#ABtalks with Ahmed El Saadany | Chapter 231 | مع أحمد السعدني

Is it true you went to a therapist when you were 16? -Yes. -Why? Did it help? No. You lost your father... But when someone wakes you up from sleep. -And gives you that news. -Yes, it’s shocking. -And gives you that news. -Yes, it’s shocking. Is there something you wished you had told him? Yes. losing the mother of your children. Did you intend to get back together?

Before she passed away? if you could write a letter to "Amal". and she reads it today. Sometimes moments come when I say, if she was here with me now. Alright, guys and girls, Finally, Ahmed and I are sitting down together. I think this is only the second time I’ve seen you. Last time, we did something light and simple. This time, I feel it’s going to be deeper. Yes.

I think we had a real man-to-man talk. about some of the things Ahmed has gone through. And I hope your story... ...helps many people whether men or women. And I hope you enjoyed the conversation. As you said... If someone says just one word. and one person benefits from it, anywhere in the world. no matter who that person is I’ll be truly happy.

For me personally, I’m very glad to have gotten to know you. - My dear - Truly. And I’m glad I came to you, because for someone like me, this decision isn’t an easy one. -I know. -Yeah. And I’m grateful for that. And both of us are wearing black! So, if you enjoy the show. support us and subscribe to the channel. And if you love Ahmed, or want to love him even more. search for him on social media and Instagram...

then support him and follow him. And if you benefit. please let us know. Send him a direct message, and leave him a comment. Share your story and the situations you’ve been through, and what insights you took away from our episode together. We should be generous with praise, - Usually we only get criticism online - Only curse words We should be generous with praise, - Usually we only get criticism online - Only cursewords. Praise openly and send him direct messages. Enjoy.

Shall we? On the exact moment. Don’t be nervous why are you nervous? I'm nervous because...

I don't know. I’ve wanted to come to you for a long time. And... I remember many times, I told you, "Let’s postpone it for another time.". And honestly, I don’t know what I was waiting for. Then, the last time we spoke, I happened to be in a good mood. Alright. Why not? I said: ''Sure, why not? It will be a nice episode'' The next day, I really regretted it. No, it’ll be a great conversation. Even my team said, "You have to sit down with Ahmed".

we’ve never seen him talk in depth about his story. Surely his story will inspire and help people even. People are eager to hear your story. All my life, I never liked talking about my personal life. I always preferred people to see me through my work only. I rarely even appear on shows. I don’t remember the last time. I was on TV it was around four years ago.

Alright. And in the end, I chose to come specifically to you. Thank you. It’s a big step for me. Let’s start the right way. With all honesty, how are you really doing? Honestly... I don’t really know. Right now, I feel a bit anxious.

Anxiety has been accompanying me for years now. It increases and decreases depending... on my mood swings. I don’t mean just today I mean this month or the past two months. How has Ahmed really been? I don’t know. That’s a strange answer. But “I don’t know” is an answer in itself. “I don’t know” is the answer. A person must take a moment and say.

Am I more positive, provoked, pessimistic, or sad? Depressed, I mean... Everyone's main goal is to be... -Happy -Yeah. That’s no longer my goal. I don’t want to be happy. I don’t want surprises. You understand me? I just want, as they say, “No news is good news.”.

That’s why... If life goes on that way... But life never goes that way. You know. Sometimes I’d tell the guys... Any day that passes without a tragedy... A death or illness. -Someone hurt or a car accident -That’s a great day. Thank God for it. -It will be a great day. -Yes. But one matures through.

age and experience, and so on... - When people in your life start dying. How old are you now? I’m 45 years old. Same generation, I’m 43, so... You look younger by the way, the other day someone told me. And I look young too, so they’d ask, “Do you feel your age?”. I’d say, physically and spiritually, No. But when I see people around me die or grow older and I'm still okay. Or when I see that baby become taller than me.

Then I feel time is passing. But physically, I remember when... When I turned 40. I felt the difference. Okay. I don't know if it was real. Were you trying to play a match? No, because I was abroad. It was a long two-week trip. It was the first time my weight actually increased.

I gained nearly four or five kilos on that trip alone. And you were used to burning calories? My weight had never exceeded 87 kilos. The highest it ever reached was 88 kilos. I came back from that trip weighing 93 kilos. I panicked because of that. Since then, my dear, if I'm not careful... If I don’t watch what I eat, or if I don’t work out... I gain weight, especially during shooting periods. Starting my last project, my weight was 87 or 87.5 kilos.

By the time I finished filming, I weighed 94 kilos. Yes, I went on a diet and lost 3 kilos. Because during filming, you have to. eat quickly and the food isn’t healthy. No, because when I'm at the set. If I'm not the one shooting. I just eat. I think I have a very strange syndrome. Because you're bored. A sweet sandwich. Anything in front of me, I’ll eat it. You. Who are you when you're alone and not surrounded by anyone?

-You, just as Ahmed? -I'm a very strange person. -Really? -I'm a very strange person. What exactly is strange? My mind practically never stops thinking. It’s always thinking. And thinking about strange things, I mean... It goes to weird places. And throughout my life, I’ve been a bit of an introvert. I like seeing people, I like people, but...

I enjoy being alone. And reflecting on strange things. Trying to understand things I don’t understand. And... Sometimes I feel like I’m slightly insane. Yeah. What does that mean? I mean a part of my brain feels slightly insane. How so? Help me understand.

Let's get to know you better. If I understood myself, I would’ve fixed the issue by now. But. Sometimes I feel. I have a lot of contradictions. I find them odd myself. and my behavior sometimes, I don’t understand it. So sometimes I feel like my mind is unbalanced.

What’s the most frequent feeling you experience. weekly? I mean, are you... Are you moody, do you feel like your. mood fluctuates, or do you feel sluggish? Or do you feel lazy? Energetic? What’s the most recurring feeling you go through as a person?

We can say it’s fear. -“Fear”? -Yes. All my life, I’ve been someone. who doesn’t like responsibility at all. I like to do whatever I want whenever I want. I don’t like to feel pressured.

That’s why, when the responsibilities increased a lot, I was surprised that I was able. I mean, I was able to handle my responsibilities well. But it drains me and takes a lot from me. And I’m always scared. for the people around me, the ones I love.

But you know... That anxiety or fear, It’s natural. And the strange thing is, no matter how many precautions we take. for our children and loved ones. -It's not according to our mood. -There are no guarantees. -There are no guarantees for anything. -At all. And every time, God and life prove to you. that you shouldn't even try. I tell my children, “Put on your seatbelt” and I remind them as much as I can.

until I feel I’ve done what I’m supposed to do. But that’s theoretically correct, yet practically very difficult. It’s okay, let’s go back. Describe Ahmed’s childhood in three words. Three? Normal.

With some issues I’m trying to figure out. Recently. And innocent. “Normal,” and innocent, and there. are things you're trying to discover. What is childhood like when your father is famous?

It was annoying for me... And I worry about this for my children, but... I don’t know if they feel what I used to feel or not. I don’t know, but I was annoyed by it. Why? Whenever we went anywhere, people would gather around us. I didn’t fully understand it back then... I was around. five or six or seven years old. So people would gather around us, and we couldn’t enjoy ourselves.

Even when I played at the neighborhood. or at school, I’d hear someone. calling from afar, “Hey, son of the actor,”. and things like that. So I’d wonder, “What do you want?”. That’s why, ever since I was young, I didn’t like the idea of fame. I didn’t like it. - And you went into acting. - That was never my intention.

I know. What’s the most important thing you learned from your late father? Many things. Only one. It's not about the amount, I can tell you few. But... I... I am entirely shaped by my father. Literally, I am entirely made by my father. When I was little, I didn’t understand him very well.

Because... my father was a very cultured man. And... He was an amazing person. And he used to say things I didn’t understand at all. I really didn’t understand him. I never told him I didn’t get it. I would just listen and ignore what he said. When I started maturing... when I turned 30, I started understanding his advice.

Of course, I always loved him as my father, but I started to love the person himself, too. The older I got, the clearer things became. For example, one of the things. he told me long ago. when I first told him I wanted to become an actor.

he always let us do what we wanted. He didn’t interfere. So it was... one of the most important pieces of advice to me: “Believe in what you do.”. “If you believe in what you do, people will believe in it too.”. And because of that, when we shoot a scene. and I feel I didn’t perform well, and I don’t feel it deep down.

It's professional, I might still perform the scene on the surface, as they say, but I’d refuse. So I’d go to the director and say, “Let’s redo the scene.”. I won’t be able to sleep unless I reshoot that scene. I’d keep thinking about it because I didn't feel it. If I don’t feel the scene, the audience won’t either. And what are the most important things. you learned from your mother?

I learned something but it's not applicable. And that is "giving.". My mom is... A sea of giving. I mean... Unbelievably generous. I keep telling her, “Take some rest.”. “Relax or go out and enjoy yourself.”. “Sleep,” but...

If my mom doesn’t give someone what they need, she feels like something’s wrong. And that applies to anyone, whether it’s me, my children, sister, her children or my friends. Or our relatives. Or our neighbors, or anyone. She always loves. to give to others. It’s not material giving.

It’s the effort she puts in. And that’s something that really contrasts with my personality. I really love helping people. And... But that kind of constant giving, it’s very hard. That’s her love language. -Her love language is giving. -Yes. You might express love in a different way.

Love languages are tricky. When I learn about them. -I understand a lot of things. -A big issue. When I learned all five love languages. Many things became clear to me how my dad loves and how my mom loves. Sometimes we think some people don’t love us. But they do love you, it’s just that their. love language isn’t what you’re used to. It really varies from one person to another. I don’t mean just between you and me I mean for myself personally...

And how my kids show love to me. also differs from my mom's love. I feel the differences. My eldest son is almost a copy of me. I see myself in him a lot. "Abdullah", the eldest? Yes. He didn’t like physical contact. You couldn’t hug him he wouldn’t welcome it.

He’d be extremely annoyed. I’m the same way too but not with my kids. So I’m telling you, it really varies from person to person. It depends on the people around you and the people you love. Yes, that’s a really important point. What love language do you prefer from the person you love.

Is it true you went to a therapist when you were 16? -Yes. -Why? - I really loved a girl. - And you were 16? -Yes. -Okay. And I couldn’t move on from the relationship. So I went to him just once. Did it help? No.

Like I told you... Because the problem from the start was... Now I realize it was kind of naive. Not naive in the sense... Breakups are hard, and moving on is even harder. It’s really not easy at all. But first of all, at that age it’s not appropriate. Second, not for a therapist. Or maybe that therapist wasn’t skilled. Maybe.

I don’t remember, it’s been a long time. But how... A 16-year-old... -From our generation... -And goes to a therapist? Seriously. I don’t know how that idea came to my mind. - Such a strange idea. - Did someone advise you? -Weird idea, right? -Yes. I couldn’t believe it when I read it. -If that happened now, maybe -I think it... That idea came to me because when I was even younger. And it wasn’t common at all back then.

My dad took me to a therapist. - Okay. - Yeah. But when I went to him, he helped me. And also, I only went to him once. It was something that wasn’t even considered at the time. Back then, it wasn't common at that age. So I learned that since I was a child.

that asking for help from a specialist. if there’s something I can’t deal with, that’s not something wrong. There are kids who are 14, 18, or even 20 and it happens. I’ll tell you something very strange from when I was young. I used to sleep in the same room as my sister. Our beds were side by side… mine next to hers. there was wallpaper. Terrifying wallpaper. I don’t know why my. mom and dad put it there in the first place. Really. I used to panic from it, It looked like a forest.

It was a forest, and it had a lot of details. I don’t think it was suitable for kids at all. Did your imagination kick in? No, it was genuinely terrifying. And your imagination played its role. Yes, and sometimes I couldn’t sleep. And I’d get up to sleep beside my sister. You never know. Sometimes it's something silly, and sometimes too deep. Children’s psychology is truly strange.

And it stays with you for life. I mean... For example, I remember... I really hate my birthday. Normally, people call me at midnight for my birhtday. So I turn off my phone. -Even now? -Yeah. -Okay. -I disappear. Why? When I kept thinking about it, I found a specific day. I was seven or eight years old at the time.

It was my birthday. That was the beginning of birthday parties. My school friends were having parties, and I liked that, so I decided... I’d throw a birthday party too. My birthday is in July. So... It was during the school break, and most of my friends were away. So the party started at 6 PM... And by 8 PM, only two people had shown up.

It was so bad, I don’t even know how I remember that day. I even stood in the street, waiting for people to show up. But no one came. Only three people ended up coming. That day, I deeply regretted it. And I decided I'd never throw another birthday party again. I hated it. -That’s strange, right? -Very much so. Because as a kid, you imagine that birthdays are full of people. Because I had attended their parties.

But you didn’t consider that they were... On summer break and it wasn’t personal. -I didn’t know that. I was a kid. -Of course. -You were a kid. -Yeah, no one came. - You don't get the logic - Why didn’t anyone come? -You stood outside waiting for people? -Yes, it was extremely hard. And how did you get over that? -Did you ever overcome that barrier? -No, I don’t want to. So if I send you a birthday message, will your phone be off?

No, it’s not that bad now. Because with social media and lots of. people sending wishes through stories... Now I respond. I interact with them. -If you had a birthday now... -I pick up, but don’t celebrate. but some of my friends celebrated my birthday against my will. They threw surprise parties even though I didn’t want them to. Alright. Let’s move forward a bit.

You studied commerce. And worked in journalism. -And acted. -Yes, I started in journalism. -Yes. -And I acted since I was a kid. But it was amateur acting. -Small roles? -They weren’t even roles. Just standing silently in a scene. Or saying a single line, etc. Do you still love acting?

Absolutely. I love it so much. Even though you didn’t like fame as a child. Fame also... has its upsides, of course. Just the people who love you... That in itself makes you feel... happy, definitely. And as I got older, I found it didn’t really matter because...

Because I’ve always done whatever I wanted. I even once left the house in a bathrobe. I had just showered, put my bathrobe on when my mom called me urgently. The car was waiting outside. I left the house and ran into someone who took a photo with me. But I told him I couldn’t step out of. the car, so he took a selfie. Then I went to see my mom. I just do whatever I want.

But I love... I don't mean the profession itself... I feel that God has bestowed upon me something. And in certain moments, I feel that. If you do something you believe in Just like my father used to say. I feel a serious adrenaline rush. Amazing.

You lost your father... And before him, the mother of your children. How. Do you express every kind of loss. Because loss is such a huge topic. Now you have lost your father And the mother of your children. What is the difference? Why?

The first was extremely sudden. It was suddenly tragic in a terrible way. The second is something you know since you were young. You realize it and know would happen.

but your brain totally denies it. You can't imagine it. Both of them. were accompanied by great sorrow, but. I didn't know there are different types of grief. Not just degrees of intensity or weakness. It is a severe level of pain, but. But the jind of pain itself is different.

The quality of sadness. How is that? As I told you, the shock is the basis... The sudden shock is devastating. I cannot describe it. I pray to God that no one has to endure it.

I have been through that. I mean... I have experienced it with many people. A very close friend of mine passed away recently. Last year specifically That also happened suddenly. But this time, specifically, it was...

I was with the children. What happens next? -Even though you were not married - Look. Let's agree on something. I love you very much, and I love your show. very much but I couldn’t finish any episode. Nor could I finish any episode with any guest.

Why? Because there are moments when I watch and feel. I just can’t keep watching. I don’t want to project negative energy to anyone. Who is watching me. Do you understand me? Help me with that. Yes, we want to talk and vent but. Without disturbing the viewer.

There are many episodes of your show. Which I watched and enjoyed very much but midway.. through the episode, I cannot continue. I just can’t. I promise you their reaction wouldn't be that way. Can we promise one hundred percent? Certainly not, because every person is different from another. From their personal experiences, just as you see the episode. you live the episode from the perspective you have. that's right. but that doesn’t mean everyone sees the episodes the same way.

But many people see it that way. Yes. Even if they don’t express it... "Tara Emad", came here. About two months ago, it was Ramadan. I loved her so much. it was the first time she talked about losing her mother. But do you know how many people. contacted her and me. because. they were able to feel the honesty. a similar experience. of what they feel. They realized they were not alone. There are people who watch the episode.

and say, "Oh, Ahmed". Okay. So he was able to do it that way. So there is hope for me. If he could... Get through it, or not. I’m tired too. Sometimes a person needs that. it's not only about venting. -To you, but... -I really don’t know, "Anas". A viewer might need to hear that. A person rarely learns from their mistakes. So how would they learn.

from the mistakes or experiences of others? Not always. I’m just talking nonsense. Be with me, and give me your trust. I trust you deeply, and you know that. I had a question today while I was writing questions in my mind. I was wondering, what is. the situation of a man. when he loses the mother of his children, whether he is married to her or not.

But your children's mother has a certain value. I am divorced and the. mother of my children, may God protect her and give her a long life. Amen. is dear to me whether I am married to her or not. But I was thinking that Ahmed went through that experience. as a man, restraining his emotions a little because his children depend on him. I feel there is loneliness. But I have not lived that, so I wanted to ask you what a man feels. when he loses the mother of his children.

At one moment, I felt that I aged more than 10 or 15 years. in just one moment. There was a feeling. of regret and guilt, but those feelings.

I was able to overcome. I overcame them. Because I analyzed it I mean after the trauma, of course. Because I got married very young. I got married when I was 25 years old. I absolutely do not recommend early marriage. Or even setting a specific age. Because the word “age” is unfair.

Experience... Experience is something we gain from life and work. Success, failure, meeting people. Traveling, and many other things. I don’t advise early marriage before. going through these stages. and ideally achieving career milestones. before taking that step. This is so important. I got married before I even started working. And...

I was getting an allowance. I was young. I consider myself a child back then. That’s why any mistakes I made... Certainly, they were not.

intentional. And... They resulted from the fact that she and I. did not have enough experience. I mean, We argued, I hadn’t even had a wedding at all. Since I was young, because of the idea that I don’t like fame or crowds. So I hated being in a crowd. When there are crowds of people.

I get a little nervous. I really don’t like crowds at all. So I told her: "We wouldn’t have a wedding". And... I told her the famous phrase. which many men use: We will travel. instead of spending it on the wedding. At that time, I was still studying at the institute. And... I got a stage play.

in the public sector. So we couldn’t travel. It wasn’t a wedding. It was a dinner gathering. We traveled only two days. To the city of Hurghada, then we returned because I had the play. We did not have a wedding or a honeymoon. And we argued in the wedding. Not the wedding, the gathering I mean. Can you imagine our situation? At 11:30 PM.

We argued by. after five minutes we made up. At 11:30 PM, I said to her, "What do you think if we go?". And everyone from the family and friends was present. And family friends as well. I mean, there were many people. And we actually left. Then we traveled for two days, and we argued there. Do you understand? So much that on our way back to the airport,

I ran into some of my school friends by chance. They found us. We obviously looked like we were fighting. And they knew I had been married for two days. And... One of them said to me, "Are you okay?" No one argues just a few days after their wedding. Especially not on the first or second day after.

When I analyze those moments, we divorced after the first month of marriage. That wasn’t really a separation; it was, as you know, Generally speaking, I'm not giving the exact example. the shoe was here... where did it disappear? How did it disappear? Why are you shouting? Let's get divorced. You know those fights, Like children. So much. We were children.

And so... the thing is. Sometimes moments come when I say, What if we were now, or she was here with me now? The situation would be completely different. Completely.

But you didn’t answer me exactly. I mean, you analyzed things…. in your marriage and why the divorce happened. I was telling you the idea of regret. and understanding the situation took me. some time. That day was very difficult.

Because... I don’t know, should I tell or not? I don’t know what to do. Tell. -I forgot the question... -The question was... As a man and a father, how do you feel about losing the mother of your children? Do you feel very lonely because you. are supposed to keep yourself together for the children?

I was imagining the situation today. I became both the father and mother to them. And... Loneliness is a choice because simply, you can get married the next day. And I know many people who did that. But choosing loneliness is a voluntary decision. By my own will today, in these 24 hours, I sleep 8 hours of them, and 16 hours remain.

Either I have work, It fills the 16 hours, or it could be 20. Either the kids, they will get 8 hours from my time, so there will be... 8 hours left for eating, drinking, and so on. Or if you also have the commute, I can't believet it when I have nothing to do so I can sit alone. And rest a little.

That’s why the decision to be alone is a voluntary choice. There... Anyone else would probably get married. to share responsibility with someone else. But you decided to stay alone. I didn’t decide anything. I... The thought never crossed my mind.

Sometimes moments come to me and I ask myself, how do I live? And I get older, and these thoughts, you know, But I don’t know if I developed some kind of complex? Did you intend to get back together? Before she passed away? Did you have the idea to return to her? Yes, but it was a postponed idea. And do you regret that you didn’t get back together then?

No, because I was still... reckless. I was reckless. Extremely so. I had decided that I wouldn’t return to her. until I matured completely. So I became extremely disciplined, more than necessary.

What is the biggest thing you learned from your breakup? What did you learn about yourself? After the breakup, what did you learn with Ahmed? I was very young. I agree with you. The first time I separated from her, I was. It was four years after marriage, I was about 29 years old. During that period, I didn’t recognize myself. I don’t know how I used to think.

I had no maturity whatsoever. I wasn’t thinking about anything except... I couldn't realize the world would end. I didn’t follow any rules. I want to do everything and go everywhere. And I want to be the best person. I think you don’t realize it.

I didn’t learn anything. On the contrary, at that time I was. not caring about anything. I understood freedom differently. And I will do whatever I want. That was my mindset then. Look... There is a role you played in your latest. series called “Ahlam Shamsiya,” right? How was the role you played.

As a father, and you, as a father. Yes. So, regarding fatherhood. How did you perform the role? And did it affect you differently because you have children? I will tell you about the hardest thing. I don’t know what the connection with the sun was for me. There was also a series called "Like the Sun.". That series was before... the death of "Amal" by approximately. about three months.

There were scenes I performed in the series, and I. experienced them for real three months later. The role I played was called "Omar". His wife... and the mother of his children as well. was played by "Reham Abdelghafour", may she live a long life. She passed away in the series. and he had children... a boy and a girl. There was a scene I performed then.

where I sit... with the children... and tell them the news of her death. I actually performed the same scene with my own children. Exactly the same. So after Amal’s death, you had to sit with. "Abdullah" and "Yassin" and tell them what happened. No, they were with me when the news came.

We were in 'Sahel'. by the sea. And how did you tell them such news? I didn’t tell them right away. I told them a friend of mine had died. Because I came back in my swimwear, barefoot... I took the car, took the kids, and left.

Then I returned. I don’t want to remember that day. It was a terrible day. We went in then... I entered a gas station and didn’t have any money. So I went to the station manager... he was the manager, and I told him... the situation in detail, and that I currently had no money. And then...

I dropped them off at home, then went alone to the hospital. I only remember some scenes... then I went to the house where I was staying alone... and slept on the couch. I woke up later to find my friends at the house... And we started the procedures then... I had to sit and talk with my kids.

Were you the first person they heard the news from? It was me. It’s a difficult thing. It had to be me. That’s the idea I’m telling you about responsibility. This was my responsibility. I had to tell them. And I had to contain that situation because. it was my responsibility, not someone else’s.

I feel it’s extremely difficult. Not normally difficult. I mean, that situation can break you. The reaction of the children can break a dad. So how did you tell them the news without evasion? But in a gentle way. I honestly don’t know. I’ll tell you why I asked that question, once. I was reading a study. that said if a family member passes away,

the school principal. when he goes to the classroom, knocks on the door, and calls the student, he is supposed to take them to a separate place. and deliver the news as it is. without evasion or saying anything else. He shouldn’t say “your family needs you,”. but should say “your father has passed away.”. -Don’t evade -This happened to me as a child. I was in the second grade of middle school. They came to me and said.

the school principal wants you, so I found my cousin in his office. And my grandmother, my mother’s mother, had been sick for a while. When I found my cousin, I knew my grandmother had passed away. Why would he come otherwise? They evaded and didn’t say the truth; they said. they wanted me because my. grandmother was sick, but I... as a child was already expecting that my. grandmother had died, so I was not surprised at all.

That’s why... when I sat with them, they knew something was wrong. -I had to be clear -Were you clear with them? Of course. That's how it's supposed to be.

I have children. I’m trying to think. But I can’t imagine being in your place. I also never imagined it at all. but circumstances or life put you in that place. and force you to do that almost all the time.

Anything I thought I couldn’t do, I found that I did it. And you feel the way you dealt with it. was the best in a situation like this? As I told you, since I was young, I never liked responsibility at all. When I found myself in a certain situation. or many situations, I found that I could handle them.

I found myself in difficult situations. I found I could handle them. They consumed a lot of my energy, but I managed to deal with them. What else can I do? Have you thought about marrying again? Marriage, divorce, and having children. all of this is sustenance from God.

Life in general, I am a believer. A person does not have control over many choices. It’s not about being a free agent or predestined. But there are many things. that are not in our hands. So we can’t say we won’t do something because it’s not in our control. What will happen, will happen. I leave myself to the world. Do you know the person who rides the waves on a board? I am like that. -Whatever happens, happens -It won’t matter to you what happens.

I know that you are one of. I’m not saying you are an advocate, but you live. a friendship between a man and a woman. Do you see that friendship can exist. between a man and a woman without romance? Of course. I have many friends, so how could. I not believe in that friendship? I’m not talking about you personally. I always read that you have friends. Like “Mai Ezz Eldin,” and you.

have a friendship like a sister. So I can say, okay. Ahmed can see girls like his sisters and vice versa. I’m talking about other people. They say this is difficult. How can there be friendship. and a brotherly relationship between a girl and a guy? So how did you manage to build relationships like that? Since I was young, I’ve been lucky with girls. I’ve been very lucky... strange things happened to me.

In one situation, I had a friend who liked a girl. He said to me, “I can’t tell her.” I told him, “Tell her, no problem.”. -So I took him and we went to the girl -She loved you, not him? At that moment I told her my friend loves you. She told me in front of him ''No, I like you''. That’s why I’ve been lucky since I was young.

I had many relationships since I was young. -The maturity you gained... -It’s not maturity, but. due to many situations and interactions, I was able to distinguish. the difference in feelings. Like this lady. has many qualities.

similar to mine, so we are friends. Friends in every sense of the word. It’s impossible for me to go another way. Because I have enough love in my heart; there’s no emptiness in it. She is my friend and my sister. Wonderful. I don’t know if this is nice or I'm speaking a lot. It’s wonderful to reach that point. Look, we were raised to believe that, you know,

the Gulf is different from the Arab world. We used to have boys with boys and girls with girls. You start maturing in a certain way that. a girl is only a wife, or girlfriend. No relationships other than that are allowed. You are experienced in your relationship with your guy friends. The guys are my friends and brothers but. But if I need romance, I go to a girl. Unless... You reach a stage where there are positives.

As a non-romantic friend. Among the positives, the girl gives you. a perspective that guys do not have. One of the positives is that it is innate. That girls are more affectionate and have more delicate feelings. So when you have a friend like a real sister. It’s completely different than telling your problems to a male friend. Your male friend in the end is... Does not relate to your feelings.

Or he really feels I have male friends in the end. And I love them and tell them my problems, but a girl. Can hold you and be a source of tenderness for you. And be a true friend to you. Give me this. Yes, and the questions too. Those are different philosophical questions. Okay, I think you'll like these questions.

A question that repeats in your mind, Ahmed. But you haven't found an answer to it? Only one question! -There are many of them? give me one of them. A question that always repeats but has no answer. Very philosophical questions. Nice then. What is the essence. Of the universe, things, and life? And do you like to delve into these questions?

Yes, I love it very much because it expands. your imagination, but you will never reach. Conclusive answers in the end it’s not chemistry or physics. There is no answer. There are only theories, interpretations, and beliefs. -Only theories -Yes, but nothing certain. -You’re a philosopher -No, I’m not a philosopher at all.

Philosopher is a great thing we have ruined the word “philosopher”. I love philosophy, of course but I’m not a philosopher. Philosopher is a very big word. So what is the voice inside your mind? -It’s my voice... -Is it a positive or negative voice? -A negative voice, of course -Negative? -Very negative, I fight it all the time. -Really? A negative voice. What does it tell you?

-You’re a failure or... -I always look at the empty side of the glass. Look, it's full. No, I focus on the empty side And torture myself. I mean. I can’t truly feel happiness. Even though there are things happening. that deserve happiness. But my mind says “No, there were many dark things”. -Let’s be happy -Isn’t that exhausting? It is, of course.

Have you been to a psychiatrist and talked to one? I see one almost every two days. The doctor is fed up with me. Haven’t you found a skilled doctor? Have you found a skilled doctor? Personally, after the third doctor, I found one. I've been visiting this one for a while. - Is he skilled and understands you? - Yes, for 2-3 years. It’s not about skill, but it is about. his ability to gain your trust and make you talk.

And to bring the words out of you. You can’t tell your story to just anyone. You, for example, are a good doctor. -I’m a mechanical engineer -No, you’re a surgeon. After the third doctor, things got better. The first two, I’m not against them. Their style probably fits someone else. I used to think, what is this guy saying? -I went through that too. -third doctor... I became his student. He analyzes things with a different perspective. and I hadn’t looked at myself from that angle.

My psychiatrist, the first time I went to him, things were very chaotic with me. I was ill, not just talking. It wasn’t a luxury. It was affecting me physically. Depression? Yes, it was affecting me physically. In just one month, I lost 10 kilograms. And I reached a point where I couldn’t.

get out of my bed. So, he is... God bless him, that was the period. when I took medication for the first time. I took medication for a month. I can say it managed to bring me back to life again. -And did you continue with him? -Yes, I continued with him because.

I really liked him. Because he was a straightforward person. And his diagnosis for me was accurate. He told me I would take medication, and I said I don’t like taking those drugs. He said it’s only for one month and you won’t need it again. Great. Just to balance the body chemistry. Exactly, and he told me I wouldn’t. feel better until after two weeks. Everything he told me happened. Wonderful.

But that negative voice has to decrease. There’s no use in it. I did everything, breathing exercises, I write positive notes, I follow all the advice. In vain? But recently, I started to win, can you believe that? -Great. -Yes. The battle is not a short battle. -Like a marathon... -Yes, exactly. When I read, for example.

I read something amazing, I wish I had it I'll read it to you later. meaning that. Consistency is quiet until. there's a sudden big success. I mean discipline. is something calm, you wake up every. morning and run 2 kilometers, for example. That's calm, no one can notice any change in your body. your fitness or mental state. After six months someone. Says, ''wow, six-packs''. but I have been working hard for a while.

Exactly. So I realized that... We all have to go to. I see a psychiatrist something like.. just like you'd go to a physiotherapist. You are supposed to take care of your mind. Just like you take care of your body. So I see that every person should have a therapist in their life. But the right one, not just anyone... Any small change will make a difference. Recently, I changed two things in myself.

I no longer blame myself. Okay. My inner voice used to be very blaming. Blaming in a torturous way. I said, "No". -Now I stopped that. -Great. And the second thing I changed. For example, if I was walking and going to the camera. and I fell halfway. Before, I used to stay, pitch a tent and lament my fate.

No. Now I get up even if I’m several steps behind. And I have greater determination. I will try again without getting tired. I will keep trying. These are traits I didn’t have in my personality. Great. We are on the right path. If you could call Ahmed who is 16 years old.

16 years old? And call him, what would you say to him? I would tell him to enjoy that stage. That stage is wonderful.

I didn’t really like it much. So I would tell him to enjoy it. You didn’t enjoy that period in your life? -I didn’t understand -I was studying. In the Faculty of Commerce, even though I. hate numbers and I hate those kinds of things. Studying made me frustrated with everything else in the world. In addition to that,

I was extremely romantic. Was or still am? -I'm no longer like before, of course -Okay. I'm not like I used to be at all. If you were romantic, then you enjoyed it. When you were 16, 17 or 18. -No. -That’s how it’s supposed to be...

No. No? Then how could you be romantic and not enjoy it? As I told you, I’ve been looking at the dark side. since I was young; it’s nothing new. So I was... unable to enjoy properly. Nothing satisfies you. So does that mean no matter what you had. back then, you felt you were never satisfied?

If there were girls, travel, and fun. You needed more and more? Yes. This has been my problem all my life. But I think this is a human problem in general. “Only dust will satisfy the human.”. The human. Is always looking at what is missing. I’m talking about the idea of contentment and satisfaction.

These are not easy ideas. And there are people who can never reach it. -True. -They die without achieving it. But most likely, if you can reach. 50% of it, you’ve made a big achievement. But you won’t understand this point until you get older. True.

Describe your relationship with yourself in one word. -No, I like to be by myself. -One word. Describe your relationship with yourself in one word. A Toxic relationship. "Toxic"! Why? As I said, there’s a war in my head all the time, but. I like to be alone. Strange, even though you and your mind are at war? -You like wars? -As I told you, Toxic. I like excitement.

Do you understand me? This is also a problem I’ve had all my life. I can tell you. No news is good news. I wasn’t like that at all. If my day didn’t have excitement, it was a boring day for me. - Until now? - No. - Before? - Yes. That’s why all my life, if I was in a stable relationship.

-You would’ve caused problems -“So what, where’s the excitement?”. If I was in a stable job, I’d say, “So what?”. I get bored of stability, then I discovered... That stability is a treasure. We have reached some conclusions, Ahmad. If you could... teach all the children in the world just one lesson, What would you teach them?

If I were to teach all the children of the world? Every child in the world learns one lesson. What is the most important lesson you would teach them? That is a very difficult question. I would teach them ethics. Yes. Nations only endure as long as their ethics remain. Ethics is the most important thing in the world. More important than money. I'm not just saying that. It's indeed the most important thing. The most important thing in life.

They shall have good morals. To respect others. To be generous. To be honest. Ethics in general. I agree with you. It's one of the most important things. There is a saying from the Prophet Muhammad, he said: "I was sent to perfect good morals.". And I feel that if we, as Arabs and Muslims, applied that,

the world would be a better place. Because you often see people who say they have. religion, but no ethics, no smile, nothing. People forget that saying. It’s a simple saying. Is that my phone? This is the first time I make this mistake, give me the phone. It’s okay, answer the phone. Close it, no one even has this number. It’s the boys’ mother. Wait, let's take this.

Let’s answer the boys’ mother we've just mentioned her. Bring me some water to drink. Imagine, I never turned off this phone. And you called it. Usually, I don't put it on silent because no one has the number. And I’m at the studio talking with my guest. about his boys’ mother, and I found you calling. This is a sign. During the shooting, no it's okay. A spontaneous moment, is it something important?

Alright. It’s okay, goodbye. Glory be to God. I put the phone on silent mode. Am I doing well? I don’t know what I'm saying. -Stay as you are, don’t overthink - I'm not, I’m being myself That's the right thing to do. The lesson was ethics. A hypothetical question. If I have an envelope with your death date.

- Would you open it? - No. Why? I have read before. an old story but I don’t remember who wrote it, unfortunately. -We will search on ChatGPT. -Okay -. A very failed businessman. Returning from Alexandria after losing his money. and his life was miserable, he got into an accident on the way.

after his car flipped, he gets up and finds. a newspaper. dated. In the future, say around 2060. He was very surprised and took the newspaper. and saw the front page of the newspaper. the death of the billionaire, and his name was. And... he was extremely shocked, and there was a photo of him as an old man.

he panicked terribly but when he. calmed down he said “I am a billionaire!”. and I will die after 40 or 45 years, perfect. Let’s start, life will smile upon us and he started to invest boldly. he used to be afraid. You know when you invest boldly you win. And just in two years he became a billionaire. He got engaged and then had an accident.

He woke up in the hospital. Unaware of what happened, in a coma. He hears the doctor talking to his family. “The patient is permanently paralyzed until death.”. So he will stay that way for 43 years. So, you don’t want to jump to conclusions? Not exactly, but... Let’s say I knew I would pass away in two days.

I wouldn’t be comfortable with those two days. If I knew I had 20 years left to live. I wouldn’t be comfortable either. I am like you. I don’t want to know. A great and difficult question. If you had to choose to lose all your memories.

or lose the ability to create new memories. To lose both good and bad memories? All. All previous memories would be gone. Either everything disappears or you can’t make new memories. I mean, it stops today. No, I would choose to stop making memories. -And keep the memories? -Of course. I would keep my good and bad memories.

Does this say something about my personality? No. I always like that question because…. Maybe it means I live in the past. I think a person who feels he has lived. and life. is rich with. a life full of joys and sorrows. He says, "I will keep my memories.". And the 16-year-old kid will tell you, "Delete them.".

-Of course, more is yet to come. - I also belong more to old things. - It's scary. What is the greatest achievement you have made in your life so far? “The greatest achievement?” Achievement is a very big word. Choose an achievement that might be professional or personal. What is the greatest achievement for Ahmed?

Simple things. Very much so. Give me one achievement. Having someone. a person who needs your help. and you are able to help them. That is a great achievement. But professional achievements. Of course, they make you happy.

but…. -A momentary happiness. -True. You succeed now and then immediately say. ''What is the next goal?” that adds pressure on you. But when you try to raise your children well. or help people. in any way, that is an achievement. Especially in these times.

What is something you wish you had learned faster? -Languages... -What? -Kids? -Languages... How many languages do you know? -No. -Arabic and English? Arabic and English only. French like ''Je suis malade''. ''Je m'appelle Ahmed'' etc.. But I always have trouble learning languages. I don’t know why. Since I was in the first preparatory grade, I was at an English school.

I enrolled in a commerce college in English. and worked in London for a while. I’ve taken English courses, but I still struggle with the language. -My children make fun of me -Really? We will take one question from this card game. Let's see your luck. Let's see your luck. Am I only going to draw one question from all of this?

Choose. There is no god but Allah. -Who will read the question? -You know, you mix them up. Mix them up. -Okay -And I will choose a question for you. Because this is the answering style. -Who will read the question? -Me. Wait. I am a professional card player. Okay.

I took two questions. Okay. I will ask you and this is the way to answer it. When was the last time you said. I love you and meant it? I'll throw it out there to see the answer style. A story. When was the last time you said "I love you". and you truly meant the word?

What kind of love? Any kind you'd like to answer. To the boys, or family, or romantic love, anything you want. Two days ago.

My youngest son was sick. -"Yassin"? -Yes. I was going to come to you, but I couldn't. Then, We were having lunch me, "Yassin," and my mother. Suddenly, I rebelled against the food. Is this okra? You know I don’t like it, although I love it.

I refused to eat and threw a fit And my mother didn’t eat either. My mother didn’t eat her food. At that time, the next day I apologized to my mother and calmed down. And I told her, “I’m sorry, I was just very nervous and worried.”. So I complained about the food. And I told "Yassin".

“I told him because of my love for you and because you were sick.”. I got very nervous. Because he asked me, He said, “Since when don’t you like okra?”. So I told him, because I love you and you were sick. because of my worry for you, So I acted wrongly. And when was the last time you. said I love you in a relationship? Recently. -Okay, great. -Yes.

-You meant it? -Of course. There is no reason for a mature person to say “I love you” out of obligation. Great, Ahmed, what are you afraid of? I’m afraid of surprises, as we said. I’m very afraid for my career. Because my career is very treacherous.

And I’m afraid of loneliness. You’re afraid of loneliness? Even though you have your children and your mother. Yes.. What kind of loneliness? That your children grow up. and live their lives, and you’re alone or not having a wife? “Abdullah,” for me. For me, my friend and my love, but he is at the age to leave.

I will not restrain him by my side. He will set off, see the world, and experience everything. And "Yassin" in several years, he will be at the same stage. And my mother, may God bless her life, and my sister. But... Most of the time, I'm alone. Most of the time, alone.

And you're afraid of being alone? Yes. How? Because I am alone but now I'm well. I have started to sleep and get up very early. I sleep at midnight and wake up at seven in the morning. I wake up and go swimming... then to the gym, and so on. I have interviews or work, and so forth. There are many events that fill the void. Intentionally to fill the void. Do you understand me?

You feel that when you are sick, for example. And as you grow older. You are in a need for someone. You need someone. To share anything with you, I don’t know. Thoughts come to my mind. What were the last words you said to your late father?

What do you mean? Do you remember the last conversation you had with him? Our last conversation... was... Written. They were honoring my father at. the Theater Festival in Egypt. The National Festival. And they compiled a book about him.

Many people wrote in this book, and I also wrote in it. I wrote an article for him. When I read it, I have a strange habit when I write. Like this episode, I don’t know what I said. But when I watch the episode, I will know. Also, when I write, I don’t know what I wrote. Sometimes I write things and wake up the next day. to find there was chaos because of what I wrote. When I read what I wrote...

I wrote about the day my father. made me love being an actor. When I saw my father on the stage. I felt on that day that... because on that day, my father.

was performing a play called "The Smoke.". And the play was about an addict. It was extremely difficult. I found myself crying then. I didn't know who that was, he was not my father. So I asked myself then, What kind of profession is this, that can make people cry or laugh. as if I am holding a remote control. And I stir your emotions.

Or make you contemplate, or. regret yourself. Something very special, those feelings. are complex. At that great moment the performance he gave. I wished to become an actor.

-Were those the last words written? -Yes. And when he passed away, were you with him? I was at home. You were not beside him? I have very bad luck in those situations. It happened to me twice that I was asleep. Twice. The first time I was on the beach, not the first. -Both times -When "Amal" died I was on the beach. And when my father passed away as well and my late uncle, he was my dearest friend.

I was asleep... The stupidest thing in life is. I never give someone news about death. Let them know or never know. It’s none of my business. But when someone wakes you up from sleep. -And gives you that news. -Yes, it’s shocking. That is the worst thing in life. I mean... Before I go to sleep I lock the door behind me with the key.

And when you enter a room. There's the dressing room first. And another door for the room I lock both of them. Because when someone wakes me up from sleep. I become very nervous. I find someone banging hard on the door. So I wake up and realize there is a disaster.

But then I say again. This is the way of life. And thank God. He died in his bed, in his home and did not fall ill. Is there something you wished you had told him? Yes. Because I don’t often express...

my feelings in life. Because if I love you deeply I wouldn’t tell you that I love you often. So I wished to tell him. but he certainly knows. And I try not to repeat those mistakes. With my mother or with my children I always tell them. That I love them. What does your mother mean to you? -What? -Your mother.

My mother. My mother means everything to me. My mother puts up with me and my children. Is your relationship good with her? I live with my mother at home. I spent ten years living outside the house. When I got married, there were three houses. next to each other: my sister’s, my mother’s, and mine. It was a big family house.

When I left the house, I wanted to live alone. I started living alone in apartments. And then, about five to six years ago. I told my father and mother that I wanted to come back to you. Me and my children. So we are living together. And...

What do "Abdullah" and "Yassin" mean to you? When I was young. I had many contradictions, but I never imagined I would get married. I had a principle in life. Why bring children into this ugly world? There is a phrase from "Nour El-Sherif", RIP. He said in a TV interview that life. is harsh for those with tender hearts.

I claim that my heart is tender. I am sensitive. Honestly, I see life as very harsh. So why have. children. who suffer in life? That was my thinking back then. Nevertheless, I got married. and had children, so I became. responsible for the children I gave birth to.

So I tried to teach them how to deal with this world. Honestly, I put in a lot of effort. I fail, succeed, try, and everything. but I put in the effort. And "Amal"... You like to write. So if you could write a letter to "Amal". and she reads it today. What would you write to her?

-I wrote a famous post. -I saw it. I saw that post two months ago. I read it two months ago, not before that. So I was surprised because, as I told you. all my life I didn’t like talking about my personal life. at all. I didn’t only write about my personal life, I wrote about everything. And...

what I wrote then was. honest words from the heart when I read it. Very honest words. I would tell her... Don’t worry about the kids. Our children are fine.

Do you feel this is necessary? Do you feel she needs to know that the children are okay? Of course. They meant the world to her. What do you say to her? I like your style, why do I say you this? Because I know. That you are very expressive. What are the things that, if that message reaches her...

And if people could hear us, because we don't know... If that conversation reaches her... What should Amal hear from you? Even though she... It is... We lived together as children. I consider myself a child back then. But... The life...

If she were here with me now... I wish I had met her later in life. Why? Because she...

Was truly a wonderful person. Absolutely amazing. And she was... I really need her right now. May I ask why? I'm asking you because.

Sometimes the love formed in youth doesn’t fit for maturity. You wish "Amal" was the one here now and that you could know her now. Do you think she was truly the one for you? And suitable for Ahmed currently? Definitely. Why? I would have understood. We all have strengths and weaknesses.

She had many strengths. And certainly, she had a few flaws. When I was young, I couldn’t handle her flaws. Nor even understand them. Or accept them, but now I have discovered those weaknesses... Were very minor. She was angry. It’s okay, I can calm her down. I could handle situations better than that.

I could understand problems, and I think this. is the most important thing in any relationship. Not just to like the strengths only, But more importantly, to accept the weaknesses. The weaknesses she had were very minor. Now I’ve discovered that. And I can deal with and contain them. There wouldn't be any problems. I mean, I loved her so much that I married her.

When I was 25 years old. I never imagined I would take such a step. Do the boys miss her? Do they talk to you about her? Definitely, always. "Abdullah," tattooed her face right here. Yes. And "Yassin" put her picture on his phone. I did too. But when we mention her, we remember. the good things, not the sad ones. And what if...

How old are they? "Abdullah" is 18, "Yassin" is 13. 13 and 18 years old? -May God protect them. -Thank you. If many years later. The years were both of us would be gone. And "Abdullah" and "Yassin". Go through life, no matter the circumstances. And they come across this interview.

And they go to YouTube and skip through. Until they reach this very moment. And they just want to hear your voice, a single word from their father. What should they hear from you? They should hear that I. That I too. Imagine they wouldn't understand how deeply I love them. My father used to say the same, When they have children of their own.

Only then will they understand how much I love them. And they’ll realize they are the most precious thing I have. And that any mistake I made while. dealing with them was never intentional. It’s just that I. was experiencing those emotions for the first time. And I found myself going through. experiences for the first time in my life. There were trials I passed with them and trials that I failed. So if anything I did hurt you or upset you. Or wounded you, or planted something negative inside you.

That was never my intention. Because I. Wanted to see you far better than I ever was. Last two questions. There’s a theory. A strange one. That says when a person dies. Theoretically, the brain remains alive for seven minutes.

And the beautiful idea behind this theory. Is that if your brain stays active for seven minutes after death. The brain might replay. The most beautiful memories you’ve had in your life. -Right. -Like in the movies... I think your life. -Flashes before you. -In those final minutes. What are the moments from Ahmed's history. would be playing in the movie in your mind?

The good ones or the bad ones? It's your movie.

I think it will be. I'll tell you what comes first to my mind. I remember the first time. I got paid for an acting job. It was a very symbolic amount. My father was shooting downstairs, and the director told me to hand him sandwiches and he'd tell me. "Here’s your pay, 25 piastres," and I'd say, "Thank you," and leave. And they gave me chocolate.

That was a wonderful moment I remembered. I remember when I was in high school, and. my dream was to get into journalism school. I got 90%, and I was in the humanities. that was a high score. But the journalism program only accepted students with 90.25%. It was extremely upsetting because I had to. Go to the faculty of commerce, which I didn’t like. I remember the first time I went to the university theater. I was trying to enter the theatre.

The person in charge of the theatre. he refused to let me join the troupe. He didn't care that I was the son of "Salah El-Saadany". I remember the first time I stepped on stage. It was on the day of the performing arts exam. and that was totally unlike me. Because I’m a very shy person. that was a huge moment for me. And I remember...

I remember the moment I decided to get married. Her father and mother were living in "Dubai", and she was supposed to go join them. She said, “I’ll go to them.” I said, “No, we’ll get married.”. And I also remember, of course. when "Abdullah" and "Yassin" were born, both were during Ramadan like me. They were both born in the same hospital. And I was the one who chose both names.

A little masculine of me. You’ve made me tell you my whole life story. I remember my first project and how it succeeded. That’s when my fame started, and I began receiving job offers. I also remember... I truly believe in the law of attraction. Everything I prayed God for or focused on eventually happened.

It’s such a strange thing. Everything happens in detail. If I want... Something, it happens. Things I wished for 20 years ago actually came true. Thank God I remember that. I remember I prayed to God for that. I remember praying for that thing at the Kaaba and God responded.

I wished for it long ago, and it came true. And... And I remember things I never imagined. I never thought I'd be an actor. And being. able to achieve myself, in one way or another. And...

of course, I’ll also go through all the sad moments. And I won’t be sad then, because I’ll be going to them. And I don’t think I’ll be afraid like before. What’s that on your chest? This? This was a gift from "Mai Ezz Eldin". This necklace. Not this one, it broke four time. and I kept going to replace it.

because I love it so much. It has Ayat Al-Kursi on one side, and. two other Quranic verses on the other. Verses about Prophet Moses and the magicians. It’s related to energy, protection, and things like that. This one. We were having dinner with our friends. Ahmed Dawood and Riham Abdel Ghafour were there. "Manal Issa", our friend was wearing a lot of them. Yeah.

"Injy" said, “I think they’re for protection.”. So I told her, “I want one,” and we all ended up getting one. We kept wearing them. You’ll find pictures of. Ahmed Dawood and Riham Abdel Ghafour wearing these. But I’m the only one who kept it it used to break. This is like the fourth or fifth one. I don’t know how I got this attached to it, I never take it off. That’s beautiful. Last question. Ahmed, in one word.

It’s really hard for someone to talk about themselves. That’s okay. I’m someone who’s... human. -A human what? -Very human.

But simplify it a bit, your description is very broad. There are good people, and there are not. I mean. Want me to make it easier for you? Let’s say we’re walking. You see Ahmed walking, you're not Ahmed. and I ask you, who is this? Not just how he looks? No, you know him well. And I’m asking you to describe him in one word. Simplify it. I mean. -I don’t want to come off as arrogant. -No, this isn’t about arrogance.

It’s just a personal question. - Well-raised - Well-raised? Yes. I do a lot of wrong things, don't get me wrong. A lot of mistakes. You’re free to answer however you want. I do really bad things. But in the end, they only affect me. I never harm anyone. I never gossip about anyone. And I never disappear when someone needs me.

And…. I think I have some good qualities. Thank you.