Tony Cowden - CIA Operator Survives Deadly IED Blast that Sent Him to the Morgue | SRS #72 Part 2

today's episode of SRS is a part two of. former Green Beret and CIA contractor. both GRS and ground Branch Tony Cowden. if you haven't seen part one I highly. recommend you take a minute go back and. check that episode out because if you. don't you are missing one hell of an. episode I want to take a moment and. thank all of my patrons from patreon if. it wasn't for you guys this show would. not even be happening thank you for the. support.

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maybe a whatever if you Google YouTube. search General Wesley Clark. Seven Nation War I think we'll get you. to YouTube. [Music]. this was on or about the 20th of. September. I said we're going to war with Iraq why. he said I don't know. wake up man here we go I've been asking. for help contact contact asking for help.

they know. [Music]. and I'm looking and here comes these. dudes they're like oh opportunity so I'm. just like yeah. I guess do you think we're the Bad Guys. honest question and I I I've been. thinking a lot about this lately I think. there are a lot of bad people in our. government. you look at the world.

and you look at all the [ __ ] that the US. has intervened in. and now you know the with the with the. way the internet yeah and the in the in. the the access to information we have. it's starting to paint another picture. [Music]. the secretary I'm talking about the. misjudgments and the mistakes that have. made the series which I've mentioned the. disarming of the Iraqi Army those were. judgments that were made and there have.

been a series of gross errors and. mistakes those are on your watch those. are on your watch isn't it time for you. to resign. [Music]. thank you. [Music]. some people say when they lose their. buddies. you know why God or you lose your mom. why not I've never done that not once. my faith has never been compromised. all right Tony we're back from the break.

we are at your 5meo. experience man you know so. it's probably worth backing up just a. little bit talking about the ibogaine. side. um. like I said I went for my injury I was. tired of it man I hurt all the time my. brain I had a headache since 2009 and it. was. there were just some days where. you know had to hide from light and [ __ ].

and then that uptick it was rough. so. you know vets. um veterans exploring Treatment. Solutions at um Miss Amber and Marcus. Capone started they were the my. scholarship and um. they man what an amazing job they're. doing and so they put me on the phone. with a counselor I think I had to talk. to them three or four times like you had. to do it before you go down there.

and his name was Andrew. awesome dude and I'm like hey bro. I just want my headaches to go away if. this thing can help my brain figure out. how to you know reroute neurons and. maybe heel tissue whatever it's doing. like I'm down for it because nothing. else. there's been zero progress in modern. medicine for. brain damage the old word for TBI. traumatic brain injury.

um and you know my spec scan mri's and. stuff you can see the damage in my brain. I mean it's different you know tissue is. damaged well. ah man so. in my head I'm telling Andrew like bro I. don't have mental issues I'm fine PTSD. is not a thing I'm good. um and we start talking and he's asking. the questions to make me think. and I'm like okay he's like well look. man just uh. you know write down some questions for. the medicine and you're going to be able.

to talk to it it'll it'll react with you. and it's inside you like okay and we get. to talking about like some of the. endurance. um. events I've done over the years iron. triathlons than the 200 milers and. you know like earlier you know Melissa. said you know a lot of times endurance. athletes are either running away from. something or towards something. and I was a little bit of both for sure. and at the time if you ask me dude why.

in the are you running a 200 mile. Marathon like what's. why and my answer was to see if I can. was that true looking back probably not. I think for the longest time. the best feelings like and I don't mean. like. the greatest feelings I had came from. pain. uh. after getting blown up like I said man I.

don't have good coordination in my left. hand left foot sometimes. um. I don't know I just felt like maybe I. was just looking you know you want to. feel something. um I think I mentioned earlier I think. I'm pretty good at convincing myself of. things and if I need to you know I mean. like like selection it's only three. weeks I can do anything for three weeks. that's why I pass election. um I just that's how I look at things. like if I want to do something I will.

convince myself this is how I am going. to do it whatever right. so. I think you know I had convinced myself. I had no PTSD and and I didn't suffer. from PTSD my daily life was unaffected. for the most part by any PTSD type stuff. so like I said so I'm talking to Andrew. and he's he's like hey I really want you. to just think about. your motivation for doing all that. endurance stuff I'm like I mean it's. behind me bro I'm not really into it. anymore freaking it's just another thing.

I did he's like yeah. but every hobby that you've told me. about. required some sort of pain just to. participate. I just want you to think about it okay. well. so we go and of course you know. everybody in Tijuana Trevor Millar who. you've had on. um just awesome just an awesome bunch of. people super professional I've never.

seen civilians that behave so. professionally so organized I felt safe. and I think that's a big deal with a lot. of guys what I've been getting is. they're scared of it right like. I had never done psychedelics before. um growing up I had buds that would you. know drop acid or eat some shrooms. wasn't my thing I wasn't interested. um I was too busy being really really. bad. um. it wasn't my thing so I think it was my. first psychedelic experience.

which they thought was funny anyway. because. typically folks have dabbled in other. things you know. well so. as I got into it and started seeing the. visions and seeing and feeling things. I couldn't help it. I remember I said I tried really hard. not to go there with any bias so Primo. Johnny told me about.

speaking with his mom. his mother died when he was young too. right. and somewhere in the mix of things I. quit worried about my TBI and started. wanting to to talk to my mom. and so for your listeners that don't. know. in your visions that I began like you. can. you can see relatives in some cases you. see relatives you never met like DNA. ancestral.

there's a theory that memories can be. passed down in a DNA too and so. sometimes people report seeing their. great grandfather. or talking to them right having a. conversation that is as real as any they. ever had with them. so like I said man I just got in my head. that I wanted to talk to her. and then I. I kind of came too and it all stopped. I mean they had been pretty intense.

Visions man I hadn't seen what I've been. fairly certain was you know an Angelic. creature uh. potentially a no [ __ ] Angel I mean I'm. still under the. you know the spell of it all so it's not. like I have a clear. you know picture of reality and I'm. aware of that right that's another cool. thing I thought about it I began is that. you can like almost turn it off and at. least think it's not like you're. absorbed in it there's nothing fearful. about it for me at all like I didn't.

feel out of control. I'm not a super control freak anyway I'm. kind of like let's see what happens type. of dude anyway you know. um. so. I remember you know Trevor and. everybody's saying that after everyone. settles down in their initial really. high Vision their active stage we're. gonna go down to one person watching you. guys and for your audience like I said. super professional ibogaine can be. dangerous to the heart. um if you know to unfit people so you're.

hooked up to heart rate monitors EKG all. that stuff. and. I came too and I was like. um oh. so I began can make you sick uh they. call it purging all right and after my. first initial visions and stuff I purged. and it felt like I had purged for like. five minutes and had a little you know.

everybody has their little pail so if. you do throw up you can throw up in it. and I thought I threw up a couple of. times and I threw a thought salt I threw. up not long after we took the medicine. so it's it's capsules for the audience. and um. so I started wondering did I throw up my. medicine. I had the same experience oh really and. I'm like. this can't be over I'm not done it's not.

what I came here for. so I look around and I miss the queue. there's one person there. there's only one person there and Trevor. had told us that after we all settled. down and the the crazy visual phase was. was of subsided he's like could you move. around you guys will be moving around. you won't even know it. um not walking around anything because. people don't know I think it makes it. where you can barely walk you're like. almost like a full body Parkinson's. patient right like you can hardly get up.

move it's not gonna get up go play in. traffic on that stuff uh it must be some. kind of awesome safety mechanism right. like keeps you from running out in the. jungle and getting eaten by whatever. um. so. again I'm Mr Q Man and I'm looking. around and the young lady who was there. she was the newest on the team. her name is Sandra and I was like Miss. Sandra. I think I threw up my medicine I need. you to call Trevor I think I need a. booster because I had heard about guys. who got boosters who it just didn't get. enough I was like.

she's like she didn't speak as good as. English as some of the others and you. know you're Whispering because in the. room with other other folks and she's. like yeah yeah okay I was like no. seriously you need to call Trevor. and she's like yeah yeah not a problem. I'll go downstairs. well then I fell asleep. can't sleep on that again right. I went to sleep I thought I was asleep. I laid back down and so when I opened my. eyes again she's gone and the next staff. member's there. and they're on three hour rotations.

again I'm not Computing this Trevor had. told us all this but. it wasn't making sense to me. tell the next guy I'm like hey man and. then I was I remember being a little. aggravated that he didn't know right. Fire Guard right like you know one. dude's up when you come on duty and I go. off duty I brief you up on everything I. see well they didn't do that so I'm. getting frustrated I'm like. you know I'm telling you right you need. it and I'm like what time is it he's. like it doesn't matter what time it is. you know just. back into it I'm like no you need to.

call Trevor. so I fall asleep again and in my head if. you can't sleep on ibogaine I must have. thrown it up. well later on I found out that I was. still pretty active when I thought I was. asleep the medicine just didn't want me. to see whatever it was doing best. exploration I got well the next time I. woke up the Sun's Up I can tell Through. the Windows even though they're pretty. blacked out that it is daylight outside.

and um. everyone else they're given an IV and a. medicinal cocktail to help transition. you off the ibogaine and so you can go. sleep and and sleep it off and have what. they refer to as the gray day and. some people call it something like a. hangover. I don't know I think you just it's kind. of you just feel. for me it was just blah I was just tired.

I didn't feel bad I just felt exhausted. but. so they're they're trying to give me. this cocktail and I'm telling the the. one of the main medical practitioners. medical staff for posts that are. listening and it's like I said very. professional and I explained to her. what's going on she speaks good and she. goes. okay. I'll call Trevor. and I finally I was like thank you you. know. she comes back upstairs a few minutes. later she's like hey you know what we're. not going to give you the medicine trip.

we'll be here in a few minutes. I'm like great great and I. like I said I keep feeling like I'm. falling asleep I'm not asleep and I. don't know it well I open my eyes and. there's Trevor sitting next to me. I I wish I could explain to people. Trevor. gentle kind. wise. First Age just understanding like I've.

never met a single person that I felt. like there was Zero. judgment. nothing. by way of judgment from him only. understanding. so I explained to him what I thought had. happened. to me he knew I was wrong. he knew it had been over an hour and a. half from the time I took the medicine. to the time I purged felt like five. minutes to me he knew. but he listened to me and nodded his. head and understanding.

he says well it's a. it's a little late for a booster it's. like but I could give you another dose. okay. yeah I didn't get what I came here for. so. he's like. man it's. if you do it's going to make for one. hell of a long day. and I go. this is Wednesday morning I go I'm here. through Friday.

and he just smiled he just smiled and. nodded in that super chill smile is you. know. he's like okay. I'll go put it together so make the. doses for body weight so he came back. how much every time. holds it yeah and he goes. are you sure. I just kind of looked at me he just. smiled now he goes yeah you're sure. and bro it didn't take long.

that that whole waiting period that you. got on the first dose yeah there was. there was no waiting period it was. minutes later at least in my perception. of time and um immediately started. seeing my guide was there and he was. agitated with me like he asked me what. are you doing back here. and I was like you know while I'm here. and I know you know where she's at I'm. back I want to talk to her I want to. talk to my mother take me to her.

now I'm like like I'm in charge and. um not him. but the medicine. God. said. that's not what we're doing this time. anyway okay. it was that kind of voice it was. commanding. but full of. I trusted didn't question it not once it.

was okay. and brother. immediately. my head where it hurts. from my TBI. warmed up I could feel it it was hot. but I could see it. I could see that part of my brain as if. I was holding it in my hands. wow. those of you that have been around SRS. for a while know that we take mental. health very seriously here.

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this entire time. and I wish I could explain it to people. how high definition your Visions are on. this stuff like what you see right now. is. best I could describe two percent of the. definition of what you're seeing when. the Visions are not again I don't know. if you experienced something similar it. was just. super high def. a lot more pixels than we have. here and um. my spine.

in my hip. and I have a rod in my femur and I could. feel the rod as if I was holding in my. hand. well there's no nerves inside your bones. I can't feel that Rod but it was as if I. was holding it. in my knee it's a little scuffed out. ankles got a little thing and a broken. uh bone in my foot one thing after. they're very sequential. and then I kind of I guess fell asleep.

again. and uh dude I I wake back up there's. Trevor in the same spot last spot I saw. him wearing the same clothes. oh he had his puppies or his little dog. with him and I was like hey what's up. bro and he's like hey how's it going I'm. like I go to reach to pet the dog and. apparently I look crazy because that dog. was like. say no to let me pet her the day before. she was like nah dude like my hair was.

long it was all matted at the side of my. head I didn't know this you know I mean. you sweat and when you purge and you. know your your skin and stuff just like. just feels like it just pushes things. out of you there's just the nastiness. and so my hair was kind of like messed. up and I looked crazy and I didn't know. it but the poor dog was like you know so. there's Trevor right is this as if he's. still there from when I talked to him a. few minutes ago. he's like yeah man just checking on you. how's it going like yeah you know.

and so I had not still not told Trevor. the reason why I wanted. was my mom at this point he still they. all the whole staff thinks I'm the. weirdo that's not there for PTSD but. we're seeing if it will help purely with. TBI. so I I didn't want to contaminate any of. that and I also didn't want him to go. hey man. you know I'm not going to give you. another dose because. you had a good trip so I. probably should apologize to Trevor for.

withholding. uh. and he goes uh I'm like yeah man I'm. good why what's up and he's like okay no. just checking on you man you've been. down for a while. I'm like. what time is it looks at his phone he's. like it's 4 33. the last time I had talked to him a. couple of minutes ago was like seven in. the morning 7 30. wow. almost nine hours had gone by like that. wow that whole sequencing of.

you know the medicine working on my. physical. elements. um so you know a couple hours later. whenever it was seven o'clock I think. um you know started getting up. you know yeah come on back down so they. give me the the. um reuptake meds uh magnesium and. whatever else is in the IV and um. they're like yeah so let's get you on. downstairs and start coming downstairs.

and there's the seal that I I was there. with a seal that I had known from 10. years earlier. and um you know like I said I I and I'm. I'm not a hippie but I'm a wood spin hey. I've always appreciated nature I love. animals I've I don't I do not kill. animals I do Harvest them and eat them. but I've never been like if you kill it. you gotta Grill it and that's how I was. raised right you don't kill something. and let it lie.

that is a sin right that's a hundred. cent and that's my way my dad raised me. so. nothing is a coincidence. and this seals presence. turned out to be amazing for me but. later he told me my presence for him was. amazing for him for odd reasons and I'll. get to both. but um.

I I get up and and there he is and he's. like are you okay and he's a big dude. man he's not a little guy right he's a. big big dude big presence type of guy. and uh I'm like yeah man I'm great well. come to fight man he had been like. checking on me all day long instead of. like sleeping like everybody else he's. like oh he he's you know how's he doing. how's he doing and they like had to keep. telling him like no dude go back. downstairs you know and we go downstairs. man and he and I are sharing a room. again the only one sharing rooms not a.

coincidence no not my mind and our beds. are like opposite of each other and I. just kind of plot down you know. still kind. things are still moving a little bit. some sparklies and stuff. and he looks at me he sits on the edge. of his bed and I'm like sitting here and. listen to me he goes. bro. you look like spilled. I go. I've never heard that phrase before but.

dude I really do feel like [ __ ] he's. like I don't doubt it bro two what is. wrong with you I'm like uh. I don't have time to answer that. question right now. and uh. as I I think I need to eat I'm not. hungry but I really feel like I need to. eat he's like bro I felt a lot better. after I ate I'll go get you some food. dude goes to get me food man you know. and just literally like. sweet you know what I mean yeah and. that's a weird way to describe another. man looking out for me but just that's.

what he was doing he's trying to look. out for me you know and that's that's. brotherly [ __ ] right there. and uh come to find out he didn't have a. very pleasant Iving game ride so his. assumption was I had double what he had. I did not have a very bad ride compared. to him. um and for folks who are listening. sometimes people do see things bad. experiences in her life and replay them. uh while while in the medicine. well anyway. it was kind of cool man because.

the same young lady Sandra the new lady. she's. tries to bring me my food like she sends. him downstairs and he's like they're. making you food I'll be right back well. he's like she tells me later like oh. yeah he he he had to bring you the food. uh so I ate everybody goes to sleep I. toss and turn all night long. and I'm trying to be quiet because I'm. sharing rooms you know I want to get up. and walk around and stuff whatever so I.

just basically kind of toss into turn. all night because I can't really sleep. and Sun starts to come up. I go and take a shower and so. the first thing I noticed is myself in. the mirror and I'm like oh that's what. spilled butt looks like dude my hair. almost halfway dreadlocks on this side. this was sticking out crazy I looked I. mean I just looked like I've been. drugged through the. freaking landfills I mean I just look. horrible. I thought people said you'd come out the.

other side it's looking better well it's. not immediate I'm like dude I get in the. shower so I have this weird genetic. thing called parenthesis in other words. um I don't feel my skin like most people. feel their skin. um. like I if I get cut or minor burns stuff. I just don't feel it anywhere. so like I'm not ticklish so the places. like people are typically ticklish. sensitive areas I feel more there but.

like places where you're not ticklish. and your skin is tough I feel nothing. wow and it's just genetic my dad had it. he liked it he didn't feel nothing that. dude hey man you're leaking you know and. uh uh yeah you need stitches man like he. was dude was rough on him so but uh so I. I got a taste of that I got a bit of. that. so I turned the shower on man. and get in the shower and I can feel the. every drop hitting my skin.

dude I'm. 46 at this point 46 years old and I've. never felt this before. I got out of the shower and stood there. and looked at it. like touched it a couple of times. it was like. I get back in the shower and I think I. spent probably 30 minutes there and I. was like this is amazing. I mean I can feel every drop. that was amazing I was like holy [ __ ].

and so I get myself cleaned up and I go. back I'm putting some clothes on I've. always been a Jeans type of dude you. know put my jeans on I got on and I. reach up grabbed a T-shirt and I was. like. I smelled it I was like okay and it was. at that point I realized that I had. gotten my spell back. from coven. because I can smell the detergent on the. shirt. and I was like huh.

that's interesting you know of itself. but why does a shark feel so nasty. synthetic. no [ __ ] I didn't want to touch it. synthetic like under armor style type of. you know wicking shirt or whatever and. Hell 99 of my wardrobe is wicking. Outdoor Clothing yeah they would touch. it put on a cotton t-shirt I was like oh. that feels good.

uh be buffed upstairs and the staff was. awake and there the cooks were all there. and everything you know they. they are typically not there because you. start at night and they all go home so. the support staff they got to hear me. purging the morning before and then I. don't think that some of them had ever. even experienced that so like the. housekeeper or the the chefs you know. they got to hear me throwing up purging. gagging well.

I get in I walk in man it was kind of. cool though because everybody just stops. because they're not expecting me to be. up they're expecting I get somebody else. to start getting up and Salome is there. and uh she's just. like I said I don't know how to explain. her still yet uh just an amazing. amazing creature that. just made me feel safe. um. she's one of the counselors there she's. done the medicine and it's just I don't. know dude I wish I could explain her.

better. um. just like Trevor I guess you know. understanding not judgmental but at the. same time I feel like like if you. crossed her. you know what I mean like or if you. cross someone that she loved I felt like. I just got this feeling from her that. she was just more to her than that I. don't know hard to explain. well she's standing there now looking at. me and they're like.

you know it was like this weird slow. clap or whatever like holy crap you're. alive you know so. dude I was like the the chef's like hey. yeah you know we're not supposed to have. breakfast ready till like 10 it's like. eight eight thirty maybe uh but I'll. make you a smoothie and bro growing up. if you offered me a strawberry or a. banana or a clump of broccoli I'll take. the broccoli I have never liked fruit I. don't like fruit I don't like fruit. desserts like I don't wanna.

I don't know that's fruit's not my thing. uh this news made me a smoothie. and you know had strawberries and. bananas and pineapples and who knows. what else in it I was like. I'm like literally talking to the dude. who made it to me I'm like have you. tried this and he's like yeah I'm like. dude this is amazing. like this is amazing I'm like have you. tried have you tried this and they're. like whoa calm down bro it's a smoothie.

but it tasted amazing like I never had. anything like it before in my life you. know it just and it wasn't everything. they do down there is clean food all. that stuff and well prepared it's just. like holy crap. so anyway man freaking everybody starts. to get up and. have a little round table Circle. and then so there was a female veteran. there with us. um. her commander had raped her. 33 years ago.

and and more than once. and um go around the circle and they're. basically so Trevor's there his partner. Jonathan is there Salome the whole. crew's there and they're basically. asking us you know. anything you want to share. and we're all still. like they're all still pretty. overwhelmed I'm still you know I'm 12. hours behind the rest of them you know. and uh. she goes yeah.

he's gone. we are like. what. she goes for the past 33 years. every time I close my eyes and go to try. to go to sleep I can feel him on top of. me. and she goes last night was the first. time in 33 years I shut my eyes I went. to sleep and he's gone.

we all just sat in there. wow. like wow. you got uh got everyone around kind of. said this now I was still processing man. I was still pretty overwhelmed and. people shared but I remember they got. around the circle and they were asking. uh you know would anybody consider doing. it again. the both seals that were there like they. didn't have pleasant experiences.

um it's just funny because here we are. six eight months later they both are. scheduled to go back right so initially. they were a little overwhelmed like I'll. never do it again they they both have. said they they need they feel like they. need another one. um. I got Demand on I was like. yeah I'd do it again right now. and they were like. everyone's looking at me like what's. wrong with you you know and I'm like it.

just told me. told me not this time. so therefore next time. and that's when I fessed up that. during the first. first journey I got it in my head I. wanted to talk to my mom and that's when. I explained it to him why. you know and again nothing but. understanding. love from Trevor from Jonathan from all. of them. love. and um so.

yeah later what later that afternoon I'm. supposed to do the five Meo five emio. DMT which is the. uh Venom from the uh Sonoran toad some. people call it toad some people whatever. real quick Tony. you went down there. to treat TBI right. and then we talked about that. at breakfast we talked about it's been.

brought up a couple of different times. during the show. that you got blown up I think we should. go into that experience. yes sir. um. myself and um three of my Kurds. my brothers. um. we're in a sedan and we're the lead. vehicle in the. we were leading Ranger regiment to a. Target.

too big for us so. you know platoon plus worth of Rangers. instructors not far behind us we were. supposed to pull up and when we stop the. gate prior to us and to the left. they need to just drive through that. gate that's the target house. um we didn't get there. we got stopped at a light in traffic and. we just happened to park next to an efp. that was meant for a striker holy [ __ ].

and so if folks don't know what efp is. explosively formed penetrator. explosively formed plate you'll hear it. called basically piece of Steel copper. other metal. with explosives packed evenly behind it. Prime dead center so when it's primed. blasting caps when the blasting cap goes. off. this explosive in the middle starts. detonating goes to the outside but it. turns the plate into a spalling. projectile. excuse me.

and um Poor Man's anti-tank weapon. and like I said it was not. it was made for a you know Striker tank. not for an armored BMW. you know and uh so in those armored. sedans the back seat is. where the armor is the trunks are not. armored so there's a 5 8 or three. quarter inch piece of AR 500 behind the.

rear seats. and that efp basically hit that plate in. the side. and so spald. two boys in the back seat. yeah they were DNA. um driver died from his injuries eight. or ten hours later. when the Rangers picked us up scraped us. up. we had been blown across and this is. Highway One.

Broadway. on the east side of mosul. just north of Noah's tomb and so in. between Noah's tomb and. um the big Grand Mosque. and uh you know we were only [ __ ] half a. mile from our Target our Target was just. behind the Grand Mosque. and um man it went off last thing I. remember is buckling my helmet I pulled. my helmet out of the floor right and. because we were getting close to being. on Target and I remember clipping my.

helmet in and. I think I remember being in the hospital. in the cash. I think I remember being wheeled into it. on a stretcher. but I don't know if it's my like my. imagination or not. the next thing I remember is I woke up. in Germany. hurt. everything hurt my guts hurt my [ __ ]. hurt like my toes hurt. I mean I just been crushed by a pretty.

powerful explosive that took that 8 000. pound-ish car and blew it across eight. Lanes of traffic to include hitting. other cars and knocking it out them out. of the way and about another 100 feet. down an alleyway. foreign. well. apparently the Rangers just piled me in. thought I was part of the.

you know material and people in that car. I I was I had some burns on me nothing. too too bad. um. they took me to the morgue. are you serious. three or four years later I was teaching. uh or running helping run the course for. the nsa's sister program to GRS. and we're all done and uh this young. Ranger younger Ranger was like hey uh.

you know it was like welcome to the team. type of stuff you know the gay Adventure. in this young range was like hey you. said you worked up in mosul uh with the. other agency and stuff and it was. yeah yeah hooked up there for this and. that and um. he's like did you know those those guys. at that time that efp or that bomb or. whatever the ID hit that car and killed. that whole team I was like. you know nine. he's like yeah.

I'm like yeah I know him. I was like I wasn't dead [ __ ]. he's like what. his Squad his Striker. put us in their Striker and took us home. get the out of here small world right uh. he was like dude I was a E2 man I was. pulling security I don't really remember. anything he's like I never you know he's. like. um but yeah man freaking. small world wow so my memory before 2009.

was. shoddy at best like most of my childhood. con completely gone bits and pieces and. again things that I could not tell you. if I wasn't making them up. it was just really hard to to decide. like is that a real memory or is that my. imagination. and over the years things have come back. and it's fun. I've never had a memory pop back up that. I was like whoa or freaked out about I. was like oh cool very cool.

um. like I remember past relationships. I mean things were gone just gone wipe. clean and so over the years that things. have come back. things have come back. a lot since I began. I'm glad to hear that a lot how long. were you in a coma seven days. seven and a half eight days uh. and then it was.

like I said speech therapy occupational. therapy Physical Therapy I've learned to. walk and talk again. how long did that take. uh. I still stutter. you know you can catch it when I'm tired. uh. um I covered up my Southern accent. so uh you know still some things. lingering but I was back. working.

it's what. nine months later eight months later. and I was pissed I went back there for. one reason. I was pissed man and these were my. brothers you know. so when people talk about like anger and. retribution Revenge whatever you want to. call it being a bad thing well that's. what got me healthy. I would go to the gym three four five. times a day. all right I was getting better I was.

like I broke my back one time they said. I wouldn't walk again watch this you. know uh. the hardest part was switching hands so. my left hand wouldn't work. and. so I had to go to the range and spend. thousands of rounds worth of shooting. with Myra at hand to get it up to the. same level you know you know back then. we used to always do a lot of switch. hand working and as a left-handed person. you know m4s are great in your right.

hand I was like wow this thing's so much. easier to use wow I can reset button and. this button as a lefty the gun's kind of. goofy you know and there was none of. those ambidextrous stuff back then. Glocks. you know side releases on the wrong side. that's not a big deal but the big thing. the main thing I was having these. seizures in my hand and on would do this. damn it God. well if you're holding a Glock and your. hand seizes not a good thing right.

so I had to switch so initially I just. switched to Pistol right-handed and kept. trying to shoot rifle left-handed but. there would be times where. I would fumble with the safety. and it just made me uncomfortable I was. like I can't. I can't risk it I can't risk. one of my teammates getting killed. because I can't handle my weapons like I. used to. so. every day every day uh Jim run uh.

of course I was I was luckily no one. ever prescribed me like oxy or anything. but I was eating Percocets yeah. um. but not bad enough not like I was like. addicted to him or anything but it was. what was I needed them because I hurt so. bad yeah. um but that was only a couple months. worth man because after the blast injury. part of it like after my lungs healed. and my gut healed I was mostly okay. it was just neurological after that.

getting to get my brain to work again. and reconnect and you know. learning how to talk uh. uh yeah man I mean it was rough but. honestly looking like there was never a. time that I was sad depressed I was. pissed do you remember learning how to. talk again oh yeah. so could you not say anything at all oh. no no no no I I I oh I can make noises. and sounds and I had words and stuff but. it was. could you understand what people were.

saying oh absolutely yeah oh yeah my. right ear was completely destroyed um. but I could hear and I mean I was I was. with it. the headaches and stuff like that could. interfere with things but I wasn't very. light sensitive then. um like I was last June that was new in. June the light sensitivity part. that's why when it first happened I. thought I was having a stroke uh but. yeah learning to talk was interesting. and it wasn't as hard I mean I already. knew how to do it I just had to relearn.

it so it was like I was learning I was. relearning it. um. how did they do that. a lot of actual computer stuff you said. on a computer like YouTube and they they. talking just like almost like the way. you talk to a baby and get them to sound. things out. in its instruction like. um you know. if you want to say the you know there. would be the the lady on the screen.

she's like the you know and explain to. you what you're trying to do with your. your tongue in your mouth. I mean like you want to you know put. your tongue into the body or not press. it into your teeth whatever it's it's. step by step I mean [ __ ] yeah just like. rehab occupational therapy Physical. Therapy speech therapy. um how long did that take. not that long a few couple months okay. um and just like when I brought my bag.

part of it was me just like. I gotta get back to work so I put in way. more work than most guys I mean most. guys in this facility dude they're done. their careers are over they're missing. Limbs and they're. I never saw myself as one of those dudes. I just was. I'm just gonna be here for a couple. weeks guys you know and I was I was only. there for a couple months and that was.

the thing right like I didn't my family. had no idea. when I was gone when I was home you know. I didn't have anybody important in my. life. um. me and Melissa weren't serious that. didn't work anything at a time uh I just. didn't have anything serious going on as. far as anyone I needed to be accountable. to. so when I got home. the best thing I could come up with was. because I was lethargic.

um kind of just dragging ass. I told people I had Mono. what the hell. that's why I feel like I need to sleep. so much I'm tired no my body was just. trying to recoup. um. most people bought it. they have a reason not to but I just. didn't want people that cared about me. to worry about me and I also didn't I. didn't want to hear it. maybe maybe you should stay home maybe. you should stop that.

I'm gonna hear that so to me it was. easier just to make [ __ ] up and. stay on track or get my ass back over. there and. finding the people responsible. and we did. um yeah I mean like I said with almost. eight months later I was back over there. and. we were supposed to be doing this but on. my side I was hunting those you know uh. yeah man. um. I tell you man there's there's boys man.

and the Kurds are just awesome and I. think that's why I could feel so much. for the seventh and third group guys. that. had to watch their Commandos and their. afghanis be abandoned. because I was like. if this is what was happening with my. brothers my Kurds they called me and. asked if I would go to Kurdistan I would. get on a plane. you know. um. crazy [ __ ] bro yeah yeah it was.

thanks for sharing that yeah. um. like I said man freaking. my headaches are. non-existent. and I had it since 2009. they're gone. it's incredible. I don't stutter like as much as I did if. I get tired I'll stutter. I don't look for words. I haven't put my keys in the. refrigerator since I went to Tijuana.

short-term memory is. exponentially improved. exponentially I mean. I really feel like Melissa was starting. to become frustrated with me. um because my memory has gotten so bad. and. I promise her I'd do something and then. not do it dumb stuff like just stuff. around the house that she wanted me to. do things that. it wasn't like I didn't want to do them. I just would forget.

never forget she even asked me but I. don't mean like. you know like if your wife asks you to. do something. and you just kind of forget and then as. soon as she says something or you see. her coming oh [ __ ] I forgot no dude it. was as if the conversation was never. happily gone. try explaining that to someone. yeah. I have no words to explain. literally looking at you going. I don't remember that part of my life. and it happened this morning.

so I lived that way for a long time not. knowing what I had forgotten. which is a weird way to live yeah. and I mean guys would be like hey man we. talked about that yesterday really. sorry bro. you mind telling me your answer. because I had zero recollection of even. seeing you yesterday yeah. I learned to live with it you know I. learned to also hide it from people. um not because I was like trying to hide.

it I just don't didn't want to talk. about it I got other [ __ ] to do I got. things to do uh I don't want anybody you. know trying I don't want any kind of. weird sympathy or any of that kind of. stuff I just had stuff to do. so now it's actually really cool that. you know I've seen an improvement. the number one thing coming out the. other side of the hole the whole. experience is. it. it definitely. emboldened strengthened.

reconnected me with God. and my in my faith. um but and and exponentially more so. with Melissa. our relationship's pretty darn strong. and has been since the beginning we're. not without periods where we bumped. heads we had. two periods where. we could have easily broken up. luckily we're both really hard-headed. didn't. uh.

but yeah that was that was what I got. out of ibogaine. the five right and you know so like I. said for the folks who are listening it. is the Venom it's a Venom. potentially lethal Venom from the. Sonoran toad frog. and it's like okay so wait a minute. we're gonna take this Venom and we're. gonna put it in a pipe we're going to. aerosol it and breathe it directly into. our lungs.

yeah all right cool. right on sounds great. uh. I just thought it was hilarious you know. uh like okay cool right on. so we had a beautiful day down there. like I I'd never been to Tijuana before. in my head Tijuana is like you need to. help Tijuana what everyone thinks of it. you want to like donkeys and stuff. I don't know I've never been there I've.

only heard crazy stuff well it's a gated. community it's it's it's you totally I. felt completely safe there right guards. and all that and it's overlooking the. Pacific Ocean you've seen what is that. Catalina Island right that you can see. there. um. but I saw something I had never seen. before that afternoon a fog bank at two. or three in the afternoon we don't have. that on the East Coast there's no fog in. the middle of the day. apparently in Southern California in. that area fog can roll in any time on.

the Pacific Ocean I didn't know so but. to me it's amazing I've never seen it. before and you're what I don't know five. six hundred maybe a thousand feet above. the ocean and this fog you can't see the. ocean and and dude I remember I could. feel the Mist on my skin and I didn't. want to go inside I just want to sit. outside. and uh it felt amazing I could feel like. every single drop of mist on my it was. amazing. so. we all decided since it was just so.

beautiful out and that mist was awesome. like hey we'd like to do it outside. they're like well yeah absolutely so we. set up the you know a little bed. blankets pillows. right out in the grass. and you know. Trevor says hey you know who wants to go. first. the other seal not the one that. I was connected to you. um he was like uh because I was like. I'll go I don't care. you know first last doesn't matter to me.

he goes honestly guys do you mind if I. go because if I don't go ahead and go on. my punk out. I I don't know he just didn't have a. great I mean in true I know yeah. absolutely. and they had told us that you know on. five you can you can have all kinds of. experiences that most people see very. happy things. um from you know the circus uh you know. just happy things you know. um good visions. most people have that and so and then. other people have you know.

more nightmarish looking things and. you're like that's typically rare and. this and that I'm like okay whatever you. know. that gentleman goes outside man and it. went long. I could hear him laughing I never heard. someone laugh like this before it was. like. it's kind of like a child laughing when. they're so overwhelmed with something. funny that they're just but an adult. male like a belly laugh dude it was. insane. and I was like hell yeah I couldn't help. it.

kind of peek through the blinds you know. because they had asses and I do but I. couldn't help it I mean he's out there. rolling around in the grass just having. a blast right just he's having a. wonderful experience. he comes in you know as he walks to go. to his bedroom you know he just kind of. smiling you know he's happy like. whatever he saw I'm like wow. and they're like all right uh who's next. all right I'll go. and as I got Aaron Trevor briefs you up.

again he's like hey you know I'm gonna. warm this up you're gonna inhale. you know try to draw it out 30 second. inhale and he's like telling me he'll. like try to run out of inhale bro. um it's been a while but he's like okay. yeah and then you know you'll just. simply once you've had as much as you. can you know exhale he's like I'm gonna. start counting back from 10 and you got. like the sleeping masks and he's like. you just put that down lay back he's. like by the time your head hits that.

pillow if you aren't experiencing it. then you didn't get medicine so don't. just lay there and just go well I'm like. oh okay cool. and in the exact same voice that he. asked me. are you sure about I began he goes. are you ready. and it's gonna smile on me because yeah. you're right I mean just there's. something about a dude man like you know. I don't know man what a cool man father.

man. so yeah I uh start pulling on it and man. everything turned silver. and again I wish I could that's the. closest thing I have to describing it. I could see the serrations on the grass. at my feet and everything's over he's. silver. but again it's like the light is. different. I wish I could explain it to people. I wish that was I had words but anyway.

so as I lay back I put that mask on. everything it's just this crazy. silverish color and and then all of a. sudden. um. it's it's hard to describe it but it's. as if that that I'm describing pushed. itself off me. and everything turned black. I could hear the wind.

right it was just this peaceful this. calmness. yeah I felt this weird this little. little twinge of panic. to all those guys out there who's you. know right about the time you go to walk. off that tailgate and go damn this is. dumb why do we do this that where you. should know you should be afraid or you. know you should feel uneasy but then you. just shut it down and walk off the. tailgate anyway you know. uh I kind of had that feeling like it.

wasn't Panic it was just some a a slight. two seconds of uneasiness. like whoa what is this. and I heard Trevor say. Just Breathe. the medicine said basically like don't. listen to him tone of voice just die. and nothing nothingness just nothingness. and I don't know how for how long.

it seemed like seconds but you know I. was. under the influence of it for 20 minutes. or so. nothingness for that long yes well for. me it seemed like seconds. but apparently. freaking I'm under for 20 some minutes I. had a long long longer ride on it than. some people because it can last eight. minutes two minutes 22 minutes. so it was a little bit longer ride.

and um. so when I came to. all right I'm looking at Trevor. and everyone's. I wouldn't say panic but they have a. very concerned look on their face. um. I apparently. held my breath I guess you could say. for longer than I probably should have. but I wouldn't purposely hold my breath.

bro. and all I can say is the nothingness the. thing that I saw. after the nothingness after it kind of. got put together. it's the other side. it showed me the other side. when I was on ibogaine I could see it. and then five showed it to me. hold on so you felt nothingness and then. you experienced the other side so what. was the other side.

peace calm. calm quiet quiet. in here quiet. safety. peace true peace like the kindness. described in the Bible but no visuals. nothing. I sat up and I never felt more amazing. and like I said they were they were. looking at me a little concerned. I'm like what I'm like.

I just died. and Trevor went yeah. yeah man you did give me this big hug. all of them just piled on top of me it's. just big big hug and I never felt. so much love in my life. I mean these are. for the most part strangers. you know I've known for a couple of days.

I never felt more safe and more loved in. my life. except for. you know my mom was a lot. yeah man. amazing. and the cool thing is man like. you know people on social media when I. first came on social media I was pretty.

aggressive but because Instagram had one. minute I would put my little videos out. and somebody said something I talked to. him like I talked to the boys in the. team room I didn't know how to talk to. regular people you know. so I got a little bit of a um reputation. for for being kind of an [ __ ] and I. didn't mean to be and I'm like that's so. weird because when people meet me. my friends will tell you there's nothing. I have that I won't give you. like I nothing. all right like.

you're like hey man I'm going I got this. cool thing man I'm going elk hunting. um. you know you got like one of the student. rifles I can borrow no dude I'm gonna. give you my rifle okay I'm gonna give. you my eight thousand dollar custom 300. PRC right that's what I'm giving you. because that I care about my friends not. about things I care about people I love. not about things. so it's kind of funny man that people. will say that they think I'm an [ __ ]. now if you're a dick to me.

oh it's all it's fine I I don't care you. know. um I'm not necessarily a violent person. but I'm fairly comfortable with it and I. don't mind fist fighting and stuff and. so I've been I've said things like that. to people on the internet where I'm like. hey you're the internet tough guy man. how about come say that [ __ ] in my face. you know. I grew up in the military where. some OG Woodline you know yeah we could. sort it out what happened in the team. room I mean like I said man there's a. reason why my nose is crooked my warrant.

broke my nose because I was talking [ __ ]. you know first lesson I ever learned in. Special Forces was shut your mouth. [Laughter]. so. leaving there. right like it just. made me realize even more that. I mean I I got nothing to prove to. anyone yeah I. I.

enjoy interacting with people and. helping people. and I walked away from that with this. calmness this this peace but just as. much of this clarity. because you know it's even funny because. people have even said okay so nobody. like some kind of hippie now are you. like tree hugging hippie I'm like no. like I feel like I'm probably more. efficient. more capable.

than ever before. because of this Clarity I have nothing. confusing or clouding. my thoughts. um so whether it be violent work or. I don't know freaking framing my house. things are clear. for me. I have been able to prioritize even. better what's truly important in my life. all right and it really just boils down.

to one thing. and her name's Melissa. you know. we don't get me wrong I'm still gonna. look out for my buddies but it's just. like if I have to give you some type of. flow chart on you know my priorities in. life. you know it's her and she's always been. right up there like since we've been. together but now it's. it's more clear very clear very clear. and it's awesome. that's amazing it is man do you remember.

do you remember messaging me after right. after that. I mean we weren't even you know. I just known that you had went yeah I. was like we weren't even. well we don't talk uh you know I didn't. I don't think I even had your number at. that point and I was just it just made. me so happy man because I could tell you. were a little abrasive on social and you. know no judgment I just you know and to. see like that kind of message come.

privately I was like [ __ ] man there it. is again. yeah you know just watching what it's. done for dudes. I think I've got. six guys that I vouched for. vets that have gone. I've got one buddy who's. afraid of it. you know yeah like you know I'm like bro. it's not acid not that people think that. you know bad LSD trips like you never. come out of it but that's that's.

propaganda that's [ __ ] that never. happened with LSD. um now maybe if somebody was making. their basement or something like that. maybe some people had some bad trips or. whatever but that's just what LSD does. um even though I've not done LSD I just. have read about it since and how it was. being applied as a medicine. um before they banned all the. psychedelics in the 60s or whatever and. scheduled them with. heroin and cocaine. yeah.

of course we can get in there whether or. not a big Pharma has anything to do with. that sort of stuff. I'm sure they got their hands in that. you know I just want to say real quick. Tony that you know. a lot of people watching these shows. they get a lot out of it and and believe. it or not I think the majority. of people that watch them are civilians. and they. are trying to overcome their own trauma. and we always get these questions on you. know how can I do that and I want to.

tell everybody that. this isn't just a military thing it's. not Tron brother Trevor the exact same. person that. that. treated me and that treated you as a. civilian program too and now I'm going. to link that his link will be in the. description civilians way before he. yeah he started he started pulling. pulling addicts off the street and. treating them in hotel rooms yeah. um and then it's developed into what it.

is today so and so forever don't know. ibogaine is like 98 effective at curing. opioid addiction yeah. I mean we have a plague of a true. pandemic epidemic if you will of heroin. and everything that's you know these. opiates and stuff and there's a. potential cure for it yeah right I think. 71 000 people OD'd last year if I'm. correct that fentanyl stuff is horrible. bro I mean that's so so powerful that.

you know you got cops oding from. touching it mm-hmm. yeah it's being used as a weapon yeah oh. there's no doubt it's not a coincidence. that it's being pumped create you know. produced in China and shipped through. and over our Southern border there's no. doubt in my mind it is a weapon. I mean we've gone over going to war for. a lot less yeah. I don't know. well man. you look great I feel great I look like.

I mean a different person I. I still lug around some injuries I'm. getting a little older. my workouts are. yeah I still hit the gym. very regularly I'm not trying to kill. myself anymore I'm trying to maintain I. want to go to hunt I want to be able to. play with my dogs. um keep up with Melissa which I barely. already do anyway. uh you know for the next 20 years you. know or 30 years or whatever I have left.

or 30 days I don't care. um. and I just I want her to be happy I I. think for the longest time man if you. asked me how I was doing I would have. used the word content. I knew I wasn't happy. but I also didn't know what that word. meant either. I know what happy feels like now good. and I don't want to ever let it go right. like I feel like you the only thing.

you're gonna get a more. more reaction out of me uh than. somehow threatening Melissa would be. threatened this happiness. which those two things are very. intertwined yeah very in this one yeah. man and you know. it's like after the the run for Congress. I felt gross. really oh God bro gross.

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all right Tony we're back from the break. I think this is probably going to be our. last segment but um. you ran for Congress. yeah I mean in a. outdoor. I you know I got the peek behind the. curtain see how fundraising is done see. how the whole. industry. works. it's what it is well I think. um.

I think we all know you know the. countries and we're in some deep [ __ ]. yeah and so what what was it that. Nobody Like Us wants to [ __ ] run for. Congress it's crossed my mind you're. seeing more and more. none of us want that job but we know it. needs to be done and we're Duty driven. type people yeah. and we also love what our country was. intended to be what it was initially the.

the dream we all believe it like in our. souls right. the problem is. politics right is not our government. right politics is something different. politics is what we have now. you know Republicans Democrats. two Wings on the same Bird Man. and I'll tell you man you want to talk. about just vicious Republicans man uh. corrupt full of [ __ ] Liars.

all the way to the local level like your. local GOP. before we get into that sorry yeah is. there was there like a last straw that. made you want to run so uh you know I. mentioned uh the name Elario Pantano. valoria was the lieutenant in the Marine. Corps in Fallujah that was charged with. murder he's won the first of the jiwa. to have that kind of [ __ ] happen to.

him. he uh he lost a couple dudes bad. casualties day before you know platoon. leader and so they're searching a. vehicle military age males with RPGs AKs. into Trump. and I I. you know of course different stories. whatever I don't even care but bottom. line is he burned them down. and changed mags in doing so. at a traffic stop are you an OP.

or a vehicle checkpoint I guess vcp and. then him and his boys took him to the. clear nearest traffic circle and hung a. sign around their neck that said. Warlords no better friend no worst enemy. that's their Battalion motto they're the. Warlords whichever Marine Battalion they. were. and he was basically like hey saying. like hey stop you know with us you know. it's War bro you know but the folks over.

it. you know the Navy. lawyers the Jags the NCIS or whatever. they are and they they charged him. it went so far to exhume the bodies et. cetera Etc. crazy. so he ran. in 2010. and so I was there for it I was I didn't. participate I I I knew him like I had.

met him and we were friends he decided. to do this it wasn't a time in my life. where I was interested in it I was. interested in deploying. so I watched kind of Afar you know I. went to a couple of his events and. um there was a time in there where he. and his wife got some death threat so I. like accompanied his wife two things. that like he was getting there separate. of her stuff like that you know so I. watched it it was interesting and I was. like yeah man change the world good luck. buddy. I didn't care I was so a a political.

back then. and then yeah man as the world got weird. so we're always getting weird I was like. man. you know everybody always focuses on the. president. the president the president isn't the. body it's not the part of our government. that we need to be focused on it's sad. and pathetic that 98 of Americans cannot. tell you the name of their. congressperson.

and I will not call them Representatives. that's what they're supposed to be yeah. but they're not. um that's why I make a very clear. distinction when I talk about them I'm. like your so-called representative or. I'll call him a congressman because. there are very few of them actually. represent their people very well. the job of a congressperson the. representative is to represent the. people of their district and go to DC. and advocate for them. it's not what they do right they're. making laws they call themselves.

lawmakers how many more laws do we need. I mean do we really need more laws let's. how about let's get rid of some of the. ones let's get some of the old ones off. the books before we go making new ones. well. Easter. Easter two years ago uh elaria moved. from North Carolina up to New York I. hadn't talked to him in a while. I started kicking it around I'm like you. know what I'm in a time in my life where. you know what man it would be man if I.

could get I could get elected as a. congressperson a representative I might. be able to. yeah might be able to make a difference. and I'm not necessarily an ideological. type person. uh. he came by the house he was down from. New York. on Easter day. and um I was out at the range he came. back dropped the tailgate we were just. sitting on the tailgate catching up. and I went hey man.

what do you think about and Duty shit's. up hops off the tailgate he goes if. there was ever a Time now's it no way. easy buddy I haven't even talked to you. guys. yes you should run. he knew. he just knew and I guess he knew because. you know he had been in that exact same. spot before he goes you know it's a. um. you know off-season election. um Inc weak incumbent rhinos are weak.

they're vulnerable. et cetera Etc. well at the time. there was the district they had stood up. this new district North Carolina and I. lived in it and I was like I want to run. a district I live in I don't want to. look at people and be like hey I know I. live way over there but I want to. represent you yeah right like remember. when Hillary became a New York citizen. a resident of New York not citizen uh so. she could run for Senate there. I'm actually from Arkansas yeah but New.

Yorkers are like like she doesn't she's. name from your state weirdos yeah. so all that put together was like there. wasn't this new district there was no. incumbent it was going to be a new. District. pretty Rural and it also included. Cumberland County as in Fort Bragg. and I was like. okay. so initially started out and I said okay. I announced I said I'm gonna do it. Melissa and I posted up a video a video.

ellario put me in contact with some of. the people who helped him I remember. seeing that video yeah the console was. all fired up about it man I was like yes. uh I watched that video every now and. then whenever you know it pops up in. memories or feeds or whatever I'm like. wow. um. I'll put it up right now. put it up. hello I'm Tony Calvin and I'm running. for U.S House of Representatives right. here in eastern North Carolina's third.

congressional district we spent 25 years. of my life in the Special Operations. Community it's in that Community we have. a very simple leadership principle and. that is the leader will be the example. and must exceed all standards I would. like to carry that same type of. commitment and Leadership on the Capitol. Hill. and so this is me. pledging to you my friends families and. neighbors right here in eastern North. Carolina that I will return fifty. thousand dollars of my congressional.

salary each year. back to eastern North Carolina I will. return it to charitable organizations. that benefit Eastern North Carolina's. children. veterans and law enforcement First. Responders this is what leadership looks. like and you now have an option. when you go to the polls on May 17th. vote for me Tony Cowden and you will get. the change that we so desperately need.

I think you can just tell man in that. video I was. I was fed up I was fed up with the. government not doing the right thing. they're just not doing the right thing. and I don't understand it I don't. understand how hard it is to do the. right thing. I don't get it. money and greed over the country you're. Traders.

they're Traders. so yeah we announced and uh. North Carolina gets into this freaking. thing with the courts and uh you know. the Liberals don't like the new. districts. I mean the Republicans gerrymandered. them you know Republicans always fussing. about Democrats gerrymandering. Republicans do it too they did it. set me up for success I was like cool. yeah. it's like all right I'm gonna run in. this District it's gonna be awesome and. started getting lots of support early I.

announced we raised like 200 000 I think. we raised a hundred thousand dollars in. like the first week and people are like. I mean people were looking I was on. Radars I was getting calls from staff. members from Representatives around the. country. um especially like sappeners who knew. who I was and maybe liked it uh put. shooting videos up and stuff like that I. mean. kind of backhanded support because. here's the deal and this is just how. spineless and pathetic incumbits are. they will not support.

anyone in a primary election. so in my primary election there was no. in comment. so I started getting support from. was elected and sitting. um Representatives so-called. Representatives. I mean it was looking good started. getting some promises on some bigger. money but it's a pretty. um cheap Market you know as far as TV. radio that kind of stuff.

um you know the counties are all rule no. major city except for Fayetteville in. the district. and then North Carolina flipped it and. the courts. the Democrats Drew up some new lines the. courts denied them but the courts are. all liberal Democrats. um that's changed in that last election. and basically the courts so in the North. Carolina Constitution it clearly says. the general assembly will make the. districts.

the courts took it upon themselves and. redo the districts and said told the our. you know our general assembly Our House. and Senate North Carolina House and. Senate the [ __ ] off. our Republican House and Senate leaders. being the spinalists. people they are. they filed a lawsuit with the Supreme. Court the Supreme Court basically said. yeah it's unconstitutional but y'all. have an election coming up so it's too.

late. what you so you mean to tell me as we. speak right now every single North. Carolina congressman. is unconstitutionally elected. wow. every one of them all. 14 of them. they're all illegally unconstitutionally. elected as we speak.

and check it out so North Carolina the. general assembly the Senate and now the. Supreme Court of North Carolina are all. held by Republicans you think they fixed. it. no haven't even made in a tip it's like. it never happened. so when that District changed my new. District puts me. in the district there where the county. that I grew up in is now in my district. and I'm like that's awesome Camp Lejeune.

Cherry Point. um big Coast Guard Station up in. Elizabeth City but it's a huge District. man 14 counties six hours from my house. because I'm on the uh Southwestern Inn. all the way past and up to Moyock right. all the way to Virginia line up the. Outer Banks huge District six and a half. hours from my house to the other side. and I got a campaign there. and I don't have the friends in the. local media.

that the incumbent has paid for. you know let's face it if you own a. local the local TV station everyone. listens to. and you're the congressman and you give. that dude you know five six grand a week. or a month or whatever it was. um well that dude's now your friend. and so like specifically the Henry. Hinton show. when I said hey I'm challenging Dr Craig. Murphy and Dr Greg Murphy will tell you.

I'm a doctor first representative second. what. I mean literally says in speeches and. stuff. it's the same dude who was giving the. jab a Republican. and telling pregnant mothers they should. get the job. this is a Republican. and using his he's a urologist dude. and he's telling people to get a vaccine. a urologist. people don't know any better he's just a.

doctor which is good enough because. people listen to their doctors no matter. what [ __ ] they tell them to pump into. their bodies. so I say okay I look at Greg's history. his vote in history he's got like a 70. rating by a different conservative. groups and stuff like that he's a rhino. he'll vote with the Dems in a second. he's not a gun guy he's not a 2A guy. um. so I announced that I'm running against. him so I'll back up a little bit.

I went hung out with JT and all the guys. from Black Rifle was on their podcast. um they're in Texas. they helped introduce me to um. Dan Crenshaw. initially Dan was all about supporting. me. said yep I'm gonna come out here we'll. do fundraisers like Dan's people it's. folks they're all they've got big time. um. fundraising capabilities.

and yeah man so I was like hell yeah. this is it's all looking good and then. it switched. and now I have to tell people that I'm. getting ready to challenge an incumbent. so my consultant. that ellaria had linked me up with. he's like oh I don't know man I don't. know him and Han he's like uh. basically. challenging and incumbent is a big deal. it is a career Ender in that industry.

especially if it's an incumbent who gets. on his knees for Kevin McCarthy if. you're loyal to Kevin McCarthy you have. the backing of the Republican. establishment and that was before Kevin. was even. speaker. he was minority leader but that kind of. power. they will not defy him. right when they were trying to elect him. everyone came but one last January right. Eli crime. he said I promised my constituents I.

will not vote for Kevin McCarthy for you. know. house leader and he didn't and he was. the only one. so anyway dudes Kevin McCarthy is one of. the most powerful people in this. government just like Pelosi. and all we did by switching was take. Pelosi out and put Kevin in they're the. same people. they're both from California I was like. dude I've had enough California in my. Carolina I don't need another. speaker of the house from California.

but there was no one else that would. really step up and and try to take that. power because no one wants to challenge. Kevin. and apparently he's pretty vindictive. like he will take your seats on your. committees uh Eli made the joke he's. like yeah my committee assignment is. probably going to be in the janitorial. closet but we just talked about that so. I just interviewed him two days ago we. just talked about this exact same thing. I text him throughout the heart thing I. was like brother I am so proud of you. thank you so much you know.

so like I said announcement challenge. just uh goober Greg Murphy. I have nothing nice to say about that. man he will have an adversary in me for. the rest of his life because he went. personal. he could he wouldn't debate me. right this guy's a doctor he said things. like people don't didn't elect me. um. he's like people elect me for my brain. because I'm smarter than them he says. [ __ ] like that these are the people. we're electing.

so. text. Danny Danny Crenshaw and said hey man. you got a minute it's like yeah okay so. check it out things have changed puts me. in a different District I'm gonna be. running against uh Republican incumbent. Greg Murphy. he said. who. I was like. you work with him I mean.

like they don't even know each other. right you would think the Republican. representatives in Congress would all. know each other. and then no and I was like um he's a. doctor kind of short slim shoulders. balding nothing I don't know how it's. describing bro. and I don't know if he Googled him or. what but he went oh yeah oh God yeah. geez yeah.

but damn man well this sucks I'm like oh. yeah how so and I knew what he was going. to say. I can't help you now. I can't help you run against an. incumbent. not a Republican. it's going against the establishment. say I can't but he didn't say that part. but it's going against the establishment. it's going against Kevin McCarthy. wouldn't do it. they won't do it. uh Madison cawthorne.

same way so Madison. I think Madison's heart you know who. Madison is wheelchair. yeah yeah. I think Madison I know Madison's heart. is in the right place but he's Young. he's a young man it is. what's that he spent a lot of time on. social media there's a lot of time he's. 25 26 year olds you know or maybe a. little older now but that's what they do. so.

maybe there's more important things. right. um like I said I've talked to Madison a. few times I do feel like his heart is in. the right place like he wants America to. be right like I don't think he is he. like everybody else uh in his generation. with social media they won't follow his. clicks and likes yeah but I still think. he also. wants the nation to to do well and I'll. tell you Dan even said he was like. because I mentioned I was like hey man. well you know Madison said that you know. he's supportive he really does not like.

Greg Murphy and he said he would help me. and Dan's like you know what that kid. he's like I've tried to help that kid he. won't listen to nobody whoever he. supports we're gonna go against. he's like we'll do everything we can to. out primary him and um. and then. they went against Madison he crossed. them you know because he came out and. said that he had been invited to like. parties or seen cocaine use or something. like that right he said that out loud.

and then he retracted his statement and. then he did not get elected the. Republican Party stood a opponent up. against him and ran him into the dirt. and ousted him from Congress. damn yeah man they're vicious. because they're holding on to power. right people don't give up power. right people don't give up power. and that's what they have and riches I. mean. it's a hundred and seventy four thousand. dollar your job.

how in five years these guys go in there. worth a hundred grand come out worth you. know six mil 10 mil. and after 20 years there they're worth. 60 mil or more. how is it possible well I'll tell you. why it's possible how it's possible is. because we don't do anything the. American people had sat back let them. do whatever they want on Capitol Hill. whatever they want unchecked the average. person cannot tell you the name.

of their Senator and there's only two. per state as opposed to the anywhere. from you know whatever five to. I don't know how many California has a. bunch of Representatives. they're only another Sinner's name bro. you know. some Americans don't know. the vice president of the United States. like we're so uninformed and so lazy. right we're spoiled well in all fairness.

Tony we don't see much of her. in her case but how about uh who was. Trump's vice president people don't know. yeah so and how that that is the fix. everybody asked me what do you think is. the fix how do we fix this I'm like. well we have to Rally. I'm like there's a clear easy model on. how to. take this country in the direction you. want.

and it's proven to work and people are. like what I'm like. the Democrats since 1960 bro. what they've done is the perfect model. for subverting a culture and a. government. they did an awesome job right. and they continue to do an awesome job. right. transgender people make up potentially. less than one percent of the population.

and look how powerful they become. how is it possible because the Democrats. know subversion. and I think it's probably because like a. lot of Liberals are let's face it. they're spineless beta. types and spineless beta types don't. know or understand or appreciate. any type of Confrontation so they're. Sinister they're sneaky and that's. politics bro. I asked somebody I said name one. representative on Capitol Hill that you.

would be afraid to fist fight. and she said I can't think of one. I was talking to a girl not one of us. like name one representative or Senator. vocabulary you're scared defensify it. and they were like this is a woman and. she's not a fighter she's just a friend. of ours. she's like yeah they're not very scary. people they're spineless. yeah they're amoebas. so yeah man uh that was when I kind of I.

had not the most awesome feeling feeling. about Dan but I was still kind of like. rooting for him. and I was like Wow yep you're just like. the rest of them dude you're just. spineless. so all the way down to like the local. GOP. um the smaller counties not so much they. were pretty legit those are people who. believe but you're talking about a GOP. meeting once a month that has. nine people show up.

you go to Onslow County where campus. unions or Craven County or New Bern. North Carolina is those are the two. biggest uh population centers in this. District. and. the County Commissioners the police. Chiefs or sheriffs not Chiefs because. they're elected. dude they're all they treat the. congressman like he's a celebrity. they just want his phone number.

I've heard people say yeah well I've got. his personal cell number and I'm like. I give my personal cell number out of. everything I speak at and I'll not. change it if I'm elected. because I work for you and you should. have my personal cell phone number it. shouldn't just be to my big campaign. donors. I got to the point where I said I tell. you what I told people I say how about. this. congressional salary is 174 000 a year I. hereby pledge and swear to get 50 000 of.

it back each year to Veterans charities. in this District. people were like what. but I couldn't get the local news Medias. to say my name much less put that kind. of [ __ ] out damn he had him bought and. paid for I mean. you know we spent in the last four weeks. because we didn't have much time and. once they made that switch I was now in. this new district for only about seven. weeks. seven weeks man campaigns are usually a. year and a half long seven ways so I had.

seven weeks to visit you know 14. counties and try to get my name out so. dude I knew I was going to lose. I knew there was zero chance. of beating Greg Murphy. so I just focused on his record and. stayed the course you did the right. thing went around and shook a bunch of. babies kissed some hands. something like that anyway. and then we went to this event dude in. Craven County North Carolina. and it was uh the Reagan Lincoln dinner.

and if folks don't know out there. Google Lincoln. and the writ of habeas corpus and look. at all the people that when he suspended. the writ of habeas corpus due process. and started locking up. senators and other political rivals. like Abraham Lincoln is probably one of. the worst Presidents of the United. States history and it's a lie the Abe oh. honestly I'm gonna say was this close to.

being Caesar. sidebar so we're at this Lincoln. Reagan dinner because Lord knows. Republicans love those two dudes and I. don't get it because they were two of. the most Liberal Republicans ever. but whatever. um. after the dinner. I went up to the representative the. congressman and was going to shake his. hand. and just kind of waiting he kept kind of.

blowing me off but I was like this. dude's going to shake my hand you know. what I mean like I mean have some. courtesy here dude I'm challenging you. I'm just challenging you it's not. personal it's like I think I can do a. better job than you. but if he loses man he loses a lot right. well his Regional his um. his director his district director a. woman named Lindy Robinson I knew her.

from before I was going to run. and she speaks to me. we were cordial I thought. she speaks to me and I'm like Landing. and what's up with and all the. negativities I mean you guys are bashing. me hard like really man I thought we'd. play a little nicer in this and she was. like no Tony that's not us what it was. is. um. this gentleman named Wayne King who was. actually associated with my consultant.

wanking is a political consultant he'd. actually been pretty pretty hyped North. Carolina GOP maybe I can't remember. exactly what. um so Wayne King had gone to Pamlico. County Sheriff's department and asked. him for my mug shot from when I got. arrested as a kid. and uh so one of the the chief deputy. there that I grew up with calls me he's. like hey man somebody was just in here. I'm like oh yeah what was his name he's. like ah. last name King maybe it was like Wayne.

King he's like yup that was him. right on not a problem my record's my. record man. um I was like do y'all have a mug shot. because I don't remember he's like no we. didn't we didn't book you like that it. wasn't that kind of a charge so. now I was like thanks bro I appreciate. it. so I emailed one I was like hey bro if. there's anything like that you want I'll. give it to you happily. so I went and posted my entire record on.

our Facebook page. I've got a lot of speeding tickets bro. I've been in a hurry a lot of my life. and typically when I speed. I just don't give the patrolmen much. options either I'm doing. five over what I'm doing 15 plus over. you know what I mean like I'm when I. speed I'm in a hurry so I usually. I get a ticket and over 20 years I've. racked up. one or two a year so there's that so my. my record looks bad just because of.

speeding tickets but. I have the cocaine possession charge. um. and then I have an assault on the female. to which my ex-wife testified it didn't. happen. um basically we got in an argument we. were in the middle of the divorce. she had had a few. frankly had a date that I was trying to. get to and uh you know she wanted to. hang out and I was like I gotta go she.

gets pissed she kicked my car. and rolled her ankle and scuffed her. knee. I was in the car I was leaving. whatever. and you know hey she was almost six foot. tall and wearing heels you know she. rolled her ankle in the ankle drop on an. angled driveway excuse me. um so what they didn't tell people was. the officer came because the neighbors. called the cops the neighbors called the. law. and. so not knowing what happened the officer.

charged us both. only mine was assaulted a female I want. a female and hers was a song we hired. the same attorney. the attorney went. it was all dismissed. all right the officer apologized. sorry man you know I had to charge you. both with something. oh did you okay whatever so anyway that. happened in. oh six. you know so we're talking 15 years later.

they put that [ __ ] out there so I I. posted all on social media put it out. there. and then they tried to attack my service. really yeah so The Gardens of the Green. Beret came in there was this. this chick what was her name. so she's like a financial advisor. there's rules I mean financial advisors. can't. donate they can't a certain amount or. this and that they're not really. supposed to work for the campaigns so. she was a volunteer.

I wish I could remember that with that. woman's name I would say it uh I would. be happy to say her name she's um. big girl. you could tell just a miserable looking. human being. um former Army check and officer and she. was claiming to be a combat veteran but. Simon on me so of course we checked her. out she was a finance officer dude. not she served in a time before women. were allowed in combat but because she. went Afghanistan she was saying she was. a combat vet.

so basically people other than me just. crushed her. and uh but she and some other people you. know they started like uh. like uh you know women against Tony. Cowden you know Tony count is a woman. beater blah blah and I'm like man I have. a I have two top secret clearances I. take polygrass right. and last time I checked. you know it's it's. not guilty until proven otherwise.

and I went to court and was proven not. guilty found not guilty that shit's in. the past right like but they kept trying. to perpetuate it or whatever it's all he. had. okay. so back to that event. I'm talking to Lindy and it's a cordial. conversation. and the congressman is standing here she. and I are face to face and he's still. back to me man like every time I was. like I wanted to introduce myself and. you know hey may the best man win right. simple stuff no different than if we're.

gonna Square Off in you know in a. wrestling match or boxing match you know. you shake each other's hands right give. each other a little bit of respect no. dude he wasn't about that he talks about. how he you know military there's. military that. well this same slimy spineless bastard. as soon as he had the opportunity right. he's got. 400 wait. screw that back up he's got Camp Lejeune. Cherry Point and the Coast Guard.

stations right a lot of military and. veterans in his district huge so he was. on the um. the military. was it military Affairs or the Veterans. Affairs one of those two. um he was on that committee and the. second hand opportunity he left and went. to the Ways and Means Committee. and you know what it costs to get on the. way as a means committee no so here's. another little thing people don't. understand about committees if you look. at Greg Murphy's.

um. filings right it's FEC campaign funds. there are Max contributions to every. single person who sits on that committee. so campaign Finance is a commodity a. trade where there's lots of things you. can't spend it on right like. I couldn't. buy you a Rolex as a gift for saying. thank you right. um but if you were running for congress. I could give you fifty eight hundred. dollars.

if you're a Committee Member that I want. to be on your committee I can give you. and everyone on that committee fifty. eight hundred dollars. American public doesn't understand this. and if they would get off. Tick Tock or Twitter and look up uh like. the FC FEC side or better yet. um. secrets.org. um. what is it publicsecret.org or.

opensecret.org. and you type in a name like if you typed. in. vigilance Elite and you ever donated to. anything political it will show up. really every single Cent In and Out of. my campaign account is completely. documented. I mean there's rules. but the American people won't bother to. look at it to see that these folks are. actually playing with this money. and moving it around.

in pretty unethical ways right and and. you know. who is on the Ethics Committee. members of the house bro it's like. having the the foxes you know. audit the foxes so they've got. everything they just have everything. locked out absolutely locked down but. it's available to the American public if. they would just go look. opensecrets.org Open Season I'm fairly. certain that's it I don't want to put. wrong information out because when.

people hear this they're probably going. to want to look it up and look up there. um representative and Senators every. cent dude I'm gonna I didn't know that. and it's also on the uh the FEC website. but open Secrets breaks it down and it's. way more than just campaign contribution. Oakland secrets. I think that's it. opensecrets.org opensecrets.org so like. the first thing that pops up national. rifle association's profile summary in.

opensecrets.com so for our 2A folks out. there who would like to know more about. how the NRA's money works and where. their money's going that's the first. thing that pops up in my Google search. and they break it down so that you can. understand it. simple interesting it's a quick and easy. because if you try the FEC or go on the. Congressional website. did you get out before the the DTs. travel computer system I got out in.

2006. yeah okay so you missed it it was. back we were still hand jamming it's. worse than that website so all you. military guys out there who know how. horrible the DTs system is FEC and the. Congressional websites are harder to. navigate than that and it is absolutely. intentional. no doubt my man that's intentional I. mean they're Congress they could have. the baddest website if they would on the. planet if they wanted to because I don't. know they got trillions of dollars and. it said they got this horrible website. that the search doesn't work. um it's also just complex the way they.

do business because like a bill could. have 92 different amendments to it. um. so. to continue on back to the event that. we're at and this will give you an idea. of the kind of uh just dirt bag Greg. Murphy is. he turns around. grabs Lindy and like looks at me and. like and says. he goes we don't have to listen to this.

very again and like starts to move away. and I was like I was just gonna. introduce you so I turn around and start. talking to this guy another dude behind. like that's weird not paying attention. well a marine who I am friends with was. at the event and. stopped Greg to talk to him and asked. him about why he wasn't supporting or. helping in any way with the marsok 3ks. they're your constituents well this. gentleman is friends with those guys a.

business owner. a veteran with cancer. from the burn pits. Craig basically sidestepped it and said. I don't have to talk to you people. keeps going. so the next day is the our District's. Republican GOP. um. I forget the name what they call it the. convention right it's the district. convention.

so I'm supposed to go there and speak. and all that we're candidates isn't it. but first thing in the morning I get a. phone call from the district director. district chairman and. I'm like he says hey uh you know in. light of you know what happened last. night you know. it's it's been requested that you not. allowed to come to this event and I'm. like. what what are you talking about. he's like well you know I heard about. what happened last night. sir what happened I do not know what. you're talking about.

he's like well. the the threats you made to to miss lady. Robinson. are you talking about I'm gonna need you. to break it down. so Congressman Greg Murphy. calls the district director. and the chairman and says that me. and two of my Thug friends exact words. you use describe it says thugs. intimidated Lindy Robinson.

to the point in which she panicly ran to. her car and he escorted her so we. wouldn't harm her in any way. bro Greg Murphy is a 150 pound piece of. chewed bubble gum him his entire staff. and everyone at this event could not. stop the three that he was talking about. from us hurting anyone there. all right let me just be that straight. like Greg Murphy's not protecting. anyone. from guys like us the dude's spineless.

little whatever. and I'm like wait what. there were plenty of people there that. saw what happened. the sheriff was there he was in a room. when it happened right and I'm like well. if we assaulted this woman and scared. her so much. uh why why aren't they pressing charges. I tried calling the sheriff of the. county of course he wouldn't answer his. phone. and I was pissed I was like this dude.

just accused me. of assaulting a female in a public what. in the [ __ ]. and I'm just shaking my head I'm just. like what the dude the phone starts. ringing off the hook ring off the hook. man hey we heard that he said this we. heard he said that. um some supporters called and said hey. come on to the convention but we are. going to make damn sure because there's. rumors that that same big girl that I. referenced I wish I could remember that. young lady's name.

insert replace young lady with whatever. word you like. they said that they heard that they were. going to try to provoke me. the girls were. and Melissa's like. oh really I don't mind. I got this honey we'll be cool you know. she's she's getting pissed right. so we go and yeah man we basically just. isolated ourselves.

dude gets up there on stage and speaks. and talks about how there's a cancer. in this party. and there's thugs well the thugs he's. describing one of them has cancer you. know. I mean just this. condescending. and I'm like dude last time I checked. I've served our nation much longer than. you have in slightly more risky. situations.

I rate a slight a tiny bit more respect. out of you. in congressman running a. I mean it removed me personally from the. situation and just look at my bio and my. 201 file my Erb or whatever dude I'm a. decorated. Special Operations veteran and that's. how. you think we should be treated. so now you know I'm like I'm pretty I'm.

pretty pissed and again at this point I. already know I'm not going to win so. dude I just crank it up. I changed my verbiage I'm not playing. nice anymore. well a good buddy of modern Marine who's. a private investigator only his own goes. down to uh the police department the. town Havelock PD. because the this event was at a city. building. and Greg Murphy I mean he came out the. conversation came out and said things. like you know I wish I wish there were.

security cameras at that facility you. know we could show you how you know you. know Tony pursued her to the car and. this and that. and how scared she was and how he saved. her. dumbass didn't know there were cameras. there. oh [ __ ] are you kidding me. so they weren't inside but they're in. the foyer and so he describes escoding. her out protecting her she was upset all. the way to her car.

please tell me you rolled the camera. feed. my blood goes to Havelock PD he's a. private investigator he knows people. they happily give him the footage. and in the foyer of this city building. Robinson comes walking out on her phone. she stops and talks to people. and walks out she's on her phone. a few minutes later. the so-called representative walks out. talking and chatting other people. never happened and he completely lied.

and more so he called me alive can I. just ask a question. I asked Eli this too uh two days ago. can't can't you sue them for defamation. yeah. I could. cost more than you would ever get back. and there's not a lot of lawyers that do. any type of cheap work for something. they're not going to win money back on. because you have to prove that what he. did cost you did it cost me the election.

no I couldn't and even if it did it it. didn't prove anything. and luckily a lot of people stood up and. said it did not happen I was there I was. there it did not happen. um but. can I get that footage to roll on this. episode yeah oh and the. it was awesome because Greg Murphy went. on a local radio show. and it was like about me he said that.

guy can't tell the truth to save his. life blah blah blah he you know he beats. women and blah blah I'm like dude I've. never touched a woman I have two sisters. you know what are you talking about. and uh. caused me a liar freaking just on and on. a mic. so I took that footage. and put it right up front of the uh. foyer because he describes it he's like.

yeah he comes up to us you know and he. describes the whole thing. crying my district director I grabbed. her by the shoulder I said we're not. doing this and March this out you know. what what am I gonna do make that whole. episode up you guys know me I don't do. that kind of nonsense. and so uh you know it's just utterly. absurd and yes we actually asked for the. interior video the next day. so that we could prove what happened I.

mean they had to have several people at. the doors to prevent these these guys. who were thugs from chasing Lindy and I. and then the video shows it never. happened. two very different stories so we put it. all together and launched it. local media wouldn't touch it. you know when I brought it up to. um the local news radio guy so news. radio guy would put him on every week. let him talk. uh live. in the studio uh finally a week out from.

the election he let me talk for like 15. minutes and you know his questions were. you know clearly questions that weren't. set up to make me sound intelligent or. anything like that it was it was a it. was [ __ ]. and yeah man I mean he spent. numerous hundreds of thousands of. dollars in the last few weeks on TV ads. and radio ads and stuff like that where. we had like I don't know 80 or 90 left.

it's not winnable. people ask you know are you gonna run. again. yeah had my taste of it. the only way I would consider running. again if all of a sudden there was 1.2. million dollars in my campaign account. that's what it would take for me to beat. that guy. and I would appreciate another. opportunity. but. it's just disgusting. consultant. right. when I my consultant told me that he.

didn't want he couldn't continue. with me challenging and incoming. um I said okay that's cool. so. they had like my website. login they had my Gmail G Suite uh email. account they had it all. it took me two and a half weeks from get. my. access to my email account. they held it hostage for two weeks who.

did the consulting firm. and then I hear so what do you think I. did I withheld their last payment. five grand a month that's what I was. paying them. and then I hear Through the Grapevine. and his name's Andy Yates Andy Yates is. telling people that I won't pay him I. stole five grand from him. so of course I sent him a text message I. was like let me hear it one more time. you need to understand.

that this election is not more important. than my principles. right I don't I care far less about. winning this election. than you people saying that I stole. money or that I lied or that I beat a. woman y'all need to understand that. before the next time you open your mouth. about me. I didn't hear anything else from him and. I got my access and email and all that. stuff. but that's the nastiness these spineless. little beta Cooks.

that's the game they're playing dude. it's disgusting and so like. that event right the. Craven County chair of the Republican. Party her name is Sarah benicek. week just waiting she wasn't malicious. necessarily. um I don't think she was necessarily. trying to. side with him but she got intimidated. the Republican party is supposed to be. remained neutral in primaries.

so I would send things to the GOP to. post in both Lejeune and Craven counties. they wouldn't post it and when Sarah. posted some stuff of mine she got. intimidated so much by Greg Murphy. supporters that she deleted stuff and I. was like I just told her I was like you. know this is It's just disappointing. that you know you you just can't do. something simple as remain neutral that. you're so easily intimidated now in. Lejeune that GOP do they.

they were directly going against me like. the vice chair of Onslow County had Greg. Murphy signs. in regard right and are not right. they're supposed to be neutral she was. on the radio talking bad about me you. know and ultimately they forced her to. resign because it was that bad. but it was rumored that the chair and. hurting the long way and he was just.

looking for a reason to get rid of her. he didn't do it because it was right. he did it because he needed to get rid. of her. and you know I'll tell you just to to. combat any adversarial. um or counter to what I'm saying people. could say well you lost your bitter. not at all. it was an overwhelmingly good experience. I met some amazing people. I have new friends because of it.

I'm not bitter at all in so many ways my. life is probably way better than if I. had one you know. um. yeah. just disgusting dude Republicans at. least the Democrats are honest. you check it out North Carolina's that. district one of the main like kind of. influential dudes in the whole thing. um. dude spent time for raping a couple of.

teenage girls one of which committed. suicide afterwards he was a police. officer. used his badge and his influence. to have sex with these girls that's rape. one of them later killed herself over. the whole mess and now he's like a. prominent member of the eastern North. Carolina's GOP. are you serious I'm like. Republicans what are you doing how is. this how is this man even possibly. allowed to step foot in any of these.

meetings he can't even vote dude's a. felon. how is he an influential member of the. Republican Party well he did his time. are you sure things are not just you. don't get to rape who's this go to. prison. he's a big dude uh he's like six foot. something like I said a former police. officer what's his position he's just. involved very involved in the uh 13th. District the GOP in the Republican Party.

people allow him to be. an influential member and like I said. dude can't even vote in elections. so when people say Democrats are. hypocrites am I there ain't no. difference between Republicans and the. Democrats don't kid yourselves do not. kid yourselves they're slimy like I said. political prostitutes. opportunists somebody. said the term stuck with me ever since.

because that's what they that's what. they are it's gross dude. you know and I don't know how we get. this back so. we I had a really awesome oppositional. research guy. former. um counterintel guy from the agency. former Ranger I mean he was just vicious. like he went and did a background check. on me in Sampson County. and. the lady basically logged in access to.

the computer. and said okay cool I'm gonna go get a. coffee you know whatever you want she's. got he's got access to the entire. criminal background systems check so he. runs a check on me runs a check on a. couple of other people who are involved. in this whole mess. um you know he just wanted to see what. pops up on me but man he was just. vicious man he could get in and get all. kinds of information she's a researcher. um amazing dude amazing dude currently. in law school he's going to be a vicious. lawyer.

so in his research. Congressman Greg Murphy. had a beach house. on Emerald out the city of emerald which. is one of the Outer Banks. um Atlantic Beach Immortal it's all in. the same island. just north of Camp Lejeune. well. after the hurricane. Emerald algot if I remember correctly. like 58 million the city of Emerald Isle.

Greg Murphy leveraged. and got him 58 million. Onslow County got like 16 million the. county not a city. Pamlico County got like 8 million. poorest county in in the district second. course kind of interest rate got nothing. that's the county I'm from where I grew. up. um it was very disproportionate. City got 58 for this new beach. reconstruction project where basically.

they're going to. pump. sand to rebuild the beach. which is also where one of three of his. beach houses sits. a beach house that in 1997 he paid seven. hundred thousand dollars for. and after that project came up sold it. for 3.49 million. foreign.

Outlet to include Fox News. to include Carl Higby. at Newsmax. nothing. this young lady who is a guest on. Newsmax on Carl show and stuff. and I had met I worked I worked out with. Carl hit me up in Connecticut a long. time ago we had a mutual friend I knew. the dude seemed like a nice guy. and um. she was like yeah I'm Gonna Get You On.

the curl. nah man. nothing. you know or eight Green Berets and five. or six eels running. and of course uh Eli zinke Van Orden all. one. none of the GBA has had injury support. what's that Patrol oh and Latrell that's. right otherwise forget about him. um. yeah he had a lot of support from. Crenshaw.

um. the rest of us I mean we were straight. up told Kevin McCarthy do not does not. want guys like you in Congress. no [ __ ] don't monaster why because they. know damn well will stand up to him yeah. right they know damn well we're not. doing it for the money because we served. our entire lives for military pay. they know. they know and they don't want us there.

and what's worse is the American public. is too [ __ ] lazy to do their research. less than 20 percent of the voters in. our district right should Republican. voters bothered to vote in our primary. are you serious I got 10 to 20 percent. of only just under 20 percent. damn how do you fix that man you know. everybody's like oh it's lost you know. some people are even talking civil war. and [ __ ] and I'm like maybe we should.

just try the voting thing before we say. voting doesn't work. yeah but let's face it man the good. American family they're taking their. kids to soccer practice. they're taking their kids to the beach. or they're doing whatever they're doing. family stuff and they're not involved. if that doesn't change it's not going to. get better and I don't even know if it's. going to get any better. I mean the fact that like it's not. looking likely no you know it's just.

that for me the Nell in the coffin was. McCarthy being. voted in as Speaker I mean you're. starting to see people leave the country. you know spooky man. powerful people I mean are are. they're leaving yeah. it's bad man and. laughs. you know I listen to some of these. politicians and I'm doing it less and. less I've unfollowed. and you know people like but we need.

guys like you I'm like oh okay. well I need 1.5 million dollars to get. up there. got any rich friends oh no because those. rich people. already have a congressman yeah. why do you think Rich conservatives. aren't going to give to someone like me. because they've already owned Greg. Murphy yeah because they already own.

so how am I going to get funds I did. have the um the Club for Growth. they wanted to support me but they said. hey man straight up. six weeks to your election man. you're a waste of money. that's fair. I understand. you know. because the guy straight up to me is. like. it would take three million dollars. to get you anywhere near winning he's.

like and we ain't got that he's like. you're not a three million dollar. District bro. and to put it in perspective right so. gray Murphy went to primary and now he's. going up against a very conservative. black woman that's a Democrat lady named. Miss Barbara Gaskins. and I gave her everything that we had on. Greg Murphy I gave a Democrat because. she's a better person than he is and I. would take good people who you know. slightly left then completely corrupt.

lying ass conservatives who aren't. conservative. Greg Murphy. his daughter despise him she posted. something one time how big of a dirtbag. was that when she was in college he. forced her to get an abortion. if you look at his campaign in. opensecrets.org you'll see organizations. like the American Medical Association. and you might say well that makes sense. he's a doctor. the American Medical Association take a. moment and find out it stands on.

abortion. the American Medical Association is not. just pro-choice it's pro-abortion. his other. campaign contributions Farm big Pharma. some real estate people from in Rhode. Island. bro Bolton paid for it yeah spineless. bought and paid for and like I said I. really haven't spoken much about it it's. been just over a year since the end of. Cincinnati primary and the reason I.

didn't I didn't want to I didn't want. people to accuse me of being bitter I'm. not a bitter person I'm I'm actually. really happy and things are going great. for me. um. but here's the truth. like I said I really haven't put it out. there. um when we set this up I was like I. think maybe that's when I. when I really come out same same with. ibogang I wasn't certain about. putting much of it out there.

um just because you know. well. knowing what you know now. about politics and and the unit party. and. how many of these people are bought and. paid for what do you think. the answer is. there's no doubt in my mind that if. half the American people would rally.

we can change things not even half you. know what screw it I'll call it it 12 to. 15 percent of the American citizens. rallied and I don't care if you're left. right because it doesn't matter anymore. right yeah we are literally fighting for. the survival of the place to be left or. right. and I remember when socialists or not. socialists uh you know slightly. left-leaning people weren't people I. hated weren't people I had to hate right.

nowadays if I disagree with you on you. know what it would you rather rather you. know where. I don't know tennis shoes or boots. well now we gotta hate each other yeah. because I decided to wear boots today. instead of tennis shoes so I gotta hate. you now and they've done this man it's. it's theatrics it's [ __ ] it's it's. smoking mirrors man I don't have to hate. people that I disagree with I don't hate. anybody. I think I got a couple people I'd like. an opportunity to.

hang out with in an alley for a few. minutes but I don't hate them I don't. have hate in my heart dude. um I don't know that I ever have I mean. I've had times where I like like I said. I wanted to get back there right and. settle some scores. but. enough with this hating each other man. yeah um We're not gonna have a country. where you can be liberal or you can be a. Christian or that country's going away. if we don't get together and fix it and. take that power back from these bought.

and paid for so-called Representatives. yeah. um. yeah man. now if that doesn't happen. there's no doubt that our trajectory is. taking us because sooner or later. conservatives are going to get fed up. they keep pressing people's kids right. like why did they stop with the code. stuff because people were had enough. people are starting to revolt against. the whole mandates and their children.

and the school boards and all that. people are starting to lose their [ __ ]. they were tired of it so they backed off. now they're like oh we didn't mandate. anything. what oh we just forgiving them right. when was the last time you heard about. any of the Republican Representatives. doing anything to punish. all the people that put this complete. lie of the pandemic in the complete lie. of the vaccine. no one there is no one going to be held. accountable for that stuff unless the.

American people do it and we're not. going to no one's ever held accountable. on government never. until. you know Revolution happens and I don't. want that dude. my niece she's a beautiful young lady. she doesn't know what it's like not to. have Wi-Fi bro. yeah right she's been in her entire life. right by the time she was flying there. was Wi-Fi on airplanes right and I don't. want that young lady who has never. missed a meal.

who's lived a nice life because my older. sisters done well for herself I do not. want my niece to know what war looks. like. war in America dude when white people. start killing white people it's ugly. right look look throughout War his world. history man you know and I say that. because let's face it it's not a racist. thing but when this world when the. country comes to tips it's going to be. mostly a country against a bunch of rich.

white dudes. you know people are fed up and that's. scary War here is scary I like air. conditioning I as much as I like being. outside when I'm inside I like to be. comfortable I like hot water I like the. Wi-Fi I like cell service and all that. stuff's the first thing that goes away. when this country collapses. and we're already. we have enemies other than ourselves man.

because we're too stupid to make allies. out of Russia and China we're gonna. fight them because well we kind of went. over this at the beginning you know. maybe we're not the good guys we thought. we were. I think we are. and I think there's probably two dudes. somewhere in Russia and probably two. dudes somewhere in China that are good. guys too and they're probably also tired. of the [ __ ] that their governments. are doing yeah. like I said I don't I don't think people. in general. are necessarily evil but when they get. together and you get money involved and. the government involved because the.

government makes. larceny legal do you think this is. beyond politics do you think any of this. goes into I've been hearing a lot about. spiritual warfare. maybe so. good versus evil are we there. at some level certainly certainly at. some levels. um.

I mean we are. I remember right like I I remember my. aunts and my grandma and all them like. freaking out over a Motley Crew and. poison and you know the 80s rock bands. and they had crazy hair uh you know. they're dressing up like girls. yeah I'm pretty sure Motley Crue wasn't. gay like them dudes were they might have. had some teasing in their hair and stuff. but those rock bands You know they they. were they were probably mostly. heterosexual mostly they might have done. some other crazy [ __ ]. but remember in the 80s man and then.

gangster rap happened oh my God this is. horrible it's Satan. you know. I think that was just the beginning of. it and I'm not saying that like you know. Motley Crue and those dudes are evil or. anything but that was a perception. of. you know the generation ahead of us that. oh my god um you know Alice Cooper I. mean these people are evil right and. clearly now Alice is a Christian or. whatever.

but that stuff that was happening in the. 80s. that was people having a good time. because the economy was just. crushing it what's happening now. we've got people trying to condone the. behavior of child rape. and there is no such thing as child. children consenting children cannot. consent children cannot make decisions. that we're saying that they can. it was it was just uh Lewis and I were. talking to her as. you can a child can't even make the.

decision if he wants to he or she wants. to live with which whichever parent when. there's a divorce but you're saying they. can considerations or consent to. dismembering themselves. there Melissa was talking about she. can't even can't even choose which who. you want to live with Mom or Dad Court's. got to decide right but. you want to whack your junk off you want. to rip your ovaries out you can do that. you can do that you want to take puberty. blockers you can do that this woman.

Melissa was actually in Washington the. state can confiscate your kid. because you won't let them have that. ship. what yeah dude that's evil it's. spreading and that's yeah that's what. I'm getting. you're starting to see this push happen. it's it's it's it's being pushed. push push push push it's spreading it's. moving into Colorado it's moving into. California it's it's uh moving into I. think it's Minnesota.

you know this is all it's happening fast. it's common quick this this woman that. Melissa was talking about. having horrible menstruational periods. um. mid-20s late 20s maybe. knows made the decision she will she. does not want to have kids went to her. doctor and asked to have a hysterectomy. and they said no because one day you. might change your mind and you want to. have to have babies.

this is a almost 30 year old woman an. adult legal adult yeah cannot make that. decision for herself. but if she went back or went to a. different doctor and said hey. I'm a dude I'm gonna need a hysterectomy. to be like cool. knocked out right out for you. yeah oh man. all right I wish I had the answer like. to me yeah I have the answers but I have. no way no viable way of executing it. you know I can't I have no way of.

rallying that type of people I don't. have the means of an Elon Musk you know. and that's what you need to fight this. type of War. it's money. and how do you compete with the soroses. and the bezoses and the. conservative. billionaires. aren't funding social Pro projects right. they're paying. very specific money to get what they.

want to further their business because. they're practical that's why. they own congressmen and senators and I. mean we see it all the time there's like. at least 10 different people putting out. information every day on their Insider. training. and they're not even hiding it anymore. yeah they don't care what we think. yeah. you know I. part of me thinks it's unfixable. we're so divided now we there's so much.

hate in the air. that. I I don't think you can fix it with. politics I think the. only way that you can. start waking people up is by bringing. them to something that this country was. founded on and that's God. and hope that people. bring their morals back to to that how.

many different examples are there. that when cultures turn their back on. God. they meet their demise and I almost. I almost don't believe I'm not certain. that it's like God says you know what. when they reach this point. I'm gonna crush them I mean in some. teaching in the Bible it was a couple. different times Sodom and Gomorrah right. there he basically said. get out.

burning this place. but in other other societies whatever I. think he just lets us do. that Free Will thing you know he just. lets us do. here we are. and there's only like you said without. turning back and following his ways yeah. I've got some agnostic and atheist. friends. and we all agree. that the Ten Commandments is a pretty. decent document.

you know it's like. if we just kind of took it out of the. Bible and I showed it to you would you. not agree that the Ten Commandments is a. pretty decent way to treat each other. and they're like well yeah of course how. should I kill Thou shalt not you know. covet then neighbor's wife it was basic. don't Do's you know. It transcends Whatever religion. or lack of religion you have like good. people know what goodness is yeah.

but good people mind their own business. and that's why we're here. that is why we're here and let's face it. man I mean you know we see it like in. the you know the Tactical 2A whatever. group Enthusiast I don't want to call it. a community because it ain't. you got all these influencer types. who are constantly posting about. Second Amendment issues. they won't put their money where their.

mouth is. you know. they. if it's not going to benefit them. you know there is no leadership to be. had in the 2A Community because all. those influencers out there care way. more about their followings and the. clicks and the likes and their promotion. of their business under the rules of on. my second amendment supporter. am I. you might be a second amendment. supporter but don't talk to me about.

truly being in the fight. I ran for congress you know what I mean. and it wasn't fun I mean again. lots of good lessons. but you're talking about my life for. over six months was leave my house at. six in the morning and maybe get back. before midnight. we spent over fifty thousand dollars of. our own money. hell.

I had a ten thousand dollar KX 450 that. I just bought and I raffled it off I. donated that that's not even included in. the fifty thousand dollars. you know. I I had my as much as I could put at. stake and I had a couple people that's. all you're putting in. to be honest I'm like I'm not rich dude. that's why you should vote for me. because I'm not a rich white dude you. know I'm not in it for the money I don't. care. uh I swore that I would only do two. times.

so it wasn't enough I promised fifty. thousand dollars and that I would only. do two times. you know yeah. it wasn't enough it wasn't enough to get. people off their asses to go vote. I don't know bro if we could do that. like I said I think if we could get 12. to 20 of Americans off their asses. but you know what it's like rallies. right like Democrats man they'll rally.

in a second. how many rallies have there been on. Capitol Hill since January 6th. only a couple I know actually we're not. even at the Capitol there in the um in. the at the park. I went to one one of the first ones and. that was the um defeat the mandate. there were many many people there was a. um any representatives there. um. it was just it's just sad but they knew.

what they were doing on January 6th. you know they made everyone afraid to. protest. it's our team our team how do you say it. tmn square. no. didn't run over anybody with a tank. they damn sure shut down public protests. now everyone's afraid to go protest on. Capitol Hill because they can get thrown. in jail. no due process. it was brilliant. they're doing a good job at what they're.

doing. you know and that's the scary part. they're doing it right in front of our. faces and we're not doing anything about. it. so we're gonna get some more chickens. and continue to mind my own damn. business. when everyone's ready to. take whatever course of action to fix. this stuff give me a call I'm ready. until then I'm gonna go back to minding. my own business like everybody else and. I hate it. I'm not a politician man.

I mean clearly. like I said I just assume fist fight you. didn't argue with you about anything. stupid you know and it's not personal. right like it's not I'm a violent person. it's like I just don't like arguing. so yeah I don't know I don't know how. much fun we would have on Capitol Hill I. can only imagine Eli going dude stop. like you can't tell everyone you know. what I was joking that you know maybe we. could make C-SPAN great again. let's tune into C-SPAN and see see who's.

Tony's telling [ __ ] off today. um well we got to leave them with. something positive before we wrap this. up you know and so. I don't know what that is but hey you. know what man. America still got a lot of amazing. people everywhere I go man I meet cool. people I mean. you know the internet's horrible blah. blah. going for dinner now what about you.

you know I've made amazing networks and. contacts over the internet I have. awesome friends. um. I don't think America's lost man but she. may have to do some remodeling yeah she. may need some restructuring there's. definitely some of that you know and. I'll tell you man. hypothetically speaking and I promise. you I am not advocating for any type of. insurrection or so it wouldn't be an.

interesting would be a civil war. inspiration would be treasonous and when. good people stand up against their. government that is not what it is not an. insurrection. it's a revolution a Revolt whatever you. want to call it. on the upside. if we ever get there you know how easy. it is going to be to flip them dudes. right out of their chairs fat bastards. they're not going to fight. um. I do worry about our military police. good people follow orders man that's. scary.

good people follow orders. I mean. I don't know. but on the positive side man freaking. everything that we've talked about. before the Congressional run you know. it's all good stuff man we've we've got. America's still raising some good boys. and some good girls. I live in the middle of nowhere rural. North Carolina again and I look around. and I'm like these are good people and.

sooner or later they're going to get. tired of it. so I don't think it's completely dismal. I mean if we only look at what we've. seen on new things. it would be easy to assume everything's. dismal and everything's dark. but I'll tell you it's not it's not 100. like I said we're continuing to build. networks of good people. you're doing amazing [ __ ] you know. um. it's not a loss and here's an example.

I grew up in Stonewall Stonewall North. Carolina United Methodist Church. a few months ago. the members of that church I'm a member. of it but I I wasn't consulted and I. still asked my aunt why because. but it was basically like you had to be. there to vote so the United Methodist. Church is a large organization. and they decided they gave thumbs up to.

um same-sex marriage they gave thumbs up. to a lot of things that. just. the Bible doesn't support. and. my church along with. many other Methodist churches have. decided to leave the United Methodist. Church. I'm so proud of them they stuck to their. beliefs. right they stuck to the release and they. sat down and it wasn't an easy process. they voted to leave the United Methodist.

Church and now. they are the Stonewall Methodist Church. they stuck and people left especially. young people and they already had such a. low membership dude. but people are sticking to their. principles and that's a good thing yeah. and now to clarify they didn't it's not. Banning gay people or homosexuals from. the church that is not what they were. doing it was they did not want to accept. gay marriage they would not perform gay.

marriages in their church because the. Bible clearly states marriage is between. a man and woman and God and so they said. hey that's where we're drawing the line. and so I'm proud of them you know I I'm. not proud of them because. they're doing something that's against. the gay community it's not the case you. know my gay friends are an amazing bunch. of dudes you know um yes I have gay. friends man they're [ __ ] cool dudes.

so people are. sticking to their guns trying to. so I think there's still some type of. glimmer of hope. I don't know. well it's gonna be an interesting next. two decades yeah. it's definitely gonna be an interesting. next two decades but man I just. I want to wrap this up you know and and. uh. I just want to say thank you man for. coming out no way bro thank you and uh.

yeah sharing your experience from. childhood all the way up to present day. and and um you know if there's. your psychedelic experience I mean. that's gonna help. a lot of people. so thank you for sharing that yeah man. no um. if we're going to be mentors and leaders. for this next generation of young men. and there to have because let's face it.

fathers Our Generation men it's done a. pretty bad job. that reason the Next Generation. but you're talking about the opportunity. for that pendulum to swing from all this. craziness to this next Generation being. one of the most conservative Generations. Americans ever seen in their social uh. um social scientists predicting that. even liberal ones and they're scared. so.

you got to keep doing what you're doing. and you've had you know I was joking and. I've joked with my other buddies I'm. like man I can't believe I'm having to. follow some of his guests you know like. you've had some amazing people sharing. amazing experiences. don't stop. you are one of those amazing guests so. please like you are you deserve every. minute you've sat in that chairman and. um it was a real honor to interview uh.

pleasure was mine brother. thank you man. [Music]. [Applause]. hey everybody I'm Sean Ryan click here. to subscribe to the Sean Ryan Show. YouTube channel for the hottest and most. compelling interviews that you will not. see anywhere else I've also made a. playlist of all the previous SRS.

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