Harper Returns And Opens Up About Her Mental Health! (Part 2)

Just a little recap of where we left. off. She goes to Utah to the treatment. facility and I guess you can kind of. take it from there. I wasn't expecting. to go there. So that's why it was a. little scary for me to get like taken. out of my bed and stuff like that. [music]. >> Everyone thinks that you're a part of. the troubled teen industry. >> I got caught doing a lot of bad things. Like I got caught texting my friends on. docks. We got to call our parents. [music] Tuesdays, Thursdays, Saturdays, Sundays, but only for 20 minutes at a. time. So that was pretty hard. I have a. cry counter in my journal and I cried. 118 times while I was there and I was.

only there for 61 days. I was not okay. [snorts]. Okay, so just a little recap of where we. left off. Um Harper had just finished. telling us about how she was sent to. this treatment facility and she didn't. know she was going until the night. before. So that's kind of where we're at. is she goes to Utah to the treatment. facility and I guess you can kind of. take it from there and tell us like. >> Yes. >> Yeah. What was your first day? >> Why is there food all over the floor?

>> Uh I had lunch in between. Cash is an. emotional eater. Yes. >> In between the freak out. Do you think. maybe you could pick up your trash so. our set doesn't look extra trashy? >> No. Extra I suppose. >> Yeah. Go ahead and tell your. >> Yeah. Okay. So, um, basically, okay. Yeah, just make as much noise as. you possibly can. >> Wow. >> What's in his shoe? >> Uh, yeah. What's going on with your. sock? >> About 10 minutes ago, I witnessed Cash.

have like a complete breakdown. >> There was nothing in it. >> Wait, is that a hole in his sock? >> I swear there was Put a remote in there. [laughter]. >> There's something in his sock and it. went away. >> No, it's still there now. It's back. >> What is Do you have a growth on your. toes? Yeah, my toes [laughter] are kind. of crooked. >> What's going on with your sock? >> Wait, wait. >> You did not. Did you put a [laughter]. >> There's nothing in there. >> Why did I hide my rollolos? >> Why did I think you put a chicken strip. in there? [laughter].

>> Sorry. Where where were we at? >> Oh, about 10 minutes ago, I saw you. crash out because you dropped your. chicken strip thing in the bowl of gravy. >> and you had to fish it out. >> And he literally reached his whole fist. in this pint of gravy. >> A deep bowl. I don't know why they gave. me such a deep hole for gravy. >> Bro, I really thought he had a chicken. sh in his shoe. [laughter]. >> So, I don't know where we left off on. episodes and stuff. Pretty much today is. Harper's first day back to give. everybody a little recap. I don't really. >> already gave the recap. >> Yeah, we already gave the recap. So,

it's. >> No, no, no. Hold on. >> What? >> We already gave the recap. >> I know. I'm just saying I don't know if. this is in the first episode, if this is. the second episode or what. So, if you. guys are confused like I might be right. now. >> Yeah, you're confused by. >> They might be confused, too. You don't. know these people. You don't even know. their name. >> I don't think they're confused. >> You Sarah and Emily and Emma. There's. always an Emma. >> Uh, you might want to go watch episode. one or part one or whatever. Uh, that.

might be out before this episode. So. yeah, if you're click tuning in now, you. might go watch that episode so you have. context to this episode and some stuff. might have been cut. I don't know. But. >> or Cash looks really dumb right now and. there's no part one or two. >> Just continue talking. It was No, but. there is a part one. >> You already interrupted with your food. mess. Can we just get back to the story? >> I need clarification because y'all's. clarification was terrible. >> Thank you, man. >> Oh, [laughter]. >> and we're talking about on this episode. We're so thankful you're here the first.

half of this video. So, he's really got. to make up for loss. >> I'm just giving people clarification. >> Okay. Thank you. [laughter]. >> Your first day in Utah. >> It was like that, huh? >> My head. Okay. So, um yeah. So, I was. upstairs. My family was talking to me. My sister. brought out a note. And they were they. all they want is to care for me. Like. they even if it this didn't work or not, this was out of love. Not anything like.

we we're sending you here because you're. a troubled child. No, I'm not. >> Which I think there's been some. confusion about that since you got back. You posted a video and now everyone. thinks that you're a part of the. troubled teen industry. >> Which what is that? >> That's not That's not the case. The. trouble. >> You haven't seen that? >> The troubled No, like Okay. The troubled. teen industry. >> Well, C, do you know about that? >> It's like the wilderness. It's like. wilderness therapy. It's like when kids. are actually like have behavioral. issues, their parents will hire someone.

to come get them and take them to. wilderness therapy where a lot of the. times these kids are not treated the way. that they should be. >> Oh my gosh. >> Which half of that is true. No kidding. No. Um. >> Yeah. No, just to like set the record. straight, you did not go to that. >> I didn't go to. >> You went to a very nice like. >> like a nice home. Yeah. >> Like home type place. >> Yeah. And like it was it was very nice. and like. >> Yeah. >> all this. But like obviously I wasn't. expecting to go there. Um so that's why. it was a little scary for me to get like.

taken out of my bed and stuff like that. >> So. >> well when you say taken out of bed. >> not taken out of MY BED. NOT TAKE. >> I THINK I think that's what confused. people is you said you were like ripped. from your bed or something and taken to. this place. I think that's what kind of. confused people. >> Yeah. >> You willingly go. >> You know when you say that like imagine. saying that into a chat GPT prompt what. it would prompt. >> That's what people imagine. >> Yeah. Well no no no. Listen, when you. say, can you just like clarify? >> Yeah. Okay. So, >> even though you may not have gone. willingly or whatever, like you didn't.

want to go. >> Yeah. Not wanting to go somewhere is. very There was a lot of There's people. don't want to go a lot of places and do. a lot of things. >> Yeah. I just I don't want you to to say. things like kind of throw it out there. and then people think it was. >> something it wasn't, you know? >> Okay. Yeah. I So, I'll tell the truth. like I didn't want to go, but I I mean I. understood like why I had to go like to. be safe. >> Yeah. Um, so and I wouldn't have gone. with my parents, so they hired people to. like take me in the at 4:00 a.m. in the. morning to go to the place. So, yeah.

Okay. So, I was on the plane, I kind of. slept the whole way there cuz I was. super scared. >> And then I got to Utah and um and then. when I got to Utah, I was in uh like. entered into this house and it said. like, "Welcome Harper." So, that was. that was nice. like the kids there made. a poster for me and. >> they like made it feel like. >> Were the kids there like welcoming you? >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. They were super nice. >> And then yeah, the first day there was. pretty hard. Um all the days there were.

super hard. It was super boring. The. place there they didn't allow so I. thought they would have allowed phones. and stuff like that cuz what I. understood I was that night that I found. out I was being um I was going like. being transported there. Um I thought. that I was going to be allowed to have. my phone. I thought that I was gonna be. able to have my phone like going there. like and like be able to like talk with. people while I was being like like taken. there. Um but no, so we can't we didn't. have um any electronics except for.

computers which had like heavily. restriction heavy restrictions on them. so we couldn't do anything. >> Was that kind of refreshing? >> No. Really? [laughter]. >> But like not having your phone had to be. a little refreshing, >> I guess. So, in a way, but it's also. like that's my job is to be on my phone. 24/7. So, >> you're also kind of addicted to your. phone low key. >> Yeah. But. >> so, like it probably felt a little good. to just be like unplugged. >> It might not have felt good, but. sometimes things that don't feel good. are the best things for you. Yeah. >> Um.

>> but yeah, it was it was hard and scary. and stuff like that. Um and then like. >> and then um yeah, I was there for 61. days, so around 2 months. But um. obviously I didn't want to be there, but. if I was going to be there, I had to put. in the work to leave. So I tried really. hard to put in the work to leave and. stuff like that. And I did. And I did. learn some stuff there, like some coping. skills, but it's kind of the same stuff. that I have learned over and over again. for the past six years.

>> Just more intensive. >> Yeah. Just more like I'm literally doing. this every single day. So Mondays we. would have group therapy. Wednesdays. we'd have group therapy. Fridays we'd. have group therapy. Um, every day we had. breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Sometimes. the chefs would forget to come in, so we. would have to cook ourselves something. Um, >> I don't think No, hold on. That doesn't. sound right. >> I don't think the chef forgot about. their job some days. >> No, actually, >> that might have been a part of just like. your treatment is learning to make some. food for yourself. >> Don't pay the chef some days. [laughter].

>> No, I'm sure that I think we should I. think that we should be careful with. what we say because I don't know that. that's right. Well, actually, it was. snowing one day and the chef couldn't. come in. >> That makes sense. [laughter]. >> He didn't forget. He just physically. could not get make it into the building. >> There's a tornado outside. Harper's. like, "Yeah, the chef's not coming in.". He said he doesn't care [laughter]. about cooking for us anymore. >> Wait, was that your first time cooking? >> No, I I didn't cook. Actually, I just. ate cheese sticks and yogurt the whole. time I was there.

>> Hey, >> I swear. >> Even when the chefs were there? >> Yeah, >> cuz they just did. You're like a picky. eater and they didn't make stuff you. liked. Yeah, like they would make like. enchiladas and stuff like that and I was. like, I don't eat that. >> So, I just had yogurt. >> Our house has turned into everyone's. workspace. Not just ours, but our whole. behind-the-scenes team, editors, producers, assistants, basically a. revolving door of people are working. here. >> And now with our world tour coming up in. Europe, imagine wrangling the whole team. on the road. Coordinating rooms for. everyone can be so stressful. We run.

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Mhm. >> And then they would have us weigh. ourselves Mondays and like do checkups. Mondays like just to make sure you're. healthy. >> They took good care of us there, but I. just didn't like it that much. >> And then um we had um we got to call our. parents Tuesdays, Thursdays, Saturdays, Sundays. So, but only for 20 minutes at. a time. So, that was pretty hard. >> Did you get just one time a day? Uh, >> like on those days, did you only get to. call them for 20 minutes or did you get. to call them in the morning for 20. minutes and then at night for 20 minutes. or something like that?

>> Just only only 20 minutes time. So, we. got to pick out a time. Usually, I would. do it at 6:00 cuz we can't call during. the morning. Oh, yeah. And then the day. that I got there, we couldn't call our. parents at all, even if it was a call. day. [snorts]. >> So, that was really hard for me because. I was like I was not okay. Um, and I. have a cry counter in my journal and I. cried 118 times while I was there and I. was only there for 61 days and I got so. dehydrated from how much I cried. It was. it it was very hard. But um yeah, so it.

and then on um Thanksgiving I got to see. my parents and that was a lot of fun. And then I also got to see them on um I. got to go out for my movie premiere so. that was really nice. Yeah. >> And then I got out early. Usually the. the normal stay there is 90 days, but I. got out 60 days. Um, and I'm not. completely better, but I have learned. some skills to like get better. Um, and. like I know like like good like tips to. live on your own and stuff like that, like laundry and making your bed every.

day and you know, just the normal. things. But um, yeah, it was it it was. pretty hard. I didn't. >> Yeah, >> I didn't get along with some of the. staff there, but I also got along with. um one staff, like two staff. I know. that they're watching this, so I love. y'all. Um. >> yeah, I love them so much. They're like. the best. Like they they like basically. got me through the whole time there. >> That's nice. I haven't heard you say. their names yet, so that's. >> Yeah, they're I love them so much. Um. and then she left the same day that I. left. Um yeah, so that was.

>> What was her job? >> She's a Pilates instructor. Oh, that's. >> Yeah, she does a Pilates now. >> Was she more of a mentor. >> when she was a mentor? Yeah. >> Oh, I thought she was. >> I thought she was like Pilates. >> OH, I THOUGHT YOU WERE LIKE GOING TO HER. class every day or something. >> You did Pilates. >> She does do Pilates. Like that's why she. left cuz she was making more money doing. Pilates than that. >> Um, but yeah, every day was kind of the. same routine. Wake up, eat breakfast, sit for a good two hours. They make you. sit in your thoughts a lot of the time.

So you. >> What does that look like? Sit. >> Sitting. M. >> in your thoughts. Like literally just. sit. >> Do you mean like you they were It was. like when you say sit, were they like, "Okay, now you have two hours to journal. or read a book or. >> free time." Yeah. >> Build a Lego set. >> That was free time. What was the sit in. your thoughts? >> That basically. >> Oh, it was free time. >> It was like I'll bring you through a. day. So we wake up at 7:30 8:00 or his. feet on the floor. hygiene 8 to like.

nine breakfast I usually didn't eat. breakfast um and they got very worried. for me so then I had to like start. eating breakfast and then um they we we. we sat on the couch until usually we had. wreck therapy which was like going out. and doing something like going on a hike. or something and I always hated the. hikes. >> Why did you hate the hikes? Cuz. >> I just didn't want to do anything like. >> cuz it's a hike. Well, cuz it was like. forcing you to just get out. >> The fact that I literally could have.

just ran away on a hike was like really. weighing on me. But I [laughter]. I never did it. >> Just lost in Utah, though. Like that. would be scarier than being there. >> HEY GUYS, WE ARE OFFICIALLY STARTING OUR. OVERSEAS tour very soon. And if you live. in Manchester, you're going to want to. listen to this because tickets for. Manchester are finally on sale, baby. So. go get your tickets to Manchester. We. also have London, Ireland, Melbourne, and Sydney, Australia. All these tickets. are officially on sale right now. So. guys, go get your tickets. If you want.

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to, but I I I never did cuz they like. they would call the cops on us and we. would get like transported to like. >> that place again or maybe another place. So I didn't want to risk it. >> Um so then. >> so yeah, we wake up, do wreck. After. wreck, we have lunch and then from lunch. we just kind of sit out through the. whole day a little bit. Um, sometimes we. have neuro, which is neuro feedback is. where they like put wires on your head. and you watch a show for 45 minutes. >> I've heard of that.

>> Yeah, apparently watching TV and like. they it's like a form of therapy. >> I think it helps. I don't know. >> No. Yeah. >> Does it just like allow them to like see. your emotions when you see the waves? If. I don't know, like a dad walks in the. room with his daughter, then you're like. thinking like, "Oh no, what's going to. happen to her?" And then they can like. see like, "Oh, like she gets fearful. when this situation happens.". >> I think so. I have no idea. I never. really asked him, but like I know the. first day I was there, my brain was were. really high and by like the last neuro.

feedback session, I calmed down a little. bit. So that was cool to see. >> Um. >> I want to do my brain waves. >> You can you can do neuro feedback. And. then um and then after that we would eat. dinner and then I would we could watch. shows and then go to bed. >> Yeah. >> So it sounds like a fun day. It sounds. like an eventful day, but over and over. again it got really hard. >> Yeah. [snorts]. >> Um and like some days like were better. than others, but um most of the days. were pretty hard just like. >> sitting there like Oh, we we did school.

too. Um so I did school, but I got. caught cheating so that was. >> How did you cheat? Um, just looked it up. on the computer. >> I got caught doing a lot of bad things. Like I got caught texting my friends on. Docs. Got in trouble for that. >> on Google Docs. So you log in and type. and then delete it and like they type. >> Okay. So, somebody got this doc set up. for me and I clicked on the link and. then me and my friends were on the docks. together and I was typing and then. finally the teacher took me into the in. a room like about a week later and was.

like, "Um, we've been uh we were we were. going through your computer and we cuz. they go through our computers. >> and we saw um that you were texting your. friends and that's just not allowed here. and I was like, "Oh, I'm sorry." Like, I'm sorry. Like, I want to text my. friends. Like, so I said, "I'm sorry.". And then I didn't do it again. Um, so. then. >> that's so sad. >> Then later I got caught cheating cuz I I. have bad ADHD and I can't just listen to. a person speaking to you from a tele.

prompter onto onto the screen. So that. was hard for me cuz I don't learn that. easily like that. >> What do you mean? Just like watching a. lesson. >> like somebody's just talking to you. about like World War II and they're on. the TV. Yeah. Like on or on the. computer. So if there's questions I. would like look them up and then they. found that out too. So, I got in trouble. for that. Um, but other than that, I. didn't get in trouble anymore. So, that's good. Um, but yeah, and then. night times were my favorite time of the. the day because me and um the like.

mentors and the girls would talk with. each other and I loved showering at. night cuz they like let me think about. things and stuff like that. >> So, that was good. Um, >> and it's probably you didn't have. probably have a lot of time alone. So, it was probably. >> No, you don't have any time alone. you. always have to have eyes on you um by. like a mentor or a night staff. So we. have would have day staff or yeah day. >> day staff night staff check on you. >> and then swing shift day shift swing. shift night staff and then night staff.

would stay there from 11:00 p.m. to 7:00. a.m. in the morning. They would have to. stay awake the whole night and then. every 15 minutes they come in and check. on you. And if you're on precaution, which is like like you did something. bad, so you have to be an arms length of. a mentor or something like that, then. the night staff would have to like sit. in a chair um and watch you sleep. >> just to help like make sure everyone's. protected and everything. >> Yeah, for sure. For sure. It wasn't like. anything bad, but and then if you did. something bad like in the bathroom, then. you would be on bathroom staff, which. like their foot's in the door, so.

nothing like crazy, but I was never on. any of those, which is a good thing. But. I did see people on those, which was. scary. But. >> so what was like one of the hardest. things when you were there? >> Guys, our holiday merch drop is now. available. >> If you guys want to go check it out, go. to the lolodcast.net. We have a bunch of. new designs for you guys. One of my. favorite designs ever, the sketch tea, is now officially on a crew neck and it. is so cute. We also have a hoodie and a. t-shirt with one of our favorite Bible. [music] verses, Isaiah 41:10. And also a. LOL Pod baby tea and long sleeve tea for.

you guys. So if you guys want to get. these merch pieces, make sure to go to. the lofcast.net. Um, I'd say just. missing out on things. Like I've missed. Halloween two years in a row and I. missed out on Thanksgiving. Well, not. really. I got to see my parents, but it. was definitely just hard, you know, like. and um seeing all my friends having fun. at home and doing all their things that. I missed out on. It was just hard, you. know. And then on Tik Tok there was. people making up lies about me and like. they knew that I couldn't defend myself.

so they were just making like Tik Tok. videos about me where it's like dude. like you know that I'm in this mental. facility and you know that I can't make. Tik Toks to defend myself and you're. still doing this. So that was hard. >> That's Yeah. >> But um but yeah and then after 61 days. of hard work I finally got out and um. you know I'd say that I am a little bit. better. Not completely better. I still. have a lot of work to do to do. >> Well, before you get there, while you. were in the health facility, you said. you were journaling. Did you do that.

during your like what do you call it? Thought hours or like sit with yourself? >> Literally, like there wasn't We had a. lot of free time. >> and free time wasn't very fun at all. Usually free time is a lot of fun, but. we would I would I would usually sit on. this like big blue couch that they had. downstairs and I would just sit on it. for like 3 hours and just journal. Um, so that was good. And like my journal. was like all the way filled up like like. literally not one page where it's not. like filled. >> Did they give you the journal?

>> No, my mom did before I left. So yeah. >> And like especially when um I found out. that night I didn't want to pack. So my. parents kind of packed me before and. they bought me some stuff to bring. at. all. >> So, that was nice. Um, but like I'm. still a little bit mad that I was sent. there, but I know that it was like out. of love and stuff like that. Like, I'm. not going to lie. I mean, I was upset. >> Um, but I know. >> Well, that's Yeah, that's hard. It's. like. >> you don't want to leave your life as a. teenager and hanging out with all your. friends and you almost feel like you're.

like slightly betrayed because everyone. like kept this secret from you and and. it's sitting you somewhere you don't. want to go. >> because in your eyes you're like, "Oh, I. can fix myself. I can fix myself.". >> But all these people who are around you. who love you have watched you try to fix. it by yourself and they're like, "We. just want the Harper we know and love to. be happy and healthy." And so they're. doing in their eyes what they think is. the best thing for you and it it could. have been the best thing for you. >> and to you it just feels like betrayal.

but to them they feel like they're doing. a loving act. So it's a hard. >> thing a pill to swallow. It's like. >> it's extremely weird thoughts. It's. weird and it's like you're completely. valid in the way that you feel of like. upset and like angry at it, but it's. also. like you have to just look at it from. other like another person's perspective. as well. Like like the people around you. were like watching you literally lose. your will to live. >> Yeah. and everyone around you was like.

feeling so like unsure of what to do or. how to get you help and you were saying. like you didn't want help, but. everyone's watching you like lose. yourself to this. And so it's it's just. weird because it's like nobody wanted to. to hurt you in that way, but it was also. like almost like a life or death. situation. It was like if you didn't get. some sort of help, it could have. literally ended your life. >> Yeah. >> And that's what was so scary about it. for everyone around you. Mhm. Like I'd. say my parents always they were like you.

probably had like two weeks to live if I. didn't go there. So I'm glad like that I. was safe there. But it was for sure like. hard like. >> Yeah. >> It was so hard on your friends and your. family and not to make it about them but. like I know it was extremely hard on. you. >> Yeah. And like for the first week there. I had to like. >> I like I kept waking up or I couldn't. sleep for the first week there. >> Yeah. And then anytime I would sleep, I. would wake up from dreams of being like. taken like again by the like they call. them gooners. I know that sounds weird,

but like being gooned or whatever means. like like getting like a transport team. to take you. >> Yeah. >> It wasn't that you had to have a. transport team to take you cuz like you. would have like resisted. It was that. you had them because you didn't want to. ride with your parents. >> Yeah. >> I don't know. I mean, I would have. >> like like you wouldn't have been able to. ride with your parents on what you. >> I think she would have I think it was to. make it easier on like her and her. family because her family. >> saying it's easier to say bye and not. like. >> Yeah. Like if if her family was the one.

having to get her there, I think it. would have been a lot more difficult. >> It would have been a long drive. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. [laughter]. >> Yeah. >> Well, that but also like. >> for your safety, too. >> No one wants to be trapped. And when you. feel like you're in the situation where. you're like, I don't want to go there, you're going to try to get away cuz you. feel like you're trapped. Yeah. >> And getting away from your parents. Sorry parents, but it's not a hard thing. to do. But these people, I guess you. call them gooners or whatever, but they. are trained to not hurt you, but to keep. you safe and to keep you going to where.

you're going. So you yourself know like. you said before like you wanted to get. out of the window like you would have. tried to run away. >> and with these people like. >> you couldn't run away. you know whether. you think you needed to go or not needed. to go or whatever. Like obviously. looking back now you can say that but. also at the time even you didn't know if. it would help you not help you like what. like no one can predict the future. >> You have no idea what to expect really. Nobody. >> also I think the facility sounds pretty. terrible to people look on the outside. looking in. But also.

>> if you need help then get it. >> Yeah. But also like to you I don't think. you needed necessarily all the. precautions that that facility has. >> but they have those because some people. do. You know what I'm saying? >> It's like uh. >> they can't let you have lighter. restrictions than. >> it's like going to a normal hospital and. like even like just to go see like uh. our nephew that was born. Um our sister. had a baby and you have to like give. your ID and like they only let certain. people back there at a time cuz people. steal babies and it's like yeah they.

don't have to check our IDs and make. sure we're not stealing a baby. But they. do that because people do. Not just. that, but like let's say a a mom is. let's say she's 13 and she has a baby. She doesn't want like the baby daddy to. come in and like try to take the kid or. something. I don't know. Well, they have. like family issues. They don't want. their mom or dad. >> They just put those restrictions up for. everybody even though not everybody. needs. >> As I was saying, like if you go to a. hospital, just a normal hospital, like a. completely normal hospital, there's some.

people there against their will and. there's some people that's not. You know. what I'm saying? But they have all the. steps there. And if you described a. hospital to someone that doesn't know. what a hospital would be like, they'd be. like, "Oh my gosh, that sounds. terrible.". >> Yeah. >> But, >> uh, I was just in there for the. audience. >> Yeah. >> That stuff is there. And for you, that. stuff's there, but not as it wasn't all. there because you had to have it. You. know what I'm saying? >> Yeah. >> It's because it's open to a bunch giant. spectrum of people. >> Was there a part when you were there. that you were like, man, >> like, I'm glad I went here and got to.

meet this person or like experience this. thing or like whatever? just a part of. it that like I don't know made you. happy. >> Um I don't know. I mean I'm glad that I. met like like really glad because like. she like got me through a lot of things. there. >> Yeah. I don't know. Other than that it. was it was like definitely a hard thing. but it showed me that I shouldn't take. everything for granted or is that how. Yeah. Because like I mean like I. literally like thought everything was. terrible before but then I went there. and I was like wait I actually had it.

really good at home. And um. >> do you still even like like now that. you've been back for like however long. you've been back, do you still like. remind yourself of that even in moments. where you're like frustrated if you're. like frustrated with your parents or. you're like in your house and you're. like I just want to be anywhere but. here. But can you like ground yourself. with just reminding yourself of like I. was there and I really didn't want to be. and now I'm back to where I want to be. >> Yeah, I think so. Like I really do. And. like maybe like I don't know. I just. like it was definitely hard like a hard. thing to go through.

>> and I don't want to go through it again. and I I don't want to be like scared my. whole life to be sent there again, you. know? >> Yeah. >> Um but like you know what like I think. like everything happens for a reason. obviously [snorts] and um I hope that I. can like help kids out that are going. through the same thing that I did. Well, yeah. That's what I've been thinking is. like you. and I don't know, like I said, I don't. know what all the stuff you'all want to. keep when we talk about this because. it's all up to you, but you talking. about it, even if it's hard for you and. your family or whoever, it actually I.

mean, I think it actually does help a. lot of kids watching because like we. were talking to someone just this week. that we know someone who's like 11 and. she's going through some crazy things. and it's completely different than what. you're going. But it's like everyone has a completely. different scenario and situation. >> But I think not many people at all on. the internet that are like influencers. or artists or whatever.

>> talk about what you're talking about. The people that do experience it or they. just say like, >> "I'm taking a break from mental health. I'll be back soon.". >> A lot of people can feel alone. For. sure. >> Yeah. And then they just come back and. they don't. >> Yeah. And it's like I think. >> um and you talking about it, not saying. either side's right or wrong, but you. talking about it, I do think. >> will help a lot of people to see that. like, oh, this isn't just me. >> No. Yeah. And I feel like we're right. now especially, we're just like in a. world where everyone is just like. consuming content and there's just this. like bubble of creators that all these.

kids kind of watch. And I really don't. know anybody. Maybe I'm just like out of. touch, but I have never seen somebody. that has like gone into as much detail. as you have about your struggles. >> That's what I was saying. Like I've. never seen. >> I've I've heard you've been very. vulnerable. >> There's been so many people that are. like I to be honest guys, I've struggled. a lot with my mental health. Which is. like if you want that's all you want to. say about it, that's great. That's for. you. But. >> for you to be like bold enough to just. go into as much detail and like cry.

about it on the internet and let people. know that this is like a real thing. And. I think not many people have that. ability to actually even do that. >> Yeah. I I don't think a lot of people. are okay with opening themselves up like. that to millions of people the way you. are. >> And I think it's very admirable of you. to like because I know even while you. were there, you're telling your parents, you're like, I know when I get home and. I can talk about this on the internet, it's going to help so many people feel. less alone. >> And like that's exactly what you're. doing. >> Yeah. Exactly. >> Because there's so many people, especially kids, that are just like. silently struggling with it. And it's. like, >> and I think that's even harder on you. because you have everyone now judging.

your situation, judging whatever, and. your parents are watching it or whatever. it is. >> But I actually think that is a very like. noble thing to almost do because it's. like most people suffer in silence. >> And which is worse, but easier. >> Yeah. Because it's not, you know, laying. it all out for everyone to see. >> Have you had any other kids that have. like. >> struggled with OCD that have maybe. watched her videos or anything? Um, I'm. Daming with this one dance girl. Like. she like she's on Dance Moms or.

something and she talked about OCD. She's like, "Your video helped me out a. lot.". >> Well, there's a there was a girl that. stopped by our house the other day that. was a fan. Uh, I'm friends with like her. aunt or something. She's like, "Hey, can. you can my niece like stopped by her and. I was like, "Sure, she can stop by and. check out the podcast set." And she. actually left a letter for you um about. her OCD and how like listening to you. has like made her feel less alone. I. don't I haven't read the letter, but I'm. assuming that's what it's about and. everything. Yeah. >> Um, but it's downstairs. We can read it. after or you can read it.

>> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> That's so nice. Tell us the thanks. >> Yeah. But also like I know when we've. done like shows and meet and greets and. stuff like that, you've met people that. have come up to you. Like we've all had. people that have told us like you guys. have helped so much with like the the. mental health I struggle with. But I. feel like you specifically, >> people just gravitate towards you when. they want to open up about their mental. health struggles because you've been so. vulnerable about it. like someone is way. more like if your if your option is to. tell Cash or to tell Harper, everyone's. gonna go tell you because you have this.

just like inviting characteristic about. it. >> Yeah. >> And not that you don't, but you've just. never talked like that. >> Okay. >> Yeah. >> Dang. Thank you. >> You're welcome. Well, I have a question. >> Open up about my mental health. Just Is. this the time? >> That is such a That's the most Harper. thing I've ever seen. >> She made a fake pimple and popped it. Yes. >> How she put the lotion in the tissue and. then. >> Oh gosh, that makes me Oh, >> what were you going to say, Kenzie?

>> I was going to ask you and you don't. have to answer obviously cuz it's your. personal thoughts, but like when you. were journaling, honestly. >> No, I don't I don't care about you. I. don't think you really have one of. these. Unless you would like to share. If you do, that'd be great. Um, in your. journal, when you were journaling every. day, what kind of things were you. writing? Were you just like writing your. your pure thoughts? Were you writing. down like um tactics to help you with. certain stuff or like what kind of. things were you using your journal for? >> Just like writing down my dayto-day like. what happened during that day? Like.

today I ate breakfast. I went did this. blah blah blah blah blah. >> And then some days it was like I I I'm. going to run away. I don't want to be. here. I've like never been in this much. pain. You know what it kind of sounds. like to me? >> A diary. >> It sounds like No, it sounds like your. private story on paper. Like you took. they took your phone away and you didn't. have access to post your thoughts on. your private story so you were forced to. put it in a journal. >> literally. >> Is that what it felt like. >> kind of basically but nobody has read it. because it's. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Well journal you don't even have.

to filter yourself at all cuz no one's. going to look at it. Private story you. have people looking at it. >> Exactly. Yeah. Do you feel like that was. helpful though to just like pour all. your thoughts out on a piece of paper. and maybe it wasn't helpful in the. moment, but now you can like look back. >> and now and know that no one's like. looking at it. >> Yeah. >> Well, I didn't know if they were looking. cuz sometimes if there's like a concern, then they look through your journal. So, I don't know if they did or not. >> As scary as it was to to, you know, go. there and and walk in, not know anyone, not know what to expect,

>> if they're like the girl that left you. the letter, for instance. if like. someone like that is thinking about. going or they're like, "Hey, if their. mom came to you and it's like, hey, my. daughter is like really struggling with. OCD or anxiety or depression or or. whatever." Um, the issue is, what would you what would you tell them. about like your experience there? >> Do you want me to be honest? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. Like was there a lot of people. there that it was like really good for.

or was it like I I I I mean obviously I. know a lot of people there benefit from. it. I know you may have not benefited as. much as you hoped you would have but. yeah I was just curious. >> And also. >> you don't have to answer it just because. he's asking. >> No. >> if you don't want to answer we can move. on to the next thing. >> I'd say probably like try just try it. out like see what happens. For me, it. didn't help a lot, but for a lot of. other kids, it does help and it. literally changes their lives forever. So, >> I would say I don't know, but from like.

the outside looking in, it kind of seems. like like even something as basic as. like school, right? Some people. absolutely hate it and it's the worst. thing in their life. And then some. people say it's the best thing in their. life. Yeah. >> And they go to college and they love. school and that and it's amazing for. them. And then other people they say. it's the worst thing that ever happened. to them. >> Uhhuh. >> Is does it feel like that? kind of. Yeah. I feel like it's almost like case. by case though. Like. >> that's what I'm saying. It's not It's a. thing that. >> Yeah. It's just It's good for some. people, some people it is.

>> But it's also like if you've never tried. it before, if you've never tried. anything, like you have to you have to. start somewhere to try to get better. Like try it. It's not going to harm. anybody to try, you know? >> Yeah. I was a pretty troubled teen, some. may say. And uh yeah, I almost got sent. to some place, military school, something. It's more what what you. >> not for mental health but for discipline. >> for like behavioral issues. You didn't. have the. >> makes me sound really bad. It was. behavioral issues. >> I wasn't that. That makes me sound like. I'm out like graffiti in the city like.

middle finger to the cops like. >> No, you were middle finger to your. family pretty [laughter] much. >> Yeah. I wanted I was I was like 15 16. and I wanted to be on my own and I. didn't want to. >> Did you want to get an emancipation? >> Yeah. I threatened that. >> I was like how can I get this? How do. you do it? >> I don't know. [laughter]. >> He never figured it out. >> Never figured it out. >> She said, "How do you do it?". >> And uh I I was on that same road, but. with the with that, but I was a good. kid. I wasn't like bad to strangers or.

people or anything. I just wanted to I. thought I would do better on my own. And. >> you also had anger issues at different. times that dad was worried about. >> That was when I was like, >> "Do you regret any of that?". >> Hate. No. >> Cash, do you regret any of that? >> My stuff? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. I'm a unique case, I might say. But uh I think. I was doing. No, I don't. I want. >> Oh my goodness. He's learned nothing. live in a facility. >> But I also You could not live.

[laughter]. >> But I also They'd never let him out. He'd be like They'd be like, "So what do. you think now?". >> Are you still angry? He'd be like, "Um, yeah. Yeah, [laughter] I'm still angry.". >> No. Cash could be locked away for three. years. He'd be like, "All you have to. say is that your dad is smarter than. you." and he'd be like, "Nope, I'll be. here another three years." Like, he he. refused. >> I uh don't disagree with what my parents. did. >> Uh I think it was a tough situation for. both sides and I think my dad and my mom. actually handled it probably better than.

I would have as a parent. Um so it's a. tough situation. It's like uh pretty. much to simplify it, I wanted to quit. school and drop out in the eighth grade. >> Well, did didn't you do that? >> Yeah. Um, >> and look, you look where you are now. You're doing great. [laughter]. >> Yeah, I know. >> He could have been doing a lot better. podcast in the upstairs. >> You are her justification. Quit. >> No. But what he's not telling you is all. the trouble that he went through and how. he hit rock bottom and his bank account. said like $2 in it.

>> Wa. >> And when you were still an influencer. >> No, she's making my life sound a little. more terrible than. >> Why do you think he moved out? It was. pretty terrible. >> $2. >> If Kate didn't save you, you'd have been. cooked. >> He was about 6 months away from like. being completely dead broke. That's because That's because I played. video games all day. >> Wait, even even being an influencer, you. almost got I'm scared that's going to. happen to me. >> He just chose to stop working. [laughter]. >> I I want to say, >> you chose to stop working, Harper. He. made all his money and was like, I'm. good. >> I stopped doing videos and everything. and then I just played video games for.

like a year. >> But a part of that is because. >> obviously if you don't make videos for a. year, no one's watching you and then you. just play video games and then. >> make no money. >> You make no money. But a part of that is. because he moved away and he had no one. helping him, guide him not to be an. idiot. And so he was an idiot at 16 just. like every other guy. >> Chaos and he just needed a little bit of. order and he would have been No, my true. opinion is I. >> Oh my gosh. All my makeup fell off. >> No, it didn't. >> Mine did too. Imagine just [laughter].

my true opinion on me is I think I. was. >> Why are you making this episode about. you? >> Highly No, I cuz Kinsey asked if I. regretted it. I think and y'all are. going to laugh at me when I say. >> you made it 10 minutes long. >> And. >> it's okay. >> Calm down. Let me say something. [laughter]. >> She's going to make everyone hate you. >> Let me say it. >> I don't have anything to say. >> Exactly. >> Yeah. >> So, I'm going to talk about my problems. now. [laughter]. No, because you guys made me sound like. I was some evil kid. Even Kinsey was. like he hit rock bottom. I was like he.

was rebellious and that's not true. Dude, >> if I had your mother on here right now, I think she'd have something different. to say. >> I I'm going to say the honest opin my. honest actually the the truth, not my. opinion. This is the truth whether you. laugh at it or not. And the truth is is. that I was way more advanced than every. other kid my age. And I know I mean this. with my true heart. Every 16-year-old. boy thinks that. >> No. >> Every single one of them. >> It's literally called Superman syndrome. And that's what you had.

>> And I. kid, people are not meant to be held. and not be free until they're 18. You. [laughter] should be able to be free at. LIKE 13. MY GRANDPA HOMELESS AT 11. YEAH. By himself, living under a bridge. Not where I'd want to be personally. But. >> I don't think that was your grandpa. >> No. People adult way quicker than the. American society makes them. [laughter]. We're not getting. >> I could be good alone right now. >> Yeah. Just stop saying you were just. telling us earlier you feel like you'd. crash and burn. What are you talking. about? >> Me? [laughter]. >> Yeah. >> Well Well,

>> and I feel like my parents had. obligations to hold me till I was 18. because of society. But I. >> Okay. >> But I was not ready. And at 14 I was I I. act like I was 25. >> Okay. >> Were you ready? Wait, when did you leave. the house? 16. Um, I left the house when. I was Yeah. No, it was like the week I. was turning 17, >> but I only got to leave because Maverick. was moving with me. And also, I had. >> I had to get a place with another.

bedroom that my mom and dad could come. >> Wow. >> stay as long as they wanted to, too. >> That's such a cool story, bro. >> Why are you hating? >> No, I said it's a cool story. That's not. hate. >> Okay, >> this is a great story. Okay, what do you. want to tell? >> So, back to Harper. >> Yeah. Um, so was there this is the one. time I'm talking and it's because me and. her were late and you guys can all hate. it. So you can shut it and you can shut. it AND YOU CAN SHUT. >> I NEVER TOLD YOU TO stop talking. >> No, I think you provided valuable.

insight because I'm the only one that. relates to Harper and y'all disagree. with me. So you want me to shut my. mouth? I think I should have been on my. own at 16. >> I'm not saying I disagree. I'm saying. that this we were supposed to be talking. about Harper and then you started. talking about yourself. >> We've been talking about Harper for an. hour and a half and then we started. talking about how I have the same. situation. >> Look how bored she She's smelling. candles now. >> It smells good. >> Hey, I did have one more question at. least that I wanted to ask. What you. said when we started you were like, "Oh, yeah. There's been uh since I got back, we've had more good moments than we had. before. Like like you're able to do some. stuff that you weren't able to do with.

your parents." Like what's like some of. that look like as far as like maybe. things that you couldn't do before you. went there that you're able to do now? >> Wow, that's a good question. Thank you. What? I'm so glad he asked that. I don't really know what I Okay. Um I. could do laundry now. I can um. >> Cash, why are you laughing? >> I'm not laughing. >> I I I actually I'm going to say like I. think that is very valuable. Harper and. I were talking when we had that little. break. >> Laughing at math. >> Oh, >> Harper and I were talking when they had.

that little break. >> That's understandable. >> And I know a lot of people might look at. that and be like, "How dumb is that she. learned how to do laundry?" But when you. have parents who literally do everything. for you because they love you, whenever. you leave, you turn 18 and you leave, you're like, "Oh, frick. I don't know. how to do anything. I don't know how to. do my laundry. I've got to figure that. out." I ruined so many of my clothes my. first year out because they all just. turned a different color. >> Like me, I was doing laundry FROM A. YOUNG AGE. >> AND I knew exactly how to do laundry.

when I was 18 cuz I was more advanced. >> So I understand why people like you need. to be held down. >> if you do them with every color. Do you. do on a cold wash? >> See, this is what happens. [laughter]. >> This is what happens. >> I I separate the whites now. And I've. also learned apparently like whatever. jeans that Mav has, this is so. irrelevant to the podcast. Whatever. jeans Mav has, apparently they shrink in. the dryer. So I no longer dry jeans. >> I just hang them to dry. >> Yeah. >> But anyways, my point saying was like. Harper learned valuable things the.

health facility that some people might. not think are valuable, but it is very. valuable because she hasn't learned them. at home yet. Anyways, that's all I was. saying. >> Anyways, so like like you said, you you. are able to do laundry now. >> Yeah. >> What about like like other things like. that or like is there any like moments. with your parents now that you've been. able to. >> like over Christmas or Thanksgiving or. anything like that that like stood out? >> Thanksgiving was pretty good. Um cuz I. have I hadn't seen them in 40 days and I. was like, "Oh my gosh, this is my first. time to see them. I'm going to prove to. them that I'm better so I can get out.".

And honestly, it went really good. And. then Christmas was kind of hard, too. like you're going to have ups and downs. and stuff like that. Um. >> like Christmas was hard cuz it was like. the I don't know like it everything kind. of feels the same but at the same time. it's like I did learn all these things. but I've known these things for the past. six years. I just don't. >> implement them. >> Yeah. Put them into play cuz. >> So have you started using those? >> Man, y'all are drilling her. >> Well, yeah, I have. I have used them a. little bit. I just I don't know. It's. just. >> what are what are some of the things.

that like therapists tell you to do or. >> um it's like. >> not that you put them into play or not. put them in play. I don't I don't know. any about that. But what do the. therapists tell you to do? So like if. somebody is out there and they have OCD, what are some tactics you'd say, hey, this is what my therapist told me to do. It does or does not work, but this is. what they said. >> To make sure like to go against OCD, like totally like like non-engagement. responses like, "Oh, that would suck if. I got poisoned. That would suck if I. blah blah blah." like or like um. uh therapists are like therapy and.

medicine is the best way to get better. and I I don't really want to do that cuz. I don't like medicine. >> Um how do you how do you cope with those. thoughts? Like if you're in a situation. where you feel like someone's poisoning. the air or like they touched something. or gave you something that's poison, what like obviously those thoughts in. your head are like, "Oh my gosh, they're. poisoning me. They're poisoning me.". What do they tell you to do or say like. Yeah. Do you walk away or do you sit. there and you're like, "This is not. real. This is not real.". >> Well, if you say it's not real, then. it's just going to keep coming back. Like, you have to be like, "This is.

real. I am getting poisoned right now. I. am like everything's happening to me. right now and I'm I'm going to have to. sit in it and see what happens." Like. that's what they tell you to do. Like. >> if you say it's not real, then you start. doing mind compulsions and that's what I. have trouble with. >> Yeah. >> And I still do them to this day. Like I. still I still haven't gotten barely. better. So that's why I'm like. >> trying to get a lot better. I'm doing so. oi. I don't know what. >> So they're more teaching you that it's. not going to go away and you're going to. learn to deal with it. >> Basically, I got you. >> Yeah, basically. And then once you learn.

to deal with it, then it starts going. away over time. >> But it's not just false hope of like, oh, it's just going to disappear one. day. >> Yeah. >> Man, that that is really hard if the. solution is to just sit in it and let it. happen. I would have a really hard time. with that. Like if you genuinely think. like you're being poisoned, you're like. your immediate thought is get away. Like. run away from this. It's not to sit. there in the middle of it. So, that. would be very difficult. Wow. >> Well, we're proud of you and we were so. proud of you when you went and that you. got out early, that you put in the work.

and everything. >> So, yeah. >> Thanks. Yeah. I'm so glad that I got out. early cuz I would have missed Christmas. and New Year's if I didn't. So, I'm very. happy. >> We're very happy to have you home. >> Thanks. >> But we're also very proud of you. >> Thank you. Thank you. >> Are we wrapping up? I had more. questions. >> Okay, I guess that means we're wrapping. up. [laughter] They're like, "Shut up, K." Yeah, you can ask more questions. >> I don't know if I can. I feel like. you're not in charge anymore, Cash. >> Yeah, that's what. >> everyone's mad at you. >> Yeah, [laughter]. Cash opens up his mouth for 5 seconds.

>> Okay. Well, I was. >> And to me personally, our conversation, I'm just going to say it was way more. inter interesting. [laughter] No, you. guys are just interrogating her about. every single charge now. I'm going to. end the podcast. >> What? No. Y'all are like, >> it's over. >> No, it's not. Y'all are like, "So, Harper, what is it like having OCD?" Oh, Harper, what do you do with OCD? Harper, >> OCD, episode about about that. >> Yeah, but y'all can let her just talk. and tell her story and then you just. guys just ask her a new interrogating. question every 5 seconds.

>> And then we had a flowing conversation. Y'all like, hold on, we need to ask her. more questions. Like, Harper, do you. like being asked questions every two. seconds about your OCD? >> I don't care. [laughter]. >> She doesn't care. >> Okay, I have one more question. >> there. Oh, here we go. The conversation. was wrapped up so I can now start a new. one. >> The conversation WAS ONLY WRAPPED UP cuz. y'all shut down the actual. conversations. >> No one shut it down. She finished. talking. >> No, as soon as she was like, "Oh, did. you feel like that worked out for you?". And I was like, "Oh my goodness." When I. was And then y'all were like, "Oh my.

god.". >> Okay, I'll ask my question now. >> It's just told him he couldn't talk. about himself. >> When you when you are a horrible, horrible interviewer and podcaster. This. guy should be kicked off the show. >> Dang, that's kind of all right. If Kate was talking about how when she. was a kid or whatever and then they. started, no one would have interrupted. No one. Not one person. >> I think I think what's it called? It got. really covered in the last episode, too. Like. >> that's what I'm saying. We've been. sitting here for two freaking hours. asking her questions. And like look, the.

next question is going to be something. we already talked to her about. Ask her. >> It's not. What is it? Whenever you came. back, you came back and you got your. phone back and it was probably blowing. up because you hadn't had it for like. two months and you get to see your. friends and now your family is here and. like you might have been dropped back. into a situation where you feel like. >> the the poison or whatever is is coming. out again. It's like all everything at. once and like even like the first day. you came back like the next day we were. going to film an episode is like. everything was happening at once. you.

were coming from like isolation to now. not just slowly easing your way in but. like everything at once. Was that super. overwhelming and like how did you deal. with that? What did it feel like? >> I like couldn't sleep cuz I was so. excited to be home. >> and so I like couldn't sleep at all and. like I literally had insomnia for a good. two days. >> I saw you posted something where you. were like up till like 6:00 a.m. >> Like no, I didn't fall asleep that day. at all. like my friends were at to bed. like by 1:00 a.m. and I couldn't go to. bed till like 10:00 a.m. the next.

morning. >> But um it was super exciting to come. back home. So I'm really glad that I did. get to come back home. Some people stay. in treatment centers for like 2 years. and I'm so glad that that wasn't me. Um. and like Paris Hilton like she stayed in. there for 2 years and like some people. stay in there for 10 years. Like. >> wow, >> it's a lot. So, I'm really glad that I. didn't stay there for that long because. I don't think I would have been okay. Um, but there are like long-term things. where kids are like, I'd rather be here. than home. Like, this is amazing. Yeah.

And like, uh, we got to meet the kids, um, at the So, the treatment center. where I stayed him, I was in the. short-term one. There's a long term term. one, which is 12 to 15 months you stay. Mine was three months. So, um, we got to. meet up with them and they're like, "Dude, I love it here. Like, this is. amazing." Or some were like, "This is. terrible." like I don't want to be here. It just really depends on your mindset. like where you want to be. My mindset. was I don't want to be here every single. day. I don't want to be here. I don't. want to be here. I think I would have. definitely gotten a lot better if my. mindset was I'm going to lock in and do.

this, you know? So, yeah. >> Yeah. >> When you got your f phone back, was it. overwhelming? >> A little bit. I mean, it was just the. overwhelming part was the fact that it. was like breaking. Um so, I had to buy a. new one. But, um. >> Oh, it literally broke from all the. notifications. [laughter and gasps]. That's crazy. It was like cracking up in. my hand. >> Oh my gosh. >> But um but yeah, and then like this part. right here started like falling down, like drooping down black. >> Um so. >> sounded like you just needed a new. phone. >> It wasn't that. Yeah, it wasn't that it.

was like overworking itself from all the. notifications and stuff. It literally. was just breaking. >> Yeah. >> Okay. What did you have like hundreds of. messages? >> Yeah, I think so. I don't even remember. cuz Brooke had my Snapchat login. >> Oh, so she was able to respond. >> So she was doing all my streaks and all. that. Yeah. Yeah. What's yours's highest. streak? Mine's a 10 and4. >> I stopped. It was too much work. >> Yeah, I don't do them anymore. I did. have like a thousand day streak. Really? >> It would stress me out if I had if I got. that high and then I lost it. It would. literally give me anxiety. So, I was.

like, I need to stop this. I can't. >> anxiety. >> Yeah. Well, is there anything else you. want to say before we end this? >> No. >> No. >> Honestly, yeah. Just like like Yeah. Live life to the fullest. [laughter]. >> That's so inspirational. Well, I'm sure. this is not the last time you will talk. about this because it is just like an. ongoing journey for you, but we really. appreciate you like being so open about. it. >> Thank y'all. Thank you. >> Look at her grabbing her car key. She's. like, I got to get out of here. >> She's hungry. I'm hungry. >> I'm hungry, too. I'm.

>> starving. It's almost like we. interrogated her for 2 hours. >> Okay, we will see you guys next time. Fine.