My College Soccer Trauma

Hi, Daddy gang. So, there is no new Call. Her Daddy episode this week because I. just officially released my documentary, Call Her Alex, on Hulu. I cannot believe. I'm finally getting to say that. I'm. feeling extremely proud and emotional, but if I'm being honest, I also. feel nervous and.

scared. Most people obviously know me as. the host of Call Her Daddy, right? But I. realize in releasing this new. documentary, the world is going to learn. about the one thing I've never really. talked about. before, which is. the years of. traumatic sexual harassment I endured. from my college soccer.

coach. It took me a decade to tell this. story. And I'll be honest, even saying. the words to you right now, I was. sexually harassed by my college soccer. coach, I still feel uneasy and. uncomfortable and anxious with all of. it. There is no right way to talk about. it and open up about this. But if I have learned anything from call. herd, there is such power in.

conversation. So why now you may be. asking? Over two years ago, I went on my. first live podcast tour, and I thought. it would be fun to just. have a documentary crew follow the. journey so I could share some of the. chaotic behind-the-scenes moments along. the way for anyone that couldn't come. and enjoy. But the entire direction of. the film changed after my opening tour.

stop in Boston. I had told the director that I wasn't. sure I wanted to get into what happened. to me in college in this documentary. I. figured, let's keep it light, let's keep. it fun, let's just approach it with a. more positive energy. and she was. obviously extremely supportive and. understanding, but she did encourage me. while we were in. Boston, go back to BEu, visit campus for.

the first time since I graduated, go. back to the soccer field, and just see what came up for me. And the minute I stepped on that. field, I felt so. small. Money, power, status, followers, years of therapy, none of it mattered. I. felt like I was 18 years old again,

completely powerless with no voice. And. the minute I saw Nickerson Field, I. broke down and I started. sobbing. I didn't realize how much I had. suppressed and how much I was still. carrying with. me. And I think I've hesitated to share. my story for various reasons. I think. the first obvious is that it's really.

painful to talk about. And I think a. part of me also. feels. embarrassed that this happened to me, the call her daddy. girl. In coming forward, I was also. afraid of retaliation. I also worried people would downplay or. dismiss the severity of what I. experienced because the abuse wasn't.

physical. And with a podcast that focuses on. empowering women, I felt. shame that my abuser happened to be a. woman. And I was worried. that sharing my story could quite. literally undermine everything I stand. for. [ __ ] the patriarchy. [ __ ] misogyny. And so I kept going back and forth, back. and forth to tell the world what.

happened, to not talk about it. What do. I. do? But then something happened where I. immediately knew without a doubt that it. was time for me to speak. up. Towards the end of filming this. documentary, new information came to. light. I found out that other. women had stepped onto that same field. and experienced the same harassment I.

did. I discovered that the abuse and. trauma I had been subjected to at Boss. University was still actively happening. on that campus in. 2025, a decade after I left. and I spoke directly with one of the. victims. Everything changed for me that.

day and it really put in perspective. that the harassment and abuse of power. was and is so much bigger than me. It is. systemic and it's happening. everywhere. And. so I. realized that if a woman in my position. who has power and a platform is still.

fearful, is still scared of speaking out. about my own lived experience of sexual. harassment, how the hell will any other. woman feel safe and confident to come. forward? opening up about this in the. documentary. Yes, it is a way for me to. share not only what I've endured, but. what women continue to endure everywhere. every single.

day. So, I'm here, Daddy Gang, today to. say to any other victims, you are not. alone. I see you. I believe you. and I stand with. you. I know that this experience doesn't. define me. And there are so many. beautiful moments of my life that I also. got to share over the course of filming.

this project. You will see parts of my. wedding, my family, my closest friends. I'm showing it all. But it was extremely. important for me to come on today and. say. just thank you, Daddy Gang, because. I I wouldn't be able to heal and grow. and be sitting on this [ __ ] couch and. release this type of documentary if I.

didn't have you. Literally, I wouldn't. be here without all of you. So, thank. you so much for always [ __ ]. supporting me, and I hope you know the. support is. mutual. So, with that. said, I love you guys. Go watch Call Her. Alex on. Hulu. Love you. Bye.