was get. uh. rotten and was just there like that. until he Di and that was something that. I look at it I'm like man I think I need. to do something something I need to take. action because this kind of thing might.

happen uh again in the future or in my. to my mom or to somebody close and I. won't be I will be powerless and uh no. doesn't have to be like this you know so. that was one of the reason like just. being sick be at home on to die maybe we. could have saved him if we have money. maybe he could have still be alive if he.

could have go to the hospital but nobody. knows and nobody will ever. know a couple of. years after I was looking at my mom and. I asked myself if she ever got sick what. would I do and it scared the hell out of. me at that point I knew I had to do. something to at least be able to provide. her some decent. healthare I always wonder what it would. be like if my dad was still alive today.

I wish I can have him in my life today. even just for a day. yeah well. uh after my d uh passed away and then I. think that was also a shock of our. situation I realized I mean I was 15 by. the time I know that our situation. wasn't good we W living in a good. condition but that was like a eye. opening like okay this how bad it is he.

didn't go to the hospital for months I. was going there time to time and he was. suffering in pain and everything it. didn't go to the hospital and uh even. when he passed away I could have I keept. having nightmares of seeing him like in. pain screaming at night stuff like that. and I'm like this not happening again. bro. like he was tough right so uh. um now that was not only like I was.

thinking that uh when I grow up I have a. family and I want to provide them uh. provide to them and then get them in a. good situation in a better condition but. that was like okay this something that. can happen again what would you do it. could be yes it could be your mom it. could be one of your siblings or it. could some day be your own kid what will. you do like just sit there and no I need.

to do something. so that's I I took actions you know and. then uh yeah in the other hands seeing. where we were when my dad passed. away I always wonder like what would it. be like if he was. around if he could turn around and see. us what would he say like how would he. feel I mean he always uh and I miss.

those moment that I I replicate uh our. family a lot you know growing up we. never have to eat in the dining table. like this we didn't have a dining table. um but uh for the past year I've been. replicating that like I will have we. have nice house with table dining tables. and sometime I will get there and then. regroup everybody in the table and then. even though I don't speak I look at that. table and know that somebody is missing. there's one person missing you know who.

could have be the to to to make that a. perfect T you know even though it's. quite uh enjoyful to be with those who. are there it's still like a blessing to. have them um but it's still sad not to. have one person. there you start dreaming at that very. young age you start dreaming of a. different life and I was reading that. you were pretty obsessed with.

America you were signing your signature. San Francisco not like obsessed I love. America I always love America like since. I I uh I name myself American boy I name. I give myself a nickname of American Boy. when you were young yeah like kids. around will call will call me American. boy because I tell them that's my name. and at 17 you said that you left that. small town is it called Betty betti yes. the village that's the V that you left. and you um you moved to a different town.

mhm you went to Cameron's largest city. where you started boxing City yes. Dua why did you leave he wasn't at 17 at. 17 I left. uh I abandoned school because I couldn't. continue ah okay so you left school at. 22 okay so 22 you decided you wanted to. move City yeah had you ever been to a. gym before before when was the first age. you went to a gym. uh a boxing gym yeah kind of 22 22 yeah.

when I left the village to go find one. um why did you end up leaving Cameroon. and what age was it when you left. Cameroon I left Cameroon I was around um. I was 26 around 26 when I left Cameron. why did you leave well I knew that I. couldn't make it there uh as a boxer. because I started boxing and I know that. reality there I know the truth even.

before I started boxing I I knew the. reality I knew that uh it can happen. there you know I need a big stage I need. somewhere that. um there's more boxing is well developed. uh where did you want to. go first he was always. America but uh from Cameron there wasn't. a way to come to America I wasn't going. to swim to the uh Atlantic.

Ocean so the easiest way. the more Payway was to go to Europe so. April the 3D you're 25 26 years old um. 2012 which doesn't feel like it was that. long ago 2012 is when I left it was 2012. yeah that's when I left that's when I. left my secondary school and at that. time you leaving Cameroon yes and you're. objective was you were going to try and.

get to to Spain or get to Europe yes so. you were going to walk from Cameroon to. Europe uh it wasn't work I mean from. camaron uh I was in Dua I took a bus to. Y then I took a train to the train to. North camon and then we took like a we. started take like a um um how do they. call CL. l no no no small car that you know they.

know how to avoid police uh uh station. and all those stuff on the road so. that's how we get from Cameron North. Cameroon to Yola in Nigeria and. then Yola to Cano and then Cano. Niger and so you traveled from Cameroon. to Nigeria to n to Algeria to Morocco to. Morocco yeah and then. how did you get through the Sahara.

Desert uh he were we we were lucky uh. our group didn't have so much of a. trouble um even though it was 25 of us. in the back of a pickup. truck yeah but uh we made it the truck. didn't broke up uh we get it out there. safe people died. going oh a lot like uh all the way you.

will see like sket around skeletons. skelet is in the desert and just look. other way other way like no You' see. skeletons and look away yeah how how do. you afford where does the money come. from to get go on this journey to get. out of Cameroon and to try and get to. Europe cuz it must cost money yeah from. the beginning um the beginning is not so. hard uh because it's something that you.

prepare for for years you don't just. wake up one day and go like this you. prepare for you don't know how much you. need but you know that the much that you. can have you you can use it to go you. know so I have some savings that I've. been saving saving for a little. while I took some with me and I give. gave some to my little sister to keep it. ready in case I call because I didn't. know where I was going and then we have.

heard that there's a lot of smugger. Smuggler uh on the way so you better. don't carry what all your money on your. on you so as much as you're going you're. going to call and then they will send. money uh until it's over and then you. start to figure out on your own what is. the you say it so casually but what is. the reality of that of that Journey you. know I was reading that you were. drinking at times drinking water that.

had dead dead animals inside the water. yeah when we first crossed the desert uh. we get to South Algeria um in a tamaras. set we found a water well and it was. almost dry and there was a little water. that was there for I think for months. there was death animal and all the uh. leaves everything was inside the water. but um. we were so dehydrated because our water.

in finished in the desert like hours ago. so at time the water didn't look good at. all it was pretty bad but I think the. philosophy right here was like okay. whether I drink the water and if he has. to kill me he kill me later or I just. die now by dehydration I think when. that's the only two Choice it's easy to. choose one. die now or die a little. [Laughter].

later what does all of this this. experience do to you as a man in terms. of your your resilience and attitude. towards life you probably don't even. know because you just are the way that. you are but you must see that you're. different from other people in the. Western. World I think in general in Africa we. are quite different uh to um the Western. World um we we have more not that in the.

Western World people don't have hardship. but we. have mostly most of us we have hardship. and toughest one for the most part you. know um like because in the Western. World you will not see it's it's not. very often that you will see kid that. that have experiment uh famine you know. like uh going to to sleep without eating. or something. I think the S the is the West is more.

designed to stay away of those kind of. trouble you might not have home but you. can still have something to eat but in. Africa um most people they will not even. have that and then um the good thing and. I think the different that I found so. far is that in Africa you know from your. early age that you are not counting on. not body you are not expecting anything.

from anybody it's all on you and as long. as you get that the rest of your life. get. better because you go out there and. figure it out but you go in a lot of. Western Country and. then even though coming from where you. come from uh you see that there's a lot. of opportunity and people are still. there sitting complaining we don't have. this this should be like that it should.

be like that you'll be like man this is. like more than all what I need you know. because you at the point that you don't. need you don't just need what can be. given to you what will be given to you. is just a way is uh a what could be. given to you is just a way for you to uh. a preach to help you get where you're. going because you have set um your goal.

Way Beyond what you you can get you how. long does it take you to get across the. Sahara Desert across the Sahara Desert. itself it took uh one day we didn't stay. our uh again we were lucky our car. didn't broke up so they drove for about. I think 20 or 22 hours and eventually. you get to. Morocco and Morocco from Morocco you.

need to get to Spain which is difficult. that was the toughest part I spent. almost one year in Morocco trying to get. to Spain yeah trying to get to Spain I. did a lot of attempt uh in the in the. water and also in the in the fences when. you were living in Morocco where were. you. staying wherever you find in the desert. uh in the forest uh it depend on like. what you're looking for you you know for. example if you want to go to the fence.

try the fence to escalate the fence um. which is in. Mia for the most part then you have to. stay in the forest of gurugu it's like. living in the forest between trees you. know and then you HT what are you. eating what you eating everything that. you find sometime uh there are people. that can make trap and try uh get some. animals but uh for the most part we will.

wait nighttime to go to the market uh. because the police is always around you. know the on the cover police we will. wait for the night for night time go to. the market go to the market trash and. then find like rot rotten stuff like. that they throw away whether it's tomato. potatoes um chicken legs because they. didn't eat chicken legs was the best in. for us so we will find stuff like that.

in the trash and go back in the forest. and try to make a meal how we don't have. money were you try at that time were you. trying to figure out learn how to get to. Europe were you trying to learn the best. way because I can't imagine or did. someone tell you how to get to Europe. there's a lot of people there that is. trying to do the same thing it's not. just you you left your house by. yourself but by the time you get to some. point you start meet people that are in.

the same journey and by the time you get. in Morocco there's a lot hundreds of. people are you training at the time are. you trying to stay fit yeah sometime in. the forest I mean you have nothing to do. you do pushup you do some apps but. otherwise what would you. do and you were still dreaming of being. a boxer even though you were oh yes that. was that was the thing. I mean that was my motivation I think if.

he wasn't about that I wouldn't have. left my. country he was just about. that I did I never thought about. anything. else so that was the reason where I left. how did you how did you know you'd be. good at it I didn't. know but he was about to find out I. didn't know at all I had no idea I I. could have be very bad I could have be. good. so he was just about to give it a try.

and if it doesn't work then at least a. try you know I think is the is the most. important thing is to try and give it. all and if it doesn't work then well we. reset you there's two ways to get to. Spain you can go over the wall or you. can go across the water through the sea. yeah and across the water could be very. dangerous dangerous and difficult.

sometime I. try couple times did you try the wo yeah. the bobbed Wire yeah I Tred the Bob I. have a lot of scar on me a lot of Bob. wire scar on me really like those are BB. wies those you see my finger spit my. finger into like on my skin you will. find on my stomach here on my feet I F I. try I have a lot of that uh um I try to. I attempt in the ocean like uh six I.

fell six time what happens when you you. try and go over the bbwi fence is it did. they catch you um where the the spot. that we picked because it's about like. 12 or 14 miles of fence with B wire so. we will have like a Outlook guy that. will go walk around all the those uh. fence and then like trying to identify a. spot that there is not. too much bab wire or that the bab wire.

has fell you know uh and when there's. not a lot guard because there's guard on. the Moroccan side and there's guard on. the spin side and some way there's like. three fences and then bab Wi on like. maybe the first one or the. two there's not a chance that unless you. can fly you cannot go there and it's. like 7 m High 7 m High 7 m high so it's.

it's not possible with bab wies without. bab wies yeah that's good but and then. they clean the surrounded of the uh of. fences so the guy have to stay like far. from the distance to trying to identify. if there's a failure of bwire somewhere. you know so it's very difficult and uh. on there's a police a Moroccan on the.

Moroccan side there's like a boxes of um. uh God mhm in like interval I don't know. maybe 20 M every 20 M there's a God 20. 30 m there's a boxes of God sometimes. some boxes can be empty but from where. we are you don't see need somebody to go. there like a Weg every time read. everything monitor the um um uh all the.

information you know like the the post. the the guard how theyve been um the. schedule yeah how they been changed. because it's permanent but one person. doesn't stay there 24 hours I think it's. like 8 hours so you you have when you. spotted a spot that there's not so much. bab then you'll be like okay there's a. Outlook very far there there's a Outlook. from the spin side very far and then.

these boxes is there guard inside he. might take him days to just find if find. out if those boxes have God someday is. going to go by and then like wait they. can stay in the same spot for like 2. days just to wait and then when the. truck come uh comes to uh change uh ship. for the gods to change for the god to. shange shift and then he will see which.

box have the God and which box does a. have and then what time they come and. this what time they go if they pray what. time they go to pray and he he you need. all those information before prepare a. attack and you prep eventually you. prepared an attack for the fence yeah. and sometime you prepare the attack. you see all those you collect all those.

information then as you are getting. closer to the fence you realize that. there was a b wire you couldn't just see. from where you were at MH you know or. that maybe there's someone that is in. the floor they dig like 5 m long like. this wide and then they throw B wires. all the way then you you ran you ran by. uh maybe 30 m or 100 100 m m they can. see you coming they know that you're.

coming now you are taking advantage on. like because you in a group of a people. and then you get closer and then you. find like 5 m back wire you can jump 5 m. it's not possible you know so so what. you do you run back what you run back or. some by the time you run back uh if it's. a group of you some people will fall in. the bow because they didn't see or maybe. you in the front line you see but you. can't go back because there are people a.

mass behind you coming they just push. and then you fall inside the back wire. did you ever try and climb the fence and. did you get caught yeah I try to climb a. fence uh I get out of those B wires on. the floor once the only and that was the. time that I fell in the B wire I trying. to climb the fence but the bab on the. fence. was painful big like I was trying to. hold it and he was just catching my face.

like like oh okay I. see like so and um I get to the point. that I'm like you know I rather be aive. without being in. Europe uh instead of being dead in. Europe like wait it's going to be. another. time it's not possible so you eventually. decide that you want to go via the see. in a boat you're going to try and take a. small little dingy yeah that was that.

was um I mean even before I tried the B. wire the first thing that I tried it was. a boat and why did that not work I mean. it's not like the boat is a small. inflatable boat that you can use in your. swimming pool stuff that they use in the. swimming pool we call it dinghy you can. put it in the swimming pool you get it. in Walmart in Walmart yeah yeah exactly. so that's a you tried to cross from. Morocco to Spain in one of these small. inflatable boats um you couldn't swim no.

I don't know how to swim but guess what. I ended up being a. captain captain of the what of the. boat because he's still need a captain. he still need somebody to organize. somebody that knows how to pattern. somebody know where we are going. somebody know how to organize like for. 10 people to get in the same boat from. uh going from the ground to the ocean. and then like how do they they get all. those organization and then I I practice.

I did it so many time that I become I. became an. expert so you and I still don't know how. to swim you tried six times to get. across mhm what happened in those six. times uh sometime we get. caught the majority of time we get. caught and what does that what happens. if you get caught they send you back to. the desert they send you back to the. desert yeah to the desert uh not to. Morocco no. you are in Morocco you get caught by the.

Morocco guard yeah but then they just. bring you back to the city or something. no because um they have been financed to. protect uh people from a b they have. been financed uh by European union or. something like that from holding you. guys down there so every time that the. uh cash somebody they make a report of. that person uh that okay we C somebody. and then we send them back out of. Morocco they will just bring you to the.

to Algeria Border in the desert and. throw you gu there and you will figure. out your way so they throw you back in. the desert without food every time you. got caught. yeah I mean it's pretty pretty horrible. um why he's alive and uh even till today. there's people out there still doing the. same thing and even though he's getting. harder and harder I don't know how they. do but I don't want to find out he.

horrible so you would but then you you. went back again and tried again for a. seventh time why didn't you give up. you've tried defense the fense doesn't. work you've tried Crossing six times in. a small inflatable boat that doesn't. work why didn't you give up what for. give up go back to Cameroon maybe live. in what go back to. what didn't I get a job in cam in. Morocco. uh why couldn't I why shouldn't I try.

again it was all about. trying and I think like when your dream. is so big when you have something it's. hard to give up you know like you get to. the point. that. you um you're capable of risking more. for Just a Dream which is something that. a normal person would not understand. like I just ask myself now like why.

didn't I give up at that time why do I. keep doing this why did I take those. risk because there was a moment that. even now I think about it I'm like that. was stupid he was like a dead sentence. you just get lucky from coming out there. alive you know but I took those decision. your dream was so big that he um blinds. you you couldn't see any anything else.

except what you have not what is in. front you couldn't see anything in front. of you except what you have in your mind. you could only see what is in your mind. and regardless what is in in front of. you what um the obstacle is in front of. you you can only see what in front of in. your mind and it could nothing could. stop you and what was that in your mind. that was pulling you. dream dream to make it to go have that.

boxing you know uh that uh boxing. career um set up a stability for me and. my family and my potential kids so they. don't have to go to what I been through. you know so uh I knew that if I give up. I wouldn't be able to look at in myself. in the mirror like this he would have be. asham of to leave with myself I couldn't. leave with myself it was hot you thought.

about it you think about like oh maybe. maybe there's not a way what for like. going back and then maybe some not. really have something to do and some day. you see your your child get sick and you. you feel powerless just as your parent. were to you I'm like no that's not. happening and then the seventh. attempt was. successful yeah take me take me to that.

seventh attempt of getting across the. sea to get to Europe you you get in the. boat there's you and a couple of other. men you start paddling the sixth at the. sixth attempt was close to the winter. okay we get. caught and I was this close we were. already on the other side we get caught. by a uh Army it wasn't even like a um. um. uh.

the I don't know how the the Coast Guard. he wasn't even the Coast Guard he was. the army with a big ship and they were. just passing by going. somewhere after 3 hours inside the ocean. we were paddling we knew that we are. getting there and then we get. caught back in Morocco they knew that we. are gone we made. it and then um at that time he was like.

close to Winter the winter was coming. the water wasn't stable anymore we. couldn't attempt. anymore and for. me she was that I tell myself that the. day that I'm touching the ocean again. I'm not coming back. ever I don't know. exactly what I was with willing to do. but I'm like it's not happening this is.

it you know my frustration was top to. the level. so we. uh we um recruit back in the forest. trying those try fences or just stay. there during the winter because the. water I mean yes you can try some crazy. stuff but only when you see that there's. an ounce of a chance but when you look.

at the oceans the big mon monster rising. up with those waves you know that you. cannot go through there's no way no you. can't do that a small boat on a on a. small inflatable boat and it's cold it's. freezing so I think what was uh even. scary the most was the coal you would. just get frozen out there you know so I. stayed in the forest for like months uh. months and uh once when the U winter was.

um by the touching the end I had a. friend that people he was in t t and. then he reached out to me he said I have. a I have a. ship let's go I couldn't leave Tang I. did everything I get to the bus station. and was so much police and this I didn't. want to end up in in the desert in USDA.

I'm like okay. just and then the next day one one uh. the next day um we are running from the. police uh from 4:00 a.m. to like maybe. 4:00 p.m. we came back to our spot I. open my phone I saw like 12 M. call I checked and then he was like. Ito made Ito was the guy that was. calling.

me I'm like damn I could have been. making it too with them did they get. they got to Europe yeah they got to. Europe like bro come. on I couldn't sleep there anymore and I. have a lot of call and people was like. yes we want you to be our captain you. this that that that I'm like I'm going. you know and I didn't want any promises. like oh we going to do this buy a uh. boat in one week or no I have a guy that.

we've been talking for a long time he. say I have a boat already I'm like let's. go so you get on a boat an inflatable. boat I heard that you wrapped yourself. in silver foil no no I didn't but um I. was planning um we put a life jacket. though we had the one thing that we are. very um straight about is a life jacket. yeah I didn't but because. over time you learn a lot of stuff and.

you know that those silver for uh would. deviate radiation from like a you know. they have the red Rader yeah yeah yeah. so if you wear the silver then the the. radar can't find you yeah the radar can. find you he can see you because when the. radar is going like this and then he see. like uh I think it's infrared or. something and then he see movement he. like but when you have that se for you. they can see you so that time tell me. about this successful Journey you get in.

the boat not you and a few other men. you're the captain no we didn't get in a. boat I went to rabber which there were. what's rabber a city okay there were I. went from uh NAD to Raba to meet them. like okay when are we going to Tang. because I've been in I've been in t i. I've been living in Tang for so long um. until winter that I went back to to NAD. so they are living in a Raba which is.

kind of like a city and they have those. little job of construction I'm like when. are we going I meet them there and like. okay let's go I'm like oh we are still. working we're going to get paid on. Saturday and this is what when like I. think this was like Tuesday I'm like bro. I'm not staying here until Saturday bro. bro my blood was boiling. like I'm like man I miss this I could. have been making it with uh with it with.

the other guy that called me so. we the the leader the the head guy of. the group he said okay then I'll go with. you uh because I was a captain I I need. to go and check the place and everything. say I'll go with you the rest of people. they can wait until we give everything. is good we give them uh sign so they can. come we move by the time we touch ground.

we are stepping down of the bus in. Tangier I got sick I got a. fever and we are going to. this house inside mod we have to take. our shoes off walk inside mod to get. into this house to sleep something like. that and I was sick bro but I can't tell. anybody that I'm sick I'm the. captain and people saw me in t I'm like.

wow this guy is here he's going to make. it he's not coming back so they trying. to bribe the the guy that I was to get. them in the in the group and you I'm. like no we collect the money together to. buy um to buy the boat so I can uh kick. take anybody out of it uh I'm like if uh. because they call me vam they say if. vanam is the captain you guys are not. coming back you're going to make it and.

I was sick nobody. knows so long story short uh we've been. there for like couple days and I didn't. even have any money to. eat and then uh but I check internet. every day to check the weather the. weather to see how the ocean is and he. wasn't so was terrible and I found one. day I think was Tuesday and he was the.

second April 2nd. 2013 and I say this day is good because. this is the speed of the wind this is. the uh direction of the wind this this I. know that thing I don't know how I know. it but by the time I knew it properly I. was a. captain so I say tell your guy to come. this day because we uh because we are. leaving by the time they come with the. boat we are not sleeping here with the. boat we have to just be going with the.

boat because it's a very even the police. when they like uh bust into houses they. will search for that mhm and they came. we get to the to the to where we were. going next to where we were going but. the police car was up there so we. couldn't inflate here and then put the. raffle inside the ocean without them. seeing us now we have to make a. detour all night long we make a detour.

to go somewhere in the. front and uh even though I was sick. usually Captain you don't carry stuff. because they protect. you for the big action for the main. action which is inside the ocean and. then while we are making these dets some. people are being left behind and this. I'm like bro where's the where is the. boat where is the RAF they say oh it's. here is to this guy I'm like bring that. raffle if you stay back stay alone don't.

stay don't stay back with the. raffle I take that thing I like if. somebody want to go he has to cash up. with me I just lead the way and keep. going and all night we go up and then. finally go down to the um step and find. a place and it was all. rocks and I'm. there you know we used to go to where to. the beach so there is a sand MH it's. easier because like when you walk to the.

sand like this to go inside water and. every footstep get you deeper and deeper. now you are in the middle of rocks and. then the ocean is there you don't know. how deep is the ocean there and how you. going to get in that ocean you want just. you can just jump like this to get in. the ocean and then uh the wave was so. strong you you will he like. like damn was it night time yeah early. in the morning okay because we are.

waiting we are aiming to do this when uh. they call for 5:00 a.m. prayer okay yeah. but we get little late because because. of those day. too but I'm the captain I'm the one that. everybody's expecting on me and he will. we were he was uh nine of. us so I I tell them okay with me here. here let me um um find a.

place you. know when something is yours is. yours I walked around and I get. somewhere in the middle of rocks I found. a spot just big as big as this table. enough to inflate the boat just enough. no more than that and he was like this. clean I touch it it there wasn't. anything sharp on it just like that. enough I went back and called the other.

guys like let's go they came I'm like. okay let's infl the boat eventually the. boat Gets In The Water you go yeah and. the boat is rescued by the American Red. Cross by the Red Cross don't know if it. was I we know there was a Red Cross base. in in Spain in did you get to you got to. Spain we didn't get there but we know. that there's a Red Cross inside ocean in. fact okay in fact we have their numbers. so you knew there was a Red Cross there.

so you got close to Spain yeah and then. the Red Cross came and got you we get. far from the uh Moroccan Coast but we. don't know where is the limit but we. just get far from this coast and then. trying to get as far as possible uh. inside the ocean and call but the. problem is that you're in the middle of. the ocean and even though it's where L. the two the closest distance of the two. continent uh from this side you can see.

the other side but in the midor of the. ocean when they say where are you what. are you seeing you can really give them. a Direction so sometime because their. goal is just to rescue you their goal is. not to bring you to Spain and if they. cannot find you they will even call a. Moroccan Coast uh coast guard for uh. help and if you know you're lucking day. you get fined by Moroccan CU God you. know where you're going you're going. back.

to. so we P like for one I think it was like. hour and a half almost 2 hours and then. there was a. helicopter uh in in front of us and he. was like standing there like he was. looking about something and I tell the. guy that okay this not a good sign. whether this helicopter can play against. us or he can play for us what we do call. we call now because when they ask if.

they ask what are you seen we will see. the elicopter is right above us and then. we call so you called the Red Cross we. called the Red Cross you called the Red. Cross yes and what did you say for the. restroom oh we are in the inside the. ocean we need. help and then I don't know we pick up. the phone and start to ask if we have. yes how many people do you have a lady. in the boat and this I'm like what the. hell is this problem we are human being.

and I'm like yes we have ladies even. kids we didn't have kids we have ladies. I'm like what's that what's different. that makes like you will just let off us. here because like yes even kids and say. okay what are you seeing we see we we. see the helicopter right above say Okay. welcome in did and they found you yeah. and then right after that it started. rain and the water really get bad he was.

moving now we are in the middle of the. ocean in this little uh boat just as. like this table and he's like going. all we TI get tied in the middle we were. it was nine of us how long did it take. for the Red Cross to find you. uh like 10 10 to 15 minutes it's quick. yeah and they they take yeah I think a.

little more maybe like 20 minutes and. they take you to Spain and then when. they when they find us because now he. was little harder to find us because it. was raining and the ocean wasn't stable. you know when the ocean is stable you. can see something from far away now this. is there something crazy that happened. inside the ocean like from the coast the. ocean is flat when you get inside at. some point bro ocean has Mountain like.

there's a way that you're. climbing and then until you get to the. Peck and then there's a way that you're. going down inside the ocean I don't know. how it works but it's exactly like that. and you can see like a h Mountain inside. the ocean and they they took you to. Spain yeah they found us uh and then. took us in their in their boat they have. a real boat you know like solid big boat. that took us inside and then uh brought.

us to their um headquarter which is in. in Spain and you stayed in Spain in a. Detention Center in a cell with 10 or 20. other men um for two months yes it was. like I think uh 53 days how were you. treated. treated we were eating but it was a.

prison though it was quite a prison I. think you get to the point that you I'm. like maybe they should have just let us. inside the ocean. or maybe we were better in in Morocco. because you locked you can do anything. you you realize that you had freedom. even though your life wasn't the best. that's when I mean you here you're. getting Feit every. day but they tell you where when to eat.

when to shower when to go sleep when to. go out and. everything and after like um couple. weeks it started to become hot because. at first you excited I'm like oh I made. it you're excited you I'm in Spain I'm. in Europe but after a couple weeks I'm. like come on man like I need my sentence. now because if you you had a fake idea. at one point and if you oh.

no when you get caught you make sure. that you don't even have a receipt or. whatever on you so you threw it in the. water oh yeah when did you throw it in. the water when you saw the Red Cross. coming I no when you're sure that the. Red Cross will get you because otherwise. that will be your way out in Morocco. sometime he can prevent you not to be. through in the desert when did they they. released you from the Detention Center. in Spain yes eventually after almost two.

months and they gave you. 50 no not from the Detention Center. there is a Association that come charity. for refuges some organization that are. out there so they will come take you and. then bring you to their uh place and. where did you where did you want to go. what was the plan so you're now in Spain. you're free you've got. 50 so my plan first of all was to go to. first I wanted to go to the UK MH but I.

knew that even though I'm in Europe the. free circulation in Europe will not. allows me to get in the UK because they. are not in the that zone in the shenen. zone so I think I started for Germany. because I wanted a place that boxing was. big but for somehow I was in a group of. people that most of them they like oh we. are going to France oh Shan all this all. that and in the 9th of June 2013 26. years old now you arrive in Paris and I.

read that on your first day in. Paris um you figured out how where to. eat where to sleep and you found a. boxing gym where did you sleep when you. arrived in Paris in the parking lot you. slept slept in a parking lot yeah how. long did you sleep in the parking lot. for like two months for two months you. slept in a parking lot how did you how. did you so you arrive in Paris you're. sleeping in a car park um how do you. find a gym pay for a gym oh next day I.

was after it so I finally get where I. could start that dream that I've been. having for a decade what did you do did. you just walk up to the boxing gym and. say hey can I come here for. free yeah basically what I I worked in. the front des and they gave me this um. form and then I saw the price and. everything and I couldn't afford it now. I'm like can I talk to a coach to the. boxing coach and the ladies said the. boxing coach is not there today. but uh he has his substitute is there.

you can talk to him and we I just. explain straightforward like okay I. arrived in Paris yesterday I don't have. where to sleep you know but all what I. want I want a place to train so that's. why I wanted to see a boxing a coach if. you can let me train here because I have. no money uh I have nowhere to sleep I. have nothing but the only thing that I'm. asking for. is a place to train because I want to. become a world champion straightforward.

that was it and he. said. um if you have a phone number give me. your phone number I'll speak to a boxing. coach he'll be here on Wednesday and. I'll give you a call. back that's. how I gave him my phone number I had a. phone and then on Thursday morning he. called me and he said yes I spoke to the. coach and he agreed that you can come. and train and the next training uh is. Saturday and that's how he started did.

kment yeah d k did a come on was that. man that you met that day in the boxing. gym that gave you a chance yeah and he. let you train for. free how he speak on my behalf to the. coach who let me let you train yeah and. they gave you new pair of shoes I read. that he gave you keys to an apartment to. sleep in as well uh yes after like two. months uh he gave me he gave me a key he. has like one apartment that uh he was uh.

I think was ABNB or renting out and then. he get free for coule is and at time I. think uh he knows me a little bit more. and he gave me that apartment for almost. two months he he changed your life. didn't he because if he hadn't have said. yes if he hadn't have introduced you to. the person if he hadn't help have helped. you he helped me a lot he helped me a. lot changed my life I think is too much. say but he helped me a lot um I mean we. were at the gym and then he knows.

exactly my situation because I was uh. clear to him telling him everything but. other people at the gym didn't know and. in fact he he at some point even tell me. that you don't have to tell your story. to everybody they don't need to know. your situation you know like why did he. help you why did he help you because he. was kind he just like me and like to. help me and uh. hear me a lot it's because he didn't. have a a reason no he didn't a lot of.

people will have. expectation that maybe at time you would. you would not know but later on you will. find out but he was just genuine you. never have like a expectation you know. in fact sometime he's the guy that. sometime you will even call you will not. he will not be around shut down his. phone and everything he's always been. like that because it was quite difficult. to become a boxer in France without. having all of the correct identity.

papers he eventually suggests that you. take up mixed martial arts as a way to. make some quick money um and in 2013 26. years old you went to the MMA Factory in. France and introduced your coach. yourself to a coach called Fernand Lopez. and within four months I mean he saw. something especially in you in terms of. MMA and within four months of that you. had your first MMA fight yeah. what did you think when you first saw. the sport of MMA did you had you ever. heard of MMA before no so DJ was the.

first one to talk to me about MMA I'm. like oh yes you have a good striking if. you do MMA I'm like what is MMA it's. Mar okay good then what's that what's. mix Mas say yes it's like boxing with. wrestling with this I'm like ah I think. I have seen that once on the TV I was. watching TV I see something like that. that like yes if you have if you learn. some good wrestling some take down.

defense little bit of a grappling and. this I'm like what's grappling to. explain the whole thing to. me and this is back in. 2013 June 2013 and I'm like bro nah. that's not what I want I want you know. the Mike Tyson boxing right so yes I'm. like that's what I want you fought five. times in Europe before you were signed. for the UFC which is quite remarkable. because a lot of people spend many many.

many many years trying to get into the. UFC you fought just five times in Europe. before you were offered a chance to. fight in the UFC I didn't even I wasn't. even planning to go to the. UFC and uh but as soon as I start I. started to fight in France then it. became it became very hard for me to. have a fight in France people didn't. want to fight me fight me why oh they. say I'm. brutal and I'm like it's a fighting.

game I mean the the goal is to be brutal. and then I'm not having fight because. I'm brutal like I heard your coach he. actually posted on Facebook saying um. asking if anyone in Europe wanted to. fight you the post is will anybody in. Europe fight Francis yes nobody wanted. to fight you I mean no anybody at that. level because even though a lot of.

people didn't want to fight me I was. still unexperienced. so he's not like they will give just. give me to anybody but nobody either. like want to take a risk there's not a. gain for a elite fighter to fight me. he's risking of losing everything but. not a not quite a lot to gain were you. aiming to be in the UFC cuz you now you. knew what MMA was but when you started. becom an MMA fighter were you trying to. get into the UFC no how did that happen. I was just like you know training uh.

because I I had time I uh I was jobless. so I have all my time and I like to. train and I found MMA I found MMA very. uh exciting I like all those stuff so I. was training boxing MMA and then I start. to fight MMA and sometime maybe I will. have like um couple hundred Euro. fighting uh MMA who who was very welcome. at the at the time so I'm like let's do.

this but that was it and people keep. saying oh if you improve your Jujitsu if. you do this you're going to become a UFC. champion like then. what I really like I was so focused on. boxing and then um but I think like MMA. came to me and gave me that opportunity. and then all of the sudden I'm here I. have the UFC contract ra how did that. happen how did that happen did they call. you or your agent or your manager so I.

think um uh Fernando a guy that was a. manager at time uh he uh Thiago okay. Thiago okamura okay yeah and then he was. the guy that was uh pitching me to the. UFC okay so your manager your coach knew. someone who was pitching you to the UFC. yeah manager. okay and then that's how I get uh that's. how I get the UFC contract where was.

your first fight in the UFC Orlando. Orlando yeah was that your first time in. America yeah uh it was the first time. and I remember like uh I get. there and I'm like okay and uh there was. somebody at the airport with a tablet. with my name on it and then picked me up. with a Cadillac brought me to the hotel. the H I had residency they check me in.

brought me to my room how did it. feel then I call home I call my mom I'm. like I don't know what it is but I think. your son have made. it finally get to that like I mean like. I get to America basically so that's. what because for so many years America. was the dream to get in America and I. get in America and in a big way not the. way that I get in Europe because I get. in Europe in the service door I get in.

America basically on on the red carpet. that was. it that was. 2015 2015 how much that first fight do. you does that that first fight make you. rich no you don't get paid much for the. first UFC fight yeah he was $10,000 plus. 10,000 uh win bonus and then with all. the commissions you got out with almost. just half uh but he wasn't he wasn't.

about the fight he was more about like I. think me coming to America and all the. stuff he was more than what I was making. in the fight that's nine years after you. left Cameroon you fought for the UFC. heavyweight championship. belt and eventually you won that belt. and you you held that UFC heavyweight. title yeah but I lost I I fought before. yeah you fought quite a lot yes I fought.

in uh 2018 yeah yeah um but eventually. you won the same guy yeah I lost I've. I've watched your career so I've watched. the journey and it felt like for the. first start of your career I don't know. it felt like maybe you weren't as. focused but then it felt like this this. other half of your UFC career something. had changed I was focused it's just that. I didn't I never I never done sport. before I didn't grow up as the athlete. so I didn't know how how they do I. didn't know how they train I didn't know.

how to prepare for a championship I. didn't know anything so I was just out. there trying and then in that fight I. did a lot of mistake and I learned from. it and I'm like okay the good thing I. might have lost this fight but this. fight would be the biggest um fight in. my career because everything that is. coming after this fight everything that. I'm learn that I learned in this fight I. will Implement that in my game in my.

career uh from now on and he'll be quite. helpful you have the hardest punch ever. recorded by the UFC the equivalent of 93. horsepower a smart car by comparison. maxes out at 80 horsepower and they. called you the Predator you did. eventually win the UFC heavyweight title. and you held it between 21 to 2021 and. 2023 and eventually you left the UFC in.

January. 2023 because of basically a dis a. disagreement with with the UFC with Dana. White about I guess freedom and. money yes freedom and uh. treatment the way that uh I was being. treated I didn't like it was there ever. a moment where. you realized that you'd really made it. you know you're you're a young man that.

come from Cameroon walk you walked your. way out of the you know through Africa. and then you got on a boat and went to. Spain and then from Spain to Paris then. from Paris to America and then you you. reach the highest mountain which is you. win the UFC heavyweight title which is. like the peak of fighting was there a. moment where you you thought I've I've. made it it's not like you reach the. higher Mountain you know uh. whatever Mountain you are on top there's. always then when you get in The Pick of.

a mountain you realize there's another. Mountain that's higher you know and um. you realize that what motivate you what. keep you going wasn't the peak of the. mountain but he was the peak of all. Mountain so then you keep is never a. satisf satisfaction even though you you. take a a moment I'm like oh finally make. it to the top you know you take a breath. but you know that you will keep going.

it's I think it's a mindset that uh you. have and basically will not stop like. you don't have a limit you don't have a. place that you say okay if I get here. then I'm done there's always. something uh around there's always. something which is set as a higher. Mountain you know so but I think. um what I do is to take time you know I. like to go home a lot and I like to go.

back on my path and uh every step every. time I'll be there I'm like thinking of. the moment that I was there like maybe. 15 years ago and he will feel like he. was just yesterday and I will trying to. see like where I am today you know see. the differ that's exactly when I. realized because when I'm here I'm just. living like it's normal like is. everybody like he was just like this all. the time but when I get back I connect.

with the with the past and then I. realize how far uh the road has been and. you've you've really gone I mean it's. been a an incredible J has your mother. ever seen you fight in the UFC has she. ever been there no I triy I trying to. get her uh to my fight back in 2019 she. couldn't get a visa she get uh denied. twice and I'm like okay okay this is so. stressful I'm not doing it. again it was also embarrassing stressful.

one and even for her it was very tough. and I'm like okay I'm not putting her to. this again uh there will be a moment I. think if I set up if I set set things up. pretty good there will be a moment that. things will be easier for her to see me. fight why are you fighting why are you. fighting now I mean you you made I mean. the reason you left the UFC was because. of Freedom issues and you didn't like. the treatment you wanted to be free the.

argument you had with Dana um you know. you say. that essentially you you weren't willing. to um comply with the the system of the. UFC where you don't really have the. option to go and box and do other things. Dana White said that you're in a place. where you wanted to take less risks and. you wanted to fight lesser opponents for. more money so we're going to let him do. that is that true do you agree with what. he said he said you wanted to take less. risks and fight other opponents lesser.

opponents to make more money I think if. we have to spend time to talk about like. what Dana White say if it's true or not. we're going to spend a whole night here. and then don't be okay with a lot of. thing um I think the situation was a. little bit embarrassing for him and then. he was going to make it statement and. find his way out less of opinion like. living my comfortable life uh career in.

MMA that I'm quite comfortable into to. step into boxing to take the best for my. first uh boxing match which I never. really do a professional boxing match. that does that sound like a easy. fight I mean I think he has to say. something and um those who knows uh. those who know know that he has just has. to say something to get out of that.

situation the truth what's the. truth easy he didn't want to um. compromise he didn't want to change and. I feel like that situation wasn't good. for me and uh I tell myself if that's. the end then let it. be I I mean in fact I had no guarantee. that the boxing that I've been dreaming. of doing I I will have to do it it will. happen at the time but uh I didn't just. want to comply and do thing that I'm not.

okay with just because they led me with. that one option to say yes with things. that I don't like that was the thing I I. was very aware. that uh that could be it but he has to. be on my term and even though he means. like going back to Africa you know you. know I don't know Farm I I love F. farming I always love uh.

farm and if that mean I had to go back. and farm I was okay with it so I made my. peace with myself uh at time and that's. why I stood with my decision I turned. down a lot of money that I didn't have. at time I was for the most part I was. broke I was living uh out of loan. so yes you're the heavyweight champion. of the world in the UFC you're broke I.

mean not that broke when I say I was. broke I mean for for a he for a. heavyweight champion I. wasn't comfor millionaire yeah I wasn't. comfortable uh were you a. millionaire maybe but uh never made a. million a fight but um the most you made. was £500,000 except except except if I. have accept to um to sign a new contract.

I would have been having a lot of money. but that contract was coming with a lot. of thing that I was fighting against and. uh that's why I didn't sign so I'm like. okay whatever this deal is whatever this. Contra is I'm fighting this Contra of um. instead of renewing the Contra for and. have more money and really have nothing. changed that mean I'm setting my myself. up for another for another years in the. same situation that uh I'm giving away.

all the power in a contract that is not. giving me any power the power you wanted. was. Freedom yeah was Freedom was it. possibility to say okay this is not. right you can do this you know or you. have to do this you have I mean I I I. need a obligation I don't want a. one-side contract I don't want a. contract that okay there's uh I have no. right but in the other hand the other.

side of the table have no obligation so. in fact. uh I mean I'm giving everything for. nothing just for money I want some of. that leverage so you wanted to be able. to decide and you wanted not like to. decide but I want I want at least some. some responsibility on the other side. showing toward me you know I want some. some.

responsibility for example when I come. to like say. healthare for that level for the money. that I could have been making uh for the. money that I would have be making if I. had signed that contract I could have. have any kind of healthare that I. want but at the same time I also want. the guy on the other side of the table. to take some responsibility I'm like. okay I'm giving you a healthare for. example so you wanted some something.

like healthcare included yeah yeah I. want stuff like that I want something. like a guarantee since I'm making this. of a as a living and I'm exclusive to. you you guarantee me that whenever I. could fight you find something for me. you are obligated to give me a fight. know that because if I don't sign a. contract and you want me to sign and you. want me to run out of money. and craw back to you because I need. those money then you staff me and not. give me a fight you know even though you.

know that even know that you you know. that I might need two just because you. know that I might need two or three. fight to make a living to keep off up my. lifestyle then uh you strengthen back. down to one fight so I will be needing. money and then will be forced to take a. contract that I don't want just because. I need money so I want to make sure I'm. super clear on this you you essentially. wanted a guarantee of fights within the.

contract so that you could a guarantee. of Engagement I'm giving everything I'm. giving up all my right exclusivity. exclusivity and go and do anything else. but I really yes but you are not. committed to anything so okay so I'm the. UFC I'm not committed to anything but. you have to give up your exclusivity. yeah and I'm not even guaranteeing that. I'm going to give you and then some some. exclusivity in that contract said in. forever yeah to exclusive forever in. certain situations but at the same time.

you really have not obligation but I. have no responsibility obligation to. give you anything yeah so it's really. one-sided yeah okay so if if you decide. not to give me a fight for two years I. can't say anything and you'd starve but. if you if you call me and say oh you. have a fight in uh okay I have a fight I. want you to fight in one month and I'm. say oh I'm hurt then you have right to. say okay I extend your contract for 6. month oh okay so if you turn down a. fight then they can extend the contract. for and doesn't matter the reason for.

any reason so you could be and and and. there's nobody will be consulted for. that if that's fair or not they make the. decision so you so I could know that you. were sick and I could offer you a fight. knowing that you couldn't take it and. that would extend the contract six. months. yeah so you decided to quit and you knew. that when you quit you could lose. everything you there was no guarantee. that you could could go there's not a. bigger fighting League I decided to. leave not to quit Okay you decided to. leave um and when you left did you have.

a. plan not. really how do you feel about the UFC now. I don't know I think they do business. how is good for them they they do a good. business for themsel I just wanted to do. what's good for me. too and you went on to do the impossible. once again in your life because you know. many people thought that maybe you were. you were gone now you were gone from. fighting but.

then after that it was announced that. you'd be fighting Tyson Fury in a boxing. match who is the World Heavyweight. Champion of boxing and by many people's. account you know I watched the fight as. well I stayed up in the UK and watched. it um you beat. him you didn't beat him on the. scorecard but I think in every sense of. the word you beat him and for that fight. you got paid I read many times more for. that one fight than you got paid in your.

entire UFC career yes from one fight. with Tyson. Fury yeah. uh and even in my he would have be a. Tyson Fury fight or he would have be a. PF fight I knew that uh from that moment. uh every fight that I will make will I. will be pay more than what I've have. been making my entire career why.

because uh my last year years in the. UFC I could have been making more if I. have accept the contract so I. basically live left a lot of money on. the. table in order to gain my freedom I. bought my freedom basically you know the. they said that they said freedom is not. given it's not given freedom is not free. you have to give something in order to. get.

that so that's why at that point I make. so less of a money because I refuse I. turn down a lot of. money but it worked out it worked in the. end because you got paid more in that. Fury fight than you ever lucky yeah and. then I read that for the fight with. Anthony Joshua you earned about 15. million pounds which is almost 20. million true I don't know I haven't. count.

yet so I can't I can't say if it's true. this is I mean but it's not true it's. not true. yeah but you earned a lot of money right. yeah lifechanging amounts of money. what's life changing I don't know enough. money 1,000 can't change life depend of. where we are standing from you're. speaking from my side or from your side. or from moai. you give you give 10 million to somebody. it's just another 10 million and he. won't change anything in his life and.

you give 1,000 to somebody he change his. life he save his life he would take that. 1,000. maybe send his kid at school or maybe. buy them some medicine save them from. illness or something so lifechanging. money is not the amount why are you. still why are you you still fighting. then cuz you don't you don't need to F. why why I start fighting you have to. find in order to know why I I'm still.

fighting you have to know why I start. fighting why why is that I love. fighting you're not doing it for the. money no when I start fighting there. wasn't money I fought a lot of fight for. free that I had no not a pennies and. what is your goal now with fighting you. you've done it I mean you've done it you. you did the UFC you've done. boxing as I said there's always a.

challenge there's always like could this. be possible can I done this can I you. know like what's the what's my limit how. far can I go I think I think whatever we. do in life is a shame if we end up not. really find our full potential or not. giving it up you know I I think I going. to give give all everything that I have. then I go home but as long as I still.

feel like I have something for fighting. I have some to give to the fighting. Community uh I go to the gym I get. excited I wake up I think of training. and I get excited like oh this is it I. still have that motivation that fire in. me then I keep doing it you know I go to. the gym I train I think like oh I. learned something I have some. improvement you know or there's. something that I really want to.

understand how it works or how want to. master yes I think it works like. that we have to remember that is not. just fighting it's a martial. art fighting is a martial art and. martial art never end before uh MMA came. around you will see people character. kungu. ta they doing it for like 6 until they. are 60 70 80 they are still doing it.

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checkout when you left Cameroon you had. a really clear goal you had this Vision. a really really clear. goal what is that to stand to stand on. top of the mountain and you stood on top. of the mountain but there's the biggest. mountain there's always the biggest. mountain there's always a mountain ahead. that is big what is the big mountain in. front of you now what's coming what is. that another. fight do you do you want to become the. heavyweight champion of the world in. boxing as well uh or it that's never be.

my goal my goal was really because I was. aware of the situation my last fight my. first fight in boxing was less than year. ago octob October 20 uh 23 and I was. what already. 37 it's not a moment in your life that. you're expecting to have a career into a. combat sport like boxing you know he was. just like okay what can I do and I think.

that question still stand and even for. MMA I think there's a lot of thing for. me I've been doing even MMA for just. like what 11 years and I think I still. have so a lot of thing to learn to. experiment to to show in a fight I think. I still have a lot and I still have that. passion I'm. um I'm not very young but I still have. couple years in front of me to be doing.

it because after this you have to. remember that after this maybe by the. time I'm 40. 42 then I'm retired what a early. retirement we only have that short. window of a time then at 42 like is a. time that most people career just pick. up but we are forced to retire by that. time so why would I just like do what I. can do until then and see how far I can.

go you fought Tyson many people think. you won the fight incredible fight um. you fought anti Joshua you lost that. fight um and I think at the end at the. end of that fight Anthony actually says. he says you should you need to carry on. boxing you need to carry on going and I. think that's the sentiment that everyone. has no I'm I'm I'm carrying on I don't. really uh take that fight as a note. because um not to say I. mean you cannot you you will be a fool.

if you're going to fight basically in. boxing somebody like Anthony Joshua and. don't think that you can lose right or. trying to make an excuse of losing if. there's a somebody that you can lose. against in a combat sport then he's. somebody like Anthony Joshua right but. um honestly on that fight there was in. lot of. unfairness you know and then uh which.

might have been for something or not but. there was a lot of unfairness unlike the. Tyson fight that everything was straight. and I think nobody was giving me a. chance and then the everything was. fair um no sneaky. stuff but the second one he was so messy. what you mean a lot of. tricks like that will get you everywhere.

that I was going in that week I have to. wait at least 1 Hour 1 hour and a half. before the beginning or before Antony. Joshua arrived but they they always send. a car to pick me up like that amount of. time even the F day the Friday I stay in. the locker room. for 4 hour and half 4 hours and and. half they send a car to pick me up pick. up time. 10:30 because you're supposed to fight.

they telling me up front I supposed to. fight around midnight and 100 p.m. so. pick up time 1: a.m. yes on 1:00 a.m. sorry pick up time uh. 10:30 it's like okay good it's how it. works is that amount of time then you. get in the arena they're like oh. yeah there's a there's a producer like. oh we are we are running behind uh clock.

on the broadcasting so we might be. fighting at. 1:45 okay it's not that bad I've been. training to fight in that time frame in. around 1 p.m. 1:00. a.m. bro we are sitting there and. then watching Antony Joshua arrive in. the arena at 1. 1:30 like how come you tell me that with. you guys tell me that I'm going to fight. around midnight and 1:00 or that is.

delayed are going to fight at 1:45 and. then he's now just. arrive when he arrive we know that it's. about 2 hours before there is a fight. you don't get in the arena 1 hour before. the fight no it's 2 hours is the aage. and stuff like that they did the L. lot again not to say I couldn't lost the. fight but do you think they were doing. that intentionally yeah you you think.

that. yeah I said the whole week it was like. that they were wasting your time I mean. I think it's a trick I didn't know. before but I think it's a is a trick. that they have in boxing they have a lot. of tricks and uh in fact like in the in. the week during the week my coach doing. because he a very C person and he was. like he get to the point that he was uh. really mad and was yelling about it like. no this how you get to get you do to get.

fter tired and I'm like no it's okay I. didn't know how deep was the problem you. know until I get in the final set then. I'm like okay this is serious but it was. too late were you tired by the time very. tired by the time I was sleeping you. were sleeping before yeah I don't know. why I I don't know if it was just a. fatig or whatever I was in the Locking. room getting uh warm up and and felling.

asleep and feeling. asleep so that's why like uh personally. yeah I take that loss but I don't put it. in the context you know I think it could. have be different do you think you could. have beat. him I still I still think I could have. beat him I could have lost two but no. that easy yeah things were so easy um. like I wasn't I don't know yeah did you.

feel like yourself no no at. all no at. all but I think it was my mistake I. wouldn't I shouldn't have done good in. the fury fight I think that was what was. expecting in the fury. fight for me to lose. maybe in that um fashion you have um you. come out of the fight with Anthony.

Joshua and you go back to making plans. for the future and then life shows how. cruel and unfair it's capable of being. when you're 15-month-old baby boy Kobe. passes away just a few months. ago I'm really sorry thank you and um it. is the the most unimaginable. the most inimaginable. thing. yeah that's something that I never I.

never imagine and all of the sudden. nothing really. matters all of the sudden you realize. that you were complaining about a. lot instead of being feeling blessed. being grateful you were complaining. about things that didn't work but in. fact everything was working well. how are you how am I yeah alive I mean. surviving but uh not the same I don't.

think he he will ever be the. same and I can't. explain how in just 15. months I mean I still ask myself how in. just 15. months a kids or a person can take this. much space and be. basically became you to the point that.

when he's gone you you feel like you're. missing. too just 15 months I mean two years ago. he wasn't there and now was living good. he came and he. left and I feel. like I don't know. is is a weird type of thing. basically like uh after what I was. saying earlier like my whole life was.

about to do to fight in order for my. family not to go through those situation. not to feel. powerless uh or useless in the situation. and for the very only person that I. should fight for I couldn't I didn't. even have a. chance so sometime only that idea is. painful you didn't have a chance yeah he.

wasn't sick we didn't have to take him. to the hospital didn't. have anything like that you know I wish. I could have like you know take him to. the hospital find for a good doctor like. make calls and do stuff you know feel. like I'm useful I'm playing I'm useful. just as I I always want to. be so that was.

it is it possible to is it possible. to have you been able to. grieve and process. it how do they grieve how do the. processes I never learn I never know how. he works you just feel it. some days you do with it somay you do. without. it how how do they deal with that kind.

of. situation there's not a. um how do they. say there's not a uh process that they. set up. to to learn how to go. through people will do people will do do. it in different. ways and how long it takes to grief when.

did is. stop. whenever you know one of the big. conversations in um I think that's. become quite popular is the idea of. mental health and our and protecting our. mental health and being aware of our. Mental Health. when something like that happens to you. it's the the most I mean I've never I. don't have a children yet so I don't. I've not been through something like. that but I can just imagine the the way.

that I try and imagine it is I have. these wonderful nieces and nephews in my. life my brother is a year older than me. has three children and they're like my. children in a way and just the thought. of something happening to them is the. most it's the most unimag unimaginable. crushing feeling to me. um and men in particular aren't very. good at dealing with things compared to. my partner for example example she's. very expressive very emotional you she. expresses how she feels what do you like. at expressing how you.

feel you don't learn how to express I. think I found myself uh very emotional. at some. point more than what I. thought you don't it's not something. that you commend it you don't control. just happen and then you you discover. yourself and you still in that process. yeah you discover your own self you. think you've been through a lot you. think you're strong you was you thought.

you were strong you realize you were. I how was your family your your family. your mother everybody. else surprising I think um a lot of. people are doing pretty. good better which is for me surprise I. always walk around like the toughest. guy until now until now.

yeah and I get. [Music]. to you know just being tired just. getting tired being tough think it's. exhausting being tough mean you have to. be through over and over to a lot of. which just. not easy to deal. with because people see you as a you. know they see you as a tough guy that's.

your they called you the Predator they. you know I don't. know I've been questioning myself about. that. lately yeah. that's why I like you see. people trying. [Music]. to know.

somebody pretend to know. somebody mean wise they don't even know. thems like you can know somebody who who. doesn't even know your own self you. don't know who you are you don't know. what you can do what can affect you how. you can deal with things that never. happened to. you so you can expect to know that about. somebody what have you been.

questioning in. yourself if I can deal with. stuff if I can handle. stuff been. doubting about my. capability of stuff sometimes what what. what are you talking about in terms of. dealing with stuff handling. stuff emotional.

things yeah like. um yeah even. [Music]. emotionally you know there's lot of. there some days that you wake up and you. don't you think about every about stuff. about. everything and you should really like. what's the purpose what's the goal if. it's going to end up like.

this was the purpose of fighting. if I end up not being able to fight for. the only person that I can fight. for let's talk about something. else yeah I'm sorry.

what else you get move on to. something I am you're in Vegas at the. moment yes but I'm going home soon going. back to Cameroon. mhm next week next week mhm what's the. plan uh going to be there for a couple. weeks I'm training now.

um I want to really make a purpose make. a have a purpose you know make a sense. of all of this and I think uh I'm going. back to fight so I've been training a. little bit because. like I get to the point that I feel like. I really need to push myself to get out. there started think about something. fine fine purpose and that's what I'm. doing now training and I think I sure.

fight I need a fight. so uh I might fight before the end of. the year you know I think some MMA fight. will be good to get back in the loop a. little. bit before going back to boxing. again you're fighting in a new new. League under a new promotion um yeah. which is very exciting I saw the. announcement yeah I supposed to be. fighting um no I'm not fighting in the.

pfl Africa I'm fighting in pfl global uh. but yes we we we along uh we launched. the PF Africa and they announced it the. other day in Nigeria in Lagos Nigeria. with the the uh one of our new partners. ilos so been good and you're it's about. purpose now it's about finding new. purpose you said yeah finding a reason.

fighting for a. reason you know something to fight. for I think is whether you you make it a. purpose to keep going or a reason to. keep going or a reason to. stop but other ways either way you can. serve as a as a reason. and your reason your purpose you're. going to get out there and find. it yeah I think my son was full of life.

I think if there's one thing that he. wasn't uh he wasn't inactive he was very. active was very curious about stuff he. was and I think. uh the best way to honor him would. definitely not be to quit or to live. thing like that because of him I think. if there is a way that he would like to. things to be done was to serve as.

a. motivation or to be a reason for things. to. happen that's what you've always been. Francis that's what you've always been. you've always been an. inspiration he's now an inspiration I. think he's now your inspiration yeah I. had so much in this kid like he was just. 15 years 15 months old but you know I. have so many plants was doing this was.

preparing that was having a b building a. basketball court was getting ready for. his. um uh like looking for a socker uh. of his side so we can go play soccer. when he started because he just started. to work when he solid we go play. everything he become he became. a a go he wasn't like just a kid he was.

a go like was exciting waiting you know. his day and his time but. yeah so fighting next. the goal is to fight before the end of. the. year so I'm training I'm keeping in. shape but I have to go back in Africa a.

little bit is it easy to train at the. moment or is it day by day it's day by. day I think as I said like there someday. like I don't just really want to do. anything I don't really care and those. are the day that you I mean that's how. that's what your your heart tell you. like your heart don't really care about. anything then your brain will tell you. be reasonable and tell you that to go.

that's when you really have to at that. moment that you feel like you don't want. to do anything is exactly the moment. that you have to do something to get off. of there because like um those. emotion they are pretty good at shoting. things around you sometime you get in. the just get I don't know in the. bath and then just get stuck in there.

and then memories and stuff just get you. stuck in there and. you it's so sad inside that you don't. even know that you can push the door and. get out so you have to do something you. have to keep and then when you push the. door get out maybe work in the room or. something then it change your mind and. you're like oh this pick something down. and then you help change your mind but. if you stay in that bath uh bathroom. those same M memory will run over and.

over and over have you spoken to a. therapist at. all or anyone that can help do they take. help what do what take a penny. away or bring him. back I think it's a process that you. have to go through uh it's a pain that. you just have to learn with it's like. having a. handicap uh you just have to learn to. deal with there are people today that.

live pretty good without hand or food or. food uh wish at first or they get. imputated and they have to rehab to deal. with you've um you've been an. inspiration your whole life your whole. life to so many people um you now say. that um Kobe is your inspir ation and. he's he's the reason why motivation and. your motivation yeah and he's the reason. why. you are striving he's the mountain he's.

pushing you up a new Mountain in your. career in this chapter of your career. and I'm. really really looking forward to seeing. this season of your career play. out yeah I hope I'll be able to do it. but I just have to get out there and. find. out Francis we have a closing tradition. on this podcast where the last guest. leaves a question for the next guest so. the last guest has left a question for. you and they don't know who they're. leaving the question for okay the.

question is here when did you last. realize that you had it all. wrong when my boy pass. away that was a moment that I realized. that everything I mean everything that's. been my. reason for. fighting uh fall.

apart that was a. moment that I feel that I really feel. like I feel like a. failure you felt like a failure. yeah I feel power. I I just feel like I could have done. something. just.

that Francis um I have to say a huge. thank. you I have to say a big thank you and. I'm not just saying thank you for me but. um ever since I heard your story that. that time in Paris when we're in that. hotel you you put my life in perspective. Ive you gave me gratitude that I. probably didn't have to the same extent. before because you've been through an.

incredible journey and throughout that. whole journey you've got this. perspective for life. where. you understand more than I ever did. what's. important things like family things like. principles you've understood that more. than I did and you also having gone. through that entire journey I didn't. hear you feeling pitiful complaining. about the struggles you'd been through. and I reflect on the life that I've. lived and the things that I'd dwelled on.

and I thought oh my God this guy has. walked out of a really really dire. situation and built this the most. incredible life he's climbed to the top. of the mountain and it's funny because. when you climb to those the top of those. mountains you get there alone what you. don't ever get to see is that you've. actually brought millions of people. there too because you've inspired them. and you've shown them proven that they. have no reason why they can't to if. Francis could if Francis could go from. Cameroon on that Journey Through the. Sahara Desert he tried to climb the.

fence couldn't get over the fence then. went through the Sea on the boat from. Spain to Paris from Paris to the USA to. the top of the mountain to beating Tyson. Fury there is absolutely nothing that I. can't. do yeah I um I think so I think there's. a lot we we set ourself for we set a lot. of limit of ourself uh by just like oh. it's not possible um which again we.

don't know what's possible or not um. but staying there thinking of what's. possible or not does help actions help. and sometime you try you fail it's okay. you stand you stand back up pick your. reset start again and then until. you make it and then once you you you. really make it and I'm like oh he good. he's a genius like how did he know that.

this will work he didn't know anything. just keep trying just refused to give up. it's just like that and it's a some it's. something that um you know because at. some point like I feel like um I need to. succeed in order to prove everybody that. was doubting at me uh to prove them. wrong because even like coming from. where I came from having the idea of. boxing bro he was the worst thing that. it worst dream that you could have have.

like. everybody nobody believe in me in in it. in the dream not in me but just in the. dream like it's not possible we can't. came come from where we come we are uh. to get there it's not possible it's not. mean for us find something that is. around us and get S you know like really. thought I was losing it basically like. when I let um my little job in the. village like say go to the city I was 22.

years old and I I saw my motorcycle like. okay go to the store and buy gloves and. stuff that I'm doing boxing D like okay. this how this guy has got to the uh top. level of craziness what the what the. hell is this you know and uh everybody. doubt it. I mean even my mom say like you're my. son I always stand by your side even. when you're losing it like.

now like okay at least I know that you. know but on one day he happened I made. it and I'm like wow he's a genius how do. you know that is going to work I didn't. know just keep doing it you know so. whatever you have we can keep trying it. might work might not but at least you. will be in peace with yourself knowing. that you have given it all I think it's.

the most important people are so afraid. to. fail that they don't even try and I. think that's really that's the failure. from not taking action the failure is. not. actually uh the fact that you you are. not Su you don't succeed in whatever you. do failure is not taking action it's not. even trying that's why you really. fair Francis thank you thank you thank.

you so much hly it's the the most. amazing honor and you're such an. incredible person on an on and off. camera you're such a wonderful human. being but you're just the most. tremendous inspiration I've interviewed. three 400 people but I've never ever. encountered a story as you you do that a. lot yeah interviewing people as heroic. as yours so I rather I than interviewing. people. thank you. [Music].

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