Baylen Dupree: Endometriosis, GLP-1s & What NOT to Say When You Meet Her

[music]. Is this thing on? What's up, you sexy. [ __ ] Welcome to another. episode of Dumb Blonde. Today's guest is. one of the internet's most recognizable. faces, a reality star, most importantly, an advocate, and one of the funniest. people you'll ever meet. By Lindsree, welcome to Dumb Blonde. Thank you so. much for having me. I am beyond excited.

>> to be here. Thank you so much. >> You look so beautiful. >> Thank you so much. >> You look like you have like this um new. bride glow to you. >> Thank you. >> Yeah, I love it. What's it feel like. being a wifey now? >> I love being a wifey. One of the things. that I've realized is the hardest, and. this is just so simple, is I have no. idea how to write my new name when we. are at like restaurants and I'm like. paying or like I'm going to shop. somewhere and I'm like, "Oh, I have no I. need to practice. I need to I need to.

practice." But I love it. It feels like. we've been honestly married for a like a. long time just because we choose each. other every single day regardless of. fights or tears or laughs or excitement. or love. Like we choose each other every. single day. So, it's always really been. like that. As soon as we started dating. and we've just kind of kept. going with it, it's paid off. >> I love it. And you guys have been. together how long? Colin's here, by the. way. We're going to bring him in in a. little bit. >> He We've been dating for four years.

>> Four years. And you guys were dating. before the TV show even started, right? Like you guys had started dating right. before then? >> Yes, we started dating right before. then. So he as soon as we started. dating, >> probably like five months after that, 3. months after that, I started a TV show. So he's been a part of it the entire. time. >> No, I love it for you guys. And. congratulations. I know I told you guys. whenever you first walked in, but I have. to tell you publicly also, I'm just so. excited for you guys being married. And. I think you guys are the cutest couple. Um, so I know this is a deep subject to.

jump into just off the the bat, but I. was so excited about hearing you speak. about um and advocating for women who. have indometriosis. I that is uh something that's dear to my. heart because I'm going through that. with my IVF journey and I feel like so. many people need somebody like you to. look up to to talk about these things. Can you tell me about your journey with. the endometriosis? >> My journey. So, when I was about in. eighth grade, so I was like probably I.

don't I'm not going to do the math and. embarrass myself. [laughter]. >> It's okay, sister. I can't I can't add. [ __ ] either unless it's funny. >> So, I was really young and I figured. that I was having like a lot of pain. with my periods. They were they were. like two days which was like very normal. but they were very um painful. >> and um to the point like it would get. like I couldn't walk like cuz I'd be. hunched over. Um I was extremely also.

had extreme constipation to the point. where I'd be in the hospital. >> Um. >> um I've had to miss school because of. it. Um, but I was clinically diagnosed. when I was in 8th grade and I got on. birth control and I skipped the placebo. That's what the placebo pills that. basically regulate your period. For me. to get my period, it makes endometriosis. worse. So, I just skip it. So, I haven't. had a period since then,

>> which has been forever. But also, at the. same time, it's prevented a lot of pain. Um, and when I just went in for looking. at the endometriosis specialist, we go. on the show and you get to see me go and. see an indometriosis specialist because. we do want kids. We want kids in the. future and it's very, very important to. us. I have a big family and he's the. youngest kid in his family. So, he's. always wanted to be a young dad, and. it's always a dream of ours to have. kids, but there's always the reality of.

the possibility of not being able to. have kids. And the most important thing. is that we've had those conversations. and we've come to a realization that we. do have options and there is ways to. come about it, but they're also so hard. and so expensive and so like exhausting. probably on your body and what it does. to like female organs and things like. that. But I was clinically diagnosed and. then I was rediagnosed on the show. because the only way to truthfully find.

out if you have indometriosis. is through sucking dick is through um. >> going in and getting the surgery for it. to find actual proof. She said that 80%. of women that come in with indometriosis. to get an ultrasound done um to find out. if they have it, it doesn't come up on. there because they actually need the. surgery to go in and find the lesions. and the scar tissues and the old cysts. and the cysts that are. >> built over top of it. So, the journey.

has been. long. finding out what's been going on, but. it's also been so hopeful and so like. reassuring that like I'm not just making. up this pain or I'm not just feeling it. and it's not like if it was something. else like I just didn't want to go in. thinking that like. >> I was making this all up, right? like it. would it would be great to know if like. I didn't have a really really really. severe case of indometriosis, but I also.

wanted to know like. >> I really don't want to be making. something up. I really don't want to be. like feeling something that's completely. wrong or maybe I'm like overexaggerating. or be over dramatic or. >> want it up or anything like that. So to. go in and like actually get reassured on. my symptoms and everything that's going. on and that there is a possibility of us. having kids, but it's also like nobody. really knows the possibility of anyone.

having kids until you try to have kids. >> And that's kind of the best advice she. gave us. >> And obviously we're not trying to have. kids right now. We just got married and. we're trying to enjoy our married life a. little bit. Um, but I think it's amazing. that you are being so vocal because. young girls actually really need to know. about this because as I was growing up, I used to have to like miss school. The. first I remember my first period when I. was I think I was like 12 or 13. And it. was the most horrific cramping that I.

had ever had. And then that followed me. all the way up until I was finally. diagnosed with indometriosis. And I. mean, you can ask my team, I have to. take days off. I we schedule my schedule. around my period because we never know. how bad it's going to be. But do you. know one thing that I have found that. has really alleviated um my symptoms. with endometriosis is um micro doing a. tiny bit of tricepide. Have you ever. micro do like GLP1s or anything like. that? >> So I'm actually That's a great question. I'm on a GLP1 right now. I've been on it.

for about a year. Um, the medication. that I take for my bipolar um, makes me. excessively gain weight. So, when I. first took the medication, I gained. about 30 lbs in about 3 months. 20 to 30. lbs in about 3 months. Um, it was rough, especially since you have the entire. internet and everyone commenting and. everyone saying something and everyone. calling me whaling. >> I've never heard that one before. So, it's just kind of it's hard to like.

migrate. going through like body problems and. then also trying to be a social media. advocate at the same time because you. want to like tell everyone to feel. confident and feel good and love. yourself and you only have. >> one you. God only gave you one you. So, it's the only show the only home you. have. >> And then you go around and you feel. insecure, too. But we're also all human. >> and we all can't be perfect. Um, I know. what it's like to try to navigate that.

As I was going through IVF, it put. weight on me and people, you know, would. be like, "Oh, she's bigger than her. husband now." And like it and you're. literally trying to make a baby with. your body. And it's like people just. have no respect. The internet is just so. crazy. But I I've learned that it's just. miserable people who have nothing better. to do than just comment on other. people's lives. So, you can't ever let. that get to you. >> No. But my neurologist was telling me. because she's the one that prescribed me. the GLP1 for the increase in weight. gain. And um where was I going with.

this? >> The the GLP1's helping with. indometriosis. >> Yeah. She brought up about how. >> the inflammation that goes on with your. body, the [clears throat] GOP one helps. reduce that. And like with. indometriosis, it's. >> that it's inflammation. So. >> I've definitely seen an increase. like. I've periodically like gone off of it. like for certain things and certain. reasons. Um and when I do I'm like. immediately I need to get back on.

because I don't. >> you can feel a difference. >> I can it's like in it's like insane and. I'm like obviously not doing it for a. trend. I'm not doing it to fit in. I'm. not trying to do it to be skinny. >> I'm doing it because well I actually. need it. >> It's like pain management. Yeah. Um, my. stomach would for like after I did the. IVF from my, you know, you have to pump. yourself full of like estrogen and all. these hormones. So, the endometriosis. just fed off of that. My lower stomach. would like pooch out and I mean it.

belly. >> Yeah. And it looked like I I was like 3. months pregnant and it would not go. away. The only thing that took it away. was take it was micro doing the GLP1. And I think that more people need to. know about that because it's not just. for weight loss. like we're really. trying to like get our bodies in in. check and in order and that and getting. the inflammation down is probably the. number one thing that you could do for. your body. It's not just about losing. weight or taking a shortcut. It's about. >> literally trying to help yourself and. help yourself feel better. >> I completely agree.

>> Yeah, I love that you're talking about. that. You're also very open about your. bipolar disorder and also um OCD, but. I've never heard you really I I have OCD. myself and I've I'm fascinated with all. the different types of OCD that there. are. I never realized until I was. actually diagnosed with OCD how many. different types of OCD there are. What. exactly is your OCD? My OCD is a lot of. negative intrusive thoughts that then.

build up to like things happening that. spiral into like death. Um, I've started. realizing I have a lot of fears with. like, okay, if I leave the house today. then and I get in a ride share or an. Uber, what if I get in a car accident. and then my leg breaks or like I'm dead? Like I can't leave the house. I can't. leave the house today. Maybe I'll try. tomorrow. I'll go for a walk. Maybe the. walk I'll be fine. Maybe I won't trip. Like it's very very intricate. Um it.

used to be um for a small period of time. uh germs. >> I wouldn't I wouldn't even drink out of. my husband's drink at the time. Like it. was I I wouldn't I wouldn't do sweaty. hugs. I wouldn't do handshakes. I rather. go in for a hug than a handshake because. in my hands like your hands are like. probably one of the dirtiest parts of. your body. I wore gloves to my meet and. greets. >> Yes. >> Yeah. Cuz the a sweaty hand I'll think. about it all night if I touch a sweaty.

hand or if I hug somebody and they're. sweaty. >> Yeah. >> Or immediately like I had to like. immediately go shower afterwards or like. I would always scrub my hands like a. repetitive amount of times. I do. everything in threes which I've been to. ERP therapy for. Um, it's definitely helped, but it's. definitely something that like you have. to do when you're ready because it's so. motivationally driven by yourself. Like. there was one point where my ERP. therapist was telling me, she's like, "Yeah, we work with a lot of people that. have the fear of throwing up." And how.

we build up to that is, well, we watch. videos of people throwing up and then. >> exposure therapy. >> Yes. Like we're going through. everything. And then she's like, "We. practice." And I was like, "What?" I. [laughter] was like, "But okay, this. sounds this isn't sounding normal, but. okay." [gasps and laughter]. But I did do exposure therapy, especially for um the horse for the. wedding. >> Mhm. >> That was still up in the air. >> A So, did you have to go and and shake. sweaty hands and hug sweaty people for. your exposure therapy or how did that.

work out? >> So, my exposure therapy specifically was. around horses. I was petrified of horses. and a part of me I did it for him. because he wanted one at the wedding and. I needed to get familiar with being. around a horse and then another part of. me I wanted to do it because horses are. so. therapeutic therapeutic and beautiful. and just perfect for people that are. neurodeivergent and I've always wanted. to feel that way. So when I went through. the therapy, like.

we got close to the horse, I got to. touch the horse. I got to brush the. horse. I got to ride ride the horse. I. got to Well, that and then um I also. played with its [ __ ]. >> Really? >> Yes, I did. [laughter] Yes, I did. >> Okay, you I need to we need to be in. depth about this. So, why are we. fondling turds? What is happening? >> Because I have the fear of germs. So, um, I had to.

rub [ __ ] on my hands [laughter]. >> without gloves on. >> Without gloves on, I had to get it in my. nail. Like, she's like scraping it. underneath my nails. And I look at her. This was. >> I'll [ __ ] die. >> I don't know if it was in the episode. I. have no idea, but there was a part of it. that was cut out when I asked her. I. said, "So, how often do you get sick?". And she's like, "I'm not going to answer. that question right now." And I was. like, "Okay, well, you. >> this is supposed to be therapy.". >> And we c we cancelled the therapy the. first time because she was sick. So I.

was like, "Okay, there's a pattern here. There's a [laughter] pattern here.". >> And she actually putting turds on. horseshit under your nails. >> Yes. It was You have to be like very. very motivated to do it because at first. I was like, I'm not doing this. And then. I was like, I got to get over like I. like I wouldn't even be able to like eat. sandwiches with my hands because my. hands were infected and contaminated by. germs. So, I wouldn't be able to pick up. the sandwiches or like eat chips and. dip. So, I was just like and maybe I'll. just do it and maybe it will do. something. And it did do something. I. did the hardest thing I possibly could.

have ever imagined and then I never have. to do it again. And now all of those. fears are gone. But it's definitely. >> shocking. Like you sit there and you're. like, "Probably not." Yeah. Like I had. to leave. >> You're a better woman than I. >> Yeah. I I had to leave the therapy. I. was like, "I don't think I can be doing. this anymore.". >> You did it. And like how [ __ ] cool is. that though? Like I'm so proud of you. because I don't think people who don't. battle OCD don't realize how huge of a. like a triumph that was for you. Because.

I I'm I will pet horses. I'll hang out. with them. I'll ride them. I'm not. touching their [ __ ] And especially. getting it under my nails. There's no. [ __ ] way. Like not happening. >> It was It was It was an interesting. experience. And especially with everyone. just watching me do it, I was [laughter]. like, "Wow, this is [gasps]. >> I'm like, "Okay, girl. My hat goes off. to you, sister." Well, let's switch. gears. Let's talk a little bit about. your family because you guys seem. incredibly close. >> Double hate. >> And uh so who's the funniest member of.

your family? >> Berkeley. My oldest brother. >> Yeah. Standup comedian. >> Seems like it. >> He's standup comedian. Yeah. >> Funniest person in the room. Also, you. would never guess the most quiet like. like also like very sticks to himself. like. quietest person, biggest stage fright. Will never do standup, will never stand. in front of crowds, never do anything. like that. >> But he's the funniest per I mean. >> he's the funniest person I.

>> I love that though. Who do you think the. favorite child is out of you guys? Me or Spenlin? >> She she answered that quickly. So she's. like me or Spvenlin. You said. >> Spvenlin. Yeah. >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I could see that. totally. And what's a family story that. gets brought up at every holiday whether. you like it or not? [clears throat]. >> Oh my gosh. [laughter]. [gasps] I love asking questions that. make people think. >> I know there's got to be one. >> There's so many, but I can't think of.

any right now. Like family cuz. Thanksgiving's different every year. It's always like. >> at different places and so it's always. like different with the people that are. there cuz sometimes you can't say. >> so I just I don't know. >> we can circle back we'll circle back to. that if it comes to you during the. interview just interject and we'll we'll. put it in. >> Let's move on to understanding your. story a little bit. I know you have. spoken about your journey so many times, but for people who possibly could have.

never, you know, come across you on. TikTok, let's talk about the journey of. when you first started notice noticing. symptoms of your um Tourette's and what. that experience was like for you. I started really knowing that I was. different than everybody when I was. probably like I knew that I had ticks. when I was younger, but I didn't know. that until I was older. I didn't know. what I was really experiencing. thought. everyone did what I did and also at the. time it was so less complex that it was.

just hard to tell. And I also at the. time had like a lot of learning. disabilities like and things like that. Like I was at the time like. trying to I got held back. So there was. a lot going on at that stage. Um. >> what was the question? >> We're talking about when he first. started experiencing the symptoms. So, like how old were you when you like when. you were younger? What were your ticks. like though that you had noticed as a. child?

>> They were a lot of neck movements. And. then as I got older, I started real. realizing that I always like used to. flex my like I still do. I always used. to flex my thigh muscles and I always. felt like I had to do it and I had to. keep going until like the urge went. away. But I never really knew what that. was until. I was older and I found out and I. learned what ticks are because they're. so complex and you have no idea kind of. what they can be or how they can.

manifest. But I was around the age of. 15. Um, and I had this throat clearing. tick that. sounded. like my throat was closing. And I went I. had a cardiologist at the time and I. went to the cardiologist and I was like. I just I just h like I just have this. feeling in my throat and I have to keep. doing it. It won't stop until it's like. fulfilled. And he's like sounds like you.

have a throat closing issue. You might. need surgery. I was like okay. Um I'm. going to go see somebody else. [laughter]. >> Thanks a lot, dude. So then I started. experiencing like little neck ticks like. this or things like that. Um. but was it was really like when I was in. school and I started noticing those. things when I was like 16 15 years old. and my friends at the time would be like. why are you doing that? And it was the.

friend group I had at the time and um I. no idea. I had no idea it was Tourette's. at the time. I was like oh it's a heart. it's my heart thing. It's like this. thing. it was that thing. Like I had no. idea. And then like when I was actually. diagnosed at 16 and I went to the doctor. before CO happened. Um he diagnosed me. and then I went back during CO because. it got so bad from like being sheltered. I'm a social butterfly. As much as I. have social anxiety, I just love to be.

around people. I love to be around love. I love to just be around everybody. >> I love a girl. >> Yeah. I don't like to be lonely. I don't. like that feeling. Mhm. >> Where was I going with this? >> Um, we're talking about just how, you. know, when after you got diagnosed at. 16. >> Oh, yes. I'm so sorry. >> No, you're fine. I got you, girl. I'll. keep you on track the whole time. >> Thank you so [laughter] much. [gasps]. Um, I actually went back cuz my ticks. were so bad. I had a tick that I was. hitting my foot off my head. >> And I went in there and he was like. doing all these exams and he was looking.

at me and he was just staring at me for. maybe like 30 minutes like examining my. ticks. And he's like, "Yeah, you don't. you don't have Tourette's. I don't know. what you have. I don't know what's going. on, but you can't you shouldn't leave. the house. You shouldn't work. You. shouldn't drive. You definitely. shouldn't go to college. Um, stay at. home. You do not fit in with society.". And I was like, "Okay." So, >> can we take this man's medical license? Cuz like, what kind of [ __ ] advice is. that?

>> And then he goes to tell us he's like, "I actually I can't even see you as a. patient anymore. I don't even specialize. in movement disorders. I specialize in. epilepsy. So, he wasted all of my time. by diagnosing me, undiagnosing me, and. then sending me off. So, I went to the. Mayo Clinic in Rochester, and I got an official diagnosis there. Um, and basically, she gave me a lot of. hope, but it's so hard with like um. getting medicines and treatment and.

everything cuz everything really isn't. covered by insurance. So like the SEBIT. therapy, cognitive behavioral. intervention for ticks isn't covered by. um insurance and it's very very. expensive. And when I went to the Mayo. Clinic, the lady was like, "Oh, I see I. see thousands of people that have. Tourette's. I see hundreds of thousands. Like this is. definitely what Tourette's is.". However, good luck finding help. There's. only 10 hospitals in America that do.

SEBIT therapy. Um, good luck finding a. doctor in your state that does. Tourette's or specializes in Tourette's. or movement disorders. Um, good luck. I. never once was told about the Tourett. Association of America, which is the. only place I really have ever felt. welcomed as somebody with Tourette's. >> Um, cuz it's an entire community of just. all my tick friends. Like, it's just. it's just great to like let them know. that I can be a voice for them and let. them know that I always have my. community. Absolutely. I think you've.

created such a um like you've created. such a conversation for for people who. do have Tourette's. And I don't want to. say you've you've made it look cool. because I feel like that's insensitive, but you've made it look like it's not. this um this uh disability that people. can't still live and be free and be. happy and like you have just broken down. so many barriers and so many walls for. so many people. Um, what do you wish that people.

understood about Tourette's syndrome? What do you wish that more people. understood about Tourette's syndrome? I. wish that people understood that people. don't tick 24/7. If I'm in my apartment. and I'm watching a movie with my. husband, my ticks are like non-existent. >> because you feel safe. >> I feel safe. I'm in my safe space. But. also my safe space also means if I come. back from a really stressful environment. and I'm holding in my ticks, that's my. safe space. So my ticks are also so loud.

and so obnoxious and can be so abrupt, but they also can be so calm as well. And I just wish that people like saw. that side. I wish people saw the side of. like me listening to music with. headphones. Like when I go to the. airport and I sit in my sit in my chair, I put headphones on and I maybe tick 10. times the entire flight depend depending. on how long the flight is. [laughter]. >> London's a bit long. >> Oh my gosh. International flying is. crazy. I don't even like it. So I I. couldn't imagine. >> My ass hurts. Yeah. [laughter].

>> What What has been the most challenging. part emotionally going through this. journey for you? The most challenging part is probably. the fact that. I try so hard to demonstrate. Tourette's in the most possible. beautiful. way I can. And I just wish people didn't approach.

me by my tick or they just didn't say. the tick. Like when people have. Tourette's, when you repeat their ticks, it sets their ticks off. >> So like when people come up to me and. they're like, "Oh my god, I love you. Tourette's girl." And I'm like, "Oh, okay.". >> Like you want to be No. Yeah. You want. >> I'm like at least call me Bailey or. something at this point. Like I'm fine. with that. >> Get my name [laughter] wrong. >> But I just I just. >> I feel like that's so insensitive too to. walk up to somebody and just say that to.

them. >> Or the hardest part is like. >> home training. >> Yes. like I share my life and I do the. best I can, but there's sometimes where. I mess up. And there are some days where. like I don't show the good days and I. don't show what it's really like to like. sometimes live through those good days. And I just wish that like people. understood that I'm like trying my best. to portray what my life looks like, but. I also don't want to be on social media. 247 because sometimes it can get really. time consuming and really just consuming. in general with everything. and I really.

try to be as present as possible with. everything in life. So, I just wish people would just realize. that I'm trying my best. >> to to show what Tourette's is. And. sometimes I. >> make mistakes and I don't show every. side or maybe I don't show sides in the. best way, but I just wish people. understood that you don't tick 24/7 and. I'm doing the best I can to show that. >> I think you're doing a great job. >> Thank you so much. >> Don't be so hard on yourself. I think. you're doing a great job and I think.

there's a lot of people that look up to. you. I mean, you have your own freaking. TV show for God's sake. Like, you're. you're doing the damn you're doing the. damn thing, sister. So, let's talk about. how you were discovered and all this. stuff. Your your social media and like. kind of like finding your purpose on. social media. What inspired you to start. sharing your life online? >> So, I originally did not have Tik Tok. when I was in high school. I was like, I'm not doing Tik Tok dances. Like, that's not like I really [laughter] like. I was just very like more reserved than. I was now. like I just.

wasn't really prone to showing that. And. then I got on social media, made a. couple videos, and at this time like I. didn't want it to be about my Tourette's. because my Tourette's was so minimal in. my life. >> My ticks were very minimal. I was. probably ticking 10 to 20 times a day. Like depending on the environment and my. nerves and everything that went on that. day. So, I didn't want it to be about. that until one day, like I was saying, um my ticks got. really, really bad before COVID, but. before then, I was like only ticking 10.

times a day. I didn't really know what. was going on with me, right? >> And so, I had to reintroduce myself to. all my friends, all my family, all my. relatives, all my loved ones, and be. like, "This is who I am now. >> Um I'm still bailing, just have a little extra feature." Um. [laughter]. I like that. Um, so. a girl followed me around the store. without me acknowledging on social media. or acknowledging to any of my friends. I. stopped being friends with everybody cuz.

I was so embarrassed by who I was. I. didn't want to reintroduce myself. >> I didn't want anybody to know who I was. >> Um, I was in therapy like four times a. week, three times a week. and um I just. didn't want to have to I don't know. where I was going again. >> It's okay. You were talking about like. what inspired you to start sharing your. life online because when you started you. weren't having the ticks that you. started um getting as you got a little. bit older. >> Yeah. I was followed around the store. and she was like laughing and pointing.

and like making fun of me and I was like. I didn't know where the video was going. to go. I assumed that it was put out on. social media to make fun of me. That's. only what I was would assume. Um, and so. I went home that night and I was like, I'm going to make her feel dumb. I'm. going to make her feel really stupid. about taking a video and making fun of. somebody that has a disability in. public. So I went online and I was like, hey, like I tried making this video from. another video that went that went and. got like a million views. I tried like. explaining myself and I was like, I'm. not going to hide anymore. This has.

given me motivation to just share who I. am. And I went on social media and I. shared a video of basically explaining. what happened and I was just opened up. about having Tourette's. I have. Tourette's syndrome, stupid. [snorts]. And it like went viral and everybody. thought I was faking and I was like, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. I didn't know. this is what people thought. >> I didn't know that this was the first. thing that come to came to mind. >> But I just wanted to just take my power. back from her and just have the truth be.

told from my mouth and just make her. feel dumb for doing that. >> And I I mean, kudos to you because that. is such a superpower because some people. would have like, you know, it it could. have gone a different way and you could. have been like more depressed or even. like suicidal over that girl doing that. to you and instead you stood up to your. bully and showed her and everybody else. online like, "Hey, this is what's going. on. It's not okay what she did and I'm. going to empower myself." So, I mean, I'm I'm really proud of you for doing. that. >> Thank Um, so did you have any idea that.

your videos would resonate with so many. people though once you actually did come. out and like the outpouring of love that. you started to get? >> No, I had no idea. I had absolutely no. idea. I had no idea that that video was. going to blow up. Between. me starting in November and me going on. Dr. Phil in March, I had 3 million. followers. >> Wow. >> I had no idea that that was going to. happen. And I started realizing like I. joked around one time with one of my.

friends. I was like, "Oh my god, I want. to drop out of college so bad. What if. we just became social media influencers, went that way, we can move to New York, have a good time." And I don't know if I. manifested it or something or Jesus. heard me, but [laughter]. it ended up happening. And it's just. crazy. I'm so blessed for the amount of. love that I've been given because I felt. like I was in such a dark place and that. I would never be loved and that I would. >> just have all these terrible thoughts. towards myself. So, it's just I'm very.

very blessed with the life that I've. been given and the way that I've been. able to impact others and be the voice. for people that don't feel like they. have one is really the only reason I do. what I do. >> I love it. What is one of your favorite. fan interactions? like what's your favorite thing that I. mean a story and then what is your. favorite thing that fans do when they. come up to you? >> I've met so many incredible people and I. love talking about every single one of. them, but I think the most one that.

resonates with me and with him. Um we. were in a Chipotle and we're sitting. down and we're having dinner and this. guy comes up and he's like, "I'm so. sorry to interrupt you guys, but I know. you." And we're like, "Okay, yeah, lovely to meet you." All stuff. He goes, "I'm a behavioral therapist. My wife is. a special needs teacher. We've been. waiting for something to come out like. this for 10 years. We've been waiting. for advocacy and for disability. awareness and invisibility disable.

disability awareness and just. >> it really resonates. a lot because I just love meeting. people. I really do. I love meeting a a. face behind a follower and a supporter. and somebody that really loves and. supports me and cherishes my life. So, it's just really good to know that I've. met a lot of really, really good people. And my favorite thing when people come. up to me. is probably like everyone's so it's so.

funny. Everyone's so surprised how nice. I am when they meet me in person. >> You're so sweet. So, it's so like. shocking to me when people come up to me. and they're like, "Oh my god, I thought. you were going to be so mean." And I was. like, "Whoa, whoa, whoa. What? [laughter]. >> Where would they ever get that? >> Where'd you get that from?". >> But I just I love meeting everyone and. every interaction so different. sometimes, but the good ones definitely. outperform the the bad ones. >> Yeah. Good. Have you ever had any bad. fan experiences? >> Oh my god. Tons. >> No way. Tons.

>> I have to hear. >> tons. How could you have a bad fan. experience? That is so weird to me. >> The first time I started social media, I. was I was with my ex-boyfriend and we. were in a mall and this guy comes up and. he's like, "Oh my god, are you the girl. that fakes Tourette's?" And I was like, "Oh.". >> I was like, "What?" I was like, "No, no, I like I have it." And he goes, "Whatever. Do you want to get a photo?". And I was like, "No, no, I don't.". >> Yeah. I like I've had people what a.

cornball yell out the windows of cars. when I'm walking and be like, "Oh my. god, we [ __ ] with you Tourette's girl.". Like, wind it up. And I'm like, >> "Wine it up.". >> I'm like, "Okay, that's one way to. terribly approach somebody.". >> Yeah. >> I've been. I I. Do you need to come to sit down? [laughter]. >> There's You Colin, do you want to come. in? You can come have a seat, buddy. Come on up here.

>> Emotional support. [laughter]. >> I'm like, he knows every story in the. book. >> What up, Colin? You guys are a. good-looking couple. >> Thank you. >> Yeah, you guys are going to make some. really cute babies. I can't wait for you. guys to have babies. I want to be. godmother. Let me be godmother, [laughter] please. Very godmother. >> We got it. Do we got Colin on camera? >> Yeah. Thank you. I love how happy you get when you see. him. That's how you know it's love.

because you get like the biggest smile. just Oh, >> thank you. >> You guys both do. It's really sweet. >> Colin, welcome to the show. >> Thanks for having me. >> Oh, dude, I'm so glad you guys are both. here. Like, what is it like being. married now? I want to hear it from you. >> I feel like Balin put it really well. Um, it's it's honestly. >> psychologically. >> a new feeling that we're still trying to. adjust to, but also at the same time, it.

has felt like we've been married for a. while. Um, just cuz our priority when we. first started dating was to always every. single day just choose each other when. we wake up in the morning. And um I feel. like that's the biggest thing with. marriage is every day you have to to. choose that person. And so um but. [clears throat] yeah, it's it's pretty. amazing. We've been riding a high. Uh so. yeah. >> And we definitely keep God at the center. of it all. So it definitely helps.

>> I love that you've always seemed to be. so sweet and so patient with her. like I. watched the first few seasons of the. first couple of seasons of the show and. I just loved how you have always handled. her and always just been so like loving. and just poured into her and that's a. huge quality for a man to do cuz a lot. of men don't do that and I just you can. you can see the love that you guys have. for each other so I love that. So. talking about the fan interactions let's. circle back what was the one that she. called you up here for? Yeah. So, bad.

fan interactions, they are few. Um, there's not a whole lot, >> but there is sometimes where just people. will come up and they'll be like, "Oh my. gosh, I love you.". >> And then they'll say a tick and it's. just. >> and that's a trigger for you, right? If. somebody says a tick to you, it it just. automatically triggers. >> There's there's also been a lot of cases. where people will be like, "You want to. know what my favorite tick of yours is?". And I'm like, "Oh, here we go." Oh, >> here we go. I'm like, "Please don't.

start like that." Because then I'll say. it and it'll set them off and they'll be. like, "That one. Say it again." And I'm. like, "No, that's not how it works. That's not how it works.". >> Yeah. It's like I don't know. It's. weird. Like people like love her ticks. and like. >> some of them are funny, but at the end. of the day, like it is a condition that. she has and so when you say that tick, you're just setting her condition off. and making her condition worse. So, I. think that's not like they're not doing. it to be hateful or mean. I just think.

they don't know. Yeah. >> Yeah. Sitting here talking to you, you. haven't really had that many ticks and. you're so calm and so articulate and. well spoken. Like, I think that's. amazing. And has it always been like. that or have you had to learn how to. kind of like rein it in? >> It's definitely was hard at first. Like, I was living at home. I didn't really. know a lot about. my triggers and my environment changes. and how everything really affect my.

affected my condition kind of until we. live together and I got to experience. like being like [laughter]. >> sorry he's this is his world we just. live in it. Okay, [laughter]. this guy. >> until I really didn't experience being. on my own and like being in certain. scenarios and being out in public and. learning certain techniques that I use. I use a lot of camouflaging. I use a lot. of whispering techniques. Um, but most of the time a lot of people.

wouldn't know is that my motor ticks are. actually worse than my vocal ticks. >> And when you say motor ticks, what does. that mean? >> A motor tick is basically like my neck. ticks, >> okay? or like my arm ticks or my leg. ticks. Um, anything that involves a. muscle is definitely worse than like. >> my vocal ticks. But it also just depends. on the day and during daytoday I just. kind of go from there and choose it. But. it also just depends on the environment. It depends on the person. You're a.

lovely person. >> Um, and how comfortable I feel. But. usually when I'm focused and I'm [cough]. distracted, my ticks go away. And I love. talking, so it helps a lot. >> But like for example, we're planning to. go to Broadway tonight and have a couple. drinks. >> And alcohol seriously affects my ticks. It makes them really, really bad. So. another question would be like, why. would you drink? And it's like, well, I'm 23. A couple drinks doesn't make my.

ticks bad. Six drinks makes my ticks. bad. >> Right. So, >> and you also deserve to have fun, too. Not saying that alcohol has to be. involved in having fun, but some people. want to let loose, you know, and I mean, you are 20, would you say 23? >> And sometimes it helps like when I when. I have ticks, like there was one time. where we we got drunk and we went out to. a club and I ticked and I flipped some. guy off and he knew who I was, but he. like got in my face and put his finger. in my face and said, "No, [ __ ] you, [ __ ] [ __ ] you, bitch." and all of his.

friends like went to go fight the guy. >> Good for you. >> So, it's just kind of like sometimes. when I'm around drunk people, I rather. be a little bit more on the tipsy side. So, then if they come up and they. approach me like things like that, then. I'm not like completely sober and almost. like offended by it because there. there's just been a lot of times with. drunk people that in my condition that I. just don't like it. >> Yeah. But people I hopefully people. listen to this podcast and they can.

learn how it is from the other side and. how you feel and how you guys feel, you. know. Um so hopefully this will. definitely open up people's eyes to. that. [gasps]. >> God damn. >> So let's talk about the the show. Like. so you guys were dating before the show. even started. How was that conversation. uh when you guys decided to let cameras. in on your life? Because you know that's. life-changing. It was a really big decision. Um, it. definitely took a lot of trust just.

because Tourette's needs to be shown. correctly. It's so complex. It's so hard. to understand. A lot of people don't get. it. They don't understand. Um, so making. sure that it was described and shown. correctly was show so so important. And. that's really hard to take that risk. when you're going into having somebody. else be in control of your life and your. story. So, it was definitely a big risk. It definitely took a lot of. conversations, not only with him, but.

with my family. Um, a lot of thinking, a lot of emotions, a lot of tears, a lot. of laughs. Um, >> but also ultimately probably one of the. best decisions we've ever made for the. Tourett community because we had to put. ourselves aside and realize this is not. about us. This is about Tourette's and. the community and getting it out there. into the world because it's so. misunderstood everywhere you go. Anything that you see, there's not.

really a movie that describes it in a. way that. >> um really shows Tourette's true colors. or what what and how it looks like in. everybody. Like on the show, I have. multiple people that also have. Tourette's and how it manifests itself. differently. So. it was. definitely hard. >> Yeah, it was uh it was tough because we. were only dating for four or five months. when that opportunity. >> uh arose and.

>> I was in the moment where I was still. adjusting to her fame on social media. Like I'm very private. Uh I grew up in a. real small town. So, I was still. adjusting to the whole social media. thing and then it was like, "Hey, we. have an opportunity for a TV show." And. I was like, "A TV show?" [laughter]. >> Yeah, I think just taking a step back. and realizing that it's not about us. It's not about anyone else. It's about.

>> it's about the condition and and about. Tourette's and and the community and. spreading awareness. And so, if you take. a step back, it's a lot easier to make. that decision. >> Yeah. How were you guys so trusting? Because especially you guys aren't. executive producers, right? No. >> Yeah. So, it's like you have to really. like did you guys lay it out to. everybody like, "Hey, this is what we. want. This is how we want it to look.". Or did you just trust the process and. just watch it the first season that came. out and got to see, you know, what was.

made from that? >> We basically just got to watch it as it. came out. >> Wow. So, you guys just took a chance and. look at how it turned out, though. >> No, that's amazing. >> Yeah. Um, has filming taught you guys. anything new about yourselves? >> I think it's definitely brought us. closer. When we started dating, we we. still had a great relationship, but it's. definitely brought us a lot closer in a. lot of different ways. >> cuz you guys get to look back and like. if there's even an argument or like how.

you handled the situation, you guys get. to look back on it and reflect. Yeah, I. think it's it's really taught us to to. communicate a lot better with each other. throughout filming because it filming is. very hectic and it can get chaotic and. it's busy schedules. Um especially when. I'm in the military as well. So, uh I. feel like just communicating through. that process and through production is. what it's really taught us over the. years. >> Um Okay. So, where are you where does it.

stand now? Where are you guys at with. this transition of you coming out of the. military and what do you do in the. military? I don't think I've ever. learned what you've done. >> Yeah. So, >> for the past 5 and a half years, I am a. Paul bear in the United States Air. Force. Uh, basically, I carry caskets. during military funerals out in. Arlington National Cemetery. Uh, we'll. carry the fallen member to their grave. site. We'll fold their flag for them,

render military honors. Um, it's been an. amazing an amazing job that I've gotten. to experience and do. I mean, to be the. last uh. really the last. face that the military sees that the. family sees of the military. It's It's. been really nice to to be a part of. that. It's super special. >> Wow. That you're a special person to be. able to do that. I mean, to be. surrounded by the death and, you know, the fallen soldiers. Again, thank you.

for your service. >> Thank you. >> Um, did you go into the military and. pick that or did they pick that for you. or how does one I didn't even know that. that was an option? >> Yeah, it's it's not a lot of us. Uh, there's there's. >> um. >> 20 reeners, [laughter] 10 reeners, 10. reenas, 10 reeners, >> but I think Yeah. So, when when I first. joined, I chose that job. Wow. >> Um, >> that says a lot about you. >> Yeah. So, I was I was super excited to. do it and uh I just didn't know that I.

would end up being there for five and a. half years, but I've loved every bit of. it. I have done over a thousand funerals. um during that time frame. So, >> I I've George Washington's dick, >> every part of that. And and as far as. the transitioning out and uh the move. and all of that, all of that's still in. the process. There's a lot of approvals. that I have to get on my side of things. So, >> yeah, still a work in progress. >> Yeah. So, is it going to unfold on this.

season? Do we have to keep watching? >> It will. >> Okay. I can't wait. I'm going to be. texting Balen be like, [laughter] "I. knew it.". >> What are you guys excited about now? Like, now that you guys have gotten. married, you guys are fresh off your. honeymoon. Like, what is exciting you. guys? What are you guys looking forward. to? I think really just for me, I don't know. about for you, for me it's really trying. to like take a step back and slow down. Uh our lives have been pretty hectic.

>> Uh like with with the TV show, with. getting married, with the honeymoon, it's been pretty pretty wild. And then. also trying to potentially move and. potentially change careers. Um there's. been a lot on the table and a lot that's. been happening around us. So I think. really what I'm most excited about is. really just taking a step back and. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. When the cameras aren't on, what.

is your guys's favorite thing to do? >> Date nights. >> A. >> we But it's so simple. All we like to do. when we don't film is like put a TV show. on and just cuddle and just like give. each other time because we know that. like with everything going on in our. lives, we still try as hard as we can to. prioritize each other. And sometimes. it's not the easiest for me to like go. out to restaurants and do things like. that. But. I'd say it's. one of best day one of the best times of. the day.

>> A what about for you? Is that your. favorite too? Yeah, I think uh really. just trying to figure out any way to. spend time together, whether it is going. to a restaurant or if uh her ticks are. too bad and she can't do a restaurant. scene, then cooking at home, having a. wine night, watching Netflix, whatever. it may be. Just trying to. >> taking the dogs on a walk. >> Yeah. Really just try to spend time with. each other um without any any cameras or. anything around. >> I love that for you guys. What are you.

guys most proud of right now. >> as a couple? Uh, individual and as a. couple. Hey man, [laughter] come here. I'm sorry. Hold on. Come here, man. [clears throat] You're acting up today. Get up here. It's time to work, buddy. Come on. Golly. Okay. I'm very proud of. how far I've came in the last two years. Um, since three years since we've been. dating. I was living at home in my.

parents' basement. My ticks were so bad. I would have tick attacks. They're like. an excessive amount of ticks in a period. of time that you don't know how long it. will last for. >> Um, and you don't really know what the. ticks are. Um, it's it's been a long ride figuring out. my condition and myself and my. confidence. And I get a lot of it from. him. He helps me a lot with that. Um,

but I would say I've come a really, really long, hard, far way. I never. pictured myself getting married five. years ago because I never thought that. my ticks would allow me to walk down the. aisle. >> So, um, it's been really nice to be. along this journey with him and, >> um, just be proud of myself at the same time. and realize I've come a far way. And to. be able to acknowledge that is. >> yes. >> so so beautiful for me.

>> You're conquering things every day and. like even just from when I saw like the. first season to now like seeing how much. you've grown as a woman. >> is is [clears throat] really a beautiful. journey to watch and I think we're all. rooting for you guys. We're literally. all even you Colin like you have grown. so much with her too. So I mean you guys. are like America's couple right now. >> Oh I love that. >> Sweet. >> And what [clears throat] are you proud. of Colin? Yeah, I think. >> I think I'm really just proud of. >> air with that dick.

>> How far I've seen her come. like there's. been a lot of struggles that she's had. whether it's communication or the. fear of germs her condition Tourette's. as a whole it's all like grown so fast. for the good in the past 3 years that I. mean it it's it's amazing to kind of. really sit back and watch and be along. for the ride but as that happens I also.

have to to learn new ways and figure out. ways to help her as her condition adapts. and changes throughout the year. So, it's all a learning curve. I don't know. everything there is to know. And um. >> I definitely don't. So, >> yeah, >> I feel like it's a testament of love, though, because you know, you're pouring. into her, she's pouring into you, and. you guys are just both blooming and. flourishing. And I mean, that's that's. what love is all about, and you guys are. setting the example. So, I'm proud of. you guys for doing that, too. >> Thank you so much.

>> Thanks. Um, what do you hope people feel. after spending the hour with with us. today and listening to this podcast? What do you want them to take away from. this? That is a great question. [laughter]. A lot of different things. I want them. to take away that Tourette's can look a. lot differently for a lot of other. people. I want people to. kind of understand a little bit more. about endometriosis and kind of that. background and the similarity we have.

Um, I'm glad that he got to come on. That's. super cool. [laughter] It's his first. time ever coming with to like. >> with me to do this stuff. So, it's so. cool to have him with me. >> Um, >> I don't know. I just hope people take. away the fact that threats is real. And. there is things that I say that are. funny, but there's also times where it's. very difficult and it's very hard to. deal with and it's it's paralyzing.

sometimes. It's it gets very very. difficult to do a lot of different. things and it gets very hard to walk. sometimes and it's very hard to see. sometimes. Um, I just hope that people also. understand not to call me Tourette's. girl. [laughter]. >> Yeah. To approach you with love. I mean, like, come on. I can't. When you told me. people were doing that, I was just like, our world has no hope. [laughter]. >> Like, what the [ __ ] is wrong with you. guys?

>> Like, we just want to shake people. [laughter]. >> What about you, Colin? What are you. hoping they take home after listening to. this? I hope they they learn that people. with Tourette's don't tick 24/7. That is. a huge misconception that a lot of. people die. >> A lot of people don't really know. Um. like she said, there's a lot of times. where she's just sitting there and she. can sit there for 30 minutes, an hour, two hours, and just not take if she's. comfortable and relaxed. Um, I hope that.

they continue to watch the show and. watch our relationship and um, just. actually learn a lot about who we are as. people and. >> uh, individually and I think those are. the biggest two takeaways. >> Great. Better than me. Thank you. >> You guys are sweet. All right, so tell. people where they can find you guys, where they can watch your show, social. media shoutouts. Colin, do you have. social media? >> I do. Yeah. >> Okay. Okay. I'll have to follow you. >> Big honor, though. [laughter].

>> Well, shout out wherever you want people. to watch and follow you guys. >> Oh, you can watch me and him on TLC, the. learning channel. Learn something, [ __ ] Bailing out loud. Um, I have no. idea what my social media handles are, but they are Balen [laughter] Douly. somewhere. They are verified somewhere. I have no idea what they are. >> And what about you, Colin? >> Yeah. Uh, you can find me on Instagram. and Tik Tok. Uh, Colin_Douie. Um, >> I'm glad you know yours. [laughter].

>> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> She's like, I have no idea. I'm so happy. you guys were able to sit down with me. today and I want you guys to come back. anytime you want. My couch is always. open for you guys. >> Thank you so much. >> Oh, thank you. You're so sweet. You guys. Thank you. You're the best. Thank you. guys for tuning in to another episode of. Dumb Blonde. I'll see you guys next. week. Bye.