Stalker Fan Sends Acid Bomb To Famous Singer, “Because if she’s ugly, then no one will want her”

[Music]. bada bing bada boom one law enforcement. officer wrote on this forum about his. current life situation of having to. watch all of these evidence videos that. are being taken in they wrote no you. never get desensitized to it you get. burned out by it I mean some of the. stuff I've seen I can't get it out of my. head stupid things like pet names that. your partner might call you like oh baby. Sweetie or even big boy will bring back. thoughts of you had to witness in these. videos.

and it's not a great experience I have. seen things in my life that I should. never have seen I mean things that'll. make your skin crawl which is very scary. to think about it for those Law. Enforcement Officers every piece of. evidence that they receive they can't. just shove it away in a box or put it in. a hard drive and go okay yeah we've got. the evidence we're good now they have to. log every piece of that footage they. have to in most cases categorize the. footage based on the serious.

the violence and even the age of the. victims in the videos there are some. computer software programs to help with. the logging of images but with videos. most of the time a reviewing officer. will need to sit there and provide a. written account in graphic detail of. what the video contains during the. timestamps during each video a lot of. law enforcement officials State bluntly. they would rather deal with dead. decomposing bodies that smell incredibly. horrendous than sit in front of a.

computer and watch these types of videos. there are dedicated task forces for. these jobs they have to receive regular. counseling heavy psychiatric evaluations. even before they're tasked with logging. such evidence they typically go through. these extensive training periods to. develop the coping mechanisms literally. just to get their mind ready to watch. these videos to deal with the potential. psychological trauma of what happens. when they see something like this the. turnaround rate for someone in the task.

force like this usually is maxed out 1. or 2 years maybe three some don't even. make it past a month sometimes they'll. leave and they'll be asked to come back. because they were really good at. identifying markers identifying markers. so in the video you're not just looking. at the crime that's one element you have. to log exactly what happens in detailed. format so it can be presented in court. but you're also looking for sweaters. music in the background some sort of. symbol that could indicate what state it. was filmed in what country it was filmed. in what time period it was filmed in was.

it summer was it winter was it this year. was it last year some people are a. little bit more skilled than others and. they'll be asked to come back some. people don't even make it a month it's. that bad the Hollywood Florida police. are in a very tricky situation they're. dealing with both a dead decomposing. body and they have about 20 hours of. footage that they need to go through. they need to watch 20 hours of footage. to understand the full picture of what. has even taken place here it was such a.

bizarre call they rushed out to this. small apartment complex they found a man. dead in his apartment completely nude. his face was painted this very grotesque. green red color almost. striped striped green and red fully he. he looked like he was wearing a mask he. didn't even look human the entire. apartment is a mess like a hoarding. situation the only thing that stood out. immediately to them well it's pretty. unavoidable someone wanted them to find. it on the wall above the dead body.

written in giant painted letters it's. taken up the whole wall the entirety of. the wall it reads the 8 mm tapes are a. documentation of a crime a terrorist. matter they are for the FBI and it had. an arrow pointing to a stack of tapes is. that the 20 hours yes so if anything is. going to help them figure out exactly. what happened to this dead person it's. going to be the tapes it's not something. that they can let linger or wait for. designated Task Force One of the tapes.

is even titled the last day they insert. the tape and press play the man's death. is entirely caught on camera from start. to finish from him heavy breathing. before his violent end and even. afterwards he lets out this kind of gasp. of air but it sounds like someone. gurgling mouthwash and they just watch. him die right there on the screen okay. we'll start rewinding the tape they. start rewinding the tape to right before. he dies and right before he dies he had.

ripped the pages out of a book to make. this little empty space like a hidden. compartment inside of a book and inside. of it he had placed a bomb he video logs. that he plans on sending it this book. bomb to one of the most well-known. female celebrities in the entire world. straight to her home. address the officers stare at each. other stop the tape right now they pause. it did we not just see a book that looks.

just like that still inside of his. apartment get everybody out now get them. out now and call the bomb squad. [Music].

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are available at Rotten mingle. podcast.com now before we get started a. few quick disclaimers there are a lot of. heavy topics in today's episode. references to hate speech racism violent. stalking and self- exit Additionally the. perpetrator in this case states that he. has a genetic disorder as well as. struggles with his mental health. obviously it shouldn't need to be said. but just in case these are unrelated. diagnosis and anyone with similar. disorders or mental health struggles is. not inherently violent nor does this. particular case represent Comm unities. as a whole so with that being said let's.

get into it first of the 20 tapes which. we will refer to as the video diaries 20. separate tapes 20 hours long video. diaries it starts on Ricardo Lopez's. 21st birthday his present to himself is. this the camera to document his life his. art and most importantly his big plans. he looks at the camera do you want to. see something funny I'm going to show. you who I am any.

he pinches his cheeks so his thumbs are. at the edges of his mouth and he pinches. his upper cheeks to make like a very. scary smiley face and he gets closer to. the camera and closer I am a monster can. you see me smiling at you comfort is. what I seek in speaking to you something. with um I don't know something that. makes me feel better for a long time. I've been speaking into a mirror and. being my own psychologist or. whatever I am a.

can you see me smiling at. [Music]. you. oh he said that he plans on documenting. his plans to send his favorite celebrity. an HIV bomb because she deserves to die. so he's going to find a sex worker that. has AIDS pay for her blood obviously. he's not going to sleep with her he. states that then inject the blood into. hypodermic needles send her a package.

looking like it's from a PR firm from. New York City that's inviting her to an. AIDS Gala that's perfect in research for. funding for AIDS she's going to open up. the invitation and boom straight into. her thumbs two needles will inject her. with HIV AIDS blood he States I really. like this AIDS thing it's sort of poetic. technically if you really want to get. into it it's much easier than having to. go fly over there and stalk her or shoot. her or stab her.

he said he would make the package seem. like a formal invitation he pretends to. have his thumbs poked at one point and. he starts screaming bloody murder. because that's his master plan this way. I mean she can't not think about him he. will be the biggest part of her life he. will be the one person in her life that. she'll never stop thinking about she'll. never forget him. [Music].

my. [Music]. God those two hypodermic needles are. going to poke her. thumbs thus introducing inter. bloodstream HIV contaminated blood so. for the next 20 hours that's over the. span of 9 months so he's not vlogging. like 20 hours straight he will start.

documenting his own mental collapse. until he finally successfully mails a. bomb to London 9 months later Ricardo. Lopez would be dead 20 hours of footage. would be taped that shows his mind. completely breaking apart and he just. gets further and further from reality. and a bomb will be sitting in a South. London post office getting ready to be. delivered to a famous celebrities. residence just sitting there rattling. bubbling I mean waiting to be opened if. you were to open the cardboard box you.

would see a book in there a book and. once you open that everything would go. to John the maintenance man at the. apartment building in Florida he has had. multiple calls about the same thing. which feels abnormal it's September 16th. but it's it's still a little hot in. Florida but there's no reason for. anything to be stinking up the entire. Place sometimes during the summer you. get trash left out you mix it with the. heat the humidity of Florida yeah it. starts having a pungent smell that feels.

like it's piercing through your brain. but right now it's fall it's September. he makes his way over to the apartment. building and yeah okay it does kind of. smell rancid he had a few tasks that he. wanted to do prior to all of this but. this smell is so intoxicatingly. horrendous he feels like he's going to. pass out he starts investigating which. is basically just him walking around. pausing aggressively sniffing and then. walking around pausing and aggressively. sniffing and he's trying to figure out. if the smell gets stronger or weaker in.

certain areas right here right here is. the most pungent scent he looks up and. he sees the door leading directly into. apartment apartment a he scrambles to. get the keys out he knocks on the door. maintenance maintenance so the. maintenance stuff they're allowed to. come in without prior approval in this. building to fix emergency issues which. in this case it seems like it's an. emergency issue everybody's been. complaining about this he opens the door. and nobody's home or at least nobody's. responding the smell just keeps getting.

stronger as he walks in the entire. apartment is trashed it's disgusting. it's filthy but not not gross enough to. cause a scent like this he steps over. random pizza boxes on the ground he sees. this random okay this is a tiny tiny. cramped little apartment and what takes. up most of the space is this sculpture. of a woman's face made out of clay it's. probably the size of my upper. torso it's a like a papier-mâché type of. face or clay I would say clay yes and it.

looks professionally done like whoever. is doing this it doesn't look like. something I would do it looks well it. looks good it resembles a person you can. tell this is someone yes and if you're. familiar with specific people you might. even be able to tell who this is It's. that specific in detail it it's just. very strange the maintenance man looks. down and there in the middle of the. apartment laying on the ground dead is a. man's fully nude body he looks not human. he looks like a monster his body had.

already started decomposing in the. Florida heat so his body is different. blotches of different colors his face is. painted red and green his head is. completely shaved his eyebrows are. shaved it looks like he put on a. Halloween mask but only on the front of. his face but it's clearly not a mask and. he's dead did he paint his own face. before passing or did somebody else. paint his face but why there's a giant. pool of blood underneath him Jon turns. on his heels he walks right out of that. apartment he immediately calls the. police authorities rush in they survey.

the scene and it's confusing because was. this man kidnapped is this a terrorist. organization because remember on the. wall it said it's a terrorist crime a. terrorist matter this is for the FBI on. the fridge the words nword lover are. painted and there's one last weird note. left behind on a canvas like an art. canvas that you would get at the store. situated directly behind the dead body. are the words the best of me the best of. me the authorities are so confused until.

one of them points out the man died from. a gunshot wound to the Head it appears. that the way he slumped over he would. have been sitting right in front with. his head in front directly in front of. that canvas meaning it seems like the. intention being given the placement that. his brain matter was supposed to. Splatter onto the canvas and that would. be the best of him at the same time. other officers continue watching the. tapes I mean they're already putting the. tapes in and watching them because time.

is of the essence they see the dead man. Ricardo before his passing taking the. bomb and going to the post office and. shipping it successfully he ships it all. the way to England London where the. singer has a home I better hurry up and. go now I'm going to go. now I'm going to go now I'm going to go. now they rushed to call Scotland Yard. which is the FBI of England the package. had already arrived and a small post. office in South London and it was about.

to be dispatched and delivered to the. singer's address but they caught it do. you know the best way to diffuse a bomb. if you can thr into the water it's to. make it explode oh it's a controlled. explosion either the bomb squad will. Evacuate the area and detonate the bomb. or if possible the best case scenario. would be to get the bomb place it in a. vessel or a robot that can handle the. size of explosion that they're expecting. from this size bomb have it safely. transported to a remote location have it.

detonated in a controlled environment. usually the bomb is placed under a. reinforced chamber or it's buried deep. into the ground sometimes the bomb squad. will add additional explosives inside to. make sure that the device is completely. destroyed and no longer active after. detonating oh that is what the Scotland. Yard do to this bomb the one that was. addressed to the globally known famous. singer but now that the bomb is. detonated the singer is safe and secure. you never got the bomb there's a few.

lingering questions why did this man. from Florida send an Icelandic musician. living in London a bomb like it's so. Random there's no connection they don't. know each other other than maybe he. listens to her music and why is he dead. now I mean what was his plan but it's. crazy that it went through. customs that is kind of crazy but is it. because it's a very different bomb like. it has he's he's made it like a needles. and all that yeah it's not necessarily. an explosive type of bomb yeah now the.

dead man's name is Ricardo Lopez but a. lot of people that know him they just. call him the bugman he's an exterminator. that is his occupation and he works for. his older brother George who owns this. pest control company in Florida which. you know Ricardo is not very happy about. if you told Ricardo when you drop out of. high school at 16 years old to pursue. art you're going to end up being the. bugman he probably would not have. believed you cuz that's crazy what what.

type of art he did a lot of drawings. pastels watercolors I mean he does seem. to be skilled at Art who seems to have a. talent yeah oh the statue was made by. him the sculpture is made by him now. he's 21 and just Exterminating. cockroaches and flies on a daily basis. he would have these little outbursts on. the job and this is why his brother. would constantly keep an eye on him it's. always been a thing in the family that. Ricardo isn't the most mentally stup. people you know he's he's a little.

unhinged but they try to be. understanding he would have these. outbursts I'm an exterminator a bugman. as many people would choose to refer to. me you know cockroach man but most. people in this world I'd say the. majority are cockroaches me being one of. them if you look around look around you. I'm a piece of that's why I'm not. interested in finding a girlfriend I'm a. dirty sloppy fat disgusting piece of. okay but he still took pride in his work. he would say I really enjoy destroying.

these cockroaches it's a pleasure for me. that and the fact that he had access to. a lot of harsh chemicals because of his. job he would say things like I have. access to many potentially catastrophic. chemicals and that's my advantage. because anybody can have guns chemicals. people need access and knowledge and I. do which to be fair maybe he's just. dealing with the trauma of having his. dreams go down the drain and this is his. way of boosting his ego I mean I think. it's terrifying but I think a lot of his.

friends tried to be understanding about. it that's what his brother George and. his friend Ralph thought other than. these little outbursts at work though. about how everybody is just cockroaches. other than that Ricardo was typically. okay most of the time when he wasn't. ranting about people calling him the. roach man he would have small odd. moments but they were really small so. one time he was sitting with his friend. Ralph at dinner and the two of them are. so close that silences throughout the.

dinner no big deal they're sitting in. silence enjoying each other's company. until Ricardo suddenly breaks the. silence what if you saw your. ex-girlfriend working at a strip. club what just imagine her stripping. down in front of. everyone the two start debating what. they would do in that situation and I. guess the primary reaction would be. shock right there's another moment of. silence before Ricard a comments just. because you kill somebody doesn't mean. that you don't love them anymore this is.

what the friend shared he shared it in. his video diaries oh I told him you know. just because you kill somebody doesn't. mean you don't love them he goes yeah. yeah you're right yeah just because you. you don't you kill somebody doesn't mean. you don't love them so I didn't expect. that but that's interesting so yeah I. mean Ricardo has these little quirks. here and there I mean like a few years. ago there was another incident Ricardo's. family had walked into his room and it. was pretty terrifying I mean but but. also potentially amusing if they thought.

this was some sort of like YouTube prank. starting from the top where the ceiling. begins all the way down to the floor. every single inch of every single wall. is covered in the same face a picture of. the same face Ricardo had taken a. picture of one person and taped it all. over his walls like this YouTube prank. exactly but it wasn't a prank I mean. what the hell like what's going on is. this the celebrity that he won't stop. talking about non-stop the one that he. purchased all those magazines about is. that the one the CDs like why is he. obsessed with her Ricardo would come. home and try to convince them it's for.

an art project it's was really like. creative expression but the family would. never forget because it was just so. strange Ricardo would later say this was. his attempt to get rid of his obsession. I mean think about it if you're obsessed. with somebody if you're obsessed over a. famous celebrity how are you going to. move on how are you going to continue in. reality if you think that you have a. chance at dating them and your whole. life is being held back how do you move. on he has to break the fantasy he said f. it I was going to desensitize myself I. had hundreds of photographs of her face.

all over my walls and everything that. way I would get sick and tired of. looking at her looking at her face and. it would lose that that magicalness that. was a big step for me but clearly it. didn't work that's not what happened. because the police are now sorting. through 20 hours of footage Left Behind. they're learning about his plan to send. his obsession an HIV infused bomb and. they just need answers because this case. is going to blow up internationally they. need to figure out what to tell the. public did he send other bombs is this a. case of a deranged stalker did he stalk.

any other celebrities too are there. other crimes that he might have. committed and why why be why this. celebrity the tapes are only from. Ricardo's perspective of things and how. much can they trust from records they. can see that Ricardo Lopez was born in. Uruguay before immigrating to the us as. a kid he first moved to Georgia that's. where he was raised then to Hollywood. Florida Georgia yeah he was here yeah. but that doesn't tell them too much I. mean the authorities they reach out to. to people who would have known Ricardo.

when he was a kid and they want to know. because sometimes those with obsessive. personalities to the point that they. become violent towards their obsessions. there might be signs when they're young. there might be little Clues everyone who. knew Ricardo was very confused on how to. answer the question I mean he was close. with his family there was nothing to. indicate that something was wrong I mean. unless you consider being very shy of. crime he's just one of those kids that. didn't make a lot of friends he liked to. keep his Circle small he's an introvert. very big introvert actually I mean even. now he probably only had like one guy.

friend two guy friends when was this. happening. '96 oh okay yeah Ralph being one of his. best friends but you know what now that. they're all thinking about it he did. have this thing where he was terrified. of talking to girls like terrified but. everybody just thought I mean he's super. shy he was extremely intelligent though. so he just maybe not interested in. dating he did have this fantasy though. that he would become this world renown. artist and that would occupy his mind.

since childhood but he didn't become one. right well he never applied to any. schools he was too terrified of. rejection so he just wouldn't apply he. did have this small thing though where. he would sometimes get fixated on. certain movies or certain actresses like. one time he was watching Thelma and. Louise and he knew every line to that. movie same with Beetlejuice his favorite. was this actress named Gina Davis it's. almost like he watched anything that was. in I mean anything for her he would. watch it he would buy it he knew.

everything about her he could recite any. line that she had in any show or movie. even if she was just like making a cameo. and had one line in a show he would know. that line and he would know the time. stamp of when she comes on which sounds. a little bit alarming but one day he. went to go buy a magazine with her on. the cover and he realized that Gina. Davis is now in a public relationship. with fellow actor Jeff gold Bloom he was. devastated you would almost think that. Gina Davis was cheating on him that they. in a relationship or something which is.

alarming but he got over it which is. probably why his friends and family. didn't think anything crazy about it. it's not that alarming I mean eventually. he gets over it so what's the matter. right so why didn't he get over buk why. go so extreme if you guys don't know bek. is an Icelandic musician and she is. honestly I don't know how to describe. her music I went on to Reddit people. describe her music style as. unconventional Avant guard very diverse. and eclectic oneof a kind full of. emotion I mean just very experimental.

one person writes it's a very emotional. experience from a Sonic form initially. causes much confusion and incredulous. looks at first and then it just creeps. up on you until you are utterly and. hopelessly in love with her music I've. never listened to her music prior to the. research of this case I might start. after I mean not that she like needs my. streams or anything she's massive she is. one of the biggest names in music to the. point where a lot of other experimental. artists they all get compared to her so.

for example Grimes she doesn't like. being compared to Bier she loves Bier. but she just gets annoyed that all. experimental musicians get compared to. berer especially if they're a girl or if. they identify as like a woman right but. that's how big she is if you're in the. experimental Music World everybody's. getting compared to BK and that's like. the highest compliment you could. probably get she was one of the biggest. names in the industry she's actually a. very fascinating character her first. album which was an album full of cover. of other artist's music was released.

when she was 11 she just did it for fun. it wasn't a serious debut but she still. ended up selling 7,000 copies which is. kind of wild and she has this very. fascinating background which probably. contributes to the way that she makes. her music her dad is this super. conservative leader of the Union type of. figure like the labor union her mom is. an activist that everybody said kind of. lived more of a commune lifestyle they. called her a hippie her parents parents. are divorced by the way so she grows up.

between going to her dad's house which. is super rigid very rule oriented home. to her mom's free spirited everybody. gets to do what they want there's eight. adults living in that one house even the. kids the type of environment just back. and forth back and forth it's a very. complicated background Beck said that. she loved and hated the experience of. being so free on her mom's side she said. can you imagine being brought up by. seven grown-ups who all hate work and. all they want to do is play games all. day and tell you 4H hour long stories. and make kites. she say she loved and hated yes like she.

loved it and grew to resentment because. when you're a child you want order and. Authority at. points she said the house was painted. purple so yeah later in bick's musical. career she becomes very experimental. Apparently one time she wanted the. Acoustics of a song to sound a very. specific way so she went ahead and. starts recording in a bat infested cave. in the. Bahamas she like went to a cave and. starts recording in there she wants to. be in very particular environments that.

embodies the type of music that she's. trying to make she once said in an. interview a lot of what I was doing. before was to please other people it had. been my biggest fear since I was 11 to. be in the spotlight in the band that I. was in in Iceland I even tried to look. as ugly as possible so that people would. listen to the music but not look at me. being a woman gets in the way if people. see me as a object it is their problem. and yet there was this very very big. problem. a fan from Florida had become so.

obsessed with be with her music that he. planned on grooming her this is so. complicated let me explain Ricardo Lopez. is 21 years old when he starts taping. his video diaries bierk is 31 years old. so how would he groom her I mean that. term specifically refers to the. manipulation of someone far younger than. you typically underage but Ricardo has a. plan his plan is to time travel the. Ultimate Fantasy in his video diaries he. describes his plans way better than I. can because they're so unhinged but he.

states he wants to go back in time and. meet bierk when she's a little child. why to be the single most important. influence on your life what does that. mean help her develop that attachment. for me I go back and I become the single. most important person in Iceland for the. fact that I mean imagine a traveler from. the future that comes with news from the. future and I came to Iceland exclusively. to see her you know besides going to the. past is simple compared to going to the. future the future is well cryonics the.

art of freezing people right that sounds. crazy but there's a corporation in. California that freezes the Rich and. Famous they'll freeze your whole body. pump out all the water in your body and. then they inject like a gelatin into you. put a different cocktail of drugs into. you to help your cells avoid freezing it. goes into detail and I can talk about it. later if I want but the thing is they. freeze your body for the future they. just don't have the technology today to. resuscitate you but they will soon so. this is the plan you get Frozen and then. 150 years later 250 years in the future.

you wake up and they have a time machine. type thing that's already built well. that's the fantasy right the plan was to. freeze himself wake up in a time machine. right then go back to the past to be the. single most biggest influence on bier's. life he says me being there in her. reproductive years or young you know. flowering years looking up to me you can. change people at an early age but not. when they're much older the earlier the. younger you are the more vulnerable okay. especially a young girl their minds are. very vulnerable ready for information.

that's how minds work that's how minds. work and the younger you are the more. suscep it is to a person with a plan you. know sort of like to you know not to. abuse it but to to you know to mold it. you know I want to get her to be. interested in me you know like man who. the hell is this guy if I go back in. time change her life completely and she. decides to stay in Iceland and she. pursues you know her career of course. but like in a in like a different. completely different fashion this and. that and maybe she's not famous okay.

either way the plan is go back in time. with the knowledge that I have now and. just become bring her the utmost. pleasure you know she's never had any. experience if I meet her when she's that. young and imagine what that could be for. your first experience you know for hours. he talks about um performing. oral yeah first of all is he being. serious or is he like just like talking. out of thin air right now um it seems. like this was his ultimate fantasy but. he realizes it's not going to work he.

doesn't have the money to get Frozen he. doesn't know if this is a Surefire plan. so he's just going to kill her. instead but this is his Ultimate Fantasy. if he could make anything work wow okay. so his plan ultimate plan is go to this. company get Frozen yeah wake up like 50. years 100 years later next to Walt. Disney next to Walt Disney who is. allegedly Frozen yes oh okay and there. will be a time machine built right from. the future and then you jump in there.

and travel all the way back yes to groom. her yes wow and I don't know where in. the timeline this is but he talks about. being her very first and how he will go. down and he would say things like you. know make yourself comfortable get a. pillow and say. baby you know I'm going to be here a. while so there don't have any anxieties. about me quitting you know right when. you're getting started or or before you. finish cuz I'm going to be here a while.

boom i' would probably have her sit on. the washing machine or something like. that because you know the vibrations. during the spin cycle anything that. would help and then I would just calm. down that Beast you know her seual. desires and then she would be happy and. I would make her laugh and feel great. she would be happy with me you know for. some reason oh man I saw how amazing it. was to you know when men go down there. on. women again I don't know where in the. timeline this is I mean either way it's. very alarming disturbing in jail but he. continu use I I even blush from the.

results from guys doing that to girls. like it's overwhelming like man you can. make a girl feel like that wow that's. truly bewildering keep that as my weapon. in my mind you know I learned a lot. about it especially from lesbians who. you know are undoubtedly the best so two. things I have as a weapon if I go back. into the past are making a girl arrive. at the destination I'm saying it like. that he's saying it much more crass. through going down there and two making. her laugh two of the reasons why any. girl would stay with me he says that he.

needs Bier to see him like really see. him for who he is he States Bier has. been an incredible part of my mind it. started with a crush and ended up with. an obsession which I'm not embarrassed. to admit now it's an obsession it sort. of calmed down I mean times I've been. okay with it it flared up the flaring up. usually comes about by you know reading. an article see I had nothing in my life. at that point really I was just working. and my life was pretty empty especially. about real feelings being in love having. an fatuation it was this euphoric.

feeling I had something to look forward. to every day her music herself her being. alive was making me happy I wanted to. make her as happy as she made me what's. so startling about this footage and I. watched all 20 hours of it like at. points he says he knows it's crazy but. the way he talks is so casual and is so. blunt it's almost like I mean this is. what it. is he's not like fanatic like oh my God. he's just very like this is what it is I. mean I want her to be as happy as she. makes me like he's talking about someone.

he personally. knows H the first time Ricardo heard. bier's song was at his brother's house. her music video was playing on the TV. and he glanced over it was weird he was. like she is weird this song was honestly. in his humble opinion not that great she. has insane vocals don't get me wrong he. has to give her that but it's not his. style which is fine it's just like the. style is kind of with the fork but as an. artist he could resonate with her style. just her uniqueness the fact that she's. so creative and is not boxing herself.

into a genre that is the message he can. get behind anyways he goes home after. his brother's house and he remembers oh. yeah that music video he gives it. another listen mainly to get inspiration. for his own art because he's trying to. be an artist but he can't stop looking. at bier's face just the way she the way. she did. everything he said it's just this. mixture of beauty and strangeness he. said he had never seen a girl quite like. her. At first she kind of looked Chinese no.

more mixed just quote beautifully. strange exotic you know and anyway I. loved her voice and that was the moment. she quote entered my mind and it's. almost like she was looking for him too. or she wants him to find out he states. that he would randomly be watching other. TV shows that have nothing to do with. berer and then suddenly she would. Disappear by chance he would be watching. this long interview and all of a sudden. beer would be a guest and he thought huh. okay that's cool I guess I get to listen. to her talk again the way he says it.

gives me the inkling that that is not. true yeah I get to listen to her speak. again and he just keeps noticing all the. special things about her face but this. time it's like her little quirks and. mannerisms and her accent she's got an. Icelandic accent and it's very. pronounced he said you know I'm. completely intrigued and I myself have. many of those similar quirks you know. like scratching and the crinkling of her. nose you know picking her panty hose I. myself as a child had many of those. quirks of like fidgeting and I I found. that kind of cute you know and then and.

then I learned she had a son I didn't. know how old she was she looked so young. I guessed her to be in her early 20s. very young she looks almost like a. little girl no wrinkles very very young. I was quite surprised later when I. learned that she was you know 28 at that. time I was like wow man no way it was. like it was a little bit of a let down. in the way but he couldn't stay away. everything about her just the way she. talks in one interview she said I insist. to be happy mad sad stupid brilliant. genius horrible I mean happy I'm going.

to be it all I make an effort not to. forget all these different colors to get. hilariously drunk and forget to pay my. electricity bills and to forget what. time it is and Miss airplanes and run a. band without a fault he resonates with. that he would read what every single. person was saying about her when comment. reads she uses her voice much more than. a vehicle for lyrics and poetry she. communicates textures when she's singing. I saw her live a few years ago and and. her vocals are no.

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listeners can get Rosetta Stone's. lifetime membership for 50% off visit. Rosetta stone.com roten that's 50% off. unlimited access to 25 language courses. for the rest of your life redeem your. 50% off at Rosetta stone.com roton. [Music]. today he States in his video diaries. like I said it started with a crush and. ended with an obsession we humans have a. natural tendency to worship since the.

beginning of time civilizations have. been worshiping either one thing or the. other the sun we have that need in us to. look up and to worship now for some. people it's you know it's different. things but everybody worships something. for a lot of people it's money oh that's. their God other people it's you know. pleasure that's their God people always. submit themselves and look up to. something apparently in my case it's her. a human just like me an imperfect. fleshly creature which I put her in this. Angelic status I see her like a daughter.

A lot of it has to do with her childlike. looks and her childlike voice and being. so spontaneous and cute I never really. saw her as far as her beauty I never. really saw her as elegant and this and. that she's always been cute and smiling. in the way she was like like a daughter. type of figure the most I've ever wanted. to do with her I've never had thoughts. about her is just to hold her I've had. many fantasies of just holding her just. her holding me so it'll be all right. feeling her lungs taking the breath of. life and expelling it it's quite a.

feeling it's quite a feeling isn't it. what I just felt right now I just felt a. rush it's kind of silly but it it makes. sense technically God had to fill the. Earth you know bring males and females. together this is different when you look. at the person and you just want to hold. them in your arms forever you know I. love you just be there together you know. just me and her and feel that Bond the. reason why there's magnetism like that I. mean now for anyone to tell me that. that's not love they're the ones who are. out of their minds because that's plain.

and simple because this is a very. instinctual type of thing you know. because we're animals and stuff like. that the male the Instinct has always. been that protective provider type of. role the woman instinctively has more of. that caregiver the preparer of foods. this and that when a a man sees a woman. as a little bit of a child. childlike uh helpless somewhat he sees. you're like you know submissive you know. and that's very attractive when a woman. blushes you know it starts in the cheeks.

and I always found that subconsciously. attractive never really thought about it. she's blushing she looks cute I never. thought of it but flattering you know. very childlike very innocent and then. the flushing moves down the neck and. then after a while onto the chest and. that's a very response okay because. again men like a submissive helpless. little girl looking up to you even back. during the Victorian ages woman would. sometimes have heal yeah he goes on. monologues where yes like what video is. this like number one the introduction.

let me tell you it's all merging. together I think this is like five or. six okay so he goes on he's just talking. about his thoughts yes nothing is very. coherent so as he's like making. bombs yeah he will go on his thoughts. sometimes he will literally just Vlog. he'll come home after work and then just. turn the camera on and share his. thoughts before going to bed and. sometimes you're saying he's working on. a bomb yeah is he vlogging the bomb too. yes and he's talking while he's working. on the bomb like random thoughts random.

thoughts wow yeah even back during the. Victorian ages women would sometimes. have heels like 6inch heels or something. like that and they'd be walking on their. toes they always had to have an escort. that they you know when they walked. because they would fall over and that. helped you know because hopelessness is. very attractive to males. instinctual he continues I think that's. my underlying reason for my. attractiveness to her physically that in. her voice too she has such a childlike. voice when she spoke very sweet very.

subtle and then when she's saying. unbelievable the degrees of emotion that. she sparked on me and her face larger. eyes they look more childlike higher. cheekbones right shorter foreheads you. know little details like that her little. button nose that completely drove me. nuts I love her nose so cute she's got. such a cute little girl's nose also. she's much older than him like it this. is so weird he says in the video diaries. I close my eyes and I see her perfectly. clear I know her face more than most. people do every line everything I see.

her and it gives me a happy feeling when. I forget you know what she's saying and. when I forget what I've learned about. her when I look at her I see a sweet. little girl innocent that's what I want. her to be because she has many many very. very crazy aspects of a child and now. she is all he thinks about every waking. second of Ricardo's day nothing else. matters but berer it's getting bad. Ricardo actually knows it's getting bad. he would Retreat into his little fantasy. world where he's having full-blown. conversations with her in his mind I.

mean just constant back and forth and at. first he said it was to indulge himself. but now it's become a problem he says. she had become such a entity in my life. she was so real every single thing that. ber put out he had to buy it he had to. own it possess it even if a magazine. just had a small little who wore it best. segment on Bier with one picture he. would buy the whole thing it's like the. more he owned of these products the. closer he was to her he starts keeping. up with where she's promoting what song. doing what tour I mean he was almost. keeping tabs on all of her whereabouts.

he starts writing a. 83 page Journal documenting his love for. Bier 83 Pages everything he learns about. her how it makes him feel he doesn't. want to forget a single thing. interestingly his journals would bounce. back and forth between his love for. berer he wrote her name in that journal. over 400 times he mentions a few other. celebrities here and there and it's all. interwoven with these monologues of how. much he hates himself and he's a big. loser he made at least 150 references to. himself being a failure and over 50.

references of violence ranging from. violence against himself and straight up. murder murdering the bork yeah and it's. starting to piss him off a little bit. that she never writes back to him. because he's writing her letters he's. part of her fan club he says if she had. just written back just once I would have. been happy but she didn't so this is. basically the song Stan from Emin that's. what a lot of people say yeah about this. case instead the worst day of Ricardo's.

life happens Ricardo and his buddy Ralph. were out to the movies one night and. they bought tickets but they still had. some time to kill before the movie. started so they head over to the Barnes. and Nobles in the same shopping plaza. which is like a massive bookstore and. they start walking through the magazine. aisle he sees two magazines with berer. on the cover jackpot he buys both if. berer is on the cover he doesn't even. check the price he just he grabs it. double same same magazine price. different oh two magazines he buys both. of them throws it into his little basket.

he's so excited but he has to play it. off cool in front of Ralph make it seem. somewhat normal he just casually flips. through it here and there and then when. he gets home he starts really analyzing. it the first magazine was good I mean. she just has the most enchanting look he. says when I first looked at her wow what. that she blew my mind completely I've. never seen I've never seen her look like. that before those olive green eyes but. by the second one things are starting to. get weird in an interview all Ricardo. members or wants to remember from this. is that she talked about having a rough.

relationship with alcohol he scrambles. in his diary she's an alcoholic big. time which is not very childlike of her. he did not like that yes he's mad is he. mad about that yes but nothing compared. to this and she has a lover so at this. point shy has a son yeah but there in. the print in the words states that she's. in a relationship with a music producer. named Goldie he flies into a rage he. starts spiraling in the video diaries.

thinking about what the two of them have. done together intimately he says she. broke the worst law you can break you. know in my book she went out with a. black man and him probably went down on. him too who knows she probably even got. him in the back like he he goes on a. rant of how all the black men are taking. the white woman side note he's from. Uruguay so he's South American okay yeah. I guess it's like okay so it's very.

interesting a lot of people have. analyzed this and I don't know if I. should be in the one Speaking of this. but in the beginning of the video. diaries he's very much white passing his. Cadence I guess is what you would. consider more. American you don't hear much of his. accent and he has this like fluffy. floofy hair that looks very. quintessential I guess like white but. then throughout this Diaries he starts. shaving his head and he starts letting. his accent come out more freely so it's. very I don't know why did he shave his.

head oh he has like a mental break again. throughout the video diaries and he. declines physically and mentally so he. just shaves his head twice just a little. mental break yeah okay we'll get into it. oh okay so he starts ranting there's. less than 3% of white women in this. world okay but to let you know some of. the facts to remind myself 3% of white. women in this world that are of. childbearing age 3% that's it and now. they're dating black men well he doesn't. even call he doesn't even say black men.

he uses like a lot of slurs he also goes. on to state that the best type of place. for him to attack another fantasy of his. is to go quote shoot up a place and the. best Target quote would be a rap concert. the best Target the best Target would be. a [ __ ] rap concert oh my God those. are the type of people that will love. love love to exterminate you know I'm. going to die fine now you are piting all. you [ __ ] with me whoa he.

continues I mean like this is a satanic. thing that she just happens to be with. aing like it's set up for me to do. something I mean I know she's been with. other guys before you think I like that. no but what I do many times I try to. think it's not that big of a deal is not. a big deal I mean deal to me though. because I'm a virgin I've never had I've. got tons of footage of it all different. kinds but I'm a virgin I've never known. a woman and she 's been with a french. guy and they say they say the French are. the best lovers I mean I wouldn't know.

if that's true or not but I guess she. knows and now now she's going to marry. this black guy and I've already told you. that's unacceptable you know it's. completely. unacceptable he claims that he's not. just upset that she's dating someone but. it's the fact that she's dating a black. man he says you know for her a dick is a. dick you know but I'm a piece of you. know the reason why whites are so afraid. of you know black people taking their. woman is because you know like the. saying goes once you try black you ain't. going back and me having seen many.

graphic movies yeah most black men have. very big private parts that's true it's. very true do I find that threatening I. mean yeah Mike is about this big you. know oh he holds up his finger to show. about 2 Ines of length maybe one and I. did see cuz he is naked it does clear he. continues I've never dreamed of her the. only thing I've ever fantasized about is. maybe just bringing her pleasure to. satisfy her needs you know just going. down on her or something like that just. giving her pleasure fulfilling in her. Earthly needs not her because I know I'm. insufficient for that okay I have.

prostate problems and I got a little and. I'm fat and I have no stamina anyway. just like controlling her needs that way. she doesn't have to go out and get it. I've never really fantasized too much. about being in a relationship because I. can't be in a relationship with anybody. because of my emotional conditions he. says in the tapes growing up you know I. had hopes and stuff with women even. though I was fat and this and that but. you know I still had hopes and then. that's when it becomes apparent my. inferiority complex I see a little. beautiful white chick and you know my. type the dark hair green eyes that's my.

thing I like beautiful beautiful woman. beautiful face and then they see a black. man and if one day I meet up with a. chick like that and she's been with a. black man and I got a little dick it's. just going to give me. problems it's very like I okay he's so. clearly racist but also I did see some. NZ being like I feel like he has a crush. not on berer but on the producer at this. point like it's really bizarre she's. going to get used to having big private.

parts down there when I was younger I. wanted a chick I wanted her to be my. first and then I would be her first and. you know we could we could be together. and go against the world that type of. thing but I later changed the fact. forget I don't want to get married I. don't want a girlfriend I always. appreciate virgins you know because you. know I am myself a virgin and my time. you know when I was young I would think. I'm going to marry a virgin because if. you got a chick with a lot of experience. and you don't have no experience then. you're kissing her and you got to think. man she's been with so many guys how.

many guys has she been with how many and. that fact alone would just kill me. inside he states that he just wanted to. love BK and she's ruined At All by. dating that music producer which is why. she needs to be harmed Ricardo tells his. little video diaries that there has been. a change in his plans he says I'm going. to do it somewhat different now the AIDS. thing I'm afraid I'm not going to be. able to do that why because I don't have. AIDS you know that I know of and to. obtain it from worker is going to be. very very very difficult very. complicated so you know it'd be very.

tricky Ricardo switches his plan to. using Hydrochloric acid instead still in. the needle or no a. spray he wants to acid attack her in a. bomb Oh my gosh so what am I left with. right now I have two options I'm uh 8. 85% using Hydrochloric acid if he cannot. inject a into her he will spray acid all. over her permanently scarring her the.

Prototype is simple a book bomb the rest. of the video diaries is of him trying to. execute his new plan he was able to get. his hands on 36% even though he wanted. 100% hydrochloric acid but he starts. experimenting with the acid to see if. it'll even work in the first place he. gets all suited up in what looks like a. face shield rubber apron rubber gloves a. rain jacket it looks like one of those. disposable rain ponchos but I'm sure. it's from his former position as an. exterminator right. oh yeah he quits his job we'll get into. it it looks a little more protective.

than a ring coat but his biggest concern. isn't even the contact with the skin. he's like it's the fumes the inhalation. of the fumes now the camera ends up. malfunctioning so we can't see what the. results of the experiment are but he. does test the hydrochloric acid on pizza. bread vegetables and then ultimately a. little bit of on himself all with very. very disappointing results he says I'm. not too happy with it I don't think it. was enough I touched it with my hand I. touched the surface of it and nothing. happened nothing happened on the pizza. either it's just. soggy which is how he moves to sulfuric.

acid sulfuric acid is the most commonly. used acid for acid attacks it is highly. corrosive and you can find it in. household products like drain cleaners. it just melts things away on humans. it'll cause at least severe burns and. then it can get even into the territory. of deep tissue damage leading to. permanent disfigurement blindness. long-term psychological trauma and this. this is doing it for him he compares the. two assets on pieces of salami the. hydrochloric acid it turns a tiny piece.

of the salami into a deeper red color. almost as if someone got a sunburn but. the sulfuric acid basically kills the. salami with dark splotches of burnt meat. all over it's going to be the sulfuric. acid he starts manufacturing his own. spray mechanism basically this is his. get up he's going to have hollow out a. book he's going to send letters to. bier's management and say hey I want. bierk to read this script of this movie. that my massive Hollywood company is. producing maybe she wants to be a part.

of it he's going to ship over this book. and inside of it is going to be a hole. when you look at it from the outside it. looks like a book but when she opens the. cover to read it there's going to be a. mechanism that gets triggered and it's. going to Splash sulfuric acid all over. her face chest hair everywhere the. biggest problem though with the acid is. that once you wipe it off like if you. were to wipe off seerc acid instantly. the damage lessens by 10-fold it's still. probably going to leave scars but it's. not going to be as bad if you're able to. wash it off almost immediately it's not.

going to be permanent he says it takes. time for this at least a minute to do. some serious damage I would estimate I. don't know perhaps at least a minute 60. seconds now that's the problem let's say. I got the book I opened it and that all. over my face the first thing I would do. is run to the bathroom if you Splash a. lot of water on you and then you just. wash it off it's going to do minimal. damage in comparison to what it would be. if it were to stay on your face for at. least a few minutes couple minutes. that'll be beautiful man so this is what.

I was thinking as soon as you open the. book and wait for like 2 seconds let the. acid go let her scream and then say. there's going to be a voice trigger like. a little stereo system a cassette that. starts playing this is a bomb and it'll. blow up and destroy the house the first. thing she's going to do is grab her son. and get the out of the house get her. child or whoever is in that house get. the hell out she's going to worry about. her face afterwards I'm counting on that. of course I'm not going to have an. explosive in there but just the fact. that of you know you know a countdown in. 20 seconds this will blow up you know.

let her run out the house all burning up. and stuff and then wait till you know. the bomb or you know the house blows up. which is not and then all that is going. to be eating up her face little by. little that's a hell of a plan hell of a. plan very insightful very sadistic but. because this is what happens if you. Splash all that on you and then you just. wash it off it's going to do minimal. damage in comparison to what it would be. if if it were to stay on your face at. least a few minutes couple 3 minutes.

that will be beautiful burn it burns. right through clothing like that man. makes holes in clothing so it's oh. that's going to be [ __ ] beautiful. [ __ ] beautiful like I said I'm not. going to let pride stand in my work. whatsoever I don't care how much work I. do on this little thing my goal as far. as this concerns me is to screw her up. psychologically the trust Factor just. completely rape her mind you know like. completely d destroy that screw her up. completely and then of course out. physically okay Ricardo starts sketching.

out Beer's face on a giant laab of. cardboard he does not use his so-called. artistic skills on the drawing he's. mainly focused on getting her to be a. somewhat believable size on the. cardboard once he's done he hangs up the. cardboard sheet with bier's drawing onto. his shower wall he uses his little. canister that he's been preparing to put. the acid into he mixes water with black. paint puts it inside shakes it up lets. it spray all over her and this is. supposed to be a simulation of what will. happen to Bier when she opens that.

book it looks like someone threw 50. water balloons at a Target it's a lot of. liquid dense liquid it's not like a Mist. so it looks like it it would work and. it's be it would be bad it appears fatal. I mean it gets all over the cardboard. be's face neck chest Ricardo steps back. to admire his work and he grabs the. camera and he shoves his face in the. camera direct [ __ ] hit let's see what. I did now that. there that there's [ __ ].

art I'm doing man I mean that all over. her face all over her chest especially. here man when she takes that shirt off. it's just going to rip it off her. flesh [ __ ] beautiful that's going to. be sulfuric acid dude I had no idea it. was going to explode all over the place. so much wow that's good because any. people around are also going to get. [ __ ] up too that's beautiful I'm in. love with what I'm making hopefully I'll. be satisfied with the whole mechanism as. much as I am with this this is just way.

beyond my expectations Way. Beyond much more that's going to be. sulfuric acid dude sulfuric [ __ ] acid. okay he gets excited he says the only. better thing from this plan is if he can. get her and her son at once her son's. like five what can you imagine if I get. both her and her son two birds one brick. that's how he says it you better believe. because thiss out shoots up everywhere.

man goes up in the air it'll get in the. eye I can at least make her blind give. her a few scars melt her face off. because that way nobody wants her but if. anything she'll be so psychologically. screwed up she won't be able to be in. relationships anyway she'll be so. withdrawn she might stick to music if. she has her throat intact yeah and if. she can't talk she'll probably still. compose music that's what he says. Ricardo's phone starts blowing up near. maybe the halfway point of the vlogs. it's the only person that can stop him. from doing something like this and she's.

calling him right now does he pick up. what is she going to tell him not to do. anything crazy that she loves him that. everything's going to be okay that. they're going to see each other soon and. she's going to hold him in her arms he. picks up the phone it's his mom and. afterwards he starts vlogging this whole. week I couldn't sleep because I started. taking sleeping pills and stuff not to. think uh you know about my family. because I just feel guilty as hell just. guilty so his mom lives in Uruguay and. his brother George is his boss has been. sending sly little reports to the rest.

of the family about how Ricardo is doing. and clearly he sees a decline he doesn't. know how bad it is Ricardo is really. good at hiding it but he sees something. is happening and he thought he could. trust his brother George but he's just. been reporting everything to the parents. like the fact that he recently purchased. a gun his mom is crying over the phone. begging Ricardo to promise them that he. will never buy a gun again that if he. loves them he will never touch the gun. this is when we see a big shift in the. vlogs. in the video diaries it does seem that. Ricardo takes a step back from his plans.

his mom does seem to have an effect on. him where she can kind of somewhat bring. him back to reality I mean don't get me. wrong he's still fully infatuated with B. but it's almost very briefly seems like. even he himself realizes how bizarre his. plans are he's trying to at least see. things in a reasonable rational manner. he Vlogs you know I put it into balance. who should I dedicate my attention to my. mother or a complete stranger of course. my mother I put it into more perspective. now as far as my plans that I had with. her notice how I use the word had it has.

been temporarily postponed why well. partially because I'm worrying about my. mom right now but my first attention is. my mother as a matter of fact in a. couple of weeks I'm going to be visiting. her in Uruguay on top of that after. talking to his mom he rented yeah the. timing is very strange he rents a DVD of. 14 guys having intimate relations with. one woman all at once he said that video. put the world into perspective for him. you know it's calming him down watching. that video over and over and over again. is making him realize that he doesn't. have to be angry about bork being with a.

black man I mean at the end of the day. is sex no and this woman in the video. was with a black man with an Asian man. with all sorts of men and he's just. losing all the initial anger that he. felt because he says I was very pissed. off at the beginning but she's a grown. woman and is not anything you know in. this world everybody has sex if it. wasn't SE I wouldn't be born and besides. you know being with the black guy I mean. after seeing that video with all the. different colors and all that it's all. the same thing so it doesn't really.

bother me anymore and I'm I'm glad I'm. glad I didn't think I could change but I. did so now what to do with all the. recordings I made about you know my. plans I can't destroy them but it is a. liability to have those because one day. if for whatever reason somebody sees. those I'm. I'm he starts thinking about getting rid. of his tapes which is a good sign this. whole plan is about to get scrapped he's. almost in a cheery mood say things in. the video diaries like I want to make. all the woman in the world happy I want. to make my mom happy I want to make her.

happy happy feel happy happy happy my. mom is very worried about me you know. she hasn't eaten in days I haven't drink. hardly anything dad was even crying a. little asking me if I wanted to move. over there with him and all I needed to. do was find a job to pay for food don't. worry about shelter I can live with him. you know they're under the impression. that I'm having a hard time over here. financially but I'm not especially that. day that she saw me in the airport when. she came back after not seeing me from. like a year I mean that really caught me. off guard I mean yeah I knew she was.

going to be happy to see me and this and. that was oh mama you know that you know. like that she said hi to Georg. and she she's on me and just started. crying. it's. you she was I. I I wonder if the parents thought that.

he's about to do something to himself. yeah right okay so they didn't think. that he's about to hurt someone else no. no no and a series of incidents start. taking place that turns this whole thing. around and almost speeds it up Ricardo. gets into multiple fights with his. brother he gets very lazy at his job and. he quits his job in anger so now George. his older brother is no longer going to. be the one keep tabs on him and Ricardo. feels like his life is over he's got no. financial means he has no contact with.

the outside world he is going to be able. to live on $2 a day on food he has no. cable no TV no phone service because all. of those are getting cut off he's about. to get evicted he has nothing and nobody. and no backup plan except his. plan so he just casually Vlogs again. with his hair shaved I'm going to do it. he starts ranting she was the chain that. was holding me to this world besides my. mother I'm that sounds horrible but the. chain with my mother is because I feel. debt to her you know I owe her but with. Bier it's not like that I have this link.

that's love anyway this link that was. holding me to Earth each day is gone is. what I'm doing an act of Vengeance I'm. not exactly sure but I'm going to. destroy her God damn it you know hey I. wasn't I wasn't asked to be a part of. this that's a problem with having kids. this is the problem the people have kids. for selfish reasons for selfish reasons. people avoid child birth control for. selfish reasons okay and you have to. ultimately pay for every mistake that. you make that is the problem with having. kids what about kids he's basically. saying this is his parents' fault oh you.

can raise them the best you can and this. and that and they can end up all screwed. up like me okay I could be a lot worse. but nonetheless I'm going to bring my. parents and my family a lot of pain a. lot of shame but I was not asked none of. us are asked to be brought into this. world it is a crime it is a crime to. bring children into this world and you. shall pay for it we live in a world of. monsters do you understand that a world. of monsters I'm going to die with the. monsters so I will die as a monster I'm.

not going to die in innocent man and I I. held up as long as I could my my. original plans were for my parents to. die and then for me to do this [ __ ] but. hey things change things change things. change I mean this is going to destroy. my family this is going to be a skeleton. in their closet but I can't live for. them if I'm going to live I have to live. for myself I can't do this I can't be. alive to please others it's not going to.

work I'm too selfish for that so I mean. I'm sorry but hey I got to do what I got. to do so he finishes creating his acid. bomb and takes it to the post office to. ship it he brings a gun with him just in. case because he states he cannot get. caught he would rather die than go to. prison I will walk over there I have my. handgun loaded in my. he sa. here so if I don't return I just want to.

say goodbye to everybody I better hurry. up and go now I'm going to go now he. says he is successful in shipping the. package so other terrifying moments from. the footage include him making comments. about his body he talks about how he has. an extra X chromosome and one in every. like 12200 people have it and most of. the time people don't even know they. have it but some people have symptoms. and his symptoms included en llarge. breasts so he's stating even when he is.

thinner he has large breasts he just has. a lot more breast tissue that becomes. fattier yeah so at one point he is. ranting about that he also holds up a. giant power tool and he states that he. can't use it though because his. neighbors are going to hear the power. tool and he comments this is like me. having a big dick it would just be. pointless I still can't use it in. another segment of the video diaries. he's rubbing his eyes stating that he. has all these allergic reactions to the. chem that he deals with on a daily basis. as an exterminator and he comments. scratching oh the pain hurts my body is.

sending endorphins you know like the. expression oh it hurt so good A lot of. that can be applied to sex too. especially for women they're getting. around you know and it hurts for some. but it feels so good because of the. endorphins there's another point in the. video diaries he starts talking about. how he was on the road and he saw a car. that flipped over three times and. crashed he and his friend pulled over. and they see a bunch of girls get out of. the car maybe in their 20s one of them. had a busted lip the other one had a. broken ankle had blood from her head so.

they stopped to help and wait for the. police one of the girls was clearly in. shock major shock she looked good but. she was in shock not like good but like. she looked okay okay mhm she's sitting. down and he could see the outline of her. private parts through her. tights and he said I'll be frank with. you I was not turned off at all by the. blood that's all he gives us he also. mentions that he ran out of toilet paper. so he has to go back to using his. hand he also mentions how he is his.

worst enemy and he just needs the bomb. to be mailed to London and he is able to. successfully do that if you will but. none of it matters because it will be. traced back to him and he knows it he. knows he cannot outsmart the FBI nor. does he want to he just knows he needs. to get it to BK ruin her and then he's. going to die he says if they come bust. down the door and arrest me I go to. prison I get I become a prison okay I. can't let that happen I'm not going to. survive at all in prison he starts.

preparing for his death he says one. final message to berer he says Dear ber. everyone's safety depends principally on. the fact that nobody wishes to kill them. we have come to depend on what we have. called the Goodwill of civilization but. Agatha Christie says murder is easy it's. unfortunate that we live in a world of. monsters that wish nothing more in their. hearts than to strip you of every. possible joy in your life so thus I. introduce myself self to strip you of. every possible joy in your life I intend. no lesson to be taught I have little.

insight no ideas no solutions that can. make any difference I just want to make. you cry I really doubt any success in. this attempt this was but just my. low-risk mission I am though ready to. embark on my last attempt your death was. not my intention what you will give me. is your pain in exchange for my family's. despair of my death my death is really. less related to my obsession with you. it's my unwillingness to partake in this. world for various reasons my mission. though is related to you because it is. my last.

Joy honestly your only mistake was. having caught my eye I really should not. blame you for not being what I wanted. you to be you being a mother there is. nothing more than I could take from you. than your son's innocence I would jump. at the chance of disbaling your son. slowly hammering his kneecaps into a. bloody pulp in your presence tear into. his flesh to consume his flesh to become. one with his flesh to enter new worlds. with your pain becomes my SA Key Well I. am a realist though I will just bury a. bullet in his head it's easier I'm not.

crazy I just pretend to be I want her to. stay and suffer there's no point in me. destroying life because what it's over. then no more pain there's no more. satisfaction I can get from that alive. maimed all destroyed emotionally okay. it's so much more a much sweeter Revenge. you know the French say that revenge is. the dish best served cold you know what. oh man it's a dopamine Rush every time I. think about it every time it's because. of the Revenge factor it's an. alleviation of the pain so it's a joy or. alleviation of pain that's basically the.

purpose of life to get dopamine rushes. and avoidance of pain so I want to do. this it's not because I have to it's not. because you know all the voices are. telling me to or God told me to or my. dog told me to or demons have spoken to. me I want to I am in complete control of. the situation no one else my mind me. myself I don't know what he said me. either but remember how he shaved his. head through the video diaries well now. all he wants to fully get rid of all the. body hair on his face and head he uses a. pair of scissors to cut hair off of his.

head which takes just as long as you. would imagine a very long time he uses. the scissors to cut off his eyebrows. honestly he looks very terrifying and. I'm sure it has a lot more to do with. the fact that he keeps like demonically. making faces at the camera after this he. doesn't talk much in the very last tape. he just slowly starts using face paint. to draw red zigzags over his face like. an artist doing a new project he takes. his time and he uses a small small paint. brush and then he uses the green to fill. in the other marks like a stripe oh also.

he paints his nipples red is there. reason meaning yes so he says that it's. going to help his family he says like. this way if George finds me you know it. won't be that much of a shock it'll be a. depersonalized type of thing because I. look weird as [ __ ] and I hope that'll be. a coping mechanism for him so I'll look. just so unrealistic and unlike myself so. that should help I mean I do feel really. sorry for their pain sometimes. but I don't think so I think this is. like his way of trying to be artistic.

and weird he sits down and he plays his. favorite bierk song called I remember. you and starts preparing himself he. starts breathing very very heavy a lot. of neens have stated that at this moment. it almost seems. like like he's having a battle in his. mind where it almost appears that. reality is fighting to take over and. there are moments where it seems like. he's about to pull himself out of his. bizarre plans and his fantasy and. perhaps come back to reality but alas he.

does not he starts breathing very heavy. almost like he's hyperventilating and. then he self- exits at the end you hear. his body make one last breath it's like. a gurgling. noise Ricardo's family were notified of. his death. and they knew he had been struggling. with his mental health but that it had. been that way for most of his life but. because he had recently been seeing a. therapist he had sought out a therapist. he made the initiative to get help they. thought things were looking up so side. note during all of this Ricardo was.

seeing a therapist and to be fair the. therapist did not notice anything. alarming about Ricardo's behavior and I. don't think this was a case of a. therapist or a family being totally. negligent but Ricardo sought out. professional help just so he could get. prescribed anti-anxiety medications. because he didn't want to feel anxious. about his plans he didn't want to feel. anxious when he went to the post office. to mail the bomb none of them knew how. bad all of this had gotten I mean he was. pretty secretive about it it they were. constantly checking up on him his family. and he vlogged about it like they would.

come check up on him and he would have. to hide all of his supplies it it does. seem like they did make as much effort. as they could with their current. situation and their own personal lives. going on so one group of people think. that Ricardo is a very sick man that. tried to talk through his very confused. feelings and thoughts to a video camera. that ultimately he was sick and troubled. and he needed help some people stated. that they can't help but feel bad for. him another group of people believe yeah. okay he's very clearly a sick man we.

feel sympathy to a degree but why do. sick men keep victimizing other people. like why do people always have to become. victims when a man is sick in the head I. mean you could argue there's lots of. sick men there's lots of sick women. there's lots of sick people everywhere. they don't send acid bombs to their. favorite celebrities because they're. sick yeah I mean what are your thoughts. which group are you in because even. though the acid bomb was intercepted it. did not physically hurt anyone I'm sure. the harm was done to ber and her team. she made a public statement afterwards.

where she stated I was very upset that. somebody had died I couldn't sleep for a. week and I'd be lying if I said it. didn't scare the out of me that I could. get hurt and most of all that my son. could get. hurt but she still sent flowers to. Ricardo's family because they too lost. someone. special well you know I'm just it's just. kind of a very sad thing you know. obviously when somebody shoots their. face off you know it's terrible so it. does seem like everyone is agreeing that. Ricardo's family did try it doesn't seem.

at all like they're just like this. negligent family that was like okay. whatever you go hurt people we don't. care she said I just find it very sad. that people get into that kind of state. you know well I'm very upset obviously. soon afterwards she had a new song come. out called so broken she stated she. created it while she was dealing with. the trauma in her kitchen she was just. in her kitchen all day dealing with the. PTSD and the lyrics go so broken in. pieces my heart is so broken here I go. trying to run ahead of that heartbreak. train thinking it'll never catch up with.

me I'm so broken I'm trying to land this. airplane of ours gracefully but it seems. like I'm just destined to. crash I'm not sure if this fact changes. anything or would have changed the. sequences of events but a day or two. before Ricardo dies beer and Goldie her. boyfriend had broken up obviously it has. nothing to do with Ricardo neither of. them knew of him at this point but it. just hadn't hit the Press yet again I. don't think it would have changed much I. truly don't think that Ricardo was doing. all of this because Bier was dating a. black man I feel like it might have only.

stalled things his obsession might have. even grown bigger until she inevitably. does another thing that he does not. quote approve of now side note the. package was in South London on route to. bier's address but it would have never. gotten to Bier she has a whole. management team that Fields her packages. first so unfortunately it could have. severely injured or killed someone on. her team that was just doing their job. and thankfully it was caught before it. got to that point on top of that Bick. wasn't even in London at that point she. was actually in Florida in the same.

state as him what and that is the story. of Beck's. stalker what are your thoughts you know. it's terrifying I I wonder like he can't. be the only one right and I also wonder. you know this happened in. 96 what would he be like today because. things are so much more connected you. can find like a million times more. information about someone on the. internet like does that make things so.

much worse or is there more help to be. found through online communities or is. it just going to be so much worse I. think so much worse because the way that. he was obsessively somewhat tracking her. I think that he didn't know that she was. in Florida because there was a delay in. the news cycle but I wonder if this was. happening in today's age if he knew. right would things be different. right right right right yeah terrifying.

so please be safe out there and I will. see you guys in the next one.