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Ask, tell, confess. Ask, tell, confess. [music]. Ask, tell, [music] confess. [singing]. I can't read. >> [laughter]. >> He said I'm dyslexic, it looked right. It looks great to me. You know, I I learned something the. other day about dyslexia because I never.

understood why I can't remember like. um. Like I admire the fact that both of you. guys can. uh quote movies and I can't quote. movies. Like I. Isn't that ADD though? No, so like it's. a natural comprehension it's just you. comprehending something that you. enjoyed. And I didn't know that in. dyslexia you can't actually fully. comprehend things without watching it. like multiple times and I was never a. kid to like watch a movie four or five.

times. Um and they said that that was like I. never knew that. I just thought I was. someone that just couldn't remember [ __ ]. and they said no, that's actually like. you would have to comprehend that by. watching it like. like how I how I read things, you know, I'll have to read something like four or. five times to fully understand it and. they said it's the same thing with. movies. I just thought dyslexia was um. reading only and I didn't know it had to. do with like music. and everything like that. Aw. But you listen you love music though,

don't you? Like you can retain music. >> music. >> Oh. Yeah, so. like just the other day you guys this is. going to sound so stupid but like uh. I don't hear words in music. It's more. of like it's a collective thing. So I. don't know what songs are about. I have. to listen to it so many times even be. able to tell you what the song is about. I just learned the other day that uh. Don't Rock the Jukebox was literally. about don't put rock and roll on the. jukebox. See, I don't listen listen to songs for. the lyrics. Like how people are like. your lyrics changed my life. I I will.

sing a full song and not couldn't even. tell you what it's about. >> Yeah. So my weird thing about music is I will. love the [ __ ] out of a song and like the. lyrics and the melody and all that. stuff. I'm a lyric person but I won't. know who the the singer is. Like I. couldn't tell you who the lead singer of. Breaking Benjamin is. You know, like. >> [laughter]. >> Couldn't tell you what they look like. Exactly. You know, like I just never. know. >> thought that was really cool cuz like. you will listen to a new song and you're. like, oh that lyric and I'm like I.

didn't even hear that lyric. I don't. even know what you're talking about but. you you listen to words so well. Your. comprehension of words is wild to me. It's my autism. Are we ever going to get an autism. person on here? Yeah, there's a guy that. wants to come on now that we're back. like and settled here. Our schedule. hadn't aligned in the beginning of the. year but he's like a local that like. really loves your podcast, too. Love. that. Hello, friends. We have been. recording this entire time. Welcome back to another episode and. Jason leave it all in of Ask, Tell,

Confess. Short and sweet. Staccato. A what? Staccato. I thought that was a. wine. Staccato. I thought staccato meant. like it's stacked. Short. No, it's a. staccato short note. I like that. >> in band. Is it allegro that I'm thinking of that. makes it like really sleep medicine? I. don't know that one. I just remember. staccato. I like it. So yeah, Mimi was just giving.

us a lesson on dyslexia that you guys. heard about. It's [clears throat] crazy. I had no idea. I didn't know how many. things it like. I I to this day I didn't even know I had. dyslexia for the longest time because I. assumed the way that they described. dyslexia was that you actually saw. jumbled up letters or backwards. Like. that every time I think about like. dyslexia I think about people who read. backwards. >> Yeah, that's a myth. They're like, yeah, maybe like 5% actually Wow. So yeah, that's like that's such like a. >> the word, you just in your head say it.

wrong? So it's the comprehension. Hm. Yeah, so it's. >> retaining Yeah. >> It's the retention of like what you're. trying to consume but even then yeah, there are many words like. That's frustrating. Oh, it's so [ __ ]. frustrating. >> like a wouldn't that be wouldn't just. and ple people don't come for me. This. is a genuine question. Wouldn't that. dyslexia be a form of dementia? Mhm. Because you're not being able to. retain information in your brain. No, so. I can retain but I retain it.

differently. Okay. >> can retain it really well in other ways. and not like it's how you retain it. So. like me, if someone physically is. showing me how to do it, I'm going to. retain it so well versus like how I. retain like a paragraph. Or like and I learn songs like or movies. and stuff like that is like I don't. retain the movie the same way you would. like you or you would like you would. watch that movie and you would enjoy it. and like you would remember a line from.

the movie. I remember a form of it but I. don't remember it. like you would cuz like I don't know if. you've ever noticed if I say a. movie quote wrong, she under her breath. will like. say it correctly. >> [laughter]. >> I like how she has her autism. Yeah, it. it she has to say it has to be the same. pitch Mhm. And the same like Yeah, I. know I remember everything like I've. been quoting movies since I was little. Me and my brother do that. I got that. from my dad. Like. I will quote it but it has to be the.

exact same tone, pitch, like breaths in. between like I don't know. Yeah. It bothers me. She'll correct you. if you do it. >> like that when I read the Bible. I have the hardest time retaining. information when it comes to the Bible. or if I'm in school. Put me in a. classroom environment, I won't learn. anything. Yeah. Yeah. If I don't enjoy. it, I do not soak it up. Like I can't. soak it up. So I wonder if that's a form. of. >> seen the interpretations of the Bible? Like you can get like a.

Like they have one that's in like girl. code and stuff or like. >> I I I would do great with that cuz it. would be like shorthand. Anytime I. listen to like my pastor preaching the. Bible, I'm lost. I don't know what I don't know what. you're saying. >> Yeah, the King James version I'm I'm. trying to figure it out. Although I do. love a good Psalm. I'm still in the. beginning chapters. I haven't graduated. into the depths of Psalm cuz I can't get. through it. Psalms but I literally.

anytime I try to like listen to the. Bible, it's like spiritual warfare in my. head. I just cannot retain it. Yeah. But. I can listen to Joyce Meyer's or like. our girl Pastor Kim preach all day long. and retain it. I listened to it one of. her sermons this morning when I was. doing my faster cardio, you know, so. Yeah, it's how you retain. Yeah. That's. cool. Yeah, I feel like it just takes. what works best for you. Mhm. Well, guys, we are back in action and.

um there was a post that I had put on. Facebook a couple weeks ago where you. guys had like a bunch of questions about. the book. So we're going to spend the. remainder of this Ask, Tell, Confess. answering all of your questions for the. book. And then are we going to drop the. pod with Bill? I need to edit it a. little bit more. Uh I was so nervous interviewing my dad. and this is what back in the day when I. was. not as great at interviewing as I am now. and I really I watched that podcast and. I just cringe cuz I'm like, God, I blew.

an opportunity of a lifetime. interviewing my own father. And I just Well, didn't you say also. like you you didn't want to like. like rustle any feathers, too? Cuz you. kind of tiptoed. >> fight all the time. So it's like if I. rustle any feathers and I wouldn't hear. from my dad for a year, you know? So. it's like I had to really walk on. eggshells in that podcast but we're. going to release it, right? We should. release it sometime this week after this. Ask, Tell, Confess. >> That would be great. >> Yeah, yeah. Um so. do you guys want to look at look at look. at the post and we'll start asking some.

questions? All right, cool. I do know. that there there was um. a post that had happened that somebody. had posted about. um. how much money I made a night. Um and there was a lot of people who. were like I don't believe that she got. paid $100,000. Some lady said um you. know, she openly admits that she was an. addict and. um. why would anybody pay that amount of. money for an addict? And I was like.

>> thing to say. I was like, first of all. if you're in that industry and you're a. millionaire. times whatever, most of those men are. addicts themselves. >> Mhm. You don't realize how many men that. are CEOs are addicts. And I need to. clarify to you guys. I didn't make that. every night. Right. You were asked the question, what. was the most amount that you had made in. one night and that's what you answered. >> Exactly. Not every night. Exactly. And I.

actually kind of like held back because. technically, if you think about it, if I. had a sugar daddy that gave me $300,000. in a span of like a year and I only. spent the night at his house one time, that is me making 300 grand in one. night, technically. I mean, there's just. so many technicalities but like. the. the people who are like, oh her story's. fabricated or she's embellished her. story, I literally have witnesses for.

every part of my life that are very. vocal online, one being an ex-husband. who knows everything about me, who has. literally corroborated all of my stories. because he saw how much money I made. He's he was running scams on sugar. daddies with me. Um you know, I I wish I could make If I. was going to make up stuff about my. life, it would have been way cooler cuz. I don't think my story is that cool, you. know? And I And I'm not saying I know.

But I'm not saying that because I want. people to be like, "Yes, your story is. so cool." Like, I genuinely feel like. one, there are people who have been. through way worse trauma than I ever. have, you know? And I also feel like. there are people who have been through. way worse life experiences than I have. Um. I just simply told my story the only way. I know how, and I've been telling these. same exact stories for years. If you. listen to the podcast, nothing has ever. changed.

>> Yeah. It's always been the same. So, I. don't know what to tell you, you know? >> people finding you. >> Yeah, it is. Yeah. Not knowing that. you've already said this 5-plus years. ago. Literally. Like, I have always said. the same I think I did a podcast that. was my fifth episode um called I was a. high-price call girl. Mhm. And I. literally tell some of this Yeah, that's. how I found out that you were a call. girl. What? What? I'd been doing your hair. I didn't know.

what you did. I I honestly, I don't think I knew what. you did either when I first did your. makeup. >> I don't know. I don't know when I found out. I knew. you had two phones. >> [laughter]. >> I got two phones. One for the plug, one. for the hoes. >> You would sit in my chair and you just. had two phones. I just assumed you had. >> [laughter]. >> two phones. No, I think it was I dead ass almost. 100% found out when you dropped that. podcast. And I think I was talking to. like Fifi and she was like, "Did you.

watch the new podcast?" And I was like, "No, I hadn't." She was like, "Oh, she. talks about being a call girl." And I. was like, "She's a what?". >> [laughter]. >> It's funny. That was when I found out. >> That was like a year after I had met. you. That is so funny. >> Mhm. Well, I mean, you know, it's not. something you go around I Unless. somebody says, "What do you do for a. living?" I never would tell anybody. >> I just thought you were a model. Oh. On On Instagram. >> Yeah, no, same here. Because that was My. first. seeing of you was on that red car, on. the red Mustang. That was my first time.

seeing you, and I was like, "I want to. do her makeup. She's hot.". >> Wait. Oh, with. Yes. But yeah, I saw it on his Instagram. story. So, just imagine if I wouldn't. have watched his story that day, though. That's crazy. I know. [clears throat]. >> Yeah. It's just crazy. It's all. serendipitous, but that's hilarious. Yeah. I never knew we We didn't talk. about that. That's so crazy. >> There were like we just. we just became friends. And it was like. you would come sit in my chair every few. weeks, and. then I I literally thought you were just.

a model. That's hilarious. >> Yeah. That is so funny. Well, yeah, I. know I didn't go around announcing it, but if somebody asked me what I did for. a living, I was always very honest with. them. Like, if anybody was like, "What. do you do for a living?" I'd be like, "Well, I uh. Yeah. your dad. For you? >> [laughter]. >> Do your dad for a living? I do your dad for a living. >> [laughter]. >> I don't know if I can say that. But, you. know, I was just very honest about it. I'm like, "Hey, I have sugar daddies and. I'm a webcam girl or, you know, like I.

do a lot of online stuff." Cuz I did. That's how I booked my clients was. online, so I just always kept it honest. That's crazy. That is so crazy. Thinking. back now, it makes sense. >> [laughter]. [snorts]. >> It makes sense. Yeah. All right. Make sure to Yeah, same. Our. first photo shoot should have clicked. for Yeah. I mean I'm naked. I'm. lingerie. But I just thought her I had. done. makeup. So, like that it wasn't anything. like out of the ordinary for me. I've.

done everyone. everyone's makeup. So, it didn't like. shock me. Yeah. You know? I just like. didn't know that's what you did. Yeah. Well, and here we are. Here we are. Well, look at Look at where the hoot got. us. Yeah. Not Not really. Our hard work got. us here, but definitely. work got my online following, and then. built the beginning of the podcast, and. then Yeah, I remember the turning point. and you said, "I'm going to stop posting. my ass as much.".

And I did. All right. >> And you did. You really like it was. quick. Yeah. You know, that's another. thing. Somebody said um "I don't believe. that she just woke up one day and. stopped taking. I don't believe that she was really. addicted.". My personality is Yeah. I don't want to. do something anymore, I will literally. flip a switch like that, and it is done. >> And it's with anything. It's with. anything. >> done, you're done. That's a perfect. example of whenever I was like, "You. know what? I'm going to stop taking sexy. photo shoots, and I'm just going to.

change my content up." I literally You. can see it. If you go all the way back. in my Instagram you can see literally. where it's like picture picture there's. clothes. and it just changes. >> It was so weird. >> a testament to who I am as a person. with everything that I do. And I did. quit. cold turkey. Do I recommend it? Absolutely not. Was it the worst thing I. ever had to go through? Absolu- No, I've.

actually gone through a lot of stuff. Was it very hard to go through? Absolutely. I literally used to live in. hospital rooms. The only way that I got. through that. the withdrawal was um. with children's Benadryl. Do not listen to me. Do not take. doctor's advice from me. I'm just. telling you exactly what I had to do to. get through it. Um. stopping make you have seizures. It can. do a ton of stuff to you. I am thankful. and lucky that I was not one of those.

people that that happened to. Um But yeah, I literally looked at my. husband. We were on the Yellow Wolf. Trial Trial by Fire tour. And I looked. at my husband and I said, "I don't want. this stuff in my bloodstream anymore.". And he was like, "Bunny, you're not. going to be able to not take cuz he saw. what a bundle of nerves I was. And I was. like, "Okay, watch me.". Like So, anytime my husband says I can't. do something, >> No. it is my favorite thing to do. Like, I. love to give him just make him eat his. words. And I don't know why cuz we don't.

have that type of relationship, but it's. like it's almost like, "Oh, you don't. believe in me? Okay, cool. I got this.". >> Yeah, cuz he said the same thing about. podcasting. He was like, "We'll see how. long you stick to it." And you said, "Yeah.". I was like, "Bet. I got you." Yeah, cuz. he was just like, "You're not going to. stick with podcasting." And I was just. like, "Um we'll see.". Here we are. Look at me now. Look at me. now, buddy. Now you're telling me do you. want me to retire? And I'm like, [laughter]. Just because you want to retire doesn't. mean I want to retire. >> that's enough." All right, who wants to. ask the first question? Um I want to ask.

the first question cuz it's got asked. multiple times. They want to know if you. um and I know that this is kind of like. a weird way to question it, but did you. cut anything out of the book that you. didn't want in there? Because I know. once it got sent to the editing side of. things, that's where that changed. >> Yeah. No, I don't think I cut anything. out of the book. I put so much into the. book that I could have probably had an I. could probably write another. >> Yeah. book about like situations in my. life. So, no, I didn't cut anything, but. the editors did.

>> Yes. The editors cut so much. Like, there's I have to ask you. I text you. I'm like, "Hey, did this make the book?". >> Yeah. Because I can't even remember. Yeah. Like you read so many versions of. it that you. >> Yeah. almost forget what or you and like. things that you've lived through and. that sort of thing that I even sometimes. have to be like, "Wait, let me go search. the final copy." Cuz like even in my. phone, I have like seven copies of the. book. And then you have to go to the. final and be like, "Did that even make. it?". >> Yeah. They Yeah, you just did that the. other day. You're like, "Did that part. make it into the book?" And I'm like, "No, it actually didn't.".

>> Yeah. Yeah. So, no, I didn't cut. anything, but you know, the editors did. They And listen, they did a great. because people are still buying the. book, so. >> 100%. It's [ __ ] amazing. Yeah. We find out. tomorrow what number. >> We're still number one, five weeks on. New York Best Time Seller list. And then. we find out tomorrow if we made it to. the sixth. Mhm. Who's got a question? Go. ahead, Haley. >> Got one. Okay. Um has anyone from your. past reach out to you and apologize? When's the last time you spoke to.

baby sis? That's crazy. She's actually been texting me this. week, and I won't reply to her. I just. have no. I really meant it when I said. everything that's in that book, I'm. leaving behind. And I. did. Yeah. don't want to revisit it. I. don't want to talk about it once we're. done once it's done, you know, doing its. thing. I just don't want to. associate with any of the any negativity. from that book. I Now, people from my.

past, yeah, Matteo has reached out to. me. He said he read it. He loved it. He's always been so supportive. I love. that dude. Um Paulie is one of my. biggest fans. I love him to death. [laughter]. Paulie wants to come on the podcast so. bad, guys. >> was great. He wants to come on the. podcast so bad. So, if you guys want. Paulie on the podcast so you can. actually hear real stories of, you know, we used to do together, let me know. We. might consider it. Um. Has anyone apologized? Has anyone.

apologized? No. I mean, why would they? They would have to admit. wrongdoing. >> Uh-huh. And they would have to feel. guilt if they ever did. And I didn't. write the book for people to have to. reach out to me and apologize. I'm fine. with not getting the apology that I. deserved because I've. literally done everything I've wanted to. do in life. And if it wasn't for the. hurt and the pain that I went through, I. wouldn't have forged through everything. that I did. So, I'm thankful for all the lessons.

that were sent to me, and I don't need. the apologies. Jaime, you got one? Yeah. I have one. that um I read earlier. It was really. good. Okay. Um. So, you wrote the book for you. Um. what's the. Like, who's this book for? People always ask you like, "Why did you. write the book?" Yada yada yada but like. if you were to paint the picture of the. avatar for this person to read like. who's this book for? This book is for anybody who's ever had.

trauma inflicted on them that they. didn't ask for and I know a lot of. people get stuck in victim mentality and. it's very easy to do. I've caught myself. doing it a few times and instead of. Um I've said it before and. we're not responsible for the trauma. that's inflicted on us but we are. responsible with how we deal with it and. I truly hope that this book can show. people like it doesn't matter how many. people told you that you're never going. to amount to anything. It doesn't matter.

if your parents didn't love you. properly. It doesn't matter if you know. you got beat up by a boyfriend um which. you know nobody should ever have to go. through domestic violence but it doesn't. mean that you have to still be that. person that was in any of those. situations. You can change so many. versions of yourself throughout life. You Look at Madonna. She's literally. reinvented herself and she's like 70. now, right? >> Yeah. With a fake How many facelifts has. Madonna had? I need to know cuz.

like I I would love to sit down with. Madonna. Jay Shetty just did and I was. that was the first podcast that I was. just so jealous of. I was like damn, I. wanted that one. But yeah, the you can. change all the versions of yourself to. become who you want to be and it doesn't. matter if you want to change yourself. every year to evolve and to grow and to. be the human that you want to be. That's. who the this book is for is for the. people who need that extra push and that. extra reassurance of knowing that. they're going to be okay and that.

happens. Life happens but that doesn't. mean that you have to. let it you know. make you a sour person. I like that. Yeah. >> one. You got any more memes? Oh yeah. Oh. go ahead. Let's see. I'll read some too. Someone said you don't need a facelift. Well, too late. That was the first. comment I saw. So was any of it too painful to go. through and what about it was like the.

most traumatic you feel like reliving in. this book because I know that there were. times that you would write and then just. kind of have to put your phone down. Yeah. I don't know if it was like traumatic. but it was just like. I'm so over everything that I've been. through and I don't want to keep I don't. want to live there, you know? And it's. like writing the book was very cathartic. but there was times where I was just. like golly like you know, I think the.

the hardest chapter for me to write was. my dad's. That was like my hardest chapter because. I'm still not over Bill's death. Yeah. It was It was almost like a force uh. processing that you weren't ready for. Oh, I was robbed, you know? I was robbed. of my dad's last moments and I just feel. like the people who were around him the. minute he died didn't deserve to be. there. Mhm. I feel like my dad left this. earth. probably more scared than he's ever been.

and nobody was there to comfort him. Mhm. And I think. you know. just. that chapter was really hard to write. but everything else it was more of like. exhausted from telling the story cuz. I've been telling these stories for. ever. And um. I think it was more of just like ready. to just get it over with. You know, and. when you're writing chapters of a book. you get so consumed in it and you're. just and I was writing this on my notes. pad too. So trying to write and do voice.

text on my notes pad was like it just. got exhausting and there was times that. I just needed a break because I don't. like tapping into anything emotional. I'm very I'm a very cold individual. I'm. I'm very cold when it comes to past. trauma, I guess you could say. I'm very. warm and loving to the people in Yeah, such a loving. Oh my gosh. Okay, my guy. I'm very warm. and loving to the people in my life but. when it comes to like my old past life. I'm just very cold about it and just.

like matter of fact like this is what. happened, you know? And so um. yeah, there was the chapter of my dad. but everything else I just wanted to get. it out and. >> feel like with writing this also and. this is unlike other books cuz when. you're writing autobiography it's. it has to be very technical cuz you knew. that this book was going to be under a. microscope. People are going to want to. find flaws in it. They're going to want. to find discrepancies in it and like you. I appreciate how particular you were.

with your wording even. It was like I. can't say it that way cuz people could. assume it meant this and that's not what. I meant and so you would go in and you. would rewrite these things so that it. came across exactly how you meant it to. be. Yes and I do want to there is one. discrepancy in the book that didn't get. changed that I had asked to get changed. was when I the first version got written. I was talking about Whataburger in Texas. and Julia my ghostwriter is from New. York so they have White Castle and for. some reason she thought I said White.

Castle when I was talking about. something and they kept White Castle in. the book and I'm like no like change. that. I asked like three times for it to. be changed and that that just Yeah, that. just slipped but other than that um. everything else was That's crazy. >> Yeah. Somebody wrote in and they said. would you ever want to have a. relationship with your sisters and the. answer is no. I don't. I have tried numerous times. If. you guys have not listened to the. podcast where we talk about large Marge, that's my oldest sister who literally is.

on TikTok right now which. she's not talking Thank god. Well, she. was talking my one of my ex-husbands. posts and I caught that and I was I cut. her off after I paid $10,000 for her to. have an emergency surgery, bought her. every [ __ ] thing for her brand new. apartment cuz I was so happy she got her. own apartment, paid her rent multiple. times. Um. she went and talked about me again under. one of my exes it was like my birthday. and she's like oh, I forgot on purpose.

And it was just like [ __ ] I. you know? Like what the [ __ ]. You [laughter] know, like come on. Come. on. Like what more can I do for you? Do. you Do you want my Do you want to cut my. skin off and wear it? You know, like but. on her her TikTok bio right now it says. Here, I'll read it to you verbatim what. it says actually so I'm not misquoted. Oh god, I haven't seen this. You haven't. seen it? Oh. Yes, I'm Marge. This is in her pot.

her TikTok bio. Yes, I'm Marge from. Bunny XO's podcast, the villain in her. story, the big bad Christina, her very. much estranged entitled big sister who. is toxic. Okay. All right. Yeah. So that's. >> Okay. absolutely not. I do not want a. relationship with her. I have tried for. 30 something years to just have that. girl. I've only met this woman twice in. my life and have done so much for her.

and I don't when I say that I've done. stuff for people it's not to throw. around the monetary face value of it. It's to say like. what more can can I [ __ ] do for you. to make you happy and to make you love. me properly, you know? So. and as far as my little sister no, I. don't want a relationship with her. I. love her. If anybody No human in the world can. make me laugh the way that she laughs. She's so funny, man but she is just.

it's um I got to choose my words wisely. here. She is just um. I just feel like our soul contracts. were are fulfilled and I feel like I. came here to be her big sister and she. came here to be my little sister and we. both taught each other lessons that. family isn't always blood. I I'm not a. victim with my sister at with my little. sister at all. I don't want to seem like. that. But she just it's she's not easy to get.

along with. She's very all over the. place and. I just I don't have time for that. inconsistency in my life. Yeah. Doesn't. serve a purpose. No, I just don't have. time for it, dude. I'm [ __ ] old as. [ __ ]. Last thing I want to do is walk on. eggshells around people I don't have to. Like no, thank you. Yeah. I love I've. always respected your boundaries. When. you're like you know what this doesn't. serve me, I don't need it. Yeah. No, and. it takes a lot. I give 30 years to my. older sister, 30 years. I gave her so.

many chances and it's like once I've. finally reached that point with people, that's it. So my little sister has text. me like three times and I just will not. reply to her. She's like I love you, please don't block me and I'm just like. you're not blocked but I have nothing to. say to you. We have nothing to talk. about. Anybody else got any more questions? >> one. Okay, go ahead. Okay, someone said. >> [clears throat]. >> how did you get over surviving the. trauma to living in the present without.

the triggers? That's a great question. It's a really. good question. I don't think I'm wired. like a normal human being. No. No, I. don't. I don't look back and be like oh my god, I you know, I don't know. I just when. I'm going through trauma I just know I. have to get through it. And that's I literally only just forge. ahead. That's all I know how to do is to. just keep going and never stop and try. to feel or try to you know, when I did. in 2022 when I did all that therapy.

that's when I had to stop and feel. everything and that's why I haven't done. therapy since because. >> [laughter]. >> it was a year of having to cry, having. to feel things, having to just hurt and. I just don't see the purpose. I don't. see the purpose in feeling sorry for. myself. I can't change it. Yeah. So what. what what can I do? I can't I can't. control the past, but I can. control my future and I can. uh control the outcome of how my life is. and that's really all I focus on.

That's incredible. >> of like. I feel like your past profession is kind. of like helped you with that, too, cuz. like you don't give the men feelings. And you're just through it. So I feel. like that. I don't know if it helped. >> good practice. Yeah. >> Yeah, I think that came from having to. not have emotions with my parents, though. Mhm. I was always able to have. separate church from state when it came. And I also think it's probably, you. know, like. when you are traumatized and any every.

we've all been through trauma in this. room, you know, how do you respond to. trauma? Mhm. It's a great question. I'm not. actually sure. How do you respond to trauma? >> you. I I won't talk about it. I like. I don't like to relive it. I don't like. I cut it off. Yeah, I kind of act like. They cut things off and I don't. >> Which is not healthy. We're not saying. that it's not healthy, guys. My whole. family's like that, though. Like we. won't we don't talk about things. Yeah.

>> Like it's very [clears throat] like I. Okay. >> Even like when we had two deaths last. year, like. we still like. we won't talk about it the next time. we're all together. Like my family's. constantly laughter because that makes. you forget about. traumas and I think that's why I'm very. like the comedic relief is because I. don't have to feel. trauma. Yeah, anything sad. Yeah. I was. always my dad's comedic relief, too. I. was always like trying to make him. smile. >> your in like the relationship later on.

in life. You still when he wasn't. feeling good, you'd crack jokes and like. you were you were laughing before he. was. Like it was just like you were. constantly trying to make him feel good. >> Yeah, I just wanted to make him forget. where he was and I think that's how you. are, too. Jaime, how do you deal with. trauma? Uh not in a healthy way. You're a. cancer. >> [laughter]. >> You're a cancer, though, so you feel all. the emotions. >> it. I feel everything and keep it all. inside until it all blows up one day. You're serial. >> [laughter]. >> No. >> Yeah, he's like one of these days I'm. going to hook God. Brooke up on some.

[laughter]. [ __ ] steaks and. >> She's in the basement. Right now as we speak. >> [laughter]. >> Yeah, I got to check on her. Uh but yeah, not in a very I also sweat. a lot in my when I'm going through. something I notice it. Like I'll sweat. and then I'll like I'm also weirdly calm. in um very chaotic situation. That's. trauma. That's a trauma. Like car. accidents or like anything major. happening, like I'm surprisingly not. freaking out. >> Yeah. Every car accident I've ever been. in, I've always been super calm, can.

have a clear conversation, my voice. doesn't break up. I'm clear. I'm almost. like clearer than I am now when I'm in. trauma response. It's weird. >> Yeah, no, same. I I feel like big. traumas I'm more calm than small things. Like I feel like I'm more expressive in. a small situation and like an. inconvenience than I am in something. major. Yeah. >> Like a major situation I'm like, "No, this is how we're going to fix it." And. then I'm like super calm. It's weird. I. freak out of everything. Yeah. >> [laughter].

>> Yeah, Haley's burning the house down. She don't care. >> [gasps]. >> You Would love to hear about how Mindy. and Andy are groveling since you've. blown up and that you got to actually. have closure with both of these [ __ ]. Andy died. If you read the book, you. would know that Andy died from a. fentanyl overdose. She actually died. when we were on tour. >> Mhm. Um and then Mindy, I haven't spoken. to. So Mindy has way too much pride to. ever reach out. Which that could be why. baby sis is reaching out. You never.

know. Never know. But I I'd like to just not. Like we don't need to rehash anything. Like why now? Now you want to come out. of the woodwork? Cuz like. >> out. >> Yeah, like I'm good. I don't think. there's anything we really have left to. talk about. Even though Jay cheated, did. you recognize that it was more about his. self-sabotage than it was you? Um. It was There's so many layers to that. affair story. I only got to tell my.

perspective, but. you know, my husband has a crazy story and I. really hope one day he tells it because. you guys would really know what we've. been having to deal with behind the. scenes all these years and like. people trying to extort us for money. People trying to. There's just there's a lot of crazy [ __ ]. that has happened and it's not my story. to tell, but when he does write a book,

I promise you guys I'm going to make him. tell the truth. Yeah. >> Like he has got to tell everybody and I. don't know if he will cuz my husband's. not wired that way, but I don't know. Now that he saw how good this book did, he might want to. They're all trying to. jump on the bandwagon And they said, "Maybe we should write one.". >> Yeah, like you know you little That was. funny. There's so many layers and yes, one of them was his self-sabotage and. also. Dude, it's like I say in the book, we didn't. know how to have healthy relationships.

We didn't know what a healthy love was. We still don't know what a healthy love. was. We live our version of a healthy. love, but I think everybody learns from. their parents what love is and then you. have to figure it out along the way what. your version of love is and I was just. figuring out life and dude, second. chances is great. Third chances don't. happen. Although I've given my family so many. chances, but in love I'm very strict. when it comes to Like you can hurt me. once hurt me once, shame on you. Hurt me. twice, shame on me. You know, and it's.

like. you as a woman, you have to really know what you're. willing to put up with and what your. hard boundaries are and every woman is. different. Some people are like, "I'm. out the first If I think you're cheating. on me." And great for them. I wish I. could be that strong, but I cannot. Um. And you know, I I I just truly believe. in second chances and my husband really. stepped up to the plate and he's just an. amazing human. I love him to death. He's. just a little happy teddy bear.

Oh, somebody said, "When's the next. [ __ ] Olympics?". What a great question. >> I love that you've been around so long. that you even know about the [ __ ]. Olympics. I was actually just telling. our girl Sam who's here sitting in. from Elite Customs. They're the ones who. design all my cars. Um. We never. >> [laughter]. >> Never. >> Unfortunately, that was a one-time. Didn't we do it twice? I thought we did. it twice. >> to and then you had to go home for. emergency and that's when we stayed in. the haunted mansion.

>> Yeah, yep, yep. I remember that. Oh my. god, we had it planned and everything. That's crazy. I think. what people need to realize is and. literally we're just having this. conversation is when I started this. podcast, it was all about workers and I. that's the lifestyle I was in and I. wanted to let everybody know that just. cuz you were in sex work didn't mean. that you didn't have a brain and that. you weren't a businesswoman and um also. we were having fun with the podcast, you.

know, [ __ ] Olympics was a wild time and. shout out to Lydia, Carissa, all those. girls who. >> What's the Daisy chick? >> Daisy, she's hilarious. She's still DM's. me. She's still DM's me. No, she's back she's out now. >> Oh, she's out? >> Yeah, she's great. Nice. I love her. She. was amazing. Like met some of the. coolest women who I still have. relationships with. Um but the podcast. has grown and it's become something. different and I mean, even how I used to. interview, I've said crazy [ __ ] I've.

done crazy. but I have always corrected my behavior. and always tried to become a better. person and a better person at my craft. when it comes to this podcast. So it's. just you guys have literally seen me go. through seasons and that's I think what. life is all about is just being able to. evolve. I think what's really cool about. you is like you'll start. out, you know, with like the sex work. and stuff like that and then you'll. reach the capacity of it. You're like,

"Okay, I completed that check. What's. next?" You know? And it's not so much. that like you're like giving up on that. part of it. It was like, "No, I I did. all the big stars. Like we did the six.". Like you literally like Tick Tockers. We. went to Tick Tockers. >> And then you went to like the Tick. Tockers and then. >> on the podcast cuz they're nothing but. drama. The [ __ ] whole app is nothing. but drama. Um and then we moved on to. just elevating guests and just keep. getting higher and higher and higher. So. it's like, you know, it's I think the.

biggest thing when it comes to this. podcast is we never beat a dead horse. You we know when to get in and to get. out. >> Mhm. >> And we don't stay there we don't stay. long enough to overstay our welcome. And we're always constantly trying to. figure out new things and um different. angles, which is what you have to do. So. All right, guys. Well, that was a fun. little chat. Love you guys and thank you. guys so much for the question. There's. so many more. So if you guys want us to. keep answering questions, just let me. know in the comments and I mean, we can. make another episode of this, but.

we're moving on to ask, tell, confess. now from Wait. Are you going to sign Are you going to. do any more pop-up signings for books. after you. literally wiped out Walmart in an hour? What the hell, bro? >> I know, it was crazy. Um I think so. Maybe we can run around. Should we go do. something after this? I have a bunch of. books. We can go somewhere. I don't care. Haley's over it. She's ready to go home. >> [laughter]. >> I'm down for anything.

>> [gasps]. >> We can run somewhere. >> a a pop-up bookstore. Like what's the. one I don't know any. I don't know of. any like modern bookstores. bookstores. that um I forgot. We'll call. We'll. figure it out. Um, but if not Thursday, I'm going to be in Murfreesboro. We can. do something in Murfreesboro. Everyone was begging Murfreesboro. >> love Murfreesboro. You're in. Murfreesboro, aren't you? I need to Can. we do a face on Thursday right before. Dr. You guys all want to go to Dr. Turley's, too? >> Let's do it. >> Mo's getting a facelift.

>> Yeah. All right, we'll all go to Dr. Turley's and then we'll just make a day. of it. Yeah, we'll go do it this. weekend. So, we'll do it on Thursday. >> a consultation with him, so I feel like. that's like a good day to do it. >> I'll get boob consultations. >> go in there and just be like, "Hey, we're all here for consultations.". >> We all just walk in topless. Fat. transfer. He's going to love it though. Dr. Turley loves us. >> Yeah, I love his facility. >> All right, cool. Yeah, so Thursday we'll. go sign a bunch of books and we'll let. you guys know where it is. I had an idea. where I wanted to do like a scavenger. hunt. I love that. >> Can we please do it in Murfreesboro?

They do that sometimes with people that. are there. >> that I can sign that we can hide in. different places. >> Let's do it with Let's do it with local. businesses and then we can support their. businesses. >> Yeah. And go drop off books at like some. people that would never have thought to. go to like a local coffee shop or. something can go there. >> think little coffee shops are cute. >> Yeah, I think that'd be like all local. owned businesses. >> coffee and ask for and give them a code. word. XO. Yeah. Yeah. I love it. We'll figure it. out. We'll figure something out, but. Thursday we will do it. So, this will be. out the next the day after.

Right? Yeah, so they got to go find it. Well, we're probably going to announce. it on social media. >> Yeah, it'll be on Instagram, Facebook, something like that. Well, if they. didn't see it. We'll figure it out. Well, hopefully by the time you guys. hear this there's still some books left. All right, thank you guys for tuning in. See you later. Bye.