Dark Knight Rises Massacre - Neuroscience Student Says Killing People Will Cure His Depression

[Music]. bada bing badao there's enough seats in. the movie theater to fit about 400. people and almost all these seats are. going to be filled by midnight these. seats are first come first serve so if. somebody doesn't want to sit in the. first few rows with their neck bent at. an odd angle staring up at the screen. the whole night then they're going to. come earlier to reserve those spots now. almost 3 years later some of the same. movie goers from that night would be. asked to come in and point out exactly.

which chair in which row did you sit at. when it all happened but this Auditorium. they're in they're not pointing at real. chairs that you can sit in they're not. walking into a movie theater and saying. that's the chair that I sat in in fact. it's this tiny little miniature model of. theater 9 that they're pointing at. there's tiny little rows of blue chairs. that are lined up against each other how. big are is it I would say maybe like. half the size of a carry-on suitcase oh. wow and every yeah the amount of chairs.

per row is accurate the amount of steps. in the stairs are accurate it's quite. literally a miniature model of a. specific movie theater many of the same. movie goers they walk up they'll point. and explain exactly how it all happened. but 12 of the people that were in the. theater that night will not be able to. tell the courtroom where they were. because July 20th 2012 the emergency. exit door to theater 9 would open in the. middle of a movie and a man with bright. orange hair wearing tactical gear would.

walk into the theater this is the. midnight premiere of Batman The Dark. Knight. Rises and he will open fire. [Music].

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today's case is very heavy we're going. to be discussing a mass tragedy that. involves firearms and juveniles if. that's a sensitive topic prioritize your. well-being try to show yourself some. Grace be nice to yourself and a few. other content disclaimers there are. mentions of mental health self- exit as. well as brief but very graphic. descriptions of injuries again this case. involves mass murder Firearms so please. watch at your discretion I also want to. be clear that any mention of mental. health that pertains to to the.

perpetrator does not minimize any. Criminal Intent does not minimize or. excuse their actions and last but not. least statements and testimonies from. publicly available media have been. condensed for purposes of time so with. that being said let's get into it if. anyone were to look closely at the back. parking lot of this movie theater they. would see this small white car just. parked by itself in the middle of the. night and if you look closely the car is. shaking but that's the whole point you. know that it's part there nobody's going.

to see it rustling around the space. inside the car is cramped it's a tiny. little white sedan and there is a full. grown man inside of it changing out of. his clothes and putting on new ones he's. quietly and as quickly as possible. putting on a ballistic jacket a belt. with ammunition 250 plus rounds around. his waist a tactical vest that would. hold more than 400 more rounds a gas. mask a helmet and he's grabbing three.

different things to carry one a shotgun. two a semi-automatic rifle and three a. pistol now he decides he's ready but. before he slips out of his car to. complete what he calls his quote Mission. he grabs his phone and he calls the. University of Colorado Denver's student. mental health emergency. hotline this is 12:30 in the morning and. he's calling a university student mental. health hotline it's almost like a test.

he's playing if someone answers he's not. going to do it if somebody doesn't. answer he's going to do it he would. later say I called for one last chance. to turn back I didn't hear anything for. about 10 seconds so I hung up then he. slips in his earbuds to play really loud. techno music rave music before both the. earbuds are in his ear he freezes and he. sees somebody he sees a theater employee. throwing trash out in the nearby. dumpster because this is the back of the. movie theater this man in the car he's. got his hand on his pistol he's holding.

his breath in from inside the car the. plan was clean and simple in terms of. this guy's mind like this is his thought. process if this guy turns around and he. spots him if the movie theater employee. his eyes go big because he just. registered what's going on he's going to. be shot and killed there's no way around. it he said he felt calm and collected he. didn't even feel adrenaline in that. moment but the theater employee never. turned around and he went back inside. the man in the car continued pushing in. his earbuds blasting that music at the.

maximum level so he doesn't have to hear. anything because he would say to him. none of this is. personal just 3 Days Later July 23rd. 2012 the bomb squad arrives at the local. University of Colorado's campus they're. swarming the mail room they locate this. small inconspicuous package it doesn't. look big enough to carry explosives or. anything and they examine it through the. X-ray machine they wipe it down for. contaminants just in case a member of.

the bombb squad suits up in a special. bomb suit that's supposed to protect him. and he slowly opens up the package and. they slip out the content inside of it. is like the weirdest combination of. things a notebook kind of like a diary. and a stack of $20 bills $400 in total. but here's the weird thing about the $20. bills all the edges are burnt like. someone turned open a fire on a stove. and just burnt the edges h they flip.

open the notebook to one of the pages. and they read the scribbled writing it. says targets random the cruel twists of. Fate are unkind to the misfortunate. method bombs question mark too regulated. and suspicious biological warfare I'm. too impatient requires extensive. knowledge chemicals and Equipment serial. killer serial murder too personal too. much evidence easily caught few kills. Mass killing maximum casualties easily. performed with firearms though a bit.

primitive in nature no fear of. consequences being caught 99% certain. venue airport or movie theater airport. substantial security too much history. with terrorism terrorism isn't the. message the message is there is no. message the movie theater then isolated. large what better place to case than. that of an inconspicuous entertainment. facility southside of theater optimal 15. screens why would the killer that would. Target at the Aurora Theater during The.

Dark Knight Rises send this package to a. university. psychiatrist. wow July 20th 2012 is a big day or it. was a big day for Warner Bros it is the. premiering night of The Dark Knight. Rises the third installment to their. Trilogy Where Christopher Nolan was. Batman their second movie The Dark. Knight broke a billion dollars in box. office sales which is in the top 20. highest all-time box office movie.

the Sentry 16 theater in Aurora Colorado. has multiple showings that night for the. premiere now one of the most anticipated. soldout premieres was at 12:05 a.m. both. Theater 8 and theater 9 are going to be. showing the movie at exactly 12:05 a.m. right next to each other in tandem just. 5 minutes after midnight Century 16. doesn't sell assigned seats though so. you purchase a ticket for a seat in the. theater and that's it the seat. themselves are first come first serve. which means by 10: p.m. the whole whole. parking lot is just bustling with.

activity two full hours before the movie. even starts cars are pulling up the. parking lot is packed the attendants are. standing at the theater 9 down the hall. Theater 8 down the hall theater 9 down. that way everyone's rushing in they're. trying to get the best seat in the house. which sounds miserable but it wasn't I. don't know maybe it has to do with the. specific people or just the energy of. that night or the excitement that it's a. midnight premiere showing pretty much. all the 400 seats in theater 9 are taken. no nobody's going to get spoiled since.

it's not all over social media they're. going to be one of the first to see this. movie and adding to that if you're. coming to a midnight premiere of a movie. you're a good fan of that franchise and. so everybody has this shared common. interest of this movie it feels like. pockets of families and friends coming. out but it does feel like one big. Community is what a lot of people said. because they're all really passionate. about the movie you don't go to a. midnight premiere if you're just like eh. whatever yeah yeah there would be one. person standing up every 15 minutes.

screaming 1 hour left 45 minutes left. and then people would start cheering. because they're so excited for the. premiere there would be people dressed. up as Batman there's one movie goer by. the name of Sully it was actually a 27th. birthday and he's at the theater with. all of his co-workers celebrating his. birthday he is this. 65 they call him like a huge teddy bear. that's what they said and there's just a. lot going on it's his 27th birthday it's. 2 days away from his first wedding.

anniversary with his newlywed wife he. had brought this Batman hat to wear. during the premiere and he saw this. little boy who really wanted it so he. gave it to him that's kind of the energy. that night even during the Superman. trailer one of the guys in the audience. would get up and he's wearing a Superman. shirt and he would strike a little. Superman pose and everybody's laughing. everybody's just having fun during the. previews until the screen goes. completely black all the lights dim and. it's so dark that you can't really see.

anything but the screen and you know the. movie is about to start the audience. naturally gets very quiet all you can. really hear are maybe some straws making. that squeaking noise up and down there's. candy rappers crinkling and people. chewing on popcorn but everybody is. being respectful now that it's time for. the movie I mean this is what most the. movie goers have waited 2 hours for at. 1:27 a.m. Azan in Denver Colorado is. listening to the police scanner and he. hears the Aurora Police say through the. radio because anyone can listen to it. and they say bring as much crime scene.

tape as you. can the police scanners had been going. crazy the whole night 3:15 and 314 for a. shooting at Sentry theaters these are. actual what they literally said on the. scanners they're saying somebody is. shooting in the auditorium there's at. least one person that's been shot but. they're saying hundreds of people are. running around 2 minutes later an. officer at the scene radios 4553 I have. a party shot here I need rescue another. person outside shot in the leg female we. got people running out of the theater. they're shot then another officer. somebody's spraying gas in here too.

another officer do we have gas masks. available any units that can bring gas. masks to theater 9 again we need gas. masks then another officer comes on a. little more urgent get us some damn gas. masks for theater 9 we can't get in we. need rescue inside Auditorium multiple. victims then another officer do I have. permission to start taking some of these. victims via car I got a whole bunch of. people shot out here no rescue then a. more urgent voice I've got a child. victim I need rescue at the back door of. the theater 9.

now Eugene was there with his fiance. Kristen and three of their friends the. theater was packed when they arrived but. the only available row with five seats. right next to each other was the second. row right next to the emergency exit. door but that's fine I mean their necks. are going to hurt a little but they're. very excited regardless Eugene just got. off a 12-hour shift he actually dozed. off during the previews that's how tired. he was he says when the movie started I. kind of woke up but I woke up not to the. movie but more like something felt wrong. to me but nothing was happening yet I.

wasn't really sure what it was and I. kind of blew it off but then he saw this. figure someone was walking in through. the exit door right next to the movie. screen at the very front literally right. next to the movie screen the whole room. is dark but Eugene can see him a bit. clearer since they're in the second row. and he said I've never seen anyone walk. in the exit door the next thing that. worried me the most was seeing the gun. strapped to his shoulder you could see. the outline of the gun on the. screen within moments the figure pulls. his arm back like he's about to throw a.

ball for a dog and throw something into. the crowd as it's flying over the movie. goers some of them report hearing some. sort of hissing noise and then it. explodes into a smoke tear gas another. Survivor says when the hissing object. was thrown I remember there was this. brief pause as soon as it hit the area. of people and then this surreal effect. happened it's like a drop of water. hitting and this wave of people just. erupted away from where the object had. been thrown I was kind of puzzled at.

first another Survivor said she thought. it was a stink bomb those prank bombs. that you throw that honestly should not. be real but mainly the biggest worst. thing that happens it's a very very bad. odor maybe this is some teenagers. version of a sick joke during the. premiere but no smell came instead. something explodes with this flashing. light almost like a firework a lot of. the survivors said they genuinely. thought someone threw a firework inside. the theater but then someone screams out. poison another Survivor says almost. immediately it filled the entire theater.

your lungs start burning you feel like. your eyes and nose are bleeding even. though they're not another Survivor said. I remembered feeling my throat was. burning and itching I couldn't breathe. through my nose and I felt like I. couldn't breathe at all so even though I. continued to hear the gunfire I was. trying to stand up because I couldn't. breathe and I thought that would help me. breathe better but thankfully their. friend realized that they were trying to. stand up so they climbed on top of them. to throw them down under the. seats there is just gunfire raining. straight into the crowd Eugene said I.

didn't even know what was going on in. that moment I thought it was a prank the. next thing I know I see red things. coming out of the corner of the theater. those little red things were little. bursts of flame created by. gunfire Eugene slams into the ground. pulling his fiance Kristen onto the. floor he said all I was thinking if. anything I could put myself between her. and the bullets he tells her don't move. just stay still whatever you do don't. move he starts pushing Kristen under the. chairs and wedges himself between her.

and the shooter the first shot Eugene. takes is straight to the hip the reflex. was to lift his leg up to the pain. shooting through his leg and that's when. he sees pieces of Flesh fly into the air. because his knee was shot he says the. hip hurt more the knee was more through. and through I was just kind of freaking. out about a dozen rows behind Eugene. were Brent and his best friend Jessica. Brent says of course Mouse Panic chaos. people screaming we stood up when we. started to make our way to the right of.

our exit row we got down one seat length. and I realized that people weren't. moving fast enough so I pushed us onto. the ground at that point I started to. feel the spray of popcorn and soda just. all around and I noticed Jessica's tone. she went from screaming call 911 someone. call 911 to just. screaming and I looked down and she had. been shot in her right leg I believe it. was right above her knee this is what. Brenton is saying as an EMT I just. finished my course my training and my. first step from the there was just to. control the bleeding so I applied.

pressure to her wound there was a. confused spray of popcorn and soda or. whatever was going on shots continued. ringing out I noticed at this point. Jessica's screaming had stopped she had. sustained a shot to the head in which. case brain matter was exposed it was at. this point I crawled a little closer to. Jessica and I prayed over her I didn't. really know what to do it just felt. right I gave her the best send off I. could and at that that point my medical. technician training kicked right in he.

said he got up and he could hear people. screaming in the crowd help me someone. help me help me somebody please he told. the voice put pressure on it everybody. put pressure on it help is coming and it. seemed almost right at that moment. personel in uniform would enter the. auditorium One Survivor recalls being on. the ground the lights are off taking. cover and feeling that her entire face. was getting wet she assumed it was soda. that had spilled on the floor but when. the lights finally came on she saw it. was blood it was somebody else's it.

wasn't. hers another Survivor said at first I. was in the fetal position laying on my. right side with the front of my face. facing the screen pops were still going. off and so I just tried to cover my face. and then for a moment the pops stopped. so I got up and I was going to try and. leave and then all of a sudden I felt my. side was soaking wet it was warm and I. knew that I had been shot I couldn't see. anything but when I looked down at the. time I was wearing a light gray t-shirt. and I looked down and I could see just. blood starting to pour out of my stomach.

then my intestines and my stomach. actually fell out I had to bend down and. actually catch my intestines and push. them back in are you saying like they. got up and they got shot yeah like after. they got up yeah I saw the majority of. my calf had also been basically fallen. off it was just hanging on by a piece. another Survivor said they were laying. on the floor after getting shot they. were terrified to get up they looked. down and saw their leg and they said I. saw a big gaping hole in my calf it felt.

like somebody took a rusted railroad. nail and was grinding it into my leg I. almost believed that my arm was. completely blown off because of the pain. the officers rushed to whoever they. could find whoever seemed like they. needed the most Urgent Care Katie was. one of them Katie was 9 months pregnant. and she was crouched over a young man's. body near the first few rows the young. pregnant woman Katie had been doing. everything to keep her husband Caleb. alive he had been shot through his eye. right in the head and she was screaming.

he's breathing but he's choking on his. blood he's breathing she had poured a. bottle of water on him to try and clear. the blood because he was choking on it. and the police had to nearly rip her off. of her husband to get her medical. attention they looked at Caleb and felt. that his wounds did not appear to be. survivable the priority was to get Katie. and her unborn baby to the hospital. Katie said I had to save our unborn. child because I thought Caleb was going. to die and I thought to myself that's. going to be the last piece of him that I. have I have to save him so I grabbed his.

hand and he actually squeezed my hand. and I told him that I loved him and that. I would take care of our baby if he. didn't make it we ran towards the exit. we jumped over people that were laying. on the ground I don't know if they were. alive or not but we jumped over their. bodies we ran to the exit and I was. wearing flip-flops so I remember as we. were running out the exit door that I. slipped in blood the cop actually caught. me because it was a lot of blood Katie. and her friend a girlfriend she had come. to the movies with along with her. husband Caleb they had both been. conscious and they were both told to.

wait at the curb outside of the movie. theater near the back that is where they. saw another couple that were in shock. and at one point a girl walks over sits. down next to Katie and just whispered I. think my boyfriend is dead I'm pretty. sure he's dead and Katie didn't know. what to do so she just hugged her cuz. they were all in shock and Katie said. when she had put her arm around the girl. and took her arm off she just saw chunks. of blood all over her arm.

Katie was told to wait and she was. taking in this chaos officers are. rushing in people into cars loading them. in she says I remember them loading one. girl in and they said I don't think. she's going to make it I don't think. she's going to make it to the hospital. and then she sees Caleb her Caleb the. father of her child her husband getting. pulled out of the theater and she says I. remember they pulled him on the sidewalk. I could see that he was still breathing. they laid him on his side because of all. the blood was just pouring out and they. didn't want him to choke and inhale the. blood the officers moved the girls again. away from Caleb she had no idea what was. going to happen to him officer Grizzle.

sees Caleb he had already made multiple. trips to the hospital since there. weren't many ambulances ready to take. them yet and he's screaming help me. other officers rush over they load Caleb. into the back of the car and officer. Grizzle as he's loading Caleb he thinks. Caleb is gone he said the injuries to. Caleb's face the trauma to his face was. unrecognizable but he's breathing so. there's hope I mean he's covered in. blood and quote gurgling on his own. blood but he's breathing so he starts. booking it he's driving as fast as he.

can to the hospital he says he made some. of the most awful noises I've ever heard. I could tell he was dying I could tell. he was gurgling under his own blood and. then he would stop and then I heard. nothing so I would yell at him I yelled. at him don't [ __ ] die on me don't. [ __ ] die on me and he would start. breathing again and then I would start. breathing again and then I would. continue and then he would stop again. and then I would yell at him don't. [ __ ] die on me we're almost there and. he would start breathing again and then. I got to the hospital one part many. survivors say they'll never forget is.

during the shooting for most of the. shooting most of the lights were still. off and the movie was still playing in. the back so it just made it harder to. understand what was going on when. officers had arrived at the scene the. chaos was really bad they can see tear. gas just permeating the whole building. that's how they describe it a few of the. officers were running straight towards. the door while everybody is screaming. running out the door and they're. screaming get out the way get out the. way the officer at the scene officer. Butler said I've got my gun in my hand.

and as soon as you enter you're like all. right here in the next 30 to 45 seconds. is where I get shot but here we go we've. got all these people running out and. screaming who's the bad guy I don't know. and then it happens officer Butler is. staring down the barrel of another gun. another uniformed officer he said your. mind is going 100 Mil a minute but once. we had that oh shoot moment when you. know the two of us two cops are pointing. guns at each other thinking we're both. the bad guy coming in opposite doors. it's kind of a mental reset so they join.

forces to find the shooter but instead. they run into another figure wearing. tactical gear SWAT gear you know what. the SWAT teams wear the bulletproof vest. the tactical gear black calar helmet gas. mask standing beside a white car parked. in the back of the theater and the two. officers thought okay it's one of their. own maybe SWAT team member until they. realized the gas mask is not a police. issued gas mask and then his body. language there's no sense of urgency in. this man's body language he's not rushed.

and on high alert like all the officers. arriving so they got outside and they. just saw him standing there yes just. watching no trying to get into his car. but he's not. rushed oh the figure is not an officer. here to protect and save he is the. killer they immediately arrest him. disarm him and they said he pretty much. quote surrendered they had to take off. all of his clothing to get rid of all. the weapons he had strapped on he smelt.

horrendous they said I don't know that. was the first thing they noticed and his. pupils were massive they were heavily. enlarged is there another shooter is. there another shooter they were. screaming at him and he just looked at. them and smiled he refused to respond. but the damage was already done on the. other side of town Tom Sullivan gets out. of bed and he works at the post office. which means every morning he gets up at. 2:40 a.m. to get ready for his 4:00 a.m. shift the routine is set in stone get up. make coffee pack his lunch catch up on.

the scores the TV is on and he's packing. his lunch but he's not watching sports. instead the news is playing he sees all. the police stationed outside the theater. police lights flashing shooting in. Aurora Colorado he's watching the. coverage for a minute until it Dawns on. him his son Sully 27-year-old Sully. who's there celebrating his 27th. birthday with his co-workers with the. Batman hat he was there that night but. Tom isn't too worried I don't think Tom. knew the exact time the premiere was and.

on his way out he just left a voicemail. to his son to let him know to call his. mom when he wakes up because he just. knows that his wife is going to be. worried sick when she wakes up and sees. the news so just give her a call you. know it's going to be fine and by the. way happy. birthday so on the way to work the. situation starts escalating he starts. seeing helicopters up in the sky radios. are non-stop reporting increasing number. of injured victims he ends up driving by. the theater to work he likely didn't see. any survivors waiting out on the. sidewalk or the wounded being rushed to.

the hospital at this point but he calls. his son one more time because it seems. like it just seems like it's getting. bigger and bigger because when he was. watching the news nobody really knew. what was going on yet there was no. confirmed news yeah and he leaves. another voicemail hey look this looks. pretty serious pretty bad call me I'm. going to keep calling you every half. hour until you call me because we need. to know where you are AJ is not his son. but AJ was the first to get hit by the. shotgun AJ was there with his girlfriend. friend LA and she said when AJ and I.

realized that something very bad was. happening we stood up he grabbed my hand. and we were getting ready to leave and. he turned around and he looked at me in. the most shocked way and then he hit the. ground the killer fired from various. different weapons one of them being a. shotgun which shotguns are very. dangerous because the bullets they're. not just bullets inside of them are. these little flaming hot pellets the. point is even if you have really bad aim. you're going to do a lot of damage in. the vicinity of where you shoot because. flaming hot pellets is enough to do a. lot of damage and kill someone AJ had 14.

pellets in his brain Jansen was there. with her boyfriend Jonathan and they had. this cute little tradition where every. time they'd go to the movies they would. get popcorn a Cherry Coke and sour punch. straws that was their order every single. time but 30 minutes into the movie. Jansen said he immediately grabbed me. and said Jansen Push Me Down Under the. seats in front of us and said Jansen we. have to get down stay down I popped my. head over the seat and said why he. pushed me down and said get down and. stay down I was laying flat underneath.

the seats and he was on my left side so. basically shielding her Jonathan had his. hands on jansen's back and he just kept. pushing her further under the seats. using his body to almost cocoon and. shield her and she said he gave me one. final push before I didn't feel his. hands again I just felt hot liquid and. what felt like gravel being thrown at me. and I thought this is the moment that I. die I was down there for maybe about 10. minutes but it felt like a lifetime. when I finally did slide out John was.

there with his eyes closed I started. shaking him and I said John John we have. to go we have to go it's time for us to. get out come. on he looked like an angel and he wasn't. bleeding but he was dead by the time the. police burst into theater 9 the movie. was finally cut off and stopped playing. the lights are on and the first thing. they do is they search for that child. victim they received multiple 911 calls. for they get to the Mom first Ashley had. thrown herself on top of her. six-year-old daughter Veronica to Shield.

her they were both shot Ashley would be. shot directly into her spine she. physically could not move since her. nerves had been shot in total Ashley the. mom had been shot three times she could. do nothing but watch the police carry. Veronica's unresponsive body out of the. theater she couldn't run alongside them. with her baby she just had to watch them. leave but once the authorities they get. little Veronica out of the theater they. realized her injuries are not. survivable one of the officers laid tiny. body down because they have to continue.

to help those in the theater one officer. said it was chaotic most of the ones I. checked were dead but I always remember. that little girl I had to step over her. because I knew she was gone it was the. hardest thing I had to do but my. training I had to save the ones that I. could try and save one of the officers. who saw Veronica's body laying at the. scene said I walked in there and I. thought this child what the hell is this. child doing here meaning like why is she. laying outside the theater not like what. is she doing at the theater because I've. been dealing with adults this is the. first child I saw I reached down I saw.

the bullet wound I felt for a pulse. there was none I could tell she was dead. I've been doing this long enough and I. remember seeing Sergeant Hawkins saying. get her out of here take her out triage. her get her out of here she's not. staying here should she have stayed. there yeah by protocol probably but no. no child is going to stay in that scene. it was horrific enough without having my. officer step over the body of a little. girl near the rear door that's just not. going to happen officer h kins took the. lead scooped up little Veronica in his.

arms and drove her in his squad car to. the Children's Hospital lights and. Sirens meanwhile officer Grizzle had. been transporting victims to the. hospital in his squad car he's the one. that took Caleb just back and forth back. and forth it wasn't easy their lives are. on the line and it almost felt like I'm. sure to him at that moment it almost. felt like how fast he could get them to. the hospital is life or death and maybe. there's pressure there's responsibility. there's guilt he said one couple he had. in the car Ashley and Jameson this is. Veronica's mom and Jameson is her.

boyfriend Jameson still had a daughter. that was still in the theater and the. whole time he's driving he's trying to. jump out the car he's like I have to get. to my daughter and officer Grizzle said. so now not only I have to drive now I. have to grab him by his shirt and hold. him from jumping out the car knowing the. entire time I just wanted to tell him. she's gone she's gone but I couldn't do. it so we got to the hospital and. unloaded the patients that night officer. Grizzle was one of the first to arrive. at the emergency rooms at these. hospitals and he would hand the first.

badly wounded patient clear gunshot. wounds he told the hospital staff you're. going to have a lot more victims coming. in be. prepared nothing was going to prepare. them for that night the emergency rooms. were so packed and horrifically busy the. custodial staff were called in to assist. it was. bad Katie would be one that was brought. into one of the neighboring hospitals. when Katie called her family that night. at the hospital they all thought one. thing oh my God she gave birth because. she's 9 months pregnant. Katie said it was one of the hardest.

things to do to call her parents call. Caleb's parents to tell them no no no I. haven't given birth I'm not going into. labor Caleb's been shot and he's. probably dead but soon after Katie would. go into labor for 40 painful hours. without her husband Caleb she finally. gave birth July 24th 2012 to a healthy. baby boy Hugo medley two floors above. them Caleb was having his third. life-saving brain surgery the shotgun. pellets had gone through his right eye.

and damaged the right side of his brain. nobody knew if he was going to make it. to see and hold his. son a few hours later there's another. situation in Aurora Colorado the police. bomb squad SWAT teams are evacuating. multiple buildings an apartment building. on Paris Street there's something. strange going on not only do they have. all the residents rushed out at like. 2:00 in the morning but the five nearby. buildings are also emptied the three. block area surrounding in the apartment. unit because of one single one-bedroom.

unit everything is being evacuated and. blocked off what is happening 25 minutes. after the killer had left for the. theater loud music starts blasting out. of his computer in his apartment unit. it's a timer what what does that mean so. when the killer leaves his apartment he. presses play on his computer there's 40. minutes of silence and then after 40. minutes just loud techno music at the. highest volume as blasting this would. have been around midnight Caitlyn a.

20-year-old college student lives in the. same building actually lives underneath. that unit and it's so late she doesn't. want to be a noise complainer she's also. a college student but this is excessive. she goes upstairs knocks on the door. nobody's answering but clearly. somebody's home having a blast she. reaches for the door and instinctively. she turns it and the door is unlocked. now she can walk in and look for this. person ask them to turn down the music. but for whatever reason perhaps privacy. Caitlyn does not even peek inside or. open the door she just turns around goes.

back down to her apartment and almost at. exactly 1:00 a.m. the Music Stops had. she walked in had she tripped one of. those wires the whole place could have. blown. up what he wanted this as a distraction. he wanted someone to blow up that whole. apartment building so all the police all. the ambulances would be at that. apartment building and he would have. more fatalities in the movie theater wow. no way. and that was yeah exactly when he what.

he wanted in fact he wanted it so much. that in the parking lot of the apartment. building he had a boom box also set on a. timer 40 minutes after he left playing. loud music in the parking lot now if you. were to listen to that hear that find. the boom box walk over you would see. three things you would see the boom box. but you'd also see this weird remote. control and a toy car next to it his. Hope was that someone would think that. the toy car is controlled by the remote. control so they pick up the remote. control and play with the toy car mhm.

but it's not connected that remote. control is only connected to the trigger. points of the explosives in his. apartment but when you see them together. you would pick it up and think oh this. is a remote controlled toy car uhhuh and. you might want to play with it that was. his hope someone would play with it. right but nobody did nobody did someone. actually did come and see and they just. took the toy car I think it was a. younger. person wow they did not play with the. REM. now FBI agents along with the police.

they attach a camera to a 12T pole and. push it inside the apartment and the. whole place is booby trapped one wrong. step one wrong push one wrong move I me. the whole place could have blown there's. several nearly invisible trip wires. connected to 1 lit plastic bottles. containing unknown substances that are. 1,000% explosives the camera picks up 16. homemade bowling ball looking objects. they have red and white wires connected. to each other just all sitting in the. floor of the living room there's 11. Green soda bottles filled with gasoline.

and several pickle jars filled with. homemade Napalm which is made of melted. styrofoam and gasoline it's very. dangerous it's very explosive it. explodes and it sticks to your skin like. syrup inside the pickle jars are also. bullets so if the pickle jars were to. explode they would send glass along with. bullets along with burning flaming hot. liquid exploding into whoever is. standing nearby there's nearly invisible. fishing wire in all different entrances. of the home that would trigger the. detonation to further help speed up the.

explosives there's white gunpowder just. sprinkled around the carpeting of the. apartment as well as two propane gas. tanks how did the police find out about. hold this whole operation he just. casually told them after his arrest I. think like one or two residents called. 911 to complain about the noise but. obviously there was too much going on in. orora Colorado I don't think any officer. is like let me go there now the whole. place was was booby trapped and he. clearly wanted someone to set it off he.

left his door unlocked so that someone. could easily come in after hearing the. loud music and in the kitchen the police. find between the refrigerator and the. trash can they find this poster board. with a calendar and July 20th 2012 the. date of the the massacre there is a. marking and it looks like he calls it. his logo his symbol or whatever it looks. like someone writes the letter one or. the number one and then draws an. infinity sign on top of it and then. encapsulates it in a.

circle yeah and that is marked on July. 20th 2012 now the strange thing is the. killer actually slept in this apartment. while it was wired to explode with I. guess no fear I mean what kind of person. would do any of this they have the. killer in the police interrogation room. and they're able to walk through his. courses of actions the steps that he. took he had parked his car in the back. near the empty parking lot of the movie. theater with the dumpsters wear he. walked around to the movie theater.

entrance walked in wearing very casual. clothes baggy pants beanie tan colored. shirt on his way in he even holds the. door open for somebody nobody noticed. anything strange about him because. nothing was strange about him his. behavior is incredibly normal he's not. carrying a giant big oversized jacket in. the middle of summer he he looks like. every other movie goer his ticket is for. Theater 8 but instead he walks into. theater 9 and he sits at the right side. front row near the emergency exit when. the movie began about 30 minutes in he.

gets up from his seat pretending to take. a phone call so he's got his phone up to. his ear and a lot of movie goers said. yeah I saw that and I thought oh he's. leaving because he got a phone call. that's important he walks out the. emergency exit that leads into the. parking lot where his car is parked and. a lot of movie goers remember seeing him. exiting but they didn't know that he. lodged something in the door so that he. could come back in through there cuz. exit doors typically automatically lock. once they're closed he gets get into his. car he takes.

painkillers he said he took the. painkillers in case he was injured or. shot in the process so that he could. keep going through the pain he changes. into tactical gear gathers all of his. weapons and re-enters the theater he. throws in a canister of tear gas and. then opens fire and now they have the. killer he's in the interrogation room. and they're watching him he's got this. sweaty mess of badly dyed red hair he. slumped across the desk with the. detectives and his shirt is half on at. one point he's completely shirtless but. for a good portion he's got his chest.

and one of his arms out and the chilling. part is he's very calm that's the first. thing you notice he's so calm he. actually appears bored trying to find. things to keep his hands busy he's not. anxious it's not like he's he's. fidgeting because he's so filled with. anxiety he just seems incredibly. indifferent like he is waiting for the. DMV to call his name even when they. asked him to spell his last name which I. saw people in the comments talking about. how the detective are dumb and they very. well might be I don't know how they.

handle all their cases but in this. particular case this is what they're. supposed to do to show that he's. coherent and sound of mind right after. arrest so they ask him for his name they. ask him for his birthday they ask him to. spell his last name and he coldly. responds like Sherlock like he's. basically saying that's how you spell my. last name yeah could we get your name I. already gave my name okay I I I don't. haven't talked to anybody who has your. name if you just tell us what your name.

is it's James James okay hes James what. Holmes holes how do you spell that. please like Sherlock okay so h o l mes. yes okay the interrogation is notably. only 4 minutes long because almost. immediately after the interrogator reads. him his Miranda writes he asks for an. attorney which is wild to think that he. doesn't want to incriminate himself when. he clearly wrote in his diary that now. the police have in their possession. because it was found in the mail room.

remember that he mailed it to a. university psychiatrist he was detailing. all of his plans he said that he. believed in something called human. capital how did they find out about this. whole mailing thing that he mailed it oh. he tells them so he oh during the inter. interrogation he does tell them some. things yeah but just like very blunt. like also my apartment is like rigged. it's going to blow but he doesn't. necessarily talk too much about the ACT. ual incident inside the theater the. crime inside the theater now inside of.

it he writes about human capital he. writes the concept of worth how much a. person's time is worth a surgeon's time. is worth more than a janitor's time. right but life is priceless you can take. away a life and your human capital is. Limitless he explains that it's more. important for a killer to kill more than. just one person because it increases the. worth of the person doing the killing in. a mathematical way he's saying like time. is money right and people have currency. there's money but there's also human.

capital how many lives you take is your. human capital every life you take you. add to your human. capital what okay yeah the mathematical. formula would be based on number of. people killed your own perceptions of. what life is worth your contribution to. society in a meaningful and positive way. he states that he wants to kill because. he wants to get out of his depression. and increas his human capital this is. the way to do it because quote what is. the meaning of life. what is the meaning of death if you. destroy all life then there is no.

question to be. asked he admits that he hates Humanity. but kind of like how one hates broccoli. not in a fiery angry passionate hate he. says well I just don't want to eat. broccoli so I kind of avoid it be averse. to it instead of being like angry at. broccoli and like chopping it up or. something I think it's just because I'm. indifferent it's indifferent hatred. towards mankind it's more of being. averse to mankind kind of wanting to be. alone. solitary he states that his crime was.

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roton the defendants attorneys start. working on the insanity defense pretty. much right off the bat which means. there's not going to be a police. interrogation that people can try to. better understand his motives instead. here's what the public finds out after. his arrest this is what they know of the. defendant at the time the defendant. graduated with a bachelor's in. neuroscience from the University of. California Riverside he is now studying.

as a neuroscience graduate student in a. very competitive Neuroscience program. they take in at most six people per year. he is one of. them even in the group of six really. smart students one of his peers said. about him in class he didn't really take. notes so that was something that made me. very jealous because I was always. vigorously writing notes down it seems. like he got a lot of the work done in. his lab and he seemed very successful I. remember thinking wow he's very smart. he's very intelligent. she continues he's kind of quiet and. kept to himself he did kind of have a.

quirky sense of humor we were part of a. group of scientists though so I think. that everyone's a bit odd maybe he was a. little bit more odd than the rest of us. maybe more socially. awkward in his application to his grad. school program at the University of. Illinois which he didn't end up going to. he went to the University of Colorado. Denver he writes I've always been. fascinated by the complexities of. long-lost thoughts seemingly rising out. of nowhere in a stream of awareness. these Fascinations likely stem from my. interest in Puzzles and paradoxes as an.

adolescent and continue through my. curiosity and academic research. researching learning and memory. interests me because these are the very. cognitive processes which enable us to. acquire information and retain it. they're at the core of what. distinguishes us as people due to the. seemingly infinite vastness of. indefinite knowledge we must be. selective in our Pursuits of knowledge. this is why I've chosen to study the. primary source of all things our own. mind. my lifelong goal is to increase the. efficiency of how human beings learn and.

remember even in the academic world his. peers have described him as being. socially reserved to the point of. appearing disinterested and socially. awkward to be around soon after during. the court proceedings and from people. coming forward we learn a little bit. more about him that he did have some. weird conversations with his. ex-girlfriend prior to the crime but. like a lot of his other friends they all. thought yeah it's odd but also everyone. in Neuroscience is kind of odd like all. the scientists are a little bit odd.

perhaps he's trying to be overly. philosophical or maybe he's even a. pseudo intellectual trying to be edgy. and thought-provoking for the sake of. being different that's kind of how his. text messages sound he would be having a. regular conversation with his ex about. their favorite Cuisine types and he. would just State I don't know how there. can be cannibal tribes you don't know. how there can be cannibal tribes. wouldn't they just eat each other until. nobody is left haha they only eat the. weak though survival of the fittest also. they eat people like you but the.

defendant responds to his ex-girlfriend. weak is relative though as soon as you. eat someone weak the next weakest is. next and then a few days later he would. text her what's up buttercup so again. insinuating it's not that alarming. because it seems like he's trying to be. this edgy person mhm or a few weeks. after that he texts again how's it going. really really really tired couldn't. sleep much last night seral killer. keeping you up actually this time yes I. was asleep for an hour and I had a seral. killer dream and I couldn't sleep after.

that well I won't let them get you a few. weeks after that he asks his ex over. text if he should sleep play Skyrim the. game or read and she responds Skyrim. slay those damn dragons [ __ ] the future. for once do what you feel like doing. it's Sunday afternoon well what I feel. like doing is so evil so I can't do that. what do you feel like doing video games. are the next best thing through. escapism wait what is so e that you want. to do kill people of course that's why I. live in the future by the ex's response.

it's clear that she doesn't really take. it seriously which a lot of people can. see why the tone of most of his messages. are always very dark but in a sarcastic. tone kill people of course kind of. sounds like duh yeah it doesn't sound. that serious his ex responds killing. people is too much effort you'll end up. locked up most people are not worth what. might happen to you because of the ACT. that's why you kill many people even. then at least personally I'm selfish and. I have too much of an idea of. self-importance most people aren't worth.

jack [ __ ] even if you go postal what's. it worth what do you gain there's no way. to do it and not get caught but the only. way Justice can be served is by taking. away your time or your life why do you. care so much about Justice if you wait. till the end of your life then there's. nothing to lose but why would you want. to kill as in why would you decide this. is the end and kill when you could live. more experience more things why would. those people be worth ending your life. it's the end though no more. experiences why how do you get to decide.

that it's the end he doesn't respond. instead he asks if she wants to play a. game with him like a real video game and. she just tells him that she's busy and. they end off on a very light note of. like let's catch up soon that type of. conversation there was another classmate. he was slightly interested in which side. note the relationship was a bit odd. apparently he would want to go hiking. with this girl in the Neuroscience. program and when they would go hiking he. wouldn't talk to her he would just text. her while walking next to her H now July.

8th so 12 days before the crime he texts. her the floodgates are open it's in your. best interest to avoid me I'm Bad News. Bears around this time the defendant. starts seeing a university psychiatrist. by the name of Dr Fenton this is the one. who receives the package and he starts. telling the psychiatrist about his. breakup with his very first ever serious. girlfriend the ex that was talking about. Skyrim the game and killing the one. about the dreams of zal killers they had. broken up and by all accounts he's taken.

it pretty hard he said that he loved her. but they had been drifting apart which. leads him to start making these very. bizarre profiles on dating websites like. on adultf finder.com match.com he says. that he's looking for relationships with. women or multiple partners and a prison. pen pal it's just weird nobody nobody. matches with him now his psychiatrist Dr. Fenton is taking notes during their. sessions and she's the director of. student mental health services at the. University of Colorado's medical campus.

in Aurora she's also an assistant. professor and as the Director she sees. anywhere between 15 to 20 graduate. students per week and she oversees a. team of four clinicians and some. residents who treat students as well Dr. Fenton is going to be very important. okay the defendant was one of her. patients and it seems like he has a case. of tricotilomania it's a hair pulling. disorder that started in high school. mainly during stressful times exams. interviews he would just like pull at. his own hair and that would lead to hair.

loss even if it's not visible this is. the diagnosis that people can get it's. just reoccurring consistent pulling of. one's hair the patient said that he felt. no shame in his hair pulling disorder he. didn't feel embarrassed by it which is. odd because most people do they try to. hide it and he said that you know I I'm. not embarrassed but I would rather not. people know because there's no reason. for them to know he does later right in. his journal first bald spot was in 10th. Grade on the back of my head when when. someone mentioned it I was going bald I. switched locations sideburns late High.

School Widows Peak Early College under. chin and jaw late College most recently. eyebrows and. eyelashes but the sessions weren't. really about the hair pulling they were. about his feelings about his breakup and. his intrusive thoughts of wanting to. kill. people he stated he felt angry towards. even his psychiatrist Dr Fenton because. she described him as not being a. communicative person he perceived Dr. Fenton as not wanting to communicate. with him because she had already. accomplished her goal from his. perspective he felt like the only reason.

she's seeing him is to prescribe drugs. he called her a mind rapist and a pill. Pusher he particularly got angry on one. occasion when she refused to tell him. her philosophical Outlook to the meaning. of life and he told her which his is. there's no right or wrong yeah side note. he's very nihilistic view of life where. he believes that there is no inherent. meaning in life there's no purpose or. value typically this means that there's. also a rejection of moral absolutes that. there is nothing morally correct or.

wrong good or bad that humans cannot. make that call because humans lack. objective validity to even begin with. which if you look at it super positively. you could say that nihilism means that. humans should be free to create their. own meanings and values without other. people predetermining theirs but if you. look at it super negatively which a lot. of people do it's just a very depressing. morally gray outlook on life of nothing. matters m yeah the defendant told a. psychiatrist before the crime that he. felt a level 9 out of depression of a.

scale of 1 through 10 but after he. starts putting his little plan for his. mission that went down to a five so he. starts writing in this journal that he. titles insights into the mind of Madness. where he had his little logo with the. symbol in the circle he called it the. ultra setion that represents quote an. alternative concept or idea he scribbles. it all over the journal and he writes. about the death problem so he says that. he wants to self- exit that's what he's.

writing about in his journal but he's. like well is there any way for me to. live without self- exiting one ignore. the problem if the problem or question. doesn't exist then the solution is. irrelevant didn't work forms of. expression tried including reading TV. and alcohol so he's saying I tried. ignoring depression two delay the. problem live in the moment without. concern for answering the problem didn't. work three Pawn the problem if one. cannot answer the question themselves. get someone else to answer it didn't. work everyone else didn't know the. solution either four love hate despite.

knowing death is false and suboptimal. response I can't find a working. alternative if all of life is dead then. the question is why should life exist. what is the purpose of living now a lot. of people have tried to make out the. defendant to be this genius madman. because he's a neuroscience PhD student. right and I mean generally speaking it. is very impressive accomplishment he. does have a relatively high IQ of like. almost 130 I believe but nothing about. what he writes is that of a tortured. genius which that we cannot understand.

this just sounds like every other. depressed person that I know but with. one caveat he seems to be depressed and. he wants to take it out on Humanity yeah. yeah yeah he writes the obsession to. kill since I was a kid with age has. become more and more realistic first. Obsession onset started more than 10. years ago so anyways that's my mind it's. broken I tried to fix my mind I made it. my sole conviction but using something. that's broken to fix itself proved. insurmountable neurosciences seemed like. the way to go but it didn't pan out in. order to rehabilitate the broken mind my.

soul must be eviscerated I could not. sacrifice my soul to have a normal mind. despite my biological shortcomings I. fought and fought there's one more. battle to fight with life to face death. Embrace a long-standing hatred of. mankind and overcome all fear certain. death I mean there's such a strong. narcissistic trait in his notebook the. way that he writes just everything he. also writes nothing is easily recognized. but can it be understood as soon as. nothing is described nothing contains. features of something even the very.

symbolic encapsulation of the word. nothing is a description many people. view it as black or Darkness but these. are things in and of themselves nothing. everything suffers the paradoxical. quandries as. nothing what what is he talking about I. think he is trying really hard to have a. very unique life experience and believe. that he is so far above Humanity that he. has these crazy thoughts that transcend.

regular people's thoughts and. emotions some netizens have stated this. guy is not smart okay he's just a pseudo. intellectual the next page he writes. about being insecure about his private. parts that were on the smaller side when. he was a teenager and then he writes the. weak are most likely to perish in trying. times likewise the strong are most. likely to overcome why do the average. and strong support the weak this is. easily answered in trying times the weak. will fall they act as a buffer.

furthermore when the weak die the. average and strong become weaker so he's. saying the only reason that people. protect the weak is not because we have. hearts and morals it's because they are. the buffer from other people getting. weaker yeah they're saying they're the. buffer from their next yeah it's again a. very bizarre Grim Outlook that is again. reminiscent of pseudo intellectual talks. he writes. the mind is a prison of uncertainty. trillions of cells guard it for eternity.

Oh Where Art Thou master key destroy the. mind and be. free he would later say that he hates. sheeple people who behave like sheep. letting themselves be mindlessly. controlled by others and when he decides. it's time to carry out his mission he. ends up packaging up all of his little. notebooks and these burnt $20 bills and. mailing it to Dr Fenton he knew that she. wouldn't get it before the crime so it's. not like she can prevent the crime when. he's asked later why why would you send. this he just said because she had been. my primary psychiatrist she said she.

would be. available one of the last entries in the. notebook reads cinema near me isolated. and large reason the reason why life. should exist is as arbitrary as the. reason why it shouldn't life shouldn't. exist there have been conversations. about Dr Fenton's role in this not. saying that she's responsible but in the. sense of a lot of neens felt like she. did not do enough because he straight up. told her he had thoughts of killing. people and she did not put him in a. psychiatric hold she did not commit him.

he also told her about having weird. shadows he saw flickering around very. reminiscent of. hallucinations now the other argument. here is that technically she didn't have. enough information to get him committed. is what she argues I don't really know. how it works I'm sure it's a gray line. I'm sure it's not that cut and dry I do. think the things you saying in therapy I. mean I don't know the laws that. psychiatrists abide by but it's really. alarming just truly so.

alarming because I don't know what more. you would need to commit someone like do. you need them to write down and sign a. sheet of paper saying that yeah this is. my plan contractually I'm going to do it. I don't know so he mentioned having. these thoughts but nothing concrete the. defendant would say himself that he. didn't want to tell Dr Fenton about his. exact plans because he knew that if he. said anything concrete he'd be. committed so may maybe he was trying to. walk this very fine line that I'm not. that familiar with so he didn't say.

anything concrete but he is opening up. about all the the the plan he had no so. basically he would say I want to kill. people uhhuh which I thought is enough. to get someone committed and a lot of. netizens feel like that's enough too. because some neens are saying I was. committed for way less like I what's. that's crazy right he would say I want. to kill people but then when asked who. he'd be like he wouldn't. answer so she's arguing you need to have.

a concrete plan and a specific. Target got it but I don't know so you. know it's just it's a lot so he did talk. about killing people and having that. come across his mind four to five times. a day he said he didn't want to talk to. her about those things he straight up. told her I don't want to tell you more. basically because you would quote lock. me. up yeah I think the part that a lot of. netizens are upset about is the fact. that during these interviews apparently. Dr Fenton would ask the patient who.

exactly he wanted to kill and he would. again tell her again and again I can't. tell you because you would quote lock me. up in a psychiatric hospital so it's not. that he doesn't have a plan it's that he. literally told her I'm not going to tell. you my plan I'm not even going to tell. you if I have a. plan Dr Fenton writes that her sessions. with the patient became medication. management sessions because he was. unwilling to open up verbally with her. she prescribed him anti-depressants very. commonly known as Z Loft it's an SSRI to. ease his anxiety and obsessive thoughts.

that becomes a whole other thing later. because Zoloft is actually known to have. symptoms of some people have reported. that they had homicidal thoughts getting. on Zoloft especially in the beginning. when you're in the adjustment changes. wow some people also said it made their. hallucinations worse so it's not an. antis psychotic it's an. anti-depressant so people are saying is. that malpractice because why if she knew. his symptoms and she knew what he was. saying again this is not me accusing her. of anything but just what has been. talked about by nison and a lot of.

community members now she claims that. she believed the homicidal thoughts were. more so obsessive thoughts rather than. real plans that they were abstract and. not concrete March 19th four months. before the crime a clinician under Dr. Fenton's team emails Dr Fenton I saw a. student late Friday who I hope you would. be able to see and soon if possible he. is the most anxious guy I have seen and. has symptomss of OCD but most concerning. is he has thoughts of killing people. though I do not think he is dangerous he.

said he did not want to tell me. everything he is experiencing as I might. have to report it the reason I think it. might be best for you to see him as I. think it might be best to keep him in. our system what do you think then. another email his name is and he may. email you because he has trouble talking. on the phone he said it's very hard to. come in problems concentrating anxiety. around people and public speaking he. says he wants to kill other people it's. very hard to interview him as he would. just stare and take a long time to. answer. oh side note and the reason that I'm. redacting his name is not because I.

think he deserves privacy but because he. did have a sense of he wanted to gain. notoriety out of this now it appears. March 2012th is the first documented. time that the patient verbalized to the. psychiatrist his thoughts of wanting to. kill people the part that people have a. problem with is in both the emails they. literally state that he wants to kill. people and they don't really do any they. don't commit him. h April 17th 2012 994 days about 3. months before the crime Dr Fenton writes.

in her notes following termination of. Friendship with girlfriend increased. obsessive thoughts won't give any. details won't answer regarding plans. homicidal ideation no self- exit. ideation angry that I won't tell him my. philosophical ideas of the purpose of. life patient will angrily say I told you. all of mine are you just a pill Pusher. psychotic level of thinking guarded. paranoid hostile thoughts he won't. elaborate on very tentative therapeutic. relationship is taking some heads but. reluctantly is coming in for. appointments seems to be functioning at. work safety no evidence of imminent.

threat I'm worried about homicidal. ideation more than self- exit ideation. in this patient though he is very. guarded and doesn't reveal. much then June 11th 2012 about a month. before the crime another session. concludes and Dr Fenton's notes read. after I asked how his comp exam went he. reports he failed it test was last. Thursday he found out Saturday as usual. he seems inappropriately nonchalant. about this he's basically quitting his. grad program says he doesn't really like.

the program anyway and he doesn't plan. on retaking the test thinks he will quit. the program and look for a job knowing. his history of anger and homicidal. ideation towards seemingly most of the. human race we proceed to assess the. level of dangerousness he does not. appear depressed or showing that he. would like to self- exit however he. continues to make hostile comments to. both me and my other doctor and seems. more paranoid than on previous visits. after about 20 minutes patient said he. had to leave to go talk to his grad. school adviser got up and left without. thanks goodbye or any other parting. remarks as per his usual demeanor.

significant worries remained about the. dangerousness of the student. particularly the potential for violence. against others given his long-standing. fantasies of killing as many people as. possible his caginess in discussing any. details regarding methods targets timing. his refusal to give us permission to. contact anyone who could give us. collateral information or speak on his. behalf unclear timeline of his mental. health status in past history has he. always been this odd and angry or is. this new suggesting a psychotic break. substance related psychosis or a medical. illness question.

mark and what's crazy is the bottom of. that note reads does not currently meet. criteria for a mental health hold he is. not Gravely disabled and has no evidence. of self- exit ideation long-standing. homicide ideation but denies any. specific targets and there's no current. evidence that he's angry at the school. or anyone else for his failure no. evidence of past violent. acts a few days later he was on internet. forums asking people about their. favorite. bombs She would argue later in court for. a mental health hold for somebody with.

homicidal thoughts you need a couple of. things one is evidence that it's not. just a thought that they have a plan and. they're moving towards action on those. thoughts and the second thing is there. has to be a specific Target and he all. along had denied both of. those yeah now many netizens felt Dr. Fenton is at fault to some degree in. their opinions I'm not making a legal. personal statement here but it got to. the point where she had to wear a. bulletproof vest for the trial when she. testified her name was leaked she was.

doxed and she received countless death. threats but then in. 2022 she was ripped apart again by nison. though not nearly as severe because she. published a book on the case. titled it was released 9 years 364 days. after the crime the day before the. 10year mark of the tragedy which more. than that she starts every chapter of. her book from a joker quote. which a lot of survivors and victims. families do not like the Joker.

comparison that was done by the media on. top of that the killer himself stated he. was not inspired by The Joker or. anything like that he straight up stated. he chose the Dark Knight Rises for the. sheer fact that he knew it was a popular. franchise he knew people were going to. be there for the premiere he just wanted. a packed theater it didn't matter if it. was The Dark Knight or any other movie. he said he knew very little about the. contents of the movie he claimed he dyed. his hair cuz the whole orange hair was a. thing people thought he dyed it to be. like the Joker right he said he died it. because he normally kept it brown. because quote I wanted to differentiate.

myself from who I normally was because I. was not my normal self he did have a. Batman mask in his house but he claimed. it was irrelevant and I also believe. that because I mean Batman is such a big. franchise a lot of people would just. like buy it to throw on a cheap. Halloween costume you're like okay well. I forgot everything right he does have a. quote in his notebook where he writes at. the very end of his plans like a Dark. Knight Rises but again it could be. because he already chose that because. it's the premiere yeah yeah yeah but she.

knowing this 10 years later still put a. joker quote at the beginning of every. chapter and she's not really someone. that is very well accepted by survivors. and victims families and I would say the. community because I think there are some. people who have sympathy for her and how. she was getting death threats and went. through a lot afterwards and she was. essentially doxed but a lot of people. find that her book almost makes it seem. like she's the biggest victim in all of.

this and then add to that the Joker. quotes and add to that that a lot of. survivors and victims families members. just didn't already like her involvement. in the case because of he straight up. told her yeah so it just was a bizarre. choice so because Dr Fenton did not put. him on a psychiatric hold it just became. a giant point of contention in the. aftermath of the incident so remember. how I said the interrogation for the. defendant was about 4 minutes before he. lawyered up well there is a 45-minute.

clip we have of him sitting in the. interrogation room prior and after to. being formally questioned and they're. just making him wait there and it is so. bizarre to watch from I guess like a. psychological standpoint it's a very. clear indicator of just how indifferent. he is about what he did for a good chunk. of it he is shirtless he is wearing. nothing but like a black pair of undies. he's so bored he starts tearing the. plastic label off his water bottle he. starts taking apart the paper cup in.

front of him and again none of his. actions look like one of anxiety it. looks like I am so bored I need. something to do eventually he gets so. tired of that he starts banging around. the underside of the table like he's a. Home Depot dad he starts picking at. things eventually an officer walks in. asking him uh hey what are you doing hm. what are you doing removing Staples all. right is that your shirt that you're not. wearing he lifts up his shirt from his. lap and looks at it it.

was it was how come you're not wearing. it because they cut. it oh okay you cold or anything. no the officer walks out and immediately. the defendant goes to try and play with. the electrical socket he's using the. paper cup trying to stuff it inside it. does not appear that he's trying to get. himself shocked or electrocuted he. honestly again seems very bored like. he's waiting to get his driver's license. renewed someone commented that it looks. like he's waiting in the back room of a.

car dealership when the car salesman. tries to negotiate with you and they. make you wait that's how indifferent he. feels that's the energy he gives when. the officer comes back in briefly to. tell him hey don't do that when he's. gone it seems like the defendant throws. a temper tantrum he flicks the water. bottle and the paper cup all the junk. off the table onto the chair and floor. like a teenager slamming their door. after a fight with their parents. then the officers they placed paper bags. on his hands to protect the gunpowder. residue to which he asks what's it for.

the authorities don't tell him straight. up they don't say that they just ask him. what do you think it's for and he. responds. popcorn what they look like popcorn. paper bags the officer response could be. used for popcorn but not right now when. the officers leave the defendant starts. playing hand puppets with the paper bags. on his hands he does this for minutes. multiple minutes a full- grown man for. multiple minutes there's not more of.

this interrogation like I said because. he lawyered up and he will be pleading. Not Guilty by reason of insanity to 24. counts of first-degree murder 140 counts. of attempted first-degree murder and one. count of possessing illegal explosives. meaning for every victim's life taken he. was charged with two counts of murder. because of quote extreme indifference. this is going to be a death penalty. trial. for each count the defendant plad Not. Guilty by reason of insanity the.

attorneys try showing examples of how. insane he must have been because his. grandfather from his mom's side was. diagnosed with psychosis he was. hospitalized after wandering around the. yard naked apparently his dad's father. his other grandfather was also. hospitalized for major OCD and there are. other people in the family that have. schizo effective disorder his lawyer. argued that the defendant quote was. blessed and cursed by his genetics he is. smart and loaded for mental. illness he did have what the court.

documents and psychiatrist have. described as remarkable pupil dilation. so a lot of pictures you see of him his. eyes look very intense that can happen. because of psychiatric medications that. can happen when somebody is very. stressed it can happen for a variety of. reasons but in prison it does appear. that the defendant does start to lose. his mind while waiting for the trial. which I do want to say again this. doesn't matter because it's not about. his mental state in prison it's about. his mental state at the time of the.

crime so yes while it does appear he. does seem to lose his mind a little bit. in prison there can be multiple. different reasons for that now there are. three types of thought manipulation. thought withdrawal this is the paranoia. that a patient might feel when they fear. that someone is extracting their. thoughts and feelings from their mind. feeling like someone is reading their. mind now there's thought insertion the. fear and perception that someone might. make you think things without speaking. to you they're inputting it through. waves or inputting it through.

frequencies to control your mind and. then there's thought broadcasting the. perception that your thoughts or. feelings in your mind are somehow being. translated and being portrayed on TVs. and radios for others to watch. broadcasted these are clearly not normal. healthy Perceptions in prison the. defendant stated that they were. experiencing thought withdrawal he. believed that everybody the guards the. psychiatrist the other inmates were. reading his mind so he would distract. them by sitting in his cell so that they. can't read his mind and he would scream.

out colors like blue pink red green so. that they'd be so distracted by his. actual words that they could not. withdraw the thoughts from his mind he. got onto the top bunk of his cell and he. stood erect on the top bunk and fell. backwards at the very last second when. he fell the CCTV footage showed that he. does lean his head up to protect the. back of his head he did fall. twice yeah so like they're saying that. behavior is strange yes he stated that. he was experiencing hallucinations it.

could have been you know you could. interpret this multiple ways you could. interpret it as him trying to pretend to. be insane you could interpret this as he. is going through some sort of. psychiatric condition which is what a. lot of his psychiatrists believe that he. was actually going through something. again doesn't matter because Insanity. means at the time of the crime it. doesn't mean 2 hours later it doesn't. mean 2 months later mhm he was taken to. what they call the rubber room where the. whole place is just made out of really. hard.

rubber yeah he was put on self- exit. watch and he would get naked and start. smearing his feces on the walls he said. that he saw dancing Shadows he had feces. caked in between his toes he was just. doing a lot of strange things they give. you a sack lunch when you're in the. rubber room because you're not allowed. to have utensils so they hand you a. stack of food that you really cannot. harm yourself with cuz they're concerned. and he wouldn't need it. he just refused to eat for multiple days. he didn't drink water for multiple days.

at one point he got the meat from a. sandwich like the luncheon meat and he. put it in between two paper cups and. started eating that like a sandwich so. he's just eating paper cups just a lot. of odd different behaviors now again. keep in mind doesn't really matter the. records read patient has been engaging. in increasingly bizarre behavior. disorganized and self Haring behaviors. he has intermittently been refusing to. wear clothing and eat or drink he was. noted to be licking the walls and. defecating on the floors smearing feces. the patient was noted to eat paper he.

has also been banging his head against. the wall as well as ramming towards the. wall and headbutting it patient was. noted to be talking to himself in jail. and told people that he was not sure if. they were real or not later when patient. was asked why he was not eating or. drinking he said I don't know what the. juice is I was in a box without any. juice and I couldn't reach it when asked. why he was in jail he said because I. pulled away from the people I knew and I. drank their blood I took the blood that. was not mine and it was was unfair I was. selfish when asked about harming himself. he said that he quote bit his arm for.

food and when he was asked what kind of. food he said procious food his pupils. were dilated to 5 mm which isn't. necessarily the most alarming thing in. the world now there were concerns that. he was attempting to self- exit in. prison but he said that actually no he. was just having visual hallucinations in. fact he told his psychiatrist one of his. biggest fears ironically in prison was. that he would be murdered in prison for. what he. did yeah so the question Still Remains. was he insane at the time of the crime.

doesn't matter what he's doing in prison. in his notebook he writes of his. symptoms leading up to the crime quote. symptoms now keep in mind everything in. this notebook could be very well written. with the intention of using it to. support an insanity plea he writes that. he was experiencing Catatonia for 3 to 5. hours in the middle of the day he. couldn't even move the only words he. hears in his head during that time are. Bambi get up you must get up he has. brief periods of invincibility where he. feels he's moving at hypers speed. interchanged with periods of extreme.

tiredness later during the interviews. with his psychiatrist he was asked what. should people know about you and he. responds that I'm kind of shy I guess. kind of a shy fellow yep he just has. this weird smile the whole time these. interview tapes are available to the. public he never really. blinks he never really breaks eye. contact it's a lot perhaps there's a. medication element to it but his. demeanor is a little little offputting. when you realize what he's just done he. sits there in his prison uniform with. his hands on his lap he's not frozen.

still but he's calm he's so calm he's. not shifting his weight he's not feeling. a guilty conscious he's not feeling. uncomfortable being surveyed he's just. sitting there his face almost looks. Frozen his eyebrows are slightly raised. with a slight smile the whole time one. that is in comments that it appears he's. waiting to hear the punchline of a. joke that's the expression sometimes he. does laugh and he'll quickly stop and he. ends with a week like ha okay well if I. killed. somebody then there's a likelihood that.

I would kill. again from a psychological standpoint. psychiatrist wanted to know was he. always like this now the defendant. teacher when he was a kid once called. him a Renaissance child a child Protege. very clever at everything like just. mastering everything Sports grades. everything but always a little distant. one soccer mom said I could tell you a. lot about every single kid on that team. except for him he was a lot more aloof. according to his friends at one point.

the defendant was one of the top five. players at the game World of Warcraft in. the world in the world yeah so he one of. his former friends said we we were just. all pretty nerdy people so there seems. to be two groups of people saying either. he's very nerdy and kind of quirky or. some people saying oh he's very very odd. now the defendant claims ever since he. was 10 he struggled with the meaning of. life wanting to find a purpose and. something meaningful to do a lot of. netizens and I agree with this is he.

just seems like a normal kid indicating. there doesn't seem to be any sense of. psychological. issues but maybe he was just a little. bit quirky like that doesn't mean. anything when asked why other people. doesn't have similar struggles to him he. said it's because his mind is. different when the defendant was 8 years. old his parents brought him to a. psychologist stating that he was not. being nice to his younger sister but the. psychologist thought it was just very. normal stuff like very normal family.

stuff he was sent home and they followed. through with the psychologist directions. he ended up fine he had a little bit of. a distrust towards authority figures but. nothing rare to see in an 8-year-old but. as a kid the defendant claims that he. had a few small things that he did like. only chewing with the left side of his. teeth he said that he felt the need to. preserve the right side of his teeth as. well as his face and every time he. passed a mirror he would check his hair. about 10 plus times a day he also writes. about a frustration he had and he says.

quote inability to communicate what I. want to say though I can understand it. typically I have an image in my mind but. I can't say images or Draw them would be. nice if there was some form of telepathy. to transfer the. image his communication seems to be very. straightforward but also not because he. loves his pseudo intellectual. philosophical Rambles in his notebook so. just to give you an idea one time a. psychiatrist asked him how close were. you with your grandma when she passed he. responds I was 9 hours away what like.

yeah so the psychologist is clearly. asking like how close were you. emotionally to your grandma when she. passed but he says in distance like this. is not him trying to be clever we don't. know I I mean the psychiatrist I guess. either he's trying to be like a little. smarty pant or he's genuinely just do. not think about human connection maybe I. don't know yeah um some people believe. that he doesn't think of human. connection because he has such a strong. sense of superiority almost all of his.

responses point back to he thinks very. highly of himself and not much of. everybody else because my mind is. different because I was pondering the. meaning of life at 10 years old he very. much believes that I I think that a lot. of the experiences that most humans have. are unique to. him got it mhm yeah well I would I do. want to preface that the psychiatrist. don't think that he was insane during. the time of the crime and the only. reason that we're bringing up all these. things is not to say that he was I don't.

think he was nobody thinks he was the. professionals that personally evaluated. him don't think he was a lot of nens. think it's good to know to see if there. were any warning signs like him telling. Dr Fenton was clearly a sign that could. have been prevented yeah yeah now he. starts getting into massive multiplayer. online roleplaying games which is again. normal but he played so often that. people said that he became a little bit. anti social not a diagnosis that's a. very casual term that they're using mhm. he just like to play games okay he'd.

like to escape from reality he would. sometimes space out he had this look so. often that people said he appeared. sleepy most of the time he would read. books in his closet again nothing too. alarming the defendant would state in. one notebook that he lik to zone out. when quote in a boring situation when. someone is giving a presentation or. otherwise rambling about frivolous. information so again that superiority. now there are some red flag though when. he was younger his parents moved their. family home so they had to move cities. he had to start all over again with the.

same school and like different friends. and he said that he cut a piece of. cardboard off a moving box like one of. those cardboard boxes he cut it off and. he saw it at his arms there were no real. injuries from it but it is kind of. alarming Behavior he did say around 10. years old he started having these. intrusive thoughts that a nuclear bomb. would wipe out everybody just visions of. nuclear bombs killing everybody. detonating he said these thoughts would. come on him monthly basis sometimes they. came more when he was stressed. interestingly psychiatrists have noticed.

that's a pretty extreme sense of. superiority grandiose thinking as a. 10-year-old it's almost he believes he. can do something to wipe out. humanity is how they interpreted his. thoughts that evolved into a saw. decapitating Anonymous people's heads he. said that he would see random people so. these are not people he claimed he knew. in his personal life and there would be. this imagin AR saw like this Vision in. his head the saw moved on its own it was. not connected to a hand the saw did not.

represent him he stated but it would. just decapitate people's heads he said. he saw Shadows dancing in the corner of. his eyes which some people feel are. hallucinations I don't know and he also. oddly refers to all of his memories. almost like internal videos like to him. it's like an internal video is what the. psychiatrist said. yeah but it does seem like he has a God. complex in his notebook there's a page. just covered with the question why he's.

written like a hundred times just why. why why why why and when asked by a. psychiatrist the defendant just responds. why should I live why does anybody need. to live you can essentially ask why to. any question he said if I could get to. kill everybody in the world that would. put an end to the question of why people. needed to be alive in the first place. that was the question I wanted to answer. ever since I was a kid I was at Rock. Bottom things couldn't get any. worse when the defendant is asked about. how he felt afterward Ward after. accomplishing his mission he reported. feeling empty and mood just lack of. feelings and thoughts he does try to.

fake having any semblance of humanity by. saying he's really sad that he watched. the news and discovered that he killed a. six-year-old girl he goes on to say that. he specifically went to a midnight movie. to avoid killing children because. children deserve to live more than. adults but he also says he does think he. does stand by the fact that his is human. capital increased because of the. murders so. I yeah I think he's just an evil vile.

person in addition he states that he. feels sad he took someone's Choice away. on whether or not they wanted to live. because he would want that choice for. himself but then at the same time he. believes his human capital increased I. mean all of it is done very. unconvincingly the notes read expressed. very little anxiety conflict or regret. reg regarding the crime that's his. psychiatrist note on him in prison. now just like the Wade Wilson case I'm. so confused because women are sending. letters to the defendant not just.

letters but sexual photos of them. showing their cleavage in skimpy clothes. kneeling on the ground I think within a. the first few months he received $4,000. in his commissar account yeah he put. them all all those sexy photos up on the. board in his prison wall along with the. infinity symbol with the circle around. it when asked later why he thought these. random women were sending him these. letters he said he thought it was. because they found his adultf finder.com. match.com profile the trial would start.

April of 2015 nearly 3 years after the. crime and the jury selection would take. 3 months which is really long it's not. record setting Richard Ramirez the. nightstalker his was 9 months but the. trial was the largest jury summon in US. history meaning they had to call more. people to see if they could be a juror. because the state the community the. people were still recovering and healing. from Coline. which is Coline high school was is a. 34-minute drive from the Century 16. movie theater.

W both are just on the outskirts of. Denver and to get people who are not. biased after Coline would be really hard. not that anybody cared to clear all bias. there were 24 jurors 12 official and 12. alternates at least two of them had ties. to Coline it was just impossible to find. someone without ties one of the jurors. called was a survivor of Coline was like. in the school when and. survived the testimonies were a lot it. was weeks of trauma and pain that was.

reopened for the whole Community two. police officers husband and wife were. working that night so I mean just think. about the ripple effect of these types. of incidents it's not just the people. that were there it's not just the. victim's families or the survivors or. the survivors families it's the First. Responders it's the medical staff at the. hospitals it's everybody that knew these. people you're talking about I don't know. the spiderweb of effects I can't even I. don't even know how one would calculate. that and obviously the whole nation too.

now two police officers husband and wife. were working that night at the theater. and Michael the husband said when he got. home he had to clean all the blood off. his wife's uniform and gearbag he said. the victims were quote subjected to. nothing less than the trauma of. War Caleb the husband who had to have. brain surgery while his wife gave birth. two floors below in the same hospital he. doesn't end up Surviving when he was. recovering there was a moment where the. doctors didn't know how much he knew of.

what was going on around him and when. they brought him his son in the room his. heart rate and blood pressure Rose he. moved his hand towards his baby to touch. him he would appear in court in a. wheelchair he lost an eye he cannot. speak he cannot walk his dreams were of. being a comic a standup comic and now he. can't communicate as well as he used to. he could only testify in court by. tapping out letters on a big white. alphabet board balanced on the witness. stand the whole time the defendant shows.

no emotions he is so passive in fact. that people questioned whether or not he. was being drugged he just had no. reaction the entire time in the end one. of the defendant's reports reads by a. psychiatrist there is no question that. the defendant at the time of the. commission of the alleged Act was. capable of distinguishing from right or. wrong they continue it is in my. professional opinion that the defendant. was not so diseased or defective in mind. at the time of the commission of the. acts as to be incapable of. distinguishing right from wrong with. respect to those acts he knew his crime.

was highly illegal he planned and. practice to avoid detection he planned. considered and implemented methods of. destrction and Escape he carefully chose. a method of killing that he reasonably. believed would result in the maximum. number of deaths he carried out the. crime deliberately and methodically he. said he knew that his victims would. suffer and would not want this he never. alleged that his arrest was unjustified. or that his acts Were Somehow acceptable. during the trial when the the photos of. the victim's injuries are shown the. defendant looks up at each and every. single one of them with no indication of.

remorse the jury saw a 45-minute police. video of the crime scene media in the. courtroom reported what they saw the. video was never made public nor should. it be but media in the courtroom. reported it is so graphic there are. bodies sprawled across the floor aisle. after aisle some bodies are contorted. while other bodies appear to be in. positions of trying to hide somewhere in. fetal positions there's still soda cups. and cup holders popcorn scattered. everywhere bullet casings littered all. around the floor the combination of some.

things so innocent like a movie theater. with all the blood all the leftover. belonging cell phones that were ringing. officer said the abandoned cell phones. rang inside the theater for hours after. the. crime it was just so Grim ultimately the. jury found the defendant guilty on all. 165 charges against him the 27-year-old. defendant was found guilty of. first-degree murder including extreme. indifference the judge almost breaks. down into tears and states it is a.

display of contrast whereas the. defendant had a long-lasting hatred of. mankind the victims who have come in. here and addressed the court have shown. all that is good about humanity and. before joining the court judge seore. States get the defendant out of my. courtroom get the defendant out of my. courtroom please thank. you ultimately he would be sentenced to. 12 consecutive life sentences without. the possibility of perole plus an. additional 3,318 years for attempted. murder and explosive charges the jury.

spared him the death penalty there was. one juror who did not want the death. sentence and it had to be unanimous 6. months later the theater remodeled and. was reopened a lot of survivors and. victims families went and they said it. was a way to take back the control and. not let the tragedy Define them many. First Responders also attended honestly. I think they're so brave for going back. I can't imagine nor do I think I would. even have the strength to walk back. through those doors so these are very. incredibly resilient people many of the.

survivors are clearly still suffering I. mean I would say all many are dealing. with severe PTSD anxiety depression. permanent physical injuries paralysis. loss of control over bodily functions. amputations chronic pain many still have. pieces of bullets in them because it. would be more dangerous to take them out. and it's likely that all of them deal. with some level of. guilt not that they should but the brain. just works in those ways One Survivor. said I still wonder every day how I got.

out of there and how I'm a Survivor and. they're not I think about them and I. think about all the people that lost. their lives every single day 12 people. would be killed from the events of July. 20th the last words Gordon Cowen was. able to say to his two teenage daughters. when they were separated in the theater. in the chaos was I love. you he would be found dead he was a. father of for and his kids were his. whole life his son would say my dad. taught me what it meant to be a man he. was a father first and last in always.

that was that was all there was we were. trying to figure out what to say for his. eulogy and such but really it was just. he had us four kids and that was just. the life he lived that was all he was. all about his kids were his whole life. John larer was at the theater with his. girlfriend Julia Julia would later say. John's first instinct was to grab my. head and cover me and tell me to get. down he was kind of guiding me where to. go and he looked up for a split second. to kind of see what was going on and I. thought I think that's when he got shot.

he was holding on to me tight and I. could feel he relaxed I think that's. when he died Julia survived but lost. about 40% of her hearing and has severe. PTSD even the scent of popcorn can. trigger really terrifying memories but. she says she will never forget the love. of her life that saved her in more ways. than one she said he was one in a. billion to me and a lot of people and I. hope that his heroism and his bravery. can be honored forever and remember Bird. forever which by the way his bravery. extends beyond that night he was also. serving our country in the Navy he said.

that he just wanted to protect our. country and save others from danger and. harm John was. 27 Alexander Sullivan suly was turning. 27 that night his parents searched for. him for 14 hours and they pleaded with. the Press showing a picture of their son. tell me where he is because all the. hospitals were nobody had answers he. kept screaming tell me where he is. someone call us and they would not resp. received that word until hours later. that their son had passed Tom Sully's. dad just remembered seeing him on the. cold steel gurnie in the morg and he.

leaned down and he whispered mom was. worried we'll see you again and the. place Sully's parents feel the closest. to him is at the movie theater they. still feel a burning need for Change and. gun reform Alex's dad su's dad who had. never any dreams to become a politician. he was working at the post office was. elected into the Colorado State House in. 2018 yeah and he wore Alex's leather. jacket every day as a reminder of who he. is and why he's here he is a Colorado.

state senator 18-year-old AJ was there. with his 19-year-old fiance lamoa or La. she said when AJ and I realized. something very bad was happening we. stood up he grabbed my hand we were. getting ready to leave he turned around. looked at me in the most shocked way and. then hit the ground she said my world my. whole identity was shook AJ was an. award-winning ceramic artist who was on. his way to go to college and his dreams. weren't even to fill a museum he just. wanted to open up his own studio and be.

an art teacher AJ's mom told the court I. am now a single mother of one child I. have lost half of what I was put on this. Earth to do my life is basically half of. what it was Jesse childis was 29 when he. threw himself over as coworker in the. Air Force she was his Junior and she had. only been in the air force base for a. month Jesse was tasked with showing her. the ropes it it would be said about. Jesse he was a very hard worker there. was never a job he left undone he was. very patient he showed me everything. answered every single question I had.

when I got there since I was the new. person I needed to be shown around and. he did all of this while still getting. his job done outside of that he was just. the nicest guy 24-year-old Alex theves. would dive in front of his girlfriend. when the gunshots went off he was shot. in the head his wounds were so horrific. that his parents were advised against. seeing their son's body one last time he. had a master's degree in counseling. psychology. 24-year-old Jessica Gua had been brought. to the Children's Hospital in Colorado. she had severe injuries to her lower.

chest and abdomen they worked to. resuscitate her for over an hour but she. did not survive she had gone to the. movies with one of her best childhood. friends Brent lowak who was visiting. town and they had known each other since. they were little and he probably knew of. Jessica's eating habits Jessica's Family. would joke if there was something on. your plate you did not want Jessica to. eat you better put hot sauce on it she. was such a foodie she was a sports. journalist and Jessica and Brent were. sitting in the 12th row munching on.

popcorn when Jessica's mom had texted. her and she responded go to bed mom get. some sleep I can't wait for you to come. next week I need my mama her mom sent. one last text message before going to. bed and it read I need my baby girl the. Lights stmed the movie started Jessica. was shot six times Brent was shot he. managed to crawl out while escaping he. called Jessica's mom and she could hear. screaming in the background and he told. her quote there's been a shooting it's. random I've been shot twice I think. Jesse's been shot twice too Jessica's.

mom remembers telling him please just. tell me she's not dead and he just said. I'm sorry I. tried when officers went into the. theater they're pulling victims to the. emergency exit and loading them into the. squad cars she was laying in the back. seat when the officer booked it to the. emergency room but she was pronounced. dead Jessica's mom would say the last 3. or 4 days I hadn't been able to sleep. because I kept thinking of my baby on. that theater floor all by herself that. dirty theater floor being outlined in.

chalk all alone but knowing that someone. held her as she died it means everything. I couldn't be there to hold her but. somebody was Jessica's friend Brent is a. medical technician and firefighter he. had been shot as well but he was one of. the last to leave the scene he was. helping the injured with medical. triage he suffers from permanent nerve. damage and the sickest part of all of. this is that this wasn't even Jessica's. first mass. tragedy she was in a food court in.

Toronto when someone opened fire well. she was in the mall in total six people. were shot two people died and she wrote. about it she wrote I was in the eatting. center in Toronto just seconds before. someone opened fire in the food court. she was actually at the food court to. eat sushi that's why she came to the. mall was to eat sushi in the food court. but for whatever reason she changed her. mind last minute and was like you know. what I'd rather get burgers and poutine. so she left the food court moments later. someone opened fire right at that. position she writes in her blog who.

would go to a mall full of thousands of. innocent people in open fire is this. really the world we live in I was shown. how fragile life was on Saturday I saw. the terror on by standards faces I saw. the victims of a senseless crime I saw. lives change I was reminded that we. don't know when or where our time on. Earth will end when or where we will. breathe our last breath I say all the. time that every moment we have to live. is a blessing my my mind keeps replaying. what I saw over and over in my head I. wish I could shake this odd feeling from. my chest the feeling that's reminding me. how blessed I am Jessica's mom tried to.

comfort her after that experience and. she told her at least you've seen the. worst in humanity and you'll never see. it. again 6 weeks later she was killed in. Aurora Sandy Jessica's mom now travels. the country to build support networks. for loved ones of gun violence victims. she built a relationship with the. parents of Trayvon Martin as well as. parents of children who died in Sandy. Hook she is a victim's advocate for the. Brady campaign to prevent gun. violence Rebecca Wingo had dreams of.

being a social worker very smart very. accomplished person she was fluent in. Mandarin and working for the US Air. Force as a translator she wanted to help. teens transition out of the foster care. system and the way that people describe. Rebecca was she's a catalyst she's a. person that walks into the room and. things happen she is effective she gets. things done she has this gravity to her. everybody gets pulled in her Direction. people love her they said if she put her. mind to something she was going to get.

it done what an example she set for her. daughters she was able to connect with. people and even animals almost instantly. friends called her the animal whisper. they said our cat Kiki was a feral cat. just running around Hawaii she just. calls to the cat and brings the cat home. and they still have the cat to this day. Rebecca is survived by her two beautiful. daughters and their father as well as. her parents and siblings. Jonathan Blanc was at the theater with. his girlfriend Jansen he had served in. the Navy and he was taking EMT classes.

he heroically shielded his girlfriend's. body from the bullets and tragically. passed away he has survived by two. beautiful children Michaela medic was 23. years old when she and her friends. arrived at the theater she wrote on. Facebook before her passing I'm a simple. independent girl who's trying to get. their life together while still having. fun she was saving up for her bucket. list trip of going to India it said that. when her father found out he was. absolutely hysterical quote just sobbing.

I want to get my baby home I need to. bring my baby home I need to bring my. baby home she was known for loving Hello. Kitty and many of her friends got. tattoos of Hello Kitty in. memory 27-year-old Matt mcquinn was at. the theater with his girlfriend and her. older brother Matt shielded both of them. during the gunfire and was shot three. times he died protecting them everyone. that knew Matt said you need a Matt in. your life someone who always keeps the. morale up he was always doing small. things to brighten friends and. co-workers days and the 12th victim.

Veronica Moser Sullivan stood at 4' 4 in. 50 lb she was 6 years old she would be. the youngest she was at the movies with. her family including her mom Ashley and. Ashley had just found out hours before. this movie that she was going to have a. little. sibling Ashley was pregnant. and um she would lose both Veronica and. her unborn baby in the. tragedy Ashley herself would lose the.

ability to utilize her arms and legs she. is paralyzed and unable to walk she. suffers from anxiety and depression that. is so severe that often times she cannot. even leave the house Eugene and Kristen. they were in the second row do you. remember and um when the nightmare. started they were engaged Eugene had. shielded Kristen but got shot in the hip. and the knee both of them ended up. Surviving and so did their three friends. and on the one-year Mark of the attack. exactly a year later they decided to get.

married just 3 miles from the theater. one of Kristen's bridesmaids along with. two of Eugene's groomsmen were also. survivors of the attack one of his. friends was badly injured he had to have. his leg amputated Eugene was actually. the one that chose the one-year Mark and. CH Kristen at first didn't really get it. she didn't understand it but they just. wanted to reclaim the day they wanted it. to be about something good and not have. this one day every single year that is. just another tragic reliving through mhm.

but Eugene still has bullet fragments in. him but that's the story of what. happened July 20th 2012 in Aurora. Colorado I think it's so touching to. hear that. these um I guess the victims are kind of. I guess they're Heroes cuz most of them. are yeah most of them passed uh. protecting their loved ones.

and and um it said that a lot of people. were just trying to help everyone while. getting out. too yeah and I think even the community. how they rallied around them is. yeah what are your thoughts I I just. wanted to talk about it because recently. I was talking to a few younger people. and they didn't really know what. happened and it just yeah what are your. thoughts on the case leave it in the.

comments and I will see you in the next. one please be safe.