CRYSTALS THEORY, SASHA'S GHOST STORIES 2, & BACK TO SCHOOL ADVICE - JUMPERS JUMP EP. 41

[Music]. all right first you got to talk about. the vlog yo you got to talk about the. vlog yeah. no no okay talk about what you said to. me on the phone i know you can't talk. about everything because i know you. don't want to talk about everything that. happened but sasha told me after we. filmed that blog yeah yeah okay you want. to speak on that i don't know what to. say about that just something not good.

happened and i i read the comments and. someone had said like yeah be careful. with us messing with with spirits yeah. but i wouldn't say we're messing it's. just you know we were just exploring we. were exploring we were being disgraceful. and being like disrespectful and there. were other people there too so you know. yeah okay but you got to speak like on. the terms of what that was you know what. i mean you gotta give her something i. can you can't just say nothing i. promised the person oh but it was not. good it was paranormal activity yeah let.

me just say there was paranormal. activity like happening i had like seen. a lot of signs i went for a walk and two. people came up to me and they were. christian and they were just like you. should be careful girl and they gave me. a bible it's like they knew yeah and. then something bad happened but that's. crazy yeah yo do you think like let's. say let's say you do mess with the. spirit right do you think it's like an. announcement or it's almost as if um. other people can see that you've done it. like. what do you mean by announcement almost.

as if like unless you mess you mess in a. graveyard right okay and you disrupt the. spirit do you think other people that. have like maybe a medium or a sixth. sense can sense that you've done. something and they can sense like. they're out to get you like when you're. passing by them or something or like. you're actually like yeah like you meet. with them you meet with oh yeah. definitely so you think if you go to a. psychic or quote-unquote medium they. will be able to tell you if somebody's. like out to get you yeah yeah i think so. what's that you told me something about. like an evil eye before what is that oh.

like a bad eye so i feel like when you. feel that someone has like negative. energy towards you like someone's. casting it on to you or is it like yeah. you yourself no no like someone else. like if they're not a fan of you you. know like you know what i mean like if. they're not fond of you or they envy you. so it's not a curse then no i don't. think so i think it's just someone. having i feel like anything you think or. say you put into existence to a certain. degree so i feel like if someone says. something negative about you or like.

they feel something deeply towards you i. feel like it has an outcome towards. yourself so it's kind of like a. manifestation and couldn't be turned. into like a hex yeah what's a hex you. don't know what a hex is you're the. witch you should know this stuff. this guy man no but a hex is like um you. know you know all those movies where. they have a witch and like i cast i cast. a curse on your family for like. thousands of years or something okay i. mean that's a hex it's like a curse okay. so anything your family does will always.

go back to that that one time i mean. that one time you were cursed so let's. say let's say you got cursed and you'll. never be able to have a baby boy yo you. know what's crazy oh i want a son you. know what's crazy my my lola right her. mother tried and tried and tried to have. a son never got a son how many kids does. she have she had 12 sisters 12 daughters. 12 daughters. imagine she gave up she was like no i'm. done here she's a 13th child she was.

like no more she gave up wow that's too. much actually is it i don't know if it's. 12 but it's it's a lot it's something. like that and there's so you have a. kunai knife. yeah that's sick someone important gave. it to me i keep it with me yeah it's. like nice it feels it feels nice yeah. they're distracting you for a second. i'm hypnotizing him. yeah but anyways um. the hex yes the hex right because we. know we know in history there were. witches like there were there was real. witchcraft before do you think there's a. way that can be modernized and used like.

in business because i feel like no. matter what if there is some some way. you can get an advantage over somebody. or some way you can manipulate your. enemy i mean whether it be in business. whether it be in sports whatever there's. always going to be somebody that tries. to cheat or tries to like use that. advantage so do you think there's a way. to modernize witchcraft. that's a dope question that's a don't. you have to go off really tricky. question i what do you mean by. modernized like to to up to date a.

different way yeah because okay let's. say let's say there was a spell to make. somebody off their a game okay i mean. off their a game yeah um i don't. necessarily see carlos i think i'm a. witch here but i don't necessarily. believe in like say a spell or like that. but i just believe in bad intentions. like someone may have such bad. intentions towards you or like they just. that energy yeah and i feel like it. could unbalance you. or weaken you or like like drain you.

okay okay so like maybe like sorry yeah. go go no like maybe if you have a friend. or something or a friend or like a. person yeah that like you move around a. lot and usually they don't last in your. life but they just feel like they're. draining you constantly and you just. have like a bad feeling when you're. around oh you mean like leeching your. energy yeah but not just because they. have bad energy or they're not good. themselves it's because they literally. have like ill will yeah like ill will. towards you so like secretly behind. their back they're like trying to take.

you down and then that's kind of like. affecting your vibration yeah maybe like. that could be a thing. yeah i feel like just ill will i don't. know about the witchcraft okay so do you. actually believe in that like witchcraft. like witches because i mean if you do. believe in astrology if you do believe. in mediums and spirit a lot of spiritual. things then witches are a thing that has. to be a thing yeah i've never looked. into like witchcraft enough like i know. a lot of people like witches are. becoming a popular thing again yeah like. people are like i'm a witch i wouldn't. say i'm i'm a part of that but like i.

feel like yeah i believe in astrology. and i believe in um mediums okay let me. ask you a question then let me ask you a. question so you did say somebody could. be there in your circle and tries to. like lower your vibration or has ill. intent yeah trying to get onto you right. yeah so what is an example or how could. you protect yourself from that that's. actually interesting because after being. on the podcast a lot of people were. messaging me especially younger than us. asking like any advice to make friends. and like if i had any advice about like.

real friends and not so real friends and. like the one thing i feel like i could. say is just for me i think this is what. happened to me at mary's when i moved. because i couldn't make friends yeah. like not that i couldn't it's just i was. so upset with having to move schools. that like i just you're in the wrong. mindset yeah and i just wanted to be by. myself like i didn't wanna like you know. like i wasn't going out of my way to be. like oh i'm gonna find a friend and like. keep them like it's horrible to say but. i ended up keeping friends obviously but. like when i first entered that school i.

had the mindset of you're not meeting. anyone to keep you're just going. yeah right which is negative but then. instead of seeing it so negatively and. so like angry and bitter about it i just. started being like this is the time i. guess to work on myself yeah like. because i have like because i'm i feel. like i don't know about you but i get. super distracted when i have a lot of. people around me or like friends and i. start like getting too involved with. them and falling into their habits yeah. and fall not into their habits that's. one thing i could say i'm like good that.

way but more just like whatever they're. going through i kind of get involved. inherit it like i kind of like really. get involved like emotionally yeah and. which is not bad like i love my friends. oh my gosh i love my friends but i don't. know there's there's a healthy way to do. it and then there's like a unhealthy way. you know what i mean yeah if you go with. the mindset of like oh i'm gonna make. friends and then just look for the bad. and good and bad like i don't think was. it you who was saying this but it was. talking to two of my friends yeah and we. were all talking about when you first. meet someone there's a time where when.

you're just walking past people outside. it's like you look for negative things. like that you feel oh you judge people. like that not i'm not saying like yeah. before but not in not at st mary's or. anything like that when you instead of. thinking so negatively about everything. yeah and just being like not even like. oh negatively is like oh that person. looks like this or that person looks. whatever not even like that it's more. like i bet you that person thinks this. about me oh they're looking at me. because they think this about me but. it's really just your own insecurities.

kicking your butt nah see because i used. to think like that too yeah but i feel. like a lot of people especially in high. school we used to think like that not. because of how we were brought up but. because of media because look at all the. movies look at all the movies the kid. the young nerd in high school he's. getting made fun of and [ __ ] you know i. mean because his quote unquote uncool. not popular right yes and then he looks. at all the other people judging him. because of that it makes that. preconception already that okay you. you're either part of one category or. the other the cliques like you literally.

categorize yourself in like a cast. basically yeah exactly but that's not. your fault that's not your fault that's. just what's been taught i mean but what. i see a lot of especially in our school. there were people the quote unquote like. floaters like they'll hang out with a. bunch of other people yeah then the next. group and then actually which is dope. though i feel like for me personally. like i'm like that i just kind of like. vibe with everyone yeah yeah me too yeah. and sometimes it's tricky because the. people i vibe with they don't bother. with each other so it's like. you know what i mean because you're so. different that's so true so if i try to.

have like any sort of like get together. or anything i don't know no one's gonna. talk i know exactly what you mean yeah. cause yo i remember i was trying to i. was trying to like plan a motive before. with my friends and i wanted to invite. friends in my other friend group oh yeah. and then my other friend group and then. my because it was for the raptors parade. right so it's like it's public it feels. like so long ago but so like near at the. same time yeah i know i know so it was. public it's a public thing and i mean so. anybody can come it's not like you're. paying for that [ __ ] yeah so i'm like. okay let me invite as much people as i.

can so i can see everybody there and. then my one friend group's like no no. why are you inviting them nah that's not. like why not no you know what i mean. yeah because in my opinion this is just. the way i see it if you stick to one. friend group forever then how are you. supposed to make your friends friends. with other friends does that make sense. yeah that's happened that's happened. quite a bit actually like like you. introduce and then like they get along. or they don't which yeah exactly exactly. that's how it works though because if. they don't vibe they don't vibe you. can't fix that but might as well try.

yeah because if you don't try then you. won't know but yeah no like back to like. the whole like making friends or how do. you know when people are fake or not i. just feel like as long as you're just. yourself and like that's what you're. focused on is being yourself and being. positive and like not like just. literally being positive like just this. ball of light people you attract what. you are so when you're being like that a. lot i feel like not all the time but. most of the time you attract what you. are sometimes you get the leechers but. like yeah that's when your people come. to you like because people were like how.

do i find my friends i feel like your. friends are your people that's your. group like that's you know i feel like. when you are positive and happy and just. constantly building and working on. yourself those people just naturally. come into your life yeah you don't have. to look for friends you don't have to. worry about making friends. you know what i mean yeah that is true. like i'm not saying being a lonely loner. like don't just purposefully isolate. yourself to work on yourself be open but. just like constantly be working on yo it. does depend on the city and it does. depend on like the environment filming.

that's true because let's say you're a. basketball player and you go to a soccer. school. nobody's gonna really care that you play. basketball yeah feel me yeah they're. gonna be like yeah like whatever but if. you go to a basketball school you're. going to get big dog because you're such. a good basketball player. such a good basketball player. sorry. you feel me though right yeah and then. this is going back to like the witch. stuff and all of that like spiritual. things yeah where was that moment like. all of a sudden it's a trend a lot of. things are becoming a trend like how.

like i mean because i think people are. just being so quote unquote opened it's. just like every single like they're just. trying to find like a label for. everything yeah when it's like you. should just be what you are but it's. like they're just trying to put a label. on every single thing possible yeah that. makes sense that makes sense because. it's so hard to categorize one person if. they're if they're into so many. different things yeah right but that's. one thing that you're just saying about. being a floater it's like i think it's. awesome because you just create so much. personality and you're just so.

knowledgeable yeah because you just move. around different people and you just. pick up things that they know yeah. exactly yeah because like what would you. categorize me as like if i was in high. school right now what would i be. you're nothing no i just know i just. mean like nothing is in like i wouldn't. conform you to one thing yeah that's. what i mean by nothing. but if we were because you always have. like the jocks you know i mean yeah you. have like the nerves the gamers whatever. i don't know because i came in grade 11. true and it's like i didn't bro i didn't.

even know where to categorize myself so. i wasn't paying attention to cliques. like i didn't i didn't know who was who. and who was friends with who and what. group was what like yeah yeah that makes. sense i just knew you guys like from. first because of like parties like we. would go to the similar ones like when i. was making friends yeah i would see you. guys there but literally like if i'm. like i categorize you with like king. kung fu panda. [Music]. is that racist like i just.

like i just pictured you as like very. like like ninjaness like i don't know. how to explain it wait when you first. saw music yeah like martial arts yeah. like not martial yeah just very like. yang like. that's just how i you just seem to like. i just categorize you as like a peaceful. kid like you there was you were just you. were kind of like me i don't think you. were that all out yeah i was i wasn't i. was kind of shy still yeah to be honest. yeah okay well what's some advice. because a lot of people are starting. school again right new year what's some. advice to make friends or what's some.

advice to just like find yourself in. high school because i think that's a big. one i said honestly like i feel like. when you go into school even when you're. done school september is just that month. where you're just like new year new me. like september's just like so i feel. like you should just carry out with that. and just be like this is a restart like. this is like a restart button like you. get to i believe there's a path for you. i believe that god has like plans a plan. yeah yeah but at the same time it's free. will it it's your decision you get to do. whatever so honestly yeah just if you.

want something september is the month to. just go for it like if you want to make. friends make friends like if you want to. be more open more friendly be more open. be more friendly it's just don't lose. yourself and don't just focus on like. being a pers a likeable person that's. not what you want to do you want to. focus on do i like myself because if you. like yourself enjoy the time every. everyone's going to like you like if. you're yeah that's right if you're happy. with who you are. you know what i mean because it is tough. like when you are insecure and when you. are in that position where damn i'm not. ready to make friends type of thing i.

think that's what holds you back is when. you think like that yeah that's the only. thing that's holding you back is that. mindset yeah that's why i always preach. just you can flip a switch i mean just. change your change your view on things. like i shouldn't look at it negatively. look at it positively don't look at it. half empty look at half full yeah. because that moment you make that switch. the world looks way different i have. some advice yeah assignment homework. advice personally what i used to do. is leave the easy stuff to the end i'd. always be like let me get the hard stuff. out of the way oh like in homework yeah.

yeah let me get the hearts to fill the. way and then do the easy stuff but it's. all wrong you should just do the easy. stuff quickly all first so then you tell. yourself i'm half done like the half. yeah half full type thing it's like oh. and then it makes you be like let me. just do the rest real quick even though. it's harder it just seems easier because. you're like the other stuff's done. because whereas when i would do the hard. stuff first i'd be like my gosh i'm. still stuck on this and then i have the. like not so hard ones to do after yeah. yeah yeah yeah no maybe everyone knows. that and i'm slowly no i swear everybody. does that though oh no i used to do the.

hard stuff first word yeah but yeah some. people think like that because if you. want to get the hard stuff done first. then you don't have to think about it. after even with food when i was a little. kid i'd always eat the stuff i hated. first like all the broccoli and really. yeah and then i'd save the good stuff. for the end but then my grandpa once. told my dad this then my dad told me. like you should just eat the good stuff. first because you enjoy it more because. you're not as full oh word no okay look. i look at it like this i do i do it your. way so i eat the vegetables first and.

then i eat the good stuff last so the. last taste in my mouth was something. good yeah i'm like that too but another. thing is if you want to go about. health-wise it's like healthy stuff. flushes your system out so you eat all. the yucky stuff the crappy stuff first. and then you flush it out with like a. cucumber carrots like it they basically. are like brushes for the inside your. insides like your intestines and all. that. is it intestines or intestinal. intestines intestines oh my gosh. okay i have a funny story yeah okay so. my uncle told me the story this is when.

they just room to canada right so they. weren't they weren't very wealthy to. begin with so what they did they had a. lot of rice filipino people just have. hello rice my culture asian people in. general yeah hello rice in the house. so they're hungry right so what he did. you know how in the mail you get those. flyers for like burger king kfc whatever. yeah he took the kfc flyer. and ate his rice just looking at the kfc. flyer looking at the picture of the. fried chicken as he ate the rice oh like. is it imaginary like he's tasting the. flavor yeah yeah oh my gosh i've done.

something like that before yo you know. that actually works with smells like. you'll actually taste it if you smell it. really so there's these cups that they. put like a scent on it okay so if you. want let's say a vanilla coke with no. vanilla flavoring in it they'd put like. a vanilla cap and then it's like a. scratch and sniff so when you drink so. when you drink it it smells like vanilla. and it changes the taste like it changes. your taste receptors to make it taste. like you tasted vanilla because you're. smelling it that's really cool i didn't. know that was a thing because i look at.

that and i think okay [ __ ] maybe in the. future we can just eat vegetables and it. will taste like again like sweet stuff. kind of like wonka it was like a piece. of gum exactly it's gonna taste like. cotton candy it's gonna taste like fries. you know what i mean that'd be so sick. and also like oh my gosh when i was. cutting out sugar of my diet you know. what i used to do what i used to. literally chew like sweet stuff and spit. it out. do you still get it though because it. goes in your gums not really because. it's not like you don't digest you don't. digest it you absorb some in your taste.

buds that's about it. that's a good way to that's how i like. canceled sugar yeah from my diet but you. still tasted it also yeah but then now i. don't now i don't even have to do that. it was just a way to stop completely. that's pretty smart still yeah so. there's one thing my mom told me if you. if you ever want to just quit because i. have to have to have a low sodium diet. now why because um my my family has high. blood pressure oh no so i can inherit. that yeah so i have to wash my sodium. that's what the doctor told me and my. mom's been cooking everything with like.

really low sodium so it kind of sucks. doesn't taste good but i look at it a. different way because when i eat at home. now whenever i eat out it's so salty. it's gonna taste like amazing oh it's. gonna taste like 100 times better okay. so it's like a special thing but you. know what's crazy yeah because my. problem is sugar diabetes runs in my. family so i cut it out for many reasons. but no now when i whenever i eat it my. body hates it oh really like it tastes. good when i'm chewing it and then when. it's in my body i just feel like. horrible yeah.

because i heard this thing like most. problems we have health-wise is from. sugar yeah most. and it sucks because that's what tastes. the best. that's what tastes the best they're so. good so i'm one i always want to like. damn why did god make sugar taste so. good but it's the worst for us it's. because human beings god made everything. so that it's in moderation like but. humans god did not make candy yeah he. just made sweet food like sweet fruits.

and like oh that's fraxel yeah. you know made it into powder then all. this stuff and like we overdo it it's. processed no yeah yeah it's not even. just the fact that it's processed we. overdo it we're not supposed to eat that. much we're just greedy yeah going to. that remember you're talking about greed. what about greed you oh you were saying. that groot is greedy. yeah you were saying that greed is the. root to all evil yeah i always i always. preach that though because because look. at it look at it like anything you do.

any evil you see in the world any like. evil feelings you have in you just link. it back to greed yeah like let's say. let's say you're jealous of someone. you're jealous of someone because you. don't have enough of it you want more. you want more what they have you want. more of what they have that's greed. right. but obviously there's so many different. like situat there's so many different. situations but a lot of the simple. things a lot of the simple arguments. whether it be relationships what i mean. it's always with greed like [ __ ] they. want to see or it's either like cheating. or it's jealousy it's like yeah you know.

what i mean like oh why are you talking. to that person and it's just because you. want that person all to yourself so. that's great exactly that's what it is. right it's greed that's what stems all. evil. in my opinion do you think you lack in. any sort of greed me like honestly i. think i have enough greed yeah i do too. because here's the thing like nobody's. perfect right nobody's perfect and i. don't think you can have you know the. yin and yang there's the light and the. dark right the good and the evil there. can never be all good if there's no evil.

i think i was watching something i don't. know if we talked about this in the last. podcast but it's like there's no such. thing as good and bad people it's just. like some people do more bad things some. people do more yeah yeah i don't know. about that but i don't know i don't know. if i i say there's no bad people there. definitely is bad people yeah 100. there's bad people but everybody has the. capacity to do both. and everybody does both if you think. about it not everybody is born evil not. everybody is born good it's just. whatever direction they're steered. toward is what they end up doing and.

like i said before it can never be good. without bad right think about that like. if you always do good if you always do. good if you always do good right yeah. and something bad comes into your life. how are you gonna feel that's gonna be. devastating to you yeah and i mean now. if you're used to bad things that one. thing that was bad that happened to you. that didn't matter too much because. you're used to that stuff yeah somebody. that that grew up amazing life. everything was rainbows whatever. when they touch the hardship they're. going to be devastated.

it's because they haven't touched it. before yeah had no taste of it before so. it's like they feel more when they. happen exactly like because they're not. they don't know what to do with that and. then everything gets unbalanced yeah. right away right away that's true like. not to make it like a sad scene here but. like i feel like say you get hurt once. and then you get hurt over and over. again it comes to the point where you're. just like it doesn't hurt as bad because. you know because you know you're. stronger no cuz look look what's that. saying sticks and stones break your. bones yeah but words can never hurt you. and [ __ ] yeah that's true because if you.

keep drilling yourself keep drilling. yourself you keep training yourself and. going through all of these hard. experiences look at look at all those. millionaires and billionaires that came. from the dirt yeah i mean they were told. so many times in their life that you're. not worth nothing you're not gonna make. it out you know i mean but they make it. out because they have that motivation. because they tasted the dirt yeah they. tasted what it really is to feel at the. bottom that's when i think it's like. sometimes i feel like people who are. unfortunate have more of that thirst or.

thrive. get out of that exactly push so much. harder than people who are just like. fortunate or are lucky you know what i. mean yo that [ __ ] could be a superpower. if you think about it yeah cause look. look let's say a kid was born into a. rich family yeah yo he's not gonna have. the same hunger that the kid that didn't. have anything and has to support his. mother on his by himself they're not. gonna have the same hunger i always. think that's so sweet when you hear like. guys who are famous or like or girls who. like do well and they're like what are.

you gonna do with your money like i'm. gonna buy my mom a house or like i'm. gonna buy my mom a car i'm like like. that's so sweet yeah and it's important. yo it's important to remember your. family because that's where it all stems. from right you're only here because of. your family if you really take it in. yeah and yo if you don't take care of. them or don't give back and it's like. you're not remembering where you started. from yeah right which is so important. it's so important that's true think. about it you you were brought up in a. way every single thing whatever you've. been taught whatever morals the food you. eat you know what i mean. it's from your parents.

yeah and like if you didn't have the. same parents you wouldn't be who you are. exactly yeah yeah you're only who you. are because of them yeah and god all. right let me ask you something okay what. are you what are your goals like what do. you want at the end of your journey like. what do you want to see do you want. wealth you want success. what i want is to reach out to as many. people as possible like connect with as. many people as possible yeah which is. why i was so happy after doing the. podcast because i gained a lot of. friends on there like so many so thank.

you. of course um i think when it comes to. wealth the only reason why i would want. any sort of money is to make a. difference yeah in the world like i. think everyone wants to but you know the. more people who are doing it the better. but for me being a hundred percent. honest. at the end of everything is i want to. have a family you know what i mean and. this is what i want to talk to you about. actually is like when it comes to like. um adulthood and like making a family or.

living your lifestyle. it's like the world we're in today is. crazy because our currency is based off. of us shredding nature which is money. yeah like paper and that's what controls. the whole world like it's insane to me. like currency is literally paper and i. always think about going back to like. trade instead. instead of like money the only thing. about that. because yeah yeah i know what you mean. but the thing about that now is there's. so many different anomalies now yeah you. know you know what i mean there's so.

many different things and it's so hard. to measure it without a measurement yeah. so i feel like money is just the. measurement it's like the sentiment i. mean it's like the perfect like it's. like the most approximate like you can. get no it's just the way you can measure. it because look let's say let's say i'm. a surfer and i teach you surf lessons. okay and then you want to teach me art. lessons right how do we value surfing. from art lessons we don't know. we don't know but we can measure it but. by how long it takes and how much it. costs but the thing is is costs because.

we decided to make cost wouldn't even be. a thing yeah like there's owing. obviously like not even owing it's just. like you did something for me all this. thing for you so it's like say say okay. you're saying art lessons surf lessons. yeah yeah say it's like there's. something i need to learn and then. there's something you need in return. maybe it's nothing to learn you just. need in return i'll be like okay i can. get that for you yeah but then it has to. be like a mutual agreement yeah yeah i. know that's why i guess. sometimes i wish we could go back to. that because i think money is like. sometimes it's just mind-blowing okay so.

do you think more money more problems. then honestly i think so honestly i. think so. because it's crazy you said that because. when i didn't have a job. all i'd wear is my parents clothes like. i'd make fits for myself with my parents. old clothes or like the thrift store but. mainly my parents clothes and honestly i. felt so confident like i was so happy to. be like yo i put this foot together i'm. gonna go out i'm gonna head out but now. like having a job and making money and. buying clothes it's like i can never be. happy like i always i'm like oh this is.

not enough or this is not the right fit. or i should get something else because i. would go better with these shoes when i. would have probably just made something. with what i had back then so the more. not the merrier yeah i don't think i. think you're right the only thing is. what i talked about what i'm saying is. like wealth is important only in the. sense of if you're trying to have a. family or a big family it's like the. only way you can get them into like good. health care good like mental health like. therapist or something like that good. school you got to be able to afford it. you have to be able to afford it to give.

them a good life but that's not true. necessarily i know there's really good. parents who can't afford these things. yeah but it's just like you feel. inadequate as a parent when you can't. provide the best of the best for your. kid in any sort of way yeah that's so. interesting you think like that because. you're just you're my age yeah that's my. problem i'm always thinking like 20. steps ahead stressing that's crazy it. stresses me out but yeah like i'm. surprised you think like that because i. don't even think about any of that in. the future like i just think about the. present moment and my goal right now.

everything else that happens happens and. see that's my work it's like okay i want. to be independent and like all those. people who want to be independent and. like there's this question of like if i. leave home and if i move out i could be. saving right now yeah instead of just. because the whole thing is in when you. rent there's not really much assets in. renting no there's not there's not but. then at the same time is like this is. when you have to decide whether you want. to put your mental over like your future. because that's what i debate all the. time it's like okay um like if i was on.

my own i'd be more independent more. motivated it's my own space you know. more responsible yeah it's my place you. know what i mean but then at the same. time it's like oh i could be saving this. money towards buying a house having. children and maybe or even buying an. apartment then renting that apartment. out making money from there yeah you. know what i mean these are the things. i'm thinking about you know what look. look because you said would you say you. feel trapped in a position because of. your where you are right now i'm. thinking no no like you're you're you're. stuck to one spot yeah like because you.

said you don't feel independent why do i. feel trapped in where i am right now. yeah yeah you feel attractive wait look. if you feel like that i always say like. okay you think about it like that right. now right why don't you try and look at. it differently because that's the thing. people think all whatever they have is. all they have but what if what you have. can be looked at from different sides. yeah it's see my mindset goes back and. forth sometimes i'm like my gosh i have. all these doors open. in a good way and i'm like oh my gosh. i'm so like what's the word so many. things are available like i could just.

there's so much i have so much. opportunity so much opportunity very. optimistic but then other times i look. at it i'm like i could have more like. does that make sense like if i was to be. on my own or something like that yeah. but yo honestly just just just be. confident in what you're doing and i. mean yeah cause even if it feels like. you don't know what you're doing i feel. like if you change your mindset and just. say i know what i'm doing and it just it. just feels different and you just feel. like you know what you're doing yeah i. remember i watched this one podcast. right there's this guy he said whenever. i feel sick.

i just change in my head like oh i do. that i'm not sick i do that and you get. better i do that and for me because i'm. so used to doing that it works right. yeah but because i'm so used to doing. that now yeah it's like it's good. because i've trained myself like yeah. sometimes it's gonna throw up so you. have like toxins and you you have to. throw up but like i've trained myself. like you know when it's just like in. your head that you feel sick yeah and. then you're like i'm gonna go throw up. it's like i've gotten to that level now. where i'm like i'm fine i'm not sick and. then i'm fine you know what it's kind of. like it's like manifestation too right. yeah and i think that's why crystals.

work you know why because look look look. if you think about it if you have like. let's say i have something with me it. could it could yeah it could be a. crystal it could be this [ __ ] pikachu. right if i just give a meaning to it. right let's say i give a meaning to this. pikachu every time i see this i'ma feel. confident so when i see it you're like. confident yeah exactly exactly so it. radiates that energy subconsciously. because i put that meaning to it yeah. right now it's almost as if it is like a. placebo with crystals too it is it is.

but at the same time it's signed like. some their science to it yeah yeah yeah. but yeah but that's definitely an aspect. to the hassle. for sure because for sure um sugar pills. and those placebos work so that means. any other placebo like something you. hold on your wrist yeah whatever like a. bracelet just like the power bands. before remember yeah like those. the power balance that's literally yeah. i remember those yeah it made you feel. like balance balance it made you feel. like a better athlete yeah but it's it's. not actually because what it's doing is.

because of your subconscious yeah right. yeah not to get like dark but even if. you had like a gun on you that's not. loaded you just feel more like safe. because you're just like. okay that's different stuff you're. different from that one. sorry i've been watching fbi shows i've. been watching fbi shows okay i'm not. crazy okay no but that makes sense to. you because like. if you're that man in the back of the. club that has a strap on it you just you. feel safe yeah you do yourself you mess. with me bro i have a gun like yeah no. one can see it say it's like behind.

you're just like no one can mess with me. yeah four foot like you know what i mean. see i look it i look at that and then i. look at um the wild west look at the. wild west everybody in the wild west had. guns and there was like no law where. everyone just felt so like top crap yeah. everybody just felt like yeah top [ __ ]. you know like the untouchable yeah then. i look at a place like texas where. everybody can carry a gun and. everybody's so nice you know why they're. so nice no it's because they know if you.

be rude you're going to get shot yes. you're true right. exactly that's so funny right because. look look if you go to the city go to a. big city new york toronto right. [ __ ] people in toronto could be rude for. no reason. but i find they're nice well sometimes. sometimes really whenever toronto i feel. like everyone's so much nicer it depends. it depends i feel like they're just more. diverse and they're more open to like. but you have to but you do have those. people that like go bump into you. whatever like they don't get out of my. way whatever coffee yeah yeah yeah so.

look at it like this if you were rude. like that though yeah we love toronto. we're not talking about it yeah but if. you were like that i had that mindset in. a place like texas it wouldn't be. because you know he stopped getting shot. yeah no he stopped it's actually funny. said that because my sister my dad just. came back from texas word so that's. funny that you say that because now i'm. like dang good thing they didn't step on. anyone's toes down there yeah because. you have a little bit more respect yeah. i mean and it's not that like you. wouldn't have respect before it's. because it shows your respect on your. hip it's also like discipline too.

like you know what i mean when you go to. places like thailand or something it's. just like or singapore yeah it matters. to me that's that's definitely yeah. that's definitely a big one it's like. how are you brought up but i just. thought about that yeah yeah there's. this video of like these little kids in. japan cleaning up after this themselves. after school like they sweep their class. they clean everything after and it's. just like this is why like they're more. respectful in those in that country. because like they're so disciplined yeah. they're so disciplined and they're. taught to like you know don't leave a. mess for others because you know what. it's like to clean up yeah you know what.

i mean. but um yeah one thing i want to say. about crystals really quickly that. relates to god is that like you know. what i was thinking is that because you. know how you're saying like we're. talking about moderation like. everything's done in moderation like i. think the part of the test is to see. like if you overdo things like you know. what i mean yeah or you could just you. know go at a nice steady pace so do you. think balance there's a there could be. an overuse of crystals or that belief i. think so because i was like over. indulging in them. and like it just goes with everything.

that me and chris was talking about the. beginning of like something not good. happening yeah it's like i was over. indulging i was getting greedy yeah. exactly with crystals like it was more. about oh my gosh i want this collection. rather than what can this crystal do for. me or what's the meaning for me behind. this christmas or you put too much faith. in it no no not even too much not like. that at all it was just that i had so. many yeah it was just like it was about. the show it was just like oh okay i love. how this looks not even to show it off. to other people it's just like oh yeah i. have all these crystals in my room like.

this is nice to look at like i just. over-indulged and i was just buying too. many and the thing is is like god put. these like minerals and like crystals in. the ground and we were talking about the. last time about like being barefoot and. grounding yourself yeah yeah yeah he. wanted us to be always walking just. about my nose always walking on these. crystals like we he want us to be. instead of like cutting it out because. basically the chris there's oh what. you're saying is they should have stayed. in the ground stay in the ground and we. should be bare feet constantly walking.

on these vibrations that makes sense but. there's so many buildings that's a good. theory to look at it like yeah but. there's so many buildings and flooring. that you they're too far from us so what. what do we do we're like oh we know. about these crystals let's just take. them out of the ground now yeah but. everything is like moderation and it. becomes like there's potency you know. what i mean and i went to a metaphysical. store recently and the lady in front of. me was like oh i want to return this. crystal and i was thinking about you. when you said about the um blue appetite. was it yeah yeah and she was like i have. to return this crystal like every time i.

wear it i get headaches. and all this stuff and it's just like. they can become potent to you like if. they are powerful we're not supposed to. be in direct contact with them yeah even. though i love crystals and i still. literally have one on me right now i. just think there's moderation to. everything like don't over indulge in. anything don't put all your cards into. one thing you know what i mean yeah. there definitely is uh over overdoing or. something there's definitely is. overdoing in a lot of things yeah even. eating healthy and stuff it's like you. don't wanna there's like such thing as.

like eating disorders where you just. constantly eat too healthy yeah because. if you eat too healthy then you don't. get the pleasure or the joy. yeah and then you get kind of trapped. and you don't you don't get to explore. things right i feel like that's that's. the only thing that really holds me back. from eating healthy is being able to. enjoy company. right like when my friends are just like. let's go to dimitri's or something. exactly right exactly sugar and i just. sit there and i'm like and i eat a. strawberry. because i won't eat like you know the. crepe or whatever it is yeah you know.

what i think one of my favorite like. pastimes or just activity group. activities to do no it's actually like. doing what we were doing in the vlog. like looking like exploring exploring. exploring or even just yeah that was. looking into the spirituality or looking. into like the paranormal yeah just we. have to be careful with that yeah you. just have to be careful you have to be. careful but it's interesting going into. the unknown like it's i just like trying. things that i've never tried exactly. that's what it is so like cool about it. it's like an experience and that's why i.

got like a polaroid or i guess that's. kind of like your vlog camera is like. capturing all of that yeah like those. moments like it's like a scrapbook are. you almost like i feel like your podcast. and your like vlogs like collections for. you know yeah it is i get to look back. on my life now like what was my mindset. on day one compared to day 50. which is. dope. right but going back to um to like the. ghosts and stuff right i have this. theory for you i don't know if you know. about this okay you know about the door. theory no so take this in every single. door or like the normal doors they use.

in a house they have a cross and a bible. placed into the door you see it the. symbol of a cross and a bible are in the. door i've always noticed that as a kid. yeah like the do like not not all doors. but like majority of doors right mm-hmm. like there's a cross the regular door. you know that that shape yeah so the top. the top part is a cross and then the. bottom is an open bible look look at it. look at it yeah oh yeah okay then yeah i. do yeah i know i do see it like that. right like that and that's another thing.

is like in my house there's always like. there's always crosses like those palm. leaf crossings yeah yeah yeah all the. doors so what they used to do is they. made it like that to keep away evil. spirits from entering your home you know. what's crazy my old house didn't have. that it was just. it was just a wooden like each was just. wooden that's why i think not all doors. yeah yeah yeah i did like it was just. flat yeah oh damn yeah did you have any. like ghost stories at the house and yeah. you do yeah like not that i can remember. it's just there was constantly activity.

in that house like cause it was also. backed on a forest too for some reason. my claw there was two really big closets. in that that house is really small there. was no basement or anything but in my. room there was two really big closets. for some reason yeah like and they were. so odd like the door the ceiling was. like this like it was like slanted like. that and that closet had like a both. closets they were on either side like. one was they weren't like facing each. other yeah one was like here like here. and the other was like here i think and. like kind of diagonal from each other.

and they were both slanted and there was. always like i don't know if it's just. like me being a child and just afraid. yeah of like closets but there's just. weird like energy in there like no one. would want to play hide and seek in. those closets like any other any other. rooms in the house is like fine but. there was just something like off and. also the house was so old yeah it's such. an old house like everything was wooden. in there like everything um so you. didn't see anything like open nothing. like that my dad's office door yeah i. feel like because my door was like my.

door was here and his office door was. here so this is my door yeah like the. our door was always open but his door. would like move a bit but like i don't. know if that's just like wind the way. the wind is circulating in my house but. that house i don't have like i don't. remember much but it's just there was. like a lot of like intenseness in that. house just like the vibe this is a vibe. and it was also backed onto a forest. like big big forest and i always feel. like houses backed onto forests are just. i don't know i always feel like there's. something there you think like it's a. portal type thing yeah portal bro when i.

go into forest it's just like you just. feel like it's like another dimension. kind of thing like it's just weird you. know why it's because we're we're like. city that's why that's true because. whenever you go to a forest then it's. like you get taken into a place away. from that and look at um central park. the big ass forest a big ass park in the. middle of downtown forest like i feel. like when you go into forest there's. just a completely different like. obviously different energy it's a lot. more peaceful yeah but it just it just. feels like there's people that like. there's not people but there's like. stuff there yo because you don't get.

that in in the philippines right in the. philippines they say there's mythical. creatures that live in the forest and. you heard you hear stories like that. before where there's fairies there's. elves that live in the forest right so i. said this on the podcast before but my. aunt no my lola she believed that she. saw like little people like elves. that talked to her they're called the. duende one day yeah and they talked to. her and they brought her out on the. adventures and they could disappear they. can reappear and only kids can see them. oh that's so cute so she was a little.

kid when she was a little kid and she. would disappear from the house. she would disappear from the house. everybody's looking for where'd you go. where'd you go right and she's like oh i. was with the the duende that's so cute. no i believe in i definitely think. there's some mythical creatures like. that yeah cause take this in yo my aunt. too my auntie i think i said this on the. podcast before she saw a half man half. horse i've heard many things about those. really yeah like i've heard many and. i've like heard like stories and. whatever. that's what it is right is there such.

thing as like mixed species we don't. know that's that's like that's like a. big thing like we don't know that's a. mystery there's a movie coming out. actually it's called the i forgot what. it's called but it's a 24 film and. it's about this guy that he smashed the. sheep. and then they have like a sheep kid. that's so weird i'm not gonna talk crap. but did the the kid talk like do you. know anything no it's like a it's like a. sheep head with a kid's body that's. weird. but like is the head realistic like it.

is it looks like no it's realistic it's. really does it look like a straight up. sheephead and then a human yeah it's a. 24. human features it's the same it's. the same producers as hereditary so you. already know it's going to be like some. next [ __ ] [ __ ] what's that movie. about witches which one what it's called. it's so weird it's such a strange movie. and it's like there's just one scene. that just replays in my head and it's. just so gross like it's just this like. witch and she's just like crushing. a baby and what the heck and like you. can't see the baby but you just see her.

like crushing something. she's like yeah that's a dark side she's. nude and it's just weird like her hair. is super long and it's going into her. like butt it's so weird wait. your parents are from sri lanka right. yeah do they have any like stories from. sri lanka because i know uh a lot of. like possession stories a lot of. possession stories yeah i can't remember. much but like like auntie's getting. possessed or like not related to me. necessarily but just ones they knew. there. there's a lot of like exorcism stories.

yeah my cousins well like my family. friend but they're basically cousins. their uncle is a priest and he's done. like exercise exercise yeah exorcisms. exorcisms yeah yeah but um yo there's. this one story i don't think i said this. on the podcast so my cousin this was at. my aunt's haunted house like this is. that as a haunted house like so many. different stories happen at this right. yeah so what happened was this is like a. little thing but def something. definitely happened my little cousin. when he was i think he was like five.

four years old okay he would see like a. lady in the backyard all the time you. would say oh it's the lady it's the lady. right in the backyard now one time he. was crying about the lady and he. wouldn't stop crying like it was hours. and hours he wouldn't stop crying right. that's not normal so my uncle what he. did or my lolo actually he took one of. those brooms you know those brooms that. are just straw yeah yeah. yeah he took it put it up in the air and. twirled it around three times yeah and.

he stopped crying and apparently that's. something you're supposed to do if. somebody's like possessed or someone's. trying to take over somebody like a. demon's trying to take over somebody he. was a demon we don't know maybe he was a. ghost maybe who knows what it is right. you know what's crazy remember that old. ghost story i told you about yeah about. the kids i babysat the feather lady i. never mentioned this part but um the boy. i babysat yeah he kept saying that um. the lady that we were seeing had a son. like she had a little boy yeah and his.

name was cj and whoa cj was naughty like. apparently he was really naughty like. always try to pick fights with the kid i. babysat but like he wasn't scary he was. just like a naughty kid damn cg is my. initials family. and whenever i'd have these like weird. encounterments with you know like. spiritualism and stuff like that yeah it. wouldn't just be one day it was like. weeks or like up to a month i'm just. like. messed up crap happening and um yeah.

sophia my friend had called me. and she was like oh my gosh like he. keeps talking about cj like and it was. like late in the night. and it was weird because i couldn't tell. you know when you can't tell between. like if you're awake or if you're. sleeping like if things are actually. happening oh yeah i know those yeah i. was i think i was awake but i kept. hearing because he said that cj had a. bell like he'd have a belt and he'd run. why who knows he kept saying that like.

yeah cj would have a ballot and he'd run. and it's crazy because right before. sophia had called me. i heard someone like i don't know if it. was it's my attic or what it is but like. above i don't know what that means. something running like back and forth. like sounded like kid footsteps like in. your house in my house bringing. something like about like. a bicycle bell yeah but like it was just. really weird like i was just like that's. crazy we were all just like um like she. literally ended up i said like she moved. out of that house yeah and like once.

again yeah my bad no no she he would. always tell me like oh like cj and um. the lady no sash like all these people. know sasha and it's just weird because. like obviously they were going in. between mine and her house or something. like that mm-hmm. yeah i was really creepy so you felt. like you didn't know if you were. sleeping or not right yeah so take this. in so there's a study that 99 or 90. of ghost encounters may be during sleep. paralysis because you can't do anything. because you can't do it so whenever you. have one of those moments where you do. see a spirit is when you're like in.

sleep paralysis or even hypnotized you. know when you're hypnotized and you. can't move i think it's the same thing i. think they're doing it because look look. when you are in like sleep paralysis. what if that's like a dimension or. that's like that's what i was trying to. say remember how i told you that you. remember and you were like that sleep. paralysis yeah when i was having sleep. paralysis i told you i felt like three. presences yeah like moving around me. like like you know once when you're. sleeping and someone like sits on your. bed and you just feel like you feel the. weight i had that like on the two sides. of me and at the bottom of me so what if.

that when you do have that you're. vulnerable to spirits. what if. what is this one. what if yeah you know probably i think. so right probably i think so because i'm. so scared to like if my vibe is off like. i'm so scared to talk about these things. because of like everything that happened. that one yeah so like i don't have much. to say so sorry if i'm boring this time. no no. yeah but no yeah like i think yo okay. let me ask you something because i've. been seeing i think you can help me with.

this i've been seeing i told you the. number three three everywhere three okay. i see three three three a lot and. license plate and stuff everywhere on my. way here actually do you know saint. isaac jokes yeah it's a church. there was a car parked and i right when. i saw i was thinking of how you tell me. like oh wow sasha man like i keep saying. to you right when i was thinking that. there was a car parked and right in the. front there the license plate was three. two three yo. but i swear i'm gonna show a picture on. screen it was like of my of the vlog i.

think was of the vlog 30 33 likes three. dislikes thirty three thousand something. like everything three it could be. something trying to tell you something. like have you done your research into. what numbers i think it's actually like. i think i've written you look into it. yeah i i've looked into many like see i. have 11 here 311 like like numbers just. i see numbers a lot like i see 333 a lot. i don't see three three i see 333 a lot. and i also see um i see all of it i see. 333 or a 3-3 i was talking to someone.

and it's like the starting point of like. recognizing angel numbers is like 11 11. like that's how they get your attention. because it's the known universal like. everyone knows 11 11 make a wish that's. how they get your attention and then. after 11 11 you start seeing other. numbers that you can't you don't. necessarily know they mean anything to. you you just see them repetitively. but you should look into 333 i i know 3. 3 is something to do with jesus i can't. remember really yeah i can't remember.

what i think it has something to do with. the vatican too i forgot i think there's. like 33 pillars something like that. it's a holy number yeah yeah because the. number three the holy trinity yeah so. there's a lot of significance with three. which is really interesting there is a. lot of significance okay let me ask you. something yeah if you had somebody that. you really loved and they passed away oh. man yeah would you want to connect with. them in the afterlife like try and hang. out with them. try and contact them oh like through my. life they try to yeah yeah i would you. would want to talk to them again right.

yeah i'd do whatever i could to like. talk to them again but you have to be so. careful right yeah so yo i have this. theory for you right okay this one's. crazy so kanye [ __ ] actually i said this. one already yeah tell me though. so okay i'm gonna say it again then okay. so kanye during his donda preview during. the dawn event the whole thing was set. up as a seance for his mother to try and. contact his mother so he had a candle. and this like. the like listening party yeah those. listening parties those were saying for.

his mother and there's a theory that the. three because he's gonna have three. listening parties right for donda so. kanye's gonna have three listening. parties for dondo so the theory is that. it supposedly represents the three. levels of the afterlife so the first one. was hell that's how he's dressed in all. red yeah the second one was purgatory. because he was dressed in all black. right and at the end of the second one. he was like rising up into the sky. remember that yeah so the theory goes. maybe the third one is heaven so he. might dress in all white and we're gonna.

see a heaven type of themed yeah. listening party i mean yeah that makes. total sense but i don't necessarily. believe that you're in hell like when. you first die i feel like you just go. straight to purgatory no but i think. it's just i i don't i don't know if you. it's his view i think it's just like the. three different places oh that's right. he's just saying okay that makes sense. but um well we're gonna say i cut you. off i think it was just like do you. believe in that you go to hell like. before you go to purgatory because for. you. some people say you visit oh and then. you go to purgatory i thought i thought.

there's only one or the other though. like i never really looked into. purgatory i don't even know purgatory. have you ever heard of scapulars or. scapulas or they're like i think we. talked scapula what is that it's like a. scapular so it's basically like it's it. could either oh yeah yeah i know what. you're talking about yeah you wear the. metal in the front it's like it's a. blessed it's a blessed necklace and. basically like whoever wears this when. they die shall not touch the fires of. hell yeah yeah and it's like the first i. think it's like the first saturday after. you die you go straight to heaven like. say you die on a tuesday on that. saturday you go to like that's what i.

heard you don't even have to go oh so. it's like a wait yeah so if you die on. monday you gotta wait yeah until. saturday or sunday but apparently like. but there's a lot like there's a lot of. rules like you have to like pray. obviously you can't break any of this. like commitments like sins you can't do. any of that. but like yeah i wonder how that works i. don't know you won't find out until you. find out you're there so another thing. is i think people have trouble with. believing in a god because they don't. they can't put a face to him. yo did you know the picture of jesus.

christ. isn't actually jesus at all it's. actually the son of the king during the. time i think the king of france or the. king of rome during that time so you. know the the jesus white face long hair. beard mustache right that's not actually. jesus that face that whole image of him. yeah was the depiction of somebody's son. the king's son and they just used that. as the picture of jesus what about the. holy shroud the holy shroud because. that's supposed to be you know what the. holy [ __ ] is oh and what they wrapped.

face no that's a different thing yeah. that's two things there's mary magdalene. right she had wiped his face and his. face was in the in the in the cloth in. the cloth no the shroud is what he was. wrapped in in his tomb when he died yeah. and when he rose on the third day his. shroud was left there his like the cloth. he was wrapped in yeah and his like face. and like i think his body i don't know. but i know his face for sure was. imprinted in it really and it looked. like supposedly what you're saying. france prince yeah i forgot the exact.

story that's a bible story so i'm. wondering another thing that i wanted to. mention is that apparently did you know. you know the adam and eve story yeah. apparently i didn't know this but eve. was born from adam did you know that. yeah you didn't know that no i didn't. yeah so god took adam's rib that's why. men are missing a rib gave it to eve to. make e to make eve and you know what. makes sense because adam and eve are. obviously partners right yeah and it. makes sense because this may be like i. guess it could be a controversial topic. but like well maybe not but like what i.

believe is like when you go back to soul. mates yeah soul mates are like from each. other yeah yeah yeah that's what you. were saying before like the twin flame. from the same flame but separated yeah. that's what was like adam and eve were. obviously soul mates if they were. belonged partners that god put them. together. so i don't know about you but you know. when you are in a relationship and you. kind of turn into the other person like. do you know what i mean like you said. for me i don't do that well you start. using all the same lingo but yeah. you know what i mean see you're even. saying you don't even do that so what. i'm saying is that like some people like.

i just feel like when you meet your soul. mate it's like you already are very. alike yeah but like the more and more. you get closer to them or spend time. with them the more and more you. eventually like turn into each other see. but that's the thing because i never. know [ __ ] is it quote unquote soulmate. or is it just someone i'm infatuated. with see because that's the thing right. like how do you know how do i know that. i don't know okay the thing is is you do. though when you have the feeling because. like no but you can be infatuated.

with a dog feel me yeah but now you're. going into another thing like. you could be infected with dog no you. got me though right yeah but you're a. soul mate could be a dog yeah can it. yeah why not like a romantic soul mate. but it's like like sometimes people. literally say my dog is my best friend. my.

that time like in i don't know do you. think you're created in heaven and then. sent down is that how it works i don't. know i have no idea okay well i'm not. sure either but it's like did you ever. watch the movie is it seoul yeah so yeah. do you know how those like little. creature thingies like all those there's. a little the soul the little souls right. little souls till they like meet up with. the big and then they go down and then. they're yeah yeah yeah yeah so i feel. like soul mates are like someone told me. this but the little souls. like you make friends up there and then. you forget about each other when you. come down and then you're reunited with.

them. you know what i mean yeah because i. don't know though see yeah yeah you made. him think very differently yeah i think. very different because i look at it like. okay i'm gonna give you a story i had a. teddy bear i had a teddy bear and i. loved that teddy bear did ask i was so. young i love that teddy bear almost like. it's like my brother type thing you know. so take this in whenever i left it. somewhere whenever i didn't have it i. would feel like real sadness yeah like. real that's real affection real feelings. right but it is a teddy bear and. eventually as i grew older it did change.

and here's the thing so much deeper than. teddy bears yeah no this is so much. deeper than that because look look. there's people that fall in love right. mm-hmm they fall out of love when they. change they fall and fall out of love. when they change and then they look back. at it and like damn i was so infatuated. at that moment because i i even had that. too that's true but when it's a soulmate. i feel like it's a whole different. feeling like. infatuation also goes with chemistry. yeah you can have chemistry with a lot. of people yeah exactly exactly chemistry. you can have with so many people but.

it's like for me i feel like a soulmate. like i watch the whole thing on like. soulmates and i think it's what they. were saying is like you feel a sense of. spiritualism and like god in that person. like the creator in that person like you. see the creator in that person like. obviously you don't see like an image of. god and when you look at that person but. it's like you just feel like there's. just this sense of peace and like. obviously there's people that can bring. you comfort yeah but like there's a. different level when you reach your soul.

mate like i don't know how to explain. see the thing is though like when i. don't know if i met that yet or i don't. even know what that is yet that's the. thing that's why i can't talk to you. about it but it's something that's the. thing i don't know relevant that i. always am thinking about say i want to. talk about it but because i definitely. felt infatuation i definitely felt like. of course i felt loved right yeah but. infatuation's like also obsession like. yeah it's the same thing yeah yeah but i. don't know how would you differentiate. that from like so like i don't know what. to call us only you believe in god right. yeah so god obviously has a plan for you.

so part of that plan he has specific. people yeah and like there's a group of. you that like you're supposed to meet. again like end up together you know what. okay what if i don't have a soulmate. then is that a possibility if that's. god's plan but right that's true because. some people die without marrying but the. thing is is like then you're sent back. because a part of god's plan is for you. to fully know how to love and i feel. like you can fully know how to love like. there are such thing as like nuns and. stuff yeah yeah and they don't ever have.

a romantic party that's the thing right. because look they don't have a romantic. partner they don't marry when you talk. about reincarnation it's like i feel. like to fully finish the cycle and. golden around and go to heaven you have. to experience a love like a romance love. once but that's okay what if i i don't. know this is like this is just like what. if like in my past lives i already done. that yeah so and then you're right then. i'm already done with that stuff but if. i'm on the next stage. like carlos is on that way um that could. be a thing it's getting very definitely. opening my eyes to a lot of things.

because look because um you know how. they say like old soul yeah you could be. old soul and lived like countless lives. of course yeah how do you know like [ __ ]. what if you already done all those. lessons now you're on the next step to. do something else that means you're. closer probably to heaven like you're. already past look at it like this like. who okay if you if you did have a. purpose right if you did have a purpose. that means there was a lesson to be. learned from that right what if you. learned those lessons already in your. previous so you're right you're right. that could be a thing and to me those. people are people who end up turning.

into saints or they're like those are. like the monks or like those people have. already gone through life and that's why. they feel fulfilled and they don't have. that emptiness of feeling the need to. find a person to spend the rest of their. life with so like mother teresa gandhi. all of them okay but here's the thing. though too when i was younger i had that. feeling like i thought i needed. something to make me feel better or like. i'm missing a piece that's the thing is. like your soul mate's never that though. like when they're gone it's never like. i'm lonely again that's not the feeling.

you get it's just it's not i'm missing. my a piece it's like that person is. there not to complete you necessarily in. ways yes yeah but it's a part of your. purpose like not just like completion. it's just which is what your purpose is. but it still separates purpose and. completion is separate things but i feel. like i feel like if you're at that level. like see we're still young right yeah so. soulmate yeah it could be a very blank. thing to you and like i don't know to me. i've always thought about soul mates and. this and that but like i just feel like.

you know when you're past that level. yeah like you're saying like go with the. teddy bear like humans are born. naturally wanting attachment wanting to. feel loved wanting to give no for sure. 100. that's what i'm saying because i did. feel that before but the thing is is a. soulmate's a whole different like it's. that but so much more i guess yeah i. just don't know that i just don't know. yet and the thing is is like i don't. know like sometimes you can couples like. you can i was reading this like you can. give up before you grow up. you know what i mean like when it comes. to soulmates like you could have found.

your soulmate but it's like you're just. at a wrong stage in your life where it's. like you can't because i'll i'm a big. believer in like whatever you put your. focus into is what your life becomes. that makes sense in ways yeah in a lot. of ways because if you focus on one. aspect than the other then that's what. your life is gonna be but the thing is. is that like you're saying like kind of. put too much into a relationship is that. where you're going no because look look. i i say like this in my opinion this is. not for everybody in my opinion if you. want to accomplish something you have to. put your whole life into accomplishing. that one thing or else.

it's not going to be there as fast i. don't think that's true because i think. the whole part of god's plan the whole. lesson yeah is to be able to balance. yourself out and not put all your credit. no but that's that's that's the. challenge that's the challenge is trying. to complete that while balancing that's. why it's hard mm-hmm okay i believe that. so let's say let's say i believe that. that's the whole test yeah so let's say. your goal is to have a family right your. goal is always doing to that but you do. have to balance this. so that's the challenge because you want. to achieve this but this is what you. have to balance yeah you got that yeah.

right so in my opinion you can do. anything you want to do in life but it's. up to you to decide i mean if you're if. your mind's not into okay i need to do. this like i can't breathe without doing. this then it's not going to happen. that's just my opinion that's true. that's why you see that's why you see. those people that are very successful. where they are. is because they did that yeah it's. because and they had to sacrifice a lot. that's why i'm saying the whole balance. that's why it's hard that's that's why. it's not for everybody that's why that's. why there's not that many millionaires.

in the world that's why so you're saying. like soul mates because once you have. another person to put your time and. effort and energy into yeah you can't. focus on that exactly that's what i'm. saying yeah because it is true look at. it look at it if it was easy if it was. easy and you could balance it easily. there would be there would be millions. everybody would be a millionaire. everybody would be rich successful i. think you're right but not everybody can. do it because they can't detach. themselves from that idea of like okay i. gotta they can't bring everything with.

them yo what i mean you can't balance. everything you gotta leave some [ __ ]. behind that's why you gotta choose. what's important right but that's up to. you that's up to you to decide that's. true because if you're if your goal in. life is to have that family then you. have to focus on that right the other. [ __ ] the other [ __ ] is left behind like. whatever your passion was maybe you have. to leave that behind. to get to that goal. yeah that's yeah i feel like that's. always a problem as like someone in the. industry or someone who's in the. entertainment industry it's hard because. it's either like you know you you. like go towards building a family you go.

towards building your yourself yourself. which is selfish which is selfish but. because yo sometimes i look at myself as. [ __ ] i'm i am selfish though. i am selfish no but in my opinion you. got to be selfish to be generous to be. generous that makes sense or no because. i tell that to be one some people don't. get it. no i don't think it's be selfish to be. generous it's looking after yourself to. be able to look after other people but i. don't think it's being selfish no. because look but if you start putting. yourself over like other things then.

yeah but if you're too generous and then. you give everything you have if you're. not selfish and you have nothing so how. are you gonna make yourself higher but. that's the thing is about balance that's. what i'm saying so how can you be cause. time is money right it's not just it's. just not just money you're being. generous yeah it's time you're being. generous with so if you give that time. to some people you don't care about that. much because you want to be generous. with their time yeah that's the same. thing being generous with their time are. you generous with your time are you. selfish with your time because it's the. same thing with money time is money. right yeah so you can be selfish with. money you can be selfish with time but.

that's the balance is where do i want to. put my time into i see because that's. how i look that's how i look at life now. i think you're seeing it as like to be. successful you can't have a life outside. of success no that's not what i'm saying. are you sure no i'm not saying that i'm. not saying that okay i'm saying to be. successful or to do something to that. magnitude of that you want let's say. your dream is something huge right to. get to that spot you gotta sacrifice. something you're not gonna go there and. not sacrifice anything yeah that's a. whole part of the challenge and the.

process yeah that's why i know that's. why there's only a few. because if it was that easy so it's your. choice because you're going towards. success as in millionaire billionaire. like everything you're saying is you're. like it's either you're a millionaire. billionaire there's so many few but yes. it's um it's all preference right like. what do you want what do you want. there's so many different options yeah. not everybody's the same it depends what. you're striving for of course that's not. i guess that's what you're saying is. like soul mates are not for everyone. yeah but the thing is is like for me. it's an interesting. it's an interesting concept yeah yeah.

you know what i mean but it's. interesting how people view it like. you're saying you don't even believe. it's a thing i see i don't i don't know. though right i don't know i'm not going. to say it's not a thing i'm not saying. yes or no. because i just haven't experienced it i. haven't experienced right i'm not going. to say oh um there's a rare turtle in. the amazon that can grant wishes like i. don't know because you don't know. because i don't know if i see it then. [ __ ] yeah and yeah it's real oh my gosh. have you watched ponyo not having. actually so you should watch it yeah. it's so cute yeah it's a good story but. the thing is is like if you're religious.

yeah or faithful oh okay i guess i'm. questioning myself too like with no. that's the whole point of the podcast. you know because i i want everybody else. to question too yeah because i'm. wondering now like i still believe for. sure in a soulmate but it's like god has. a plan for everyone but i guess his plan. for everyone is not not everyone is. going to the same no of course not yeah. of course not everybody's everyday. everybody's journey is waiting that's. what i'm saying is like people like. mother teresa and gandhi and all those. people or all the saints like their.

purpose was not to align with another. person. but god's whole i think like god's whole. thing yeah is to be able to like connect. and like align with other people like. that's like majority of his things and. people who are in entertainment industry. and this and that it's like you're. already aligning with so many people. that sometimes it's like what you're. saying is like you have to pick one or. the other it's like do i do i sacrifice. and just go with one like one thing or. do i like just keep putting my head in.

the game and do what i'm doing because. that's the thing like what do you want. that's that's the whole thing is what. you want yeah if you want just a little. bit then you'll get a little bit if you. want a lot if you want it this is what. you gotta sacrifice so yeah that's what. i'm saying but to me it sounds like. you're saying to be a millionaire to be. a billionaire to have money it's like. hard to have a family life it is. okay it is it's it's definitely is. definitely a challenge it's definitely a. challenge if you can make it work then. it works that's what i'm saying if it. lines up and it works then perfect.

fairytale i mean yeah but i'm thinking. like from a realistic like journey. aspect you have enough time for this. this this this. will you have time for that that's the. thing yeah and honestly i have like real. life examples of like people being too. busy for their family exactly yeah and. the witch is sad too because if you do. have a family and then you have to keep. grinding and grinding but the thing then. you put them in the back seat and then. you forget it that's that's no good and. it becomes you don't want that because. sometimes you do it in order to like.

think like i can provide for my family. but then it just it's this like sickness. where it's like you can't stop providing. like you just want to like not provide. but just you want to keep succeeding. yeah but see that also. you have to be doing it for the right. reasons right you can't just be doing it. for what for money and then you. sacrifice everything for money that's. not what it's for yeah right that's why. i don't i don't make that my goal. what is your goal. i told you before i don't really want to. say it. okay i don't i don't want to say it well.

people can probably guess my goal. oh that's that's a sign don't say it. okay my bad camera cut off for a bit but. we're back what was i saying your goal. my goal right the reason the reason i. don't say my goal and i think this is. really really important is if you say a. goal too crazy people are gonna look at. you different you're gonna think oh. you're you're too cocky or you're too. like you know yeah that's why i don't. know what you mean that's why i don't. say it because i don't want people to. judge what i believe. and also it's the bad eye thing like you. don't want people to have negative. exactly you don't i don't want them to.

know what i'm up to no i guess that's. something for me like why do i have to. tell other people yeah i get that right. but this is interesting this is an. interesting conversation still yeah. because if you think about it like we're. really diving deep into because doing a. conversation like this is not only me. questioning you it's questioning myself. too yeah me too i'm so i'm questioning. myself so much right that's why i think. it's dope is because you start to see. things from other perspectives yeah. because i wouldn't have said these. things unless it was brought out of me. you know i mean that's why that's why. podcasting is so dope is because you. take things out that you wouldn't.

question yourself yeah that's so true. like even just i think just watching. other people converse like even because. the podcast is like something you could. do in real life too you know what i mean. like like if you're in at a function or. something and you're watching people. like talk or something like that you. know what i mean you're kind of like. putting your input in in your head like. if you're not a private company no. that's true you're like oh who do i side. with yeah you know what i mean so people. who watch it are probably gonna be like. i agree with sasha about the soulmate. thing or oh i see what carlos is saying. like you know what i mean it's all part.

of perspective and who you are exactly. yeah it really is that's what it is. another thing is what can you say about. mistakes because me and sophia were. talking yeah and we found this like. beautiful spot well like it's like. there's like this big willow tree yeah. and trees have just been like a big sign. for me lately like just like a sign of. like nurture and like mothering like you. know what yeah yeah i feel you and yeah. it's huge like the leaves come all the. way down like you can sit under the lead. like oh yes you know what i mean yeah. yeah and she asked me a question she was.

like she asked me she's like would you. rather i think she said i wrote it down. but i can't remember she said she said. something about would you rather like. it's a common question but would you. rather do something and regret it or. regret not doing something what would i. rather do yeah do something and regret. it yeah me too and not do something and. regret not doing it because all those. questions you know what i mean because. look this is i i knew this from high. school i knew this from high school. there was there was a pivotal moment i. think it was like grade 11 grade 12. i. was like [ __ ] there's only so much time.

left yeah i'm not going to be here again. i better do some [ __ ] i want to do or. i'm not going to get it done yeah and i. want to keep those memories or i it's. either you make the good memories or you. make the bad memories right and the. strive you know the pursuit of happiness. kid cudi song favorite song pursuit of. happiness so the pursuit to find the. good memories because that's what. happiness is is so important to me even. if you regret it later yeah cuz look if. you go in your grave or you go on your. deathbed questioning yourself [ __ ] i.

should have done that instead i think. that's worse than regretting something. oh i can't believe i did that instead. yeah because it's like following it's. following your gut you know i mean and i. learned more and more and more. throughout my personal life like. experiencing things always trust my gut. yeah and the times i didn't trust my gut. is where i found myself into challenges. i would have been prevented i would have. been prevented but i if i trusted my gut. i feel like you know that feeling it's. almost as if someone is trying to tell. you something almost if you're trying to. tell yourself your conscience is like.

your future self is telling your present. self like you got to do this instead. yeah and i get that that feeling i get. that feeling and i'm like sometimes i. don't follow it and that's when i fall. into those challenges yeah for me it's. more like pain than challenge but i. guess it's painful to like like to be in. those challenges yeah yeah but like yeah. another thing is mistakes like i guess. this is like an art analogy yeah but. it's like because i always like i feel. like art people can be like super. perfectionists all the time because once. you paint it then you got to go over it. but the thing is is that like i came up.

like i didn't come up with this but like. i think of it like mistakes can be. turned into perfection like just like. art like sometimes like there's no such. thing as making a mistake when you're. doing art yeah there's you can and the. same thing in life. that's how i looked at it is like when. like when i'm painting it's the only. thing i'm so confident in like there's. no part of me that's like i'm doing it. wrong yeah i always think like i could. fix it it's never like or not even just. fix it it's just it's getting better and. better that's how i keep telling myself. even though when you're doing art or. editing there's always that stage where.

it's just crap like it's just like yeah. it's the ugly stage you're just like. this is awful you know what i mean you. make something good out of it though. yeah but you know that bad spot is. because it's gonna turn into something. beautiful and blossom right and like. that's the thing of like i don't know. like the mistakes hold the most beauty. like even in a piece like it holds like. sometimes the mistakes that i make i'm. trying to like bring it to real life but. it's like the mistakes i make in an art. piece yeah in the end piece like the. masterpiece the mistakes are the most. beautiful. like the most beautiful parts about the.

people and sometimes the mistakes you. made are will make it great yeah those. are the those are the ones that made it. those are the beautiful details of the. whole piece the whole ending so i guess. you could look at life like that like. it's crazy because sometimes the times. where i think about life when you're. really sad yeah it's like when you look. at it years later it you look at it and. you're like it was sad but there were so. many important and good. things that i learned from that see. going back to what we were talking about. before the yin and the yang the good and. the evil the good and the bad you gotta.

feel like [ __ ] to feel amazing. to feel amazing because if you feel. amazing all the time there's nothing to. to measure that to yeah so if you feel. amazing every single day how you measure. it to a bad day if you don't have bad. days right now if you have bad days. usually and you have a good day that. good day will feel amazing because you. have bad days you gotta it's all. perspective right it's all perspective. it is all perspective life just goes the. way you want it to though depending on. how you're thinking about it yeah you. know what i mean depending on how you.

think about it that's it that's. literally all it is like you can wake up. telling yourself i'm gonna have a good. day today every day if you want to and. have a good day yeah as long as you. think about it like that yeah it's just. hard for people sometimes like yeah it. is it is hard it is hard but it's. definitely a way to look at it it is. literally a video game like all these. teenage boys and girls i have a p4. myself but like you know when you just. bro there's been times where i'm driving. in gta and i'm like this is the life. like i'm just in gta like you're driving.

and there's like a nice sunset yeah and. you literally lose yourself sometimes. like yeah yeah in the game like you're. just like dang like you're out here you. know and you can look at real life like. that like instead of being like oh i. have to drive to work this morning it's. like i want to drive to work this. morning yeah and take in everything and. look at the view and this is nice like. you know what i mean because if you have. the negative energy or like that. negative look on it then yeah you're. gonna feel like [ __ ]. but if you if you think about it in a. positive way that half full kind of.

mindset everything you do is gonna be. amazing yeah and i mean i guess i'm. saying like what the whole gta thing is. if you want because it is i don't want. to say it in like a deranged way but. life is a game really no it is it is. yeah you can play whatever character you. want just as long as you're a good. person yeah and you're doing the right. thing but like play whatever character. you want to play and that's why i like i. used to game a lot i used to play a lot. of games spent hours and hours but i. think the moment that changed for me was. like why am i leveling up that character. in the game and i could just be leveling.

up here in real life because i think. this is the coolest game ever that's. yeah it is the coolest game ever exactly. and the going back to like you saying. about exploring yeah it's so fun like i. know you can just be bored and it's like. you could just find a cool spot and go. there and your mood's lifted like when. you get home you're like dang i can't. believe the world has that place yeah. that was awesome like you know damn i. really found that mm-hmm i found that. out of like the regular that's where you. have to thank god you've left a lot of. different little treasures for us yeah. all right let's end it there then hi.

thanks for coming through again of. course um do you have any announcements. for anybody just follow your art page if. you want if you like my art you can. follow my page i don't have a main. because people keep messaging me yeah. being like do you have a main i got rid. of it it's toxic just tell them tell. them yeah it's a bit toxic you know be. careful with that all right thank you. for everyone for watching um if you. haven't already check out the vlogs. link in the description yes but yeah. thank you for everyone watching don't. forget.